Monday, November 29, 2004
*tired*. this is how i feel today. sub-paper was alrite. nearly rot to death at istana park. haha! drama was great n funny. super tired man. haha.. ..
now that dawn,job n CJ are back in sch, i am reali excited for the harvest! my own attachment is starting soon so i am excited myself too! hah! today overheard wat Nel said to the TP ppl, i was reali inspired.. i wana grow too. time to grow that is y now is fasting and praying time! NYP will have a breakthru! words accompanied by action! faith with action! urgh!!!!!
anyway this sister is coming to NYP soon... ...so wana welcome her!!! someone who is close to me! hahhaha! wee! this wed NYP sister have outing!!!!! gonna watch "the incredibles"!!!! baby Jack is reali cute!!!!! hahahahahha!
at 11:52 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
everyone is nv satisfied with wat they have. one moment they want this, next they rather have that. wonder y is it that the feel of dissentment is always there. our sinful carnal nature?
now this brings me to sat's sermon. listen. the title is... ... "How to say Thanks!".
this sermon reali make me feel ashamed abt myself. i teared during the whole service. i sat on the blue seat pondering, "God, wat are the blessings that you have blessed me with?" funnily, wat came to my mind was all the unpleasant things. but cool, i got my answer at the end of the service.
it's the people. my Family, my classmates and my spiritual family. everyone.
now, i reali wan to make sure that i learn to appreciate everyone ard me. i want to learn to be a grateful chap. apart from these, i too wana believe in God's promise! i wan my heart to be convicted abt it. conviction, strong conviction which can last me this journey. of coz, i want to learn to say Thanks.
i wana say this, I AM PROUD TO SERVE GOD IN A WONDERFUL CHURCH, HOPE OF GOD SINGAPORE. i am.
anyway, yesterday alot of TPians came to my hse! hahaha! guess only Darren n I are the only NYPians. but haha! Darren reali had a great time sharing his so called 'story' to the others. wana knw ask him wat story.. ..haha! of coz yesterday have drama prac too. n boy i guess i reali need courage to show my expression boldly. urgh! guess acting is not my cup of tea. hai.. ..haha but i won't deny that i reali had fun! ok fingers are lagging so will stop here.
have a great day to all readers. remember, count your blessings often n be grateful to God. :)
at 8:10 PM
Friday, November 19, 2004
just watched "Taxis" n "Bride and Prejudice". good movies. yesterday had a great time a sake sushi with my classmates!was celebrating violet's birthday.HAPI BIRTHDAY MY GAL! this gal is reali a special gal man.anyway all of us ate until the bill was 182 bucks plus? actuali not sure.. ..sake sushi's food is nice but
dangerous.can't imagine that only 8 of us eating.. ..gives me the creeps man...
anyway, yesterday called Alicia, my sec sch best fren! we reali chat alot. come n think abt it, who will ever thought that both of us will end up in nursing? wahahhaha! reali hilarious kim!but honestly deep in my heart i reali miss her. Alicia is someone in my life who is important until now. my very close fren n of coz dude, both of us reali had a big bad misunderstanding which cause us not to talk for abt 2 mths? haha! reali hope this Christmas will bring a change to her life.
manz, last nite i was tossing n turning on my bed thinking abt my life and the sudden desire to take back my passion of being a conductor reali bring tears to my eyes. i was not any band major nor concert mistress but i knw that in that 5 yrs in KCP, my heart was with the band. a super committed member. haha! but thank God, he let me realise that my life is not enough just with band but with alot more things. now that in church, God had used me to the fullest! learning to sing better, learn to play the guitar, improving in interpersonal skills and making more new frenz! where can i go n find such a wonderful place? of coz, i won't deny that this deep desire is gone. ok la that's all!
at 1:16 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
had NYP camp on the 13-15 of Nov. how was it? FANTASTIC. FABULOUS. can't reali find words to describe it.. .. it is just
out-of-this-world.
many hearts were touched. many lives were changed. just reali incredible. But of coz to make this camp a successful one, there are lots of ppl to thank for!
committees.
Darren: hey dude! thanks for your com man!!! reali got to knw you better thru this camp! Jimmy Fallon rocks yeah? hahahahahha!!!!!
