me.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Roy is 24.

5 things GOOD about Royston Tan.

1. He is a loyal friend.

2. He is a very GOOD listening ear.

3. You can trust him.

4. He is a man after God's heart.

5. He loves his life alot.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROYSTON! :D

we did some crazy stuff during the celebration. will post up soon! HEHE! ^^

at 11:43 PM

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

My Mom.

a small woman with a big heart. though there were times when things turn so ugly between us but always, always God will bring us back. Mom & daughter relationship, will nv break. today, my mom excitedly told me something which i believe, had changed my thinking of the holy spirit.

"Joanne you can't believe something! yesterday in the morning while i was using my computer i felt something wet on my cheek (sounds scary hor). i thought maybe the ceiling got a small leak but nothing and check everywhere but nothing got signs of leakage!! could it be the Holy Spirit gave me a kiss?" this is what my mom told me today.

a kiss from the holy spirit? wat a funny way to explain. but today i seen how holy spirit is so indispensable in my mom's life. 'Good Morning, Holy Spirit' written by Benny Hinn, was a birthday gift from my mom's shepherd to her. Benny Hinn is such a anointed and spirit-filled person. at the age of 11 or 12 when he received the holy spirit, his life totally changed. my mom was telling me that there is this chapter where this great female evangelist wept on the stage in a conference and then pointed to benny and told him please not to grieve her holy spirit as the holy spirit is all she has. HUH? this got me wanting to read the book more. seeing how God has make such a great impact on my mom makes me ponder my own sensitivity towards the holy spirit. i greatly want to have the same yearning of wanting to be close to the holy spirit to live a much blessed life.

"But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you."

Let love motivates you in everything you do.

at 2:22 PM

Korean Singers.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZ-FfJdAB8o&mode=related&search=

check out this video. Lena Park and Jim Jo-Han.

the girl is good. the guy is BETTER.

at 12:14 AM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

"Rising up singers who are strong and biblical and through their vocal, God is there."

my motto for singing ministry.

at 10:17 PM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

I'M BACK.

not that i didn't wana update but my STUPID computer and internet connection didn't allow me to do so. URGH~!!!

mon and yesterday, working at taka and manz, yesterday i nearly wanted to strangle the cashier! so old and so blur still wana push all blames to me. IDIOT. thank God i am trained to have higher tolerance level. hack care her~ honestly i am learning to see how i can improve to love people more. just like the cashier case, wat she did was mean. another question now, am i like her when i serve God? hmmmmmm. *reflect* am reading about worship transition and saw a very good illustration about our righteous acts are like filthy rags.

imagine a preschool-age girl bringing a gift to her daddy.she tells him that its a special gift becoz she loves him alot. she's wrapped it herself. he can tell. the box has as much tape as it does wrapping paper. it takes a while for him to open it. all the while, his daughter grins at him. she sqirms and giggles as he works to get it open. he can tell she's very proud of her gift and very excited to see his reaction to her treasure. as he forces open the last bit of tape and lifts the lid to the small box, his daughter presses closer to him. she can't decide whether she should look at his face or the gift. she squeals with delight and begins to clap her hands and jump up and down as he lifts her precious gift from its box.
her daddy works hard to keep smiling and seem happy. he's lifted out of the box a rad - a filthy, smelly rag. yet it's obvious this is indeed a special gift when his daughter says, "Don't you love it, daddy? i made it just for you! i worked hard. i love you so much, daddy. i'll go make some more for you." daddy is left to prepare to respond as she skips off to bring him more of her worthless, even offensive, "treasures".

what do you think of this story? -isaiah 64:6-

anyway show u a picture of my ah ma's birthday in malaysia and with all of her grandkids!

at 3:42 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

Nose Bashed.

watched the last episode of Full House last night. stayed at home whole day today. my nose got bang by mr jeffy's head as i tried to play with him. *ouch*

how am i developing? a question by Jasmine. honestly i don't like this kind of question but the truth is, tis question makes me think. how was my week? how is my walk with God doing? how convicted am i to still grow the ministry? wat are my plans once i start work? alot of question hor. hahahahas! of coz being honest, i would just like to sing and serve. don't have to think so much about planning and keep on reminding until i don't feel like reminding. God! continue to remind me of your grace yea. i am not perfect, i am not the best, n definately i am not a super-woman, but! i would like to still give my best. i am lousy in planning and speech! hahahas! these i admit! however my loving God give me all the task to do all these. . . . .sobz! so tough! think abt it really tickles me inside. :)

it's time for me to get away with God from my role. tml, i just want to sing like a child who don't care how she express herself! *anyhow dance but of coz not anyhow sing la* hahahahhas!

catch this statement!

