Let's make a run tonight.

Its the 2nd week of school but my first Friday. Lessons were pretty slack, me like.
After school, caught 'Jennifer's body' before meeting Bec for shopping of Collection19 and myself. Jennifer's body isnt fantastic, pretty boring actually and alittle terrifying.

So.. I bought 1 shorts; 1 pants; 2 dresses; 2 bags; 1 flats and 1 tank. I dont know if I've bought things on impulse but I know I've overspent. Its my 2nd pair of shoe this week already. But muahahaha Im loving it, I shall stop shopping till it gets nearer to my birthday. And Bec bought 2 dresses; 2 bags and 1 flats. Collection 19 will be launched next weeeek! So anticipate k!

It’s you. When all my dreams come true, the one I want next to me is you.
“
—
Lucas to Peyton (One Tree Hill)

"I want you to remember the feel of my hair and remember the scent of my perfume I always wear. Remember my laugh and how sweet our kisses used to be. Remember the way that you used to love me."

"It seems like just yesterday when we would stay up late out on your front lawn talking about where we’ve been and all the places we’re going. We would lose track of time, watching cars pass us by and I would sneak back home before the sunrise. And how everyday would seem so long and every night would go on and on and on."

(-via Eletheowl)

I miss you, yet again

Date / Time : Friday, October 30, 2009 / 12:19 AM

"I finally learned what life’s all about, hanging on when your hearts had enough and giving more when you want to give up."

"Wake up pretty girl, put on that smile of yours. One foot in front of the other, you can do this, laugh along. No one will ask, so you won’t have to tell. Hide your bruises, darling. You can make it. Just put one foot in front of the other."

(-via Eletheowl)

When we first met, I didn’t want to get involved with anyone. I didn’t have the time or energy, and I wasn’t sure that I was ready for it. But you were so good to me, and I got swept up in that. And, little by little, I found myself falling in love with you.
“
—
Nicholas Sparks

18oct, Sunday

It was the day after family bbq, Shel ling& I had mac breakfast then we visited grandpa at the hospital. He was still doing good then, finished all his dinner so fast that I thought it tasted yummy. We thought he was recovering but it was a reflex

On the way to macs

He's forever a kid, aint growing up boy

My fav

Disgusting shorts, belongs to my aunt. I had to wear it cause I stained my own shorts-.-

Cars go zoomz zoomz& boomz boomz

She wasnt posing. I called out to her& she knew I wanted to snap a photo of her so she blocked me

gtg ciaoz!

Over at the hospital waiting for visiting hours

She saw my blackheads and..

These visiting stickers remind me of the days we visited grandpa everyday

My gleen cheekbone

Fucking pain I swear cause she's f violent all the time

See that dirty pus coming out? eek

Date / Time : Wednesday, October 28, 2009 / 2:13 AM

My cousins, uncle& aunt, those who stays at grandma's house felt grandpa's presence. They heard the sound of the keys, the opening of door and the cigarette box. I wasnt there so I didnt manage to feel anything. I feel.. I dont know, like I couldnt feel him like my cousins did and he's only back on the 7th day.
I doubt he'll be coming back again& the thing is when he comes back, he doesnt know he's dead already. Thats pretty heartbreaking for him to bear.
I should stop typing all these nonsense, my eyes are secreting tears again.

"Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays, but I mean, we all just have to move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, and are still thinking about you? Because quite frankly, they aren’t."

"Don't you wish there was some place you could go, when you didn't feel like dealing with anything anymore?"

(-via runawaytrain)

"I wish i was a little kid again. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to clean up my messes and remind me what’s right from wrong. I want to be awed at, even if what I’m doing isn’t that cute. I want to be yelled at before I make the same mistakes again and I want to be held in someone else’s arms while I cry my heart out."

(-via mols)

Date / Time : Tuesday, October 27, 2009 / 3:42 AM

"Sometimes the feelings we start to have again are the same feelings that never really went away."

"Should I keep on waiting or does love keeps on fading away?"

"My new favorite place in this world is buried in your sheets, tangled up in you. My new favourite word is my own name rolling off your lips at a whisper. And when I'm with you, it all just melts away; it's all okay."

(-via runawaytrain)

Date / Time : / 1:27 AM

"You know you are in love when your heart is making more sense than your head is. "
(-via runawaytrain)

As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It’s not that we don’t want to, but too much has happened and we can’t.
“
—
Now and Then

Very overdued photos.

On 16oct fri, Dan met me after his school. We had our first official date, yes just the two of us. Caught '500 days of summer'& had our dinner settled at Swensons because Aston's queue was taking ages as usual. Im never gonna have the chance to eat at Cathay's Aston. Dan& I are gonna find more places to chill& dine at hehe. Happy waiting cause we're always busy. We had taohuay cause I wanted it, bumped into Yt and Deepak; 2 indian boyfriends. Mine is boy-friend.

Im the first girl& first flen from our clique Dan brought to his school hehe. We used to have crappy moments that he has mentioned we'll lie on the grass patch, eat strawberries, drink champagne and read literature poems lol.

