Let's make a run tonight.

Its the last week of my holidays before I start work officially on 1st August. Life hasn't been treating me well right now. I've been on the brink of tears all day and I can't explain why. It feels like I haven't been really happy. Life is pretty much depressing and mundane for me right now. On top of those, I've just experienced trust issues, friends issues, communications issues and everything negative you can think of.

Someone so close to you may not be how its surfaced, things you did not expect, things you placed the highest hope for and it just had to fail you, disappoint you, what not.

In life, human is constantly taking advantage of each other. It gets you all drained out when one is giving too much and the other party is only receiving. What makes your effort worthwhile? But you know you'll still be there for that someone because you just love him/her. It would be good if you just feel appreciated for once, that someone cares.

I'll be heading to work& J's heading to school. It'll be a whole new phase to our relationship. I may meet new guys who are financially capable, halfway through their career, J will meet girls who are smart, hot, pretty etc. He'll also be staying in the hostel, spending more time with them. We meet nearly 5 days a week now, when school starts we'll be meeting only once a week or so? I've been too dependent on him that I feel that I'm pushing him away now. There's so many uncertainty that we don't know what the future may bring.

Anything that makes you happy, that please you

That's why I feel like I'm pushing everyone away

#fml

Date / Time : Thursday, July 28, 2011 / 5:42 PM

I'm back from Genting& KL. Few days more for me to prepare myself, am gonna start work for real while J's gonna start school. This trip came at the right moment.

Anyway, overdued photos

Then he wanted to join in the fun lol

My new shorts. Too loose for me though but Im loving it

Love blue, white and red color combination

Bye!

Finally i have found a place into which i fit perfectly, safely, and securely with no doubts, fears, saddness, or tears. This place is filled with happiness and laughter, yet it is spacious enough to allow me the freedom to move around, to live my life, and to be myself. This wonderful, which I never believed really existed, I have finally found in your arms, your heart, your love.

I can already see that it’s hard, and you’re scared, you’re tired, and I know how it hurts. But before you fall asleep, before you stretch your arms wide open and fall to your knees, fall into me. My arms are stretched wide open, babe. You don’t have to say a word cause I can already see. I just want to be the one you reach for first.

A successful relationship requires falling in love many times with the same person.

(-via eletheowl)

Date / Time : Friday, July 15, 2011 / 3:52 PM

I'm back from Bali, been a week already actually.

But J& I, we're heading to KL& Genting next week. I just got to know about the riot at KL.

It didn't look thatttt bad but it doesn't seem very safe either. We're still gonna go despite the chaos because right after the trip J will be busy with school and work will be starting for me.

Enough of sidetracking, personally I would prefer Phuket to Bali.

It's much cheaper, Bali is too much of a touristy place that food is expensive, shopping is expensive. I didn't buy anything (not even shades), their selling is kinda aggressive.

Bali doesn't have many watersports, infact I don't see any by the beach. I would definitely go back to Phuket.

This Bali trip brought my whole family closer (including J& my brother's gf). We had all our meals together, we swam together, we watched television at the living room together, we went everywhere together, it was such a family trip and I love it so so so much.

So sweet, so old already but still holding hands like us^^

otw to the beach

We got ripped off for the first mat. Bought it at Rp 70,000 cause I look uncomfortable& J wanted me to settle down asap. We asked someone else and they only bought it at Rp 25,000! More than half! So we bought another one at Rp 30,000

I didnt want to be tanned but I had to accompany J cause my mum called him a white dolphin lol
I love being fair but I got a tone tanner:(

Me likey this

J likes this

This is how flat my face looks when you sees it from the side. So flat that J wants to fry pancake on it-.-

I swear its godamn hot

So we bought ice-cream& had a good chat with the ice cream man hahaha

The staffs had to do a dance every day!

Mum said it looked like she found some Indonesian guy& got together with him cause my dad is so tanned

All red

Leaving our villa for the airport:(

Someday, everything will come together. But until then, live it up; do what makes you happy. If someone doesn’t agree, then fuck them. Pick yourself up and deal when shit happens. Remember that mistakes only make us stronger, everything happens for a reason, the only regrets you have in life are the risks that you didn’t take, and well-behaved women rarely make history. Above all else, go with your gut and guard your heart.

Our future isn’t written. Life is made from the choices that we make.

You know the beautiful thing about love? It’s so powerful. Nothing else can make people do the things that love can make them do. It’s the only emotion that can make people fight, and give their all to something or someone. It’s the only thing that can make people hold on, when they otherwise would have given up. Love is strong, it’s powerful, and it’s rare. So when people find it, they marvel at the power of it. And they keep holding on because it’s the truest form of ecstasy. The world cannot survive without love. It’s the only thing that can get people to hold on anymore.

(-via eletheowl)

Date / Time : Wednesday, July 06, 2011 / 12:37 PM

iiiii, I'm heading to Bali in 2 hours time for a family trip with my bf& my brother's gf. It's our first trip together and I'm so looking forward to it hehe. All the watersports activities when my mum is just gonna hide in the shade or doing her spa. I think and I hope it'll get all 6 of us really bonded together especially J& my bro and me& his gf hehe.

So anyway, just few post back I mentioned I'm employed. However, in less than a month I've resigned. Am gonna go KL& Genting again before settling down for another job for real.

I'll be back from Bali with more photos. Till then..byee! Anyway I've lost my phone so sms me your number

Drove out to Waterfront park at 3am-.-

He's learning to pose with more and more ugly faces lol

Hahahaha retarded boy

Me likey this

There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who is not thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences. Who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and move on.

(-via eletheowl)

if i could explain love in one word, it would have to be trust. trust that he doesn’t cheat on you, trust that he doesn’t lie to you, trust that he really likes you, trust that he will always be there for you, trust that he can go to a party and not get high or drunk, trust that you don’t have to worry about him breaking up with you the second you wake up, trust that he will stick up for you, trust that he will never fall in love with another girl, trust that he won’t get sick of you, and trust that he wants you like you want him.

the sound of your laugh is one of my most favorite things in the world.

(-via saltwaterroom)

Date / Time : Monday, July 04, 2011 / 7:43 AM

Photos are wayyyyy overdued. It was about one month ago when I got my first job, J brought me for dinner at Marriott Hotel.

By the way, I lost my Iphone 4 last Saturday. That fucker switched off my phone so I couldn't track him down. Bet he stays around my neighborhood cause I lost it at my block. Such neighbors, sighhhhhhhh

2 more days to Bali though. Cant wait to fuck outta Singapore for the time being.

Clement's stupid doraemon

Sometimes we just need to get out, to get away and forget everything, in order to realize that what we have really isn’t all that bad.

Depression isn’t just sobbing and crying and venting, it’s a plain and simple reduction of feeling. A reduction of all feelings. People with stiff upper lips find it’s damn hard to smile.If there’s just one piece of advice I could give you, it’s this- when there’s something you really want, fight for it, don’t give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you’ve lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you’re gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. Because the best things in life, they don’t come free.