maybe i shldn't have intervened that much

or in fact keep my opinions to myself

afterall, it's a personal choice

and not that i can do anything about it

it's just how people's way of doing or handling things vary

different spectrum of thoughts and considerations

which eventually results in a multitude of possible actions

at the end of the day

just be answerable to yourself

when two pairs of d-vds come together,

it's hell-break-loose.

and if with a scamp d on top of that,

it's rampage in hell.

but certainly, it was a fun day we had today

with all the occasional teasing and disturbing

third year, with each year having a different role

all i can say, i miss ground work

especially when working with the people

had loads of fun and exposure last year too

but it was mostly alone

straying around the neighbourhood

with a lack of exercise

shall make up for it this time round

well, seven times and counting

wonder what number will i end up with

we shall see.

some people just need to keep themselves in check

said what i wanted and what i could
now, its only wait. and perhaps leave it to fate

since when is that the case?
perhaps since the start of time
anything that you don't know,
just leave it to fate
it may just help, who knows?

didn't quite leave it to fate, though.
was still insistent in my own ways
because if it was just a "leave it to fate thing"
i wouldn't have said a single word
but i said a chunk load of them

and at the end of the day
whatever happens, sorry it wasn't intentional
it isn't just a convenient excuse simply taken off the shelf
if possible, i wouldn't want to use it. at all.

had flag comm dinner at khansama
it has been one year, though slightly delayed.
the marking of the closure of last year's comm
and the start of a new life
and yet, all seemed just too vivid
from the first meeting when i was still a year one
faced with a whole group of strangers
to completing a year in flag with them becoming friends;
and then it proceeded to year two
the first time in the meeting as a director
with a great group of friends who eventually worked alongside
which then got us much closer;
and finally, taking a different seat, as an upperstudy
feeling great that huizhen and terence took the step forward
do hope you guys would make the coming year a great one,
regardless of the challenges that you both may face
there will definitely be people supporting you guys.

well, talked of the many "if-only" over dinner
the absence of these if-only really made the difference.
otherwise, alot of stuff would have been different,
just like what audrey said.
didn't regret making the decision
for otherwise, i wouldn't have this comm
a comm which despite our small size worked on fine
there might have been other unhappiness elsewhere
but the comm made it all worthwhile, i must say.
and in fact, to current-day's situation.

whether i was a good director or not, it's not for me to say
but i do hope i didn't fare too badly.
and now, i hope i can be a good upperstudy.
i'll try. and i'll learn.

rag&flag has come to an end this year
feelings all pent up within me
and yet can't get the appropriate words to describe them

these few months was by no means easy
for those who chose to gave their all and work hard for it
human dynamics change, year after year
but what will remain, remains.
the attachment that we all have for science
and that's what makes people come back year after year
it's heart warming to see such a sight
having those who fought battles back then,
to be fighting alongside with you
so what for yesterday's disappointment
it can never paramount the shared experience we all gained
which will accumulate many years down the road
science, huat ah!

that aside, i really hope some of you do learn
work not only for yourself,
but also for those who are working with you
when more than one commented
that you are not putting in enough
you are probably really not putting in enough effort
don't simply brush it away with excuses
excuses like, people were not there to see

sorry, but i don't like the way you treated the banner
if it was just an ordinary banner, go ahead.
but did you even have the eyes to see what you took
did 24th july even mean anything to you
perhaps i am not in a position to comment
but well, i suppose slightly more than you do.

and i suppose you know that i will never voice it out
not given yesterday's contexts,
when all were tired and worn out
and no one voiced out either
probably those who saw didn't want to turn the situation ugly
given the already very little crowd we have.
it was not a time to show others the divergence

oops, that's quite an awful load of "you"
and yet, referring to different people

anyway, have yet to experience enough fop
and i do hope the word enough will never surface
to the next fop, here we come!

well, i don't know
don't know what to say.
to you, to him, or to her
and even to them.

things just happen
with or without reasons.
wouldn't be able to find out why,
don't know how to go about finding out,
and can't be bothered to find out.
however, some things are worth finding out
i suppose, at least for now

tiredness-filled weeks
and more of such weeks to come
some things are uncertain for now,
but they will get better
they will. soon.