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He kept taking photos of me, when Im eating, drinking, talking so I showed him this face haha

I like this. My hair, complexion& jacket^^ shd I curl my hair next mth?

Fried mushroom- very yummy! We like

woah his sch f warm I swear. My fringe were all sticking on my forehead

The first time I went laselle, I didnt even know it was behind me when we went for taohuay

My last picca with him without braces:D yay im the last

we're different in physical but we clique so well. He's black, tall and skinny while Im fair, short& fat. See the contrast. He's my khaki boy (L)

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my handsum

I got exposed first two pics i think-.-

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Alamak my fringe

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
If I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down

I miss you more than ever, grandpa.

Date / Time : Monday, October 26, 2009 / 1:32 AM

Boy I wanna be where you are

This is my 999th post already.

Im staying over at my grandma's place, Dawn& Shawn is here as well.
Shawn wants to go down but everybody is lazy. So I asked him to ask my grandma and this was what he asked Dawn 'how to say in chinese' lol. I didnt thought his chinese was this weak, my god the way he asked was so cute& hilarious.

I gotta crash in afew minutes time. Nic is coming over at 5am till 1pm, so I'll have to wake up at probably 4.30am till 3pm?:O
Funeral wake is ending tomorrow, Im gonna miss it in a way- families& friends gathering every night, joking teasing and eating together. No school no work, how awesome!

I wanna wrap my arms around you
Its not like Im trying to go too far
Its just that I wanna surround you

Date / Time : Friday, October 23, 2009 / 1:15 PM

I think I should fml this sem even more.

Firstly, previously mentioned 1st day of school I only attended 1hr lesson. 3rd day of school, mum called me during lec informing me about grandpa's situation so I had to rush down to the hospital. Thur, I didnt manage to attend school cause my grandpa left us at 1243am:( Fri nao, Im still at the wake.
Appreciated much for all those textes and concerns coming in esp Rajidi, Adam, Marvin, Nic etc
Bec& the clique might be coming down tonight, thank you love.

I cant pen down how much it kills inside to see grandpa being cut opened and stitch back in such a rough manner, how heart-tearing apart to see grandma and great-grandma broke down. I dont wanna be reminded of anymore so I shall put alittle stop here.
I wont be updating this space these few days.
I have been staying awake for so many hours, pretty much looking like a zombie. I-feel-so-shag. But the worst its over so Im rather fine now plus I get to see my handsum uncle who is only 1yr older than me, his siblings as well. I hope grandfather's wake will pull us closer once again. Family ties matters even more than ever

Date / Time : Tuesday, October 20, 2009 / 11:46 PM

I have so much to rant now so pardon me. Im feeling so shag.
Mum came to pick me after school, then we headed to the hospital with grandma, aunt Joan, Shel ling and Li ling. The hospital called mum, grandfather was unconscious and kept sleeping despite calling him umpteen times. Had a scan& his brain was bleeding blood so operation was done. Most of us cried, even uncle- grandpa lost so much weight, he looked so weak; barely the strength to even open his eyes to look at us. He was wheeled to the operation room right before we could even talk to him.

After operation, his response was weak, I think his will of surviving is weak. The pain he's suffering from diabetes, kidney dialysis, now brain internal bleeding. He even cried yesterday cause it was too much to bear and he didnt want to load all of his kids with all the money- he thinks its of no cure anymore. I broke down, I want to be as giving, I want put all of his sufferings to an end but I dont want god to take him away.

All of us stayed in hospital for 5hours, waiting for the hospital to do whatever its necessary. We had to sign an agreement form for grandpa's operation. Uncle thought aunt Joan/mum signed and vice versa. So.. they went on with the operation without a consent form-.-
The way the nurses wheeled my grandfather to the operating room was so rough, they hit the walls here& there when he's already so weak, its like wtf.

And school, I have 4hours break for 2days already. Projects group were split unwillingly for us, I hope we survive. Its only week 1 and we have 2 presentations to submit next week. How wonderful

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something we don’t have, but rather of recognizing & appreciating what we do have."

Frederick Keonig (via mmmegan) (via ssomuchlove)

I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, of what I did, of who I am. And most of all, I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.
“
—
Dirty Dancing

Date / Time : Monday, October 19, 2009 / 11:20 PM

They say the truth sets you free. Well, that’s a lie. The truth is, lies can protect us. Lies keep us safe from the truth.
“
—
The Quiet

Its better to have nobody, than to have someone who is half there, or doesn’t want to be there.
“
—
Angelina Jolie

So, today was the start of sem 2. Bestfr was so sweet to text me this morning to wish me luck in school. I only manage to attend school for 1hr, afterwhich was 4hours break. My classmates went amk hub. I was having very bad menses cramp so I cabbed to the doctor near grandma's place& took a MC. It was my first time alone to the doctor.

Tomorrow I have break from 11am- 3pm then 1hour of lecture-.- what a waste of time gosh

bbq part2