Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Feeling Fulfilled.finish touching up my presentation. finish checking mails. copied down important stuffs. now, blogging!
hahaha! today finish school at 10am! imagine only 1 hour of lesson. 9-10am. urgh!!!!! travel up to yio chu kang just to study for an hour.. anyway to repay the loss, my classmates n i went to changi airport to eat "Popeyes" chicken!!! yummilious!!!
the shop's name.
look at all the chicken... ...*drooling*
i had mine. how abt you?
woohoo! hahahha! but of coz my classmates n i knw why we went there,it is to study our pyschology test... wahahha... but well we did study n thanks to violet n esther, i learnt somethings new! thank God for you two man!!!
anyway, tml is the day that Joey, LiMin, ShiMin and i will be going for dinner cg!! wee! finally can meet up all of them!!! wow! reali think it's cool that one way to unwind is to meet up fellow sisters in christ!!! hmm....reali wonder tml eat wat... beef noodles? western food? yong tao fu? *salivating* food food food!!! wahahahha! but then................... I CAN'T EAT IT WITH CHILLI!!!! sob sob* nv mind... train my mind to resist such wonderful temptation... *wailing*
ah ha!!! wana affirm LiMin!! this sister is from NYP n she is a malaysian!
LiMin: hey gal! reali wana affirm you of taking this step of putting God above your work! i knw it was nv easy for you tt you have to support yourself n at the same time study. reali admire you for your dareness in believing in God's plan for you! continue to jia you ok!!! both studies and spiritual life!! go go go!guess who is her shepherd? J............................O...........................E...................................Y! hey char bo! you are reali doing so so well in FU the two gals!
at 6:20 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
ACHES.having body aches all over now. guess i aged. hahaha! anyway yesterday's ss was fanastic! the rap, the hosting, PnW, drama and the sermon was great. best, was still the responding time. saw many took the courage to take the step of faith to acknowledge God's love! btw reali wana affirm Eilton and Jeremy! hey dudes, thanks for letting me have fun rapping n singing with you! 1st time working with you two but well everything reali turn out so so well! also, 3 cheers for susi! haha! saw how stress she was abt the whole event n by God's grace everything went out awesome! Susi, hope your magraine is gone! n the deco, only one word to describe, WOW. to the deco head, who happens to be my shepherd, well done!! *pat your shoulders* haha! the deco was such a help during PnW! coz during praise, the deco make the whole stage looks as though the stage was filled with people! hahaha! now, i reali understand how tiring is it for the PnW leader to sing for 3 ss.. .. wow, *applause*! danced for 3 ss during praise time n my legs today already give way.. guess it is a hint.
anyway, there is one person whom i reali wana thank you for. the guy sitting on the white throne. your sacrifice of your
own son reali moved hearts in alot. in one year, only 2 times will your son be recognise, Easter n Christmas. darn! this shouldn't be it! your son should be recognise throughout!!!! but how are we going to do that?
1. showing real fellowship in church only?
2. do good deeds?
3. reading the bible everyday without skipping?
4. be a man who die die sticks to the biblical principle?
5. always be loving and caring?
no offends to this questions. :) kinda grow up more when i see myself serving in the poly group now. always thought that as long as i stick myself to do these things, i am biblical. but chey~ no man, how can a person who is sinful by nature be so perfect? i have never come across anyone until now who nv disliked anyone in his/her life b4, not having undesirable thinking at the back of their mind, loving every single type of people without having any struggle or a single moment of giving up loving the person.we all jolly knw that it is our
heart tt determine whether are reali loving God or only trying to be 'Christian' in name. i was reading this book which says this, "God uses the opposite situation of each fruit to allow us a choice. you can't claim to be good if you've nv been tempted to be bad. you can't claim to be faithful if you've nv had the opportunity to be unfaithful. intergrity is built by defeating the temptation to be dishonest; humility grows when we refuse to be prideful; and endurance develops every time you reject the temptation to give up. every time you defeat a temptation, you become more like Jesus!"aren't these so true?how can i be loving when everyone around me is nice to love?
drowning in the love of God while facing the reality of the world.
