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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

my Tuesday.

today had dinner with veron & wanqi. (: after dinner, ran down to tampines to watch movie with joe & eugene. darn, watch a stupid movie. mr bean =.= true at some scene, its really funny but the whole show? *yawns*

now starting my journey in the book of James. just finished on Hebrews. i like the 1st chapter of James. faith under pressure.

how true in this world, many are out there to test our faith in God. its horrible but yet some times i fail the test. how sad. . .now back on track, i am forcing to change some areas in my life to please Him. WHAO ITS REALLY DIFFICULT! change for the better and really really, pleasing man really sucks to the core but pleasing God is really a joy. hardwork but fruitful. ^^
i like one phrase i read in hebrews, "prayer is always foundational to wisdom." honestly i hate talking coz my speech always cause alot of misunderstandings and if to choose, most of the time i will choose to keep quiet. ironically, i can't! coz if i keep quiet all the time my ministry won't know what to do. . .wisdom in speech. gotta ask God for this. :(

God, i am kneeling to you tonight once again.

nvm if my knee-cap is hurting.

my choice, i chose to live it for You.

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at 11:28 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Drop from great heights

i will start from small once again.

everything in my life.

Thanks to all who kept encouraging me. this race, we will run finish to our best.

Hebrews 11 - Faith in what we don't see.

God indeed have a better plan for us compared to what we have for ourselves. it took me 5 years to understand this. I will lift up my life, heart & soul as an offering to You. . .hope it really will please You.

i want to see You smile for me once again.

Happy Birthday David Chan!
He is Twam's UL. will pray for him.

at 4:47 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

heart not too good.

Hey You sitting on the throne up there, pls make all these things stop. its worsening my health alot. medical terms my stress will soon cause a stroke in me but i still choose to believe in You. You ask me to love people MORE and it is SO HARD. some i love dearly yet some i am stabbing myself to love them.

PMS? no idea.

I hate playing the bad guy but i always had to coz my msg will nv be heard. i try to put myself in your shoes but have you tried putting yourself in my shoes?

sure no one is perfect even myself.

i beginning to doubt alot.

hope all these will all soon pass.

at 12:50 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Sickly.

woke up at 11am today. felt like a truck had just ran over me. thought will feel better once out of the house BUT. . . i was wrong. it became worse. headache, giddiness, cold & flu, all the good fren was with me thruout my journey home from nexus. IT WAS HELL. the moment i reach home, fever joined in the gang. -.- so pop in two panadol & had a short nap.

PRaise the Lord! the headache & giddiness is gone!!! so now the fellowship is down to 3! Hallelujah!!! ^______^ thanks for shepherd for praying for me before i left nexus! well, my dear qiqi was really sweet too! not forgetting, Justin & Jeremy (singer) ! your sms-es really put a smile to my face.

tml suppose to have an outing with hannah girl. but i requested time off to recover. hai~ but well, i am glad that i went for the NYP farewell party last night! it was REALLY FUN! jia you for all who are moving on!!! glad to knw new ppl too. haha! i was reminded that today i met up some uni ppl and to our surprise 3 of us are the same year! the 1985s!! LOL! how cool can that be?!?

ok time for me to ZZzz again. before that, let me intro a good show!

this show is wonderful~ the whole vibe & singing is WHAO. comedy show as well. Black gospel, really rocks!!!!! (:

at 11:30 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007

i bit on my ulcers twice yesterday. the second bite cause me to tear. now, the corner of my mouth looks swollen. also, i am experiencing a sharp pain in my throat.

i am disappointed in my dad. big time. he still thinks that his children are slackers. i felt that i shouldn't have told him that i decide to stay on in nursing. wat is the use? told him all my struggles for years, finally going to the path that he always wanted me to go and this morning can say that his children are lazy. typical chinese culture of putting ppl down. SUCKS.

have i become someone useless?

singing, dancing, working. . . . . . . . . . . .

tonight Jon is flying off. cg is gonna be there to sent him. our 1st new TWAM cg. hoping to see a closer bonded cg.

at 8:03 AM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

List Of Great Questions - took from PJ's blog. (:

Below are a list of great questions that deserve good answers. The list is not exhaustive...

Question in Leadership
Who am I discipling at the present moment?

2 Timothy 2:2
And the things you have heard me say in the presence of many witnesses entrust to reliable men who will also be qualified to teach others.

Question in Ministry
How can I do it better the next time?

Colossians 3:23
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men

Question in Outreach
Who and when did I last share the gospel with?

1 Corinthians 9:16
Yet when I preach the gospel, I cannot boast, for I am compelled to preach. Woe to me if I do not preach the gospel!

Question in Spiritual Growth
What is God dealing with in my life now?

Ephesians 4:13
until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.

Question in Accountability
Who can I be completely honest with regarding my struggles?

Romans 14:12
So then, each of us will give an account of himself to God.

Question in Prayer Life
What & when did God speak to you the last time?

1Thessalonians 5:17
pray continually

Question in Giving
When was the last time you gave until it hurts?

2 Corinthians 8:3
For I testify that they gave as much as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely on their own,

May we all learn to be brutually honest with ourselves with these self-searching (not self-condemning!) questions.

ps: this lesson was prepared in May 1999 for the youth leaders of Hope Singapore

at 8:17 AM

Monday, March 05, 2007

Great movies.

spent great resting time yesterday. met up with Wanqi for breakfast and had a great time watching She's the man. Though Wanqi watched it b4, she is still willing to watch again with me. How sweet. (: The show is really darn halirious! Amanda Bynes is really such a sweetie. She rocks man! If i am a guy, i will fall for her. typical amercian love cum comedy show but i still like it.

evening time went out for family dinner. FINALLY we had family dinner. . . .its been some time since we gathered to eat. really treasure the time! cannot take my family for granted man. anywayz, i watch " singing in the rain"! a very old show BUT is fantastic! now i understand y i love musical. the dancing, the singing, the settings, the pure beauty of the actresses & actors really captivated me. i love to see one day the singers ministry will put up a musical drama. tough but definately God will have His ways to make this possible! we have more and more talents coming & we got to catch hold of them. methods to deal with people in the arts line will have to change. no longer can we use the same old methods, since it had never worked out. Twam will change soon. whether like it or not, this team is still the Levites. Lets be the Levites mention in the bible.

here is show. *thumbs up*

the lead actor is handsome. >P

at 8:09 AM