"the process of imparting vision is much the same. when the leaders are to the point where they are tired of saying it, the people are just beginning to catch the vision and make it their own. one experienced pastor said, "You need to communicate the vision until you're almost nauseous from it." don't stop. keep going. speak it again and again and again."

taken by "guiding you church through a worship transition" by tom Kraeuter

vision is not yet imparted but soon. . . . . very soon. i am a person who wants the whole team to work together so do u take this ministry like. . . . . . . your own? (:

a picture for entertainment.

Rain~ just can't get enough of him. ^^

at 8:18 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Punch the walls!

*venting anger on crack walls* punch punch punch punch punch. abit piss off today. but anyway, improvements will be seen.

anyway WAM vision night went through a good teaching about WAM ministry. it helps in some ways and that better understanding will be build in the part time wamers. i think the starting part of the teaching was abit messy n confusing coz jasmine went thru so many points but all were not in the paper. hahahahas!

Do you like to be part of TWAM?

then how is your spiritual life doing?
playing music, singing, doing mm clips, doing sound, for the right reason?
aim to be a leader?

its a special ministry for a reason & we aim far too.

i love the people especially.

at 1:28 AM

Monday, August 14, 2006

Prophesy - CCC.

Prophesy prophesy
Prophesy prophesy
Prophesy to the dry bones

I see the earth turning towards heaven
I see broken dreams coming to pass
I hear the sound of celebrations
When the lame man walks
And the Angels talk
I'm carrying the message of my rise Lord!

Speak to the mountains and they will humble themselves
Nothing is impossible!
Stand on the promise He make with a heart full of faith
Nothing is impossible!
Shine like a light in the dark and the cities will turn
Nothing is impossible!
Now is the hour to rise with His power at hand
Nothing is impossible!

We're living in revival
We're living in revival!

i love this song since i came to hope as a committed believer. a very faith-filled song. :)

at 11:51 AM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Sunday.

today, a death happen. my mother's elder sister pass away from heart attack. went to NUH with my ma and dad. was rather quite a sad scene coz i saw my uncle crying when he saw his wife laying motionless on the bed. my mom cried, my dad teared, my aunties and uncles cried, everyone is either crying or tearing. i didn't teared nor cried but i know i was feeling sad. my mom thought that since i was a nurse b4 i should be ok with the scene but honestly, it's a different story if it's your relative. . .

anyway, i had late dinner with my dad at elias mall just now. had a super great time with him. spent time alone with him and now typing this really make me feels so happy. ^___^ i had a great time telling him about how i decided to go back to nursing job in october and share how i use to be so upset when he didn't support me to study something i like. chatting with dad really make me feel that i am so much closer to him now! my dad shared how he struggled in the past in uni and now that he is doing something he likes in his job. something so new! i told him that now i am so much convicted and comforted and i felt so stupid that actuali in the end i like nursing. =.= hahahahas!

yeah watch Full House with Wanqi today. realli spent a fruitful time with her. =) there is so so so much that i gotta learn from my cg members, my singers and choir and from my leaders. i am really enjoying every single moment of my life!

i want to walk the talk! come on, bring it on.

oh did i mention that sat's pnw, singers got breakthru?!? ^^ more more more!

at 10:51 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

all about Rain.

Finally he will be coming. :)

he looks like a she-male.

more of it! yucks! anyway tis is during Rain's concert in thailand.

like this. seems like very nice. LG! hp sucks under tis brand.

but Rain is still charming la. ^^

at 12:23 PM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Sketches by Shaun Simon.

this one is ugly man!

cute hor? ^^

sweet man!

i admit this is ugly. . . .

this actor sometimes looks weird. . .

sexy looks. :)

looks so REAL rite?

i like this the best!

won bin rite?

i still find him not attractive le.

this one is kinda joker looks.

playful looks.

looks like a doll rite?

she is just so pretty. . . !

hmmmmm.............

amazing pictures hor! ^______^

anyway the night cycling was cancelled and so we all went for supper at changi village. and the girls stayed over at my hse! guess wat time we slept? 6am? HWAHAHAHAHAS. yeah we chatted alot alot alot of things and had a wild night! we had a short time of WWE. Veron was the one who started it. joyce tried to pin veron down but failed so we send wanqi the muah to pin her down and we succeeded!!!! pin down that followed by stacking.WAHAHAHAHAHAS. the thing is joyce was at the bottom and i was at the top!!!!!! wee~ i love the time spent last night! it was really fun and such a enjoyable time. :D poor veron got insect bites all over her body and last night put alot of times of calamine lotion on her. her personal missy. hehe! twam girls are growing stronger and stronger!