at 10:38 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
A New Look.woohoo! finally learnt how to change blogskin!! hehe..coz i'm quite an IT idiot. :P anyway wana thank God for yesterday!!! i had clinical lab test n phew~ i quite happy with the results! i reali prayed so hard the nite b4 tt i will get U/C n yesh! i reali got U/C!! wahahaha! btw U/C=urinary catheriszation. hehe! n for bio prac even though the result aren't out yet, but i am quite satisfied coz i felt tt i can get at least a B! hehe! praise the Lord man!
oooo....easter ss is coming soon...just 3 more days. *feeling nervous all over* will madeline come? hmm..reali must trust in God liao! haha! anyway lately kinda crazy over 3 songs.
#1. He wasn't - Avril Lavigne
#2. Mocking Bird - Eminem
#3. You and me - Life House (finally i got the group..!)
yesh this is all.
at 7:03 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
profession. passion. hobbies. the real world.
just had a great talking session with my parents. i always luv talking to my dad abt life. mayb coz in his life he went thru poverty (my dad is a malaysia n when he was young his family tap rubber) and he saw how much his family members slogged just to put him thru into university (that's y no matter wat my aunties or uncles have done something wrong towards my dad, he will nv hold it against them). finally i told my dad abt wat i want to pursue in life. definately not nursing but music. i told him after graduation i would like to work for a year n when i have the money i would like to go to radio academy to be a DJ or either Laselle to study music. after hearing my big ambition, my dad didn't scold me or anyting but he started to tell me abt his own ambition as well.
when my dad was in primary six, his classmates ask him wat would he want to become when he grow up. with great simplicity he said, " I want to be a photographer. seeing that my photos will be in competition!" my dad is a good photographer, this i agree totally. but one thing is true, my dad could actuali follow his dream n be a photographer! but y didn't he? then my dad said this, "if i reali followed this dream, i will die of hunger." harsh reality that brought my daddy back to earth. living an artistic life is nv a easy life. unless you are born with a sliver spoon. after saying these my dad came back to the topic abt my big ambition.
he told me that having a dream or passion is normal coz in human life these are the contributing factors that make us want to go on in life. he has nothing against wat i wanted in life. but one thing he said if i reali want to follow my dreams i gotta be the best one not just an average one. he took my DJ career for example. in Singapore hw many well known DJs are there? less than 10. if everyone thinks like me n follow their heart, how can it be possible that all of us will become a famous DJ. the truth is tt only the most outstanding n best one will stand out. this kept me thinking. it is true, this world talks abt whether are you the best one or do you have the money to be wat you want.
my dad says tt he knw his 3 kids nv like to study and wat we want we have. coz of one thing. my dad's understanding in life. in the end, he forgo his dreams n study engineering. now, he is the manager in his company. my dad tell me that he only left 10 years before retiring n of coz b4 this ten years is up, he would reali want to see 3 of us having a stable income n able to support the family. my dad doesn't want to see us suffer in the future. i reali thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful dad. of coz not forgetting my mom, she have been a strong pillar to my dad. a very supportive, patient n naggy wife! wahahhahahahha!!!!! :P
so now my whole mindset has change. no more of la la land dreams. my dad gave me opportunity to study nursing, i guess i gotta stop dreaming and start doing this course to my best. if i reali want to see that i am able to give my kids(in future) the best like how my dad have gave us, i gotta understanding the way how the world is like. yeah. i just so glad that i told my dad abt my ambition. thanks dad n i am so glad tt finally you allow God into your life. love you very much. :)
Closer to you - Planet Shakersall of my life i've searched for thisit's hard to explain this happinessall of my searching, left me poornow i have tastedmy spirit's crying out for more.everyday it's hard to believethat way you change wat's inside of mei wana get closer to youwhen i think that i've let u downyour open arms of love i have foundi wana get closer to youthere was a time when i was lostcaught in a world of selfish carebut when you found me something changedmy eyes were openednow i will never be the sameanyone got this song? don't mind sent to me in my msn.
at 2:42 PM
converts! siblings converted! ladies n gentlemen, boys n gals, welcome the new member of NYP, Shimin and Weixian!!! yeah! honest and sincere new believers! rite joey!! :)
Shimin, coming to NYP soon to study nursing!