Dawn n her gang: thanks for the wonderful games man!! it was reali fun!!! the musical shirts was great! wahahah! we should have take down the pic where Josh n Don were wearing the girl's jacket. **burst out laughing**
Giselle n her gang: thanks for the food! it was great! yummy too!!! hehe! imagine no food in this camp. **shudders** yeah, reali thank God for you guys. haha!
Huimei: thanks for your team man!!! it was great! great leader!
Leslie and Caleb: reali thank God for you guys! you make sure that money are collected for this camp. this kind of spirit is reali greatly appreciated.
Liyan (the head of this camp): wee! this person is reali greatly anointed man! agree NYPians? hehe! if not for her faith that this camp will work out, i guess till now NYP won't have camp. **3 cheers for her** thanks!!!
for the rest. you ppl are simple, just, too.. ..great. it is the rest of you guys that make this camp a successful one! the musicians like, Job, Donovan and Kar Shun. thank God for you guys! we can improve even more rite?? yeah. Deborah, this gal is cool man! reali thank God for her man! without her, i guess we won't have a house to have our NYP camp. yeah!!!
a special time. to these special people.
the CLs 1st.
Josh, Lalita n HuiMei - my fellow buddies in Christ. reali great to see that this camp was a success yeah? hehe! you guys have been always encouraging my in my life. reali thank God for this. now that Christmas is coming it means something... Harvest? Birthing out new cg? New leaders rising up? yeap. it's all these.. ..but more importantly... ..spreading the love of God to people we love. [1 Cor 13:4-5] let's always keep the team players in NYP including ourselves, strong in the WOG n united!
the team players in NYP.
Manta (women of NYP1), Leslie,Donovan,KarShun,Caleb (men of NYP2), Dawn,Denice,Yoke Munn, Eilton,Job,Darren,CJ (women n men of NYP3), Cindy,Deborah,Giselle n JiaHui (women of NYP4) - hey bros n sis!! wat's up man!!! hahaha!!! camp was impactful yeah? hahah!!! [2 Cor 5:17] come on' let lift God's name up high! woohoo!!! "
and Jesus i believe in you... ..and Jesus i belong to you.. ..you're the reason that i live, you're the reason that i sing.. ..with all i am... ". everyone!! let's make wat God has given to us, which is NYP, a successful one this Christmas! but of coz not forgetting that learn to relax in God n CHOING for God.
Slogan for NYP: Dare 4or More.
lastly to my shep.
LiYan - yoZ! hehe! guess you are reali very glad of the outcome of this camp rite? mee tooo! you must be praying so much for this camp.. ..reali thank God for you. this woman here is a woman after God's heart. small in built, quiet by nature, gently in speech n actions BUT her FAITH IS AS BIG AS A MUSTARD TREEEEEE. she is someone who reali trust her people alot. her expression of love is thru the jobs that she ask us to do. wee.. ..hahahhaha!!! being my shep for abt 11 mths plus, i reali appreciate how much you have done for me. shepherding me, guiding me, correcting me, going crazy together, singing together.. .. reali someone who is super close to me. someone that i knw i can confide in. thanks for your patience in me. yeah!
wow. aren't NYP camp great? thank God for being with us all along. without you, this camp will still go on but there won't be changes in lives n hearts that were touched by you. thanks for bringing NYP thru all these tough times. bless n anoint us God! this coming Christmas!!!! use us Lord!
for my dear brother Jonathan. seeing you from last time till now, you have changed. can see that you desire to change to become better. which is great! allow God to use you ok? continue to be a strong n faith-filled guy! bring all your close ones to God! Jonathan in the Bible is someone who reali luv God n his bro, David.not only was he loyal but he was just. he won't allow the innocent to be wrongly judge. Jon, this path that you take is long n requires perseverance so hold on to the WOG closely ok! let's together as bro n sis, serve God till our very last breath. I love you. [ 1 Peter 4:8 ]
at 3:42 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
Everything I Need - Jim Fowler
Lord, i need.. you to be..
all the gentleness in me..
i've been trying by myself.. ..
struggling all alone..