John 15:13

"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."

at 2:29 PM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Memories.

had a great time last night! singing with only 3 man band. the drummer, bassist and e.guitarist. HAHAHA! along with Meihua and JinCheng! had alot of fun singing We wana see Jesus lifted high and Prophesy. *tsk tsk tsk* Richard is funi la! :D anyway poor Hendra had some rashes. . . suspect got allergy to somethings or some insect brush over his skin. God will heal him in no time man!

yesterday i spend some time reading some blogs and man how i miss them so much. people like BaoWei.

this guy was my singing head. he is strict and fierce. if u think that you can anyhow mess up with him u are so wrong man. NO LA JUST KIDDING! hahahahahahhas! he is another guy that i respect apart from dk. =) to think how i came into singing ministry and now that i am taking care of it, i am in so total amazed. my audition was a total freak out but when i reach the place, i realise that i was the only one to be audited and on the spot i pass the audition. =.= hhahahs! guess who audit me? it was Jessie! ^___^ the time that i 1st did support singing to my 1st song presentation, baowei was always there to encourage me to remind me to guard my heart on stage! realli appreciated it alot. i will always remember the day he wrote a email to me to encourage me when i was in my very down moments. now that he is over at adults side, it's really good to see him still growing and now he is doing stage managing! jia you man dude!

ok la gtg, bringing my ma to sgh and then later going for choir prac! tonight got night cycling! wee~!!! got a feel that i will be super tired tml. . . . .

at 1:20 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

Dream Land VS Reality

which one u opt? honestly i like the 1st one. a place where everyone is loving, encouraging, giving, serving, talented, exam free, stress free, everything is free of charge! yeah! :D i love it man! but well, too bad i am living in the latter. problems, discouragements, anger, disappointments, feeling like tearing that person apart, prices are increasing every now and then, are parts and parcels of my life. yet, i am still joyful! irony? :)

sat night and sun night were the most enjoyable days! sat night after ss, miss veron drove the girls to Holland V to chill out! i enjoyed the time spent with them though we didn't really share our hearts out. the bond, the r/s with one another is getting tighter. Wanqi was tellin me last night abt how she approach veron in msn to tell her somethings and she was happy coz peng nv knew she would actually dare to make the approach! =) *Veron, you are a crappy girl man! BWAHAHAHAHA. :P

last night i attended one of my good frenz and his brother's bash! well, he is one guy that i respect alot though we are of the same age. now that he is 21, it really feels so good to see and know that i still see him ard in church. if u were thinking who, yesh he was the one who brought me to Hope. anyway last night was a night that everyone was taking photos and DK's relatives and dad's band were playing and singing for all of us. Dk got one relative that is kinda charming and can sing super well! his band is called MMS, stands for Mark, Malcom and Shane. oh, the guy's dad can sing better! imagine a 70 year old guy who can sing and sound like Micheal Buble?

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was infact drooling over all who could sing! but i was thinking and did ask dk, why not him? how come dk only can dance and draw? hmmmm. well, though dk can't sing that well but he is a super talented guy. ^________^

looking at those who could sing make me so motivated to want to improve. my spirituality,my voice, my techniques. recently i like this verse, "whenever we are weak but you are strong." it's simple to understand but it's hard to apply. yesterday's cg i ask God to break me down 4 times. break me till i feel desperate and add this booster in my life to 100% totally depend on Him.

a few things for the ministry:

1) one day, all singers on stage will be CLs and above.

2) attract good singers to join coz of both spirituality and vocal!

3) style and image will improve.

4) have a singers cg once a month!

5) haven't think of one yet. . . . hehe.

convicted? i am. i don't need a system to determine this ministry is establish. i have enough of it! i am gonna make this ministry establish thru ownership. step by step we are moving forward! hallelujah on this man! cast visions! own the visions!

meeting and outings for the ministry soon. grow from glory to glory! God n myself will not allow this ministry to drop nor stay stagnet.

"lift up your eyes from where you are and look at north and south, east and west. all the land that you see i will give it to you and your offspring for4vea.

go, walk through the length and breadth of the land, for i am giving it to you."

what God told Abram.

at 3:11 PM

Friday, August 04, 2006

Friends.

i miss them alot. =)

at 11:37 PM

What seems to be the problem?

i really hate that things seems unable to move forward. i hate the feelings that i am owning now. i hate to think in the negative ways which cause me to isolate from everything. i hate to always saying but this and that. i hate when people don't take my instructions seriously. i hate it when i see my close secondary school friends having gatherings but i was not informed. i hate to feel tired. bla bla bla. . . . . .

i think i can go on until Jesus comes back.

i admit it's sad to see that a ministry is growing so slow coz there's no vision and the fear of people losing joy in their passion. IT'S SCARY!

but. . . .

it's nothing about me. it's nothing about my doings. it's nothing about my sayings. it's nothing about my ideas. it's nothing about my roles. . . . . . coz as much as i want to be fully in control, i know things won't work out well.

like wat veron said, no matter how many hours you practice or how well the whole pnw session goes, remember to keep the main thing the main thing.

it's all about You Jesus.

at 1:59 AM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

alvin timothy sent to me and i think it's really a very nice clip. =) RP, continue to grow from glory to glory!!!

a verse to encourage the RPians.

Gal 6:9-10

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity,let us do good to all people, especially to those who belongs to the family of believers."

at 12:06 AM