Weixian, studying in serangoon garden sec sch, taking o levels this year!
these two siblings are reali simple people man! cheerful, friendly and very nice people to be with! reali must see that these two siblings grow to be a woman n man of God! joey n i have to jia you liao! anyway take this time to thank my sheep, Joey:
hey gal, since the day i knw you were gonna be my sheep, i was kinda excited n at the same time i feel scared. hahha! but of coz i was totally excited to share with you wat i reali wana see both of us doing n tada, God is powerful man! today we see two converts. thanks for adding strength to me! your monsterous evangelism lifestyle and enthu in doing God's work reali encourages me alot! learn from you alot you knw! :) i reali can't wait to see you rise up as a CL! very faith filled hor! hahahha! but yet this is also your heart's desire so work towards it man! thanks gal for everything!
also another person to thank, LiYan.
xie xie ni shepherd! i knw you are very stress with deco n quite tired with wat is happening in your life now but still you didn't stop loving all of us. duno you are emtionless or are you just superwoman...no la jk! hahaha! yeap, reali had great time talking to you always. sharing with you my stuff n you sharing with me! more like a great pal than shepherd! i think other than sharing with hannah (my super great SB!) my stuff you are the next person whom i can share too. not coz you are my shepherd la! :) so again, thanks for always trusting in me.
ok ok. now is the time to retain n plant seed into the hearts of the believers in NYP3! yes! test , test n more test n then attachment followed by exams n then attachment again. the plans from this month till June. urks!!!! must prepare heart! btw, next week's ss is interesting. INVITE! hahha, i knw madeline is coming! another potential convert! n the two sibilings!
listening to "give us clean hands"
at 1:26 AM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
finally blogging again! ok so wat's up with my life now? o man it is going so great. just great.
have been quite busy with projects and the upcoming tests that almost every night i am sleeping at 1am. *TIRED!* but too bad i can't take afternoon nap or else at night i won't be able to sleep...o man..
gees....i got so many things to talk abt until i dunno where to start from! urgh!!! haha! ok anyway i shall talk abt today. recently when i walk i will always almost fall which include today! the other day almost trip n fall 3 times. today twice. wat's wrong with my feet man.. hai! yeah so today is quite a short day. classes from 8am to 10am! yeah! but then today i finally signed up for my basic theory test for driving!!!! yahoo!!! 1st April will be the day. hopefully n definately i must pass! haha! anyway, i was meditating on Luke 4:18-19 and as i was writing down wat i reflected, alot of people images came to my mind. reali hope to see these people coming back to God! reali learnt alot from people around me these few days! btw, there is a new sister in NYP! and her name is... ...JOEY! yeap! she was from high school West! but now she is in NYP! Joey, surprise to see ya name here? hehe! continue to grow n quickly become a shepherd soon! :) yeah Darren's birthday was on last sat but again here i would like to wish him a Happy Bithday! ok la, kinda tired! o, i sent Jeff for a furcut and now gonna pick him up! hahahhaha!!! jeff jeff!!!
at 2:44 PM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
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I Will Go - HillsongOh.. Oh..- verse 1 -i have found myself in youthe purpose for my lifei discover who i amas your spirit touches mine- pre chorus -every step i takeevery move i makeyou are by my sideand i will be strong my strength is in you- chorus -(Yes) i will gowhere you wan me to goi will do what you want me to doyes i will gowhere you wan me to goi will be who you wan me to be(anything for you)- verse 2 -when you ask me i will goyou show the way before mein your word i find the truthyou lead me on this journey- prechorus n chorus -- bridge -those who trust in youever praising youwill find their strength renewedthey're gonna make it happeni will trust in younever stop praising youwill find my strength renewedi'm gonna make itmake it happen- chorus -yes Lord, i will go wherever you wana me to go. yesterday's ss was sooooo like child like! for the very 1st time i dare to say was that the praises certainly improved so much!!! **cheers for the singers, PnW leaders, the musicians, the sound people, the MM team, the light team and most importantly, the children of God!** the atmosphere during ss was reali wow! with the uni. group, it reali boost up the 3rd ss atmosphere! :) anyway, when "your wonderous love" was sang, my tears kept dropping. the tears dropped not coz of the music or was it coz of the song. weird huh. but 1 thing for sure was tt after the worship i reali felt totally new in God. a new start a new beginning. the sermon preach by Pastor Ben reali deserved *thumbs up*. i felt i was at the scene to look at the whole process. just only tt i had a little difficulty as i duno wat to reali pen down on my notepad. quite confused abt the points. hehe. yeah which reminds me tt i am gonna rewatch " the passion of the Christ". dawn n i will be watching one of the days, anyone who haven't watch n is reali interested to watch, wana join us?