From the very start i knew,
that i must depend on you.. ..
here i am depending Lord,
the rest is up to you... ...
you're everything i need for you to be.. ..
you're everything that shines inside of me.. ..
and i will have the strength to do,
all you ask of me..
i will always let you be,
everything i need for you to be.
a song that i sang during my sec 4 musical drama.a song that reali describes me alot.reali have great burden n a heavy one too.i reali DETEST testings but if it for my own good, i will accept it n change.walking down this lonely path of leadership had n still is, reali prove to me that i am nothing without God.the moment i rededicate my life back, the time i struggled in committment, the moment i was challenged to be a shepherd, the moment i had my own cg, the moment i witness my mom's rededication, the moment i came over to Poly grp, the moment i see my own dear brother rededicate his life, etc.. ..wat is all these? my own work? no, it is the work of my Dad. my mighty Dad giving a weak me, tasks to do. wow.. ..it just amazed me.
anyway, yesterday i watched "Shark Tales" with Dawn (the birthday gal!), Yoke Munn, Eilton, Darren n CJ! it was reali hilarious! guess all of us reali had a great time watching this movie! hahahaz! my fav character was the shark, Lenny! ernie n bernie was funi too! it is true that alot of us are like oscar. as in life, we are always wanting more n better things. doing things that ppl will recognise us! even if telling a white lie.. ..but when the truth is released,we reali regret it.yeah.
yea, life to me is precious. every single one of us should think this way too! only one life n soon it will pass. understandable that it is nv easy luving everyone BUT when you luv this person n see this person change by God,comfirm with a chop that a big wide smile that is accompanied with tears of joy, will be on your face.
Darren, this is for you: you are a person who is very dear to my heart. since i knw that you are coming to NYP3, i am reali excited abt it. dun ask me y but i do wan to tell you that is time to allow God to change you inside out. you will reali be greatly use by God! die to yourself.
well later need to go for seminar liao! hahaha! hope to learn more things!!Christmas here i come! NYP's slogan: Dare 4or More!
at 1:50 AM
Monday, November 08, 2004
time for blogging again. haha! reali have lots of thing to share man.
anyway, reali had an absolute time last night with the NYPians at Darren's hse! I didn't get a wink at all and i am reali amazed at myself.. .. but well, i reali learn stuff abt guitar and the most important things, fellowshipping with the gang! btw, Darren! thanks for everything you have prepared just to welcome all of us who went to your hse!
er.. ..for violet,aishah,caren and meihui.. ..SORI! promise you guys that i will turn up but.. ..i didn't. reali reali sori.. ..! but just wana tell you that you guys reali are great pals man. thanks for always looking out for me.. ..will always pray that you guys will come to knw God soon.
"how to pray - the right way to talk to God". looks familiar? yeap it's the sermon on sat. was
flabbergasted by the sermon... ...i remember that got one blog entry i wrote abt my QT n which part reali caught my attention was.. ...prayer. it is true that often a time alot of us can't wait for prayer to end fast. so reali hope that this sermon had taught you how to bring yourself closer to God! thank you father, for giving us chances to actually talk to you personally. wee.. ..! talking abt 2nd ss, gee.. ..the praise for the supporting singers... ....just one word,
AWFUL. duno y Candy n myself just can't hear ourself at all. for the very 1st time, i can't hear myself at all. worst thing, the music was drowning the PnW leaders voice... ...all we could do is to follow the music yet not sure whether we are singing rite. haha! anyway, today was the 2nd time for guitar lessons! n boy, did we reali learnt alot! haha! creating lame songs, thinking how to sing Jason's self-composed song, jamming.. ..bla bla bla. guess it was the 1st time that Jason see how gals fellowship. wahahahhaa!!!! reali thank God for Jason that he is willing to sacrifice his time to teach so that we can improve on our skills! xie xie!
well now listening to Nicole Nordeman's song. this woman is reali a great singer.
