thank you Lord. relieving my frustration and all to you indeed give me peace in my heart.
i will give my best in chasing my dreams from now on. (:
now in korea is winter. snow.winter clothings.snow cap. wee! so long didn't see snow. . . . i hope i can bump into some filming session over there! WOOHOO. photo-taking will be my main focus! apart from spending time with my parents! sorry jo-n here is very broke to buy presents so will see what can i buy! ^^
always wanted to leave Singapore. finally. even if its only for a week. ^^
at 3:22 PM
Monday, November 26, 2007
puffed eyes. don't ask why. LOL.
i am thinking these few days why is it so hard to do things? all i want is to pursue my dreams... why do you keep pressing on me? don't you want to sit down and talk to me on how am i taking things or how am i actually feeling about the whole thing?
the truth is , yes i feel really lousy seeing what i am doing...
each time we touch on the topic we get heated up. i can tell you that.. i really don't know how to share to you. i have fear that you can't understand, i will be force to go back where i don't want to go.
i can't identify what i am doing now. i have dreams that looks so stupid. seems like i only can talk about it but i can't do it.
i am lost. what should i do to make you understand that i have dreams than to stay in nursing? then what can i do to let you see that i am really pursuing what i want?
you are getting older each year your health is getting bad your stress @ work is horrible i really love to see that i can support you giving half my allowance to the family save up a huge sum for you folks to enjoy life.
i wish i can... i wish i can... i wish i can... i wish i can... i wish i can... i wish i can...
there is really so many i wish i can...
i don't mean to blame you that night its just my stupidity got onto me. the truth is i really appreciate what you've being doing for the family. all i just want is for you to trust in our God & me that i will get through this horrible time. just give me your encouragement.
sorry if i broke your heart that night with such mean words i am really sorry... sorry... i will let you see that my decision is right. i am sure God will back me up.
i really really love you
at 10:37 AM
Saturday, November 24, 2007
::bad boy::
met up yokey last night. great talking to her. sharing to her to enlarge her vision to bring in designers. we have a few but its not enough. agree? we have artists in church but its not enough. artists in the world but serving in our church? nope. zero. i believe we will have some in time. (:
camera.videocam.sceneries.humans.love JOY.
later is service time! how will God move? desire more!! spirit led singing. anoint Abigail & worship team. ^^
at 12:28 PM
Friday, November 23, 2007
Had a fun sms chat with junyao this morning! LOL. still remember the 1st time i know him as 黑鸟. a promise for a ex-north gathering! ^.<
last night music prac was really good. fruitful i would say. i loved what i see and heard in the studio. haas. poor timothy is not feeling well... Lord heal him!
poor abigail & nel is so packed with many things... guess God is stretching n moulding them. how i wish i can help them in anyway but...hai. Growth i say!
should i go into internship? Lord what's ya say? tell me....!
korea,cameron higlands & thailand trips! WOOHOO~ *excited* going to spend time with different group of ppl! korea --> my folks! cameron highlands --> cg! thailand--> worship team! YEAH!
December, always my fav month. plus there is a special reason why too..hees. ^^
i need to grow more. Lord, hold me tightly when i feel like giving up.
hold me tightly.
at 10:04 AM
Monday, November 19, 2007
You are special
last night had a cg outing to watch a musical "You are Special" by Max Lucado. honestly i find the music is awkward though vocally the singers are strong. but still the musical is a good influence for kids.
How many of us are like punch? 4eva think that we are the least being welcome n liked but to Him, the creator, He love the way we are......
i was telling joyce that acting and singing out a musical is actually not very difficult... but its the composing of music & lyrics that is super tough.
i really salute those serving in HopeKids. its really really tough to think of ideas how to influence and impact the young ones! Hong Teck, i told hannah that i really admire you alot! ^^ as i was leading pnw yesterday to the kids, i really find it hard!!!! but the joy of seeing the kids singing and dancing along is really sweet. I love it when i led 'So You would come'. Priscilla did hands action while i sing. I really sang with all my heart singing this song and seeing the kids listening and singing along while doing the actions created a burden in my heart.
i really want to improve my life with God more. there is so much more that I want God to use me. ^^ guilty that i know i've being unfaithful. Urgh.
love the times i spent with my cg last night. (: total madness. LOL.
will post pictures soon!
at 11:56 AM
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
The gift
winter snow is falling down children laughing all around lights are turning on like a fairy tale come true
sitting by the fire we made you're the answer when i prayed i would find someone and baby i found you
all i want is to hold you forever all i need is you more every day you saved my heart from being broken apart you gave your love away and i'm thankful every day for the gift
watching as you softly sleep what i'd give if i could keep just this moment if only time stood still
but the colors fade away and the years will make us grey but baby in my eyes you'll still be beautiful
all i want is to hold you forever all i need is you more every day you saved my heart from being broken apart you gave your love away and i'm thankful every day for the gift
all i want is to hold you forever all i need is you more every day you saved my heart from being broken apart you gave your love away i can't find the words to say that i'm thankful every day for the gift
this beautiful song is used in my friend's wedding. i nearly teared when the groom and bride did the walk in. (: beauty of love.
last night met up with Abigail for dinner. the porridge is indeed nice + chicken wings. yummy! (: enjoyed the talk and laughter we had. LOL. guess when i was about to board the train, i mention to her that a fren of mine is deep to understand but is cunning too. i pondered why i use the word "cunning". is sounds so bad for a fren... was it becoz this person had disappointed me a lot? the actions and words seems not to tally?