i realise yesterday i was reali very smiley throughout! wahahahha! reali had a great time dawn, denice, georgia, giselle, eilton and donovan! kept laughing on stupid things! coz of dawn, each of the gals ard the table got new names. wana knw go n ask dawn. haha. actuali reali excited to knw wat is God's plan for me now! is it this or is it that? haha! anyway i see one potential retain NYP contact coming to join this family of God! i spent some time with her yesterday n is super nervous n pretty excited to SOW on her. thanks to serene from TP, i got to knw the NYP gal. urgh urgh urgh! wahahahha! sori usually when excited, i can't find words to express my feelings..wahahaha! only can laugh n be joyful. ^o^ anyway sch gonna reopen, projects n tests n exams are coming. Jo-N get ready n work thru it with God. amen.
at 1:29 PM
Friday, March 04, 2005
Feeling like a small kid.honestly i don't like to call God, my Lord, my Saviour...feels so much better when i call Him, Daddy! feels so intimate with this calling. haha! i reali love the way you love how you turn my life around...sounds familiar? hehe! >o<
yeah, the time when i was so lonely, so worn out, so sick, so sad, so discourage, so hurt.. He has always been there to accompany me, to refresh me, to heal me, to make me joyful, to encourage me, to mend my broken heart. aren't this sounds like wat a Dad would do? :)
Daddy, i love youi love you because you love me 1stthe ways of love you show to meno other person can ever do it for meand boy, how i am really lavish with your love.Daddy, i'm grateful to youi'm grateful to you because of wat you've done for methe stuff you did for me just to let me realise your prescencehad proven your existanceand sure, i am so filled with your grace.Dad, i just want to follow you wherever you go.normal me now.had a great talk with someone today. got to realise his life n reali is inspired by his courage to continue to serve God despite with wat he is facing. i am so eager to learn from alot of people's lives!mayb coz i come from a complete family, super loving n caring family, faces no persecution from anyone, i tends to look out on how i deal with temptations, testings n challenges and especially emotional area now. i think i reali need to be careful....my own conclusion is this, usually people who comes from a gd family like mine, they will take their walk with God for granted. until one day something reali reali bad happen, then will they learnt to love God the hard way. anyway, later gonna go for evag! yeah, was sick for the past few days so cannot let go liao. if tml don't go down, very hard to catch the fishes when sch reopens. NYPians, jia you!!! guys grow! gals grow!
Revival in NYP will happen!By Faith!~*wana be God pleaser NOT man pleaser.*~
at 12:24 AM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
hey hey! now i am back in NYP in my bio lab! actuali this week is my 1 week break.. but well, my frenz wana study n since my studies is so bad, i have to go.. haha! but i have lots of fun!! wee!! reali thank God for my frenz who are always drilling the work into my mind!
recently i watch "Return of the King" and "Troy". where? Pearline's hse!!!! haha! yeah! i stayed over at her hse on sun! the next day which was monday, Pearline n i cooked our breakfast. scrambled eggs with melted cheese, french toasts, luncheon meat, chee chong fun and two cups of milo! wahhaha! quite heavy for breakfast hor.. hehe! just wait for the photos! anyway coming back to the two movies. i still like "Return of the King". it is a very entertaining show. i like best when the steward who was acting as king ask one of the hobbit to sing a song. whoa! his voice was good! *applause* the ending was great too. reali like the effect when the cursed army wipe out the enemies. it was superb!!! yeah now wanting to watch the 2nd part of Lord of the Rings. anyone got the DVDs? tell me ar!!!
yeah gtg now! will be watching "Constantine" with my brother at TM! hehe! bye~
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