God help me to check my heart. i will nv want to use such word again on a person i call my fren.
at 10:18 AM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Godly Friendship.
hey friend, thanks for willing to meet me up. i am so glad that i manage to settle what's been bothering me for some time. ^^ its true that sometimes i wish i can know and spent more time with some friends but given different ss and ministry, its tough. but, one thing i give thanks is at least these friends are still serving. (:
Godly friendship is indeed love.
Hannah i really hope you are reading this entry. though i hardly spent time with u but i want you to know that i really do love and value our friendship together. i do. (:
being random,
i been drinking this often. =.= sleepy head every morning! haas!
do you know? i get flu when my surroundings get stuffy or hot. its true. duno is it the dust in the air that cause. i dislike sensitive nose!!!! urgh!
i'm loving TSPT more each day! LOL!
at 10:50 AM
Monday, November 12, 2007
My feet stand on level ground; in the great assembly i will praise the Lord.
- psalm 26:12
beautiful you created the beautiful world. (: colours in the midst of the dark.
at 11:11 AM
Friday, November 09, 2007
MeiHui's Wedding! start off with the morning! woke up 530am to travel down to amk. =.=
JiaYen & myself! ^^ she is a nurse from TTSH. don't play play.
make up-cum-filming-cum-photo taking session. LOL.
acting cute! pretty hor!!!! my pretty girl!
introducing the girls..... the rest of the "jie mei's" with the bride! from left: myself,JiaYen,Le Ying & Lydia. the purple dresses are made by the bride's mum. nice hor?!? (:
instead of bears, they chose(or rather the groom) chose pigs! ah hui loves the flowers! ^^
ok now is the night pictures!
yesh the clicks! except for aishah who didn't come......SAD.
take it after the make up just finish! i look kinda mature! ^^
intro the emcees of the night! YOZ WATSSUP!
ok ok here is the proper one... Violet & myself! i am tall! LOL.
wana see the bride again? here you go.... LOL! sure ah hui will kill me for putting up this pic! ^^
ok let me show you super nice hairdos by the makeup artiste! this is violet's one! i love the pleats! guess it is to match her "greek goddess" feel ba! sweet!
this is jiayen's one! the very trendy and wild hairdo!
after the whole dinner 3 of us sneak up to the room 1st. LOL!
of coz, not forgetting our photographer & video-man! YJ & Alex! young and promising dudes whose works are REALLY GOOD! should look @ the video alex edit. ITS NICE! YJ's photo taking is nice too! guess can intro them to justin!
yeah! it was really tiring but all of us really enjoyed it! the 1st time i am ask to be emcee for a wedding. good experience! LOL.
at 11:31 PM
FINALLY!
my trip is korea is finally here!! Mom called me to tell me 1st wk of dec going! WEE~!!!!!!!! korea....HERE I COME!
i pray no last min thing pop up!
korea korea korea korea korea korea korea!!!!!!!!
*will post up pics of the wedding soon ^.<
at 2:18 PM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
I really HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE it......
psalm 13.
at 12:27 PM
Monday, November 05, 2007
had a great talk with pengz abt the worship ministry. somethings that worship ministry gotta buck up in.
am i the one that just plant the seed but not the one that water the seed? i knw i shouldn't doubt however, is it really really me?
if so, God tell me what i can do, teach me your ways of leading. correct me.
at least finally i found what i want. future sch, here i come. God perform your miracle. Please!
popping dance. love their fingers.
at 3:21 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Daniel Yam.
i just bought a dress there. YES. hmm..no, actually my fren bought one for me for my bday & x'mas gift! ITS REALLY NICE!!! LOL. its really expensive.....
this fren of mine. i love her not coz of the dress, but simply just her. she is one of my best and close fren in my click during poly days! she is smart, tall & not bad looking! super love animes & korean drama! she is a good nurse that surgeons would want her in the team! can u imagine, scrubbing up cases for profs? wow...for a new and young nurse, she is good! ^^
this thurs my another good fren's wedding. i got two dress to change. LOL. so exciting!!! 1st time being involve in wedding! being her "jie mei" & emcee. the march in sound track is beautiful la. its "the gift" by jim brickman.
i am like so into the marriage mood too.
oh did i mention my fren's wedding photo shoot is awesome?!? i like how it was taken!! LOL!
yeah after thurs, i will post pic! then you will see jo-n in gowns for the 1ST TIME!!
at 11:22 PM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
suddenly i feel meeting all my friends i have in my life.
kcpps kcpss poly NB ND NYP twammers (ex) FRIENDS.
how i wish i am free 24/7 with no fianicial problem.
yesterday dog came n visit me. so sweet of her! (: she was going to meet her mom for dinner. then something struck me deep inside,
i have nv meet up my parents for dinner.
i gave all my times for friends but not for my parents.
i am a bad girl right. :(
can i don't work anymore? can i just have successful career now? can someone just rain down money for me to study? LOL.
impossible.... if life is that easy i wouldn't grow.
ok i gotta make a schedule where i can meet up my family & friends.
Lord Your wisdom is needed. haas.
at 12:09 PM
me.
Jo-N aka Fish.
Loves singing & music.
adores Korea & Taiwan media.
RAIN IS THE MAN. :)) 2Peter3:18
"Grow in grace, and in the knowledge of our
Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ."