Every Season
every evening sky, an invitation to trace the pattern stars
and early in july, celebration for freedom that is ours
and i notice you in childrens games
in those who watched them from the shade
every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
you are summer
and even when the trees, have just surendered to the harvest time
forfeiting their leaves in late september
and sending us inside, still i notice you when change begins
and i embace for colder winds
i will offer thanks, for what has been and whats to come
you are auttum
and everything in time, and under heaven finally falls asleep
wrapped in blankets white, all creation shivors underneath
and still i notice you, when branches crack and in my breath on frosted grass
even now in death, you open doors for life to enter
you are winter
and everything thats new, has bravely surviced
teaching us to breathe
what was frozen through, is newly purposed
turning all things green, so it is with you
and how you make me new, with every seasons change
and so it will be, as you are all creating me
summer, autom, winter, spring
at 1:19 AM
Friday, November 05, 2004
THE PEBBLE STORY
Many years ago in a small Indian village, a farmer had the misfortune of owing a large sum of money to a village moneylender. The moneylender, who was old and ugly, fancied the farmer's beautiful daughter. So he proposed a bargain. He said he would forgo the farmer's debt if he could marry his daughter.Both the farmer and his daughter were horrified by the proposal. So the cunning money-lender suggested that they let providence decide the matter.He told them that he would put a black pebble and a white pebble into an empty money bag. Then the girl would have to pick one pebble from the bag.If she picked the black pebble, she would become his wife and her father's debt would be forgiven. If she picked the white pebble she need not marry him and her father's debt would still be forgiven. But if she refused to pick a pebble, her father would be thrown into jail.
All the villagers were standing on a pebble strewnn path in the farmer's field. As they talked, the moneylender bent over to pick up two pebbles.As he picked them up, the sharp-eyed girl noticed that he had picked up two black pebbles and put them into the bag. He then asked the girl to pick a pebble from the bag.
Now, imagine you were standing in the field.What would you have done if you were the girl? If you had to advise her, what would you have told her?Careful analysis would produce three possibilities:
1. The girl should refuse to take a pebble.
2. The girl should show that there were two black pebbles in the bag and expose the money-lender as a cheat.
3. The girl should pick a black pebble and sacrifice herself in order to save her father from his debt and imprisonment.
Take a moment to ponder over the story. The above story is used with the hope that it will make us appreciate the difference between lateral and logical thinking.The girl's dilemma can not be solved with traditional logical thinking. Think of the consequences if she chooses the above logical answers.What would you recommend to the Girl to do?
Well, what she did was :The girl put her hand into the moneybag and drew out a pebble. Without looking at it, she fumbled and let it fall onto the pebble-strewn path where it immediately became lost among all the other pebbles."Oh, how clumsy of me," she said. "But never mind, if you look into the bag for the one that is left, you will be able to tell which pebble I picked."Since the remaining pebble is black, it must be assumed that she had picked the white one. And since the money-lender dared not admit his dishonesty,the girl changed what seemed an impossible situation into an extremely advantageous one.
MORAL OF THE STORY: Most complex problems do have a solution. It is only that we don't attempt to think. Impossible is a word only to be found in the dictionary of fools
at 11:26 AM
WHO DOES WHAT
A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.
The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee."
The husband said, " You are in charge of cooking around here and you
should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee."
Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee."
Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me."
So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament and showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says..........
"HEBREWS"
at 11:22 AM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
wow. taufik n olinda were fantastic! actuali, the rest were good but still i gotta say, taufik was the supereminent one. man since the beginning, i didn't really think that the judges were impressive until now, i still think the same. but well, they are the elite one. haha!
yeah, tml is the day. the last paper. the start for other things.gotta concentrate on wat is given to me! my ministry = NYP, will become a fruitful group. uh huh,that's rite. time to ruminate on my life. if i wan this person to grow, i gotta be double. **OoOo** new challenges, new breakthru. that's wat i believe in. yeah, nowaday, i been learning new words! was impress with Dawn as how she improve her english that fast. so i gotta buck up too! but well i knw that mayb some words i used in the wrong way. haha.. ..!
urgh! gotta go back to my studies. tml, tml ,TML IS THE DAY! then time to throw the "hat"! or the books? muhahaha.
Album : Still Not Getting Any
Welcome To My Life
by Simple Plan
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
at 8:43 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
finally my killer paper is over.. ..90 horrifying mcqs n 2 predictable saqs. for all the nursing students, let's celebrate! haha! but well, who can we deceive? friday is then the last paper.
today's QT is interesting. submission,boasting,warning from God,patience and prayer. so which one seems to entrance me? **no prize for rite answer** it gotta be prayer. seems nothing interesting? then that is the problem of your stunt growth. (v13a)"is any one of you in trouble? he should pray." (v14)"is any one of you sick? he should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord." the fact; how many of us will depend on prayer when these kind of things happen? you knw n i knw.. ..end of conversation.
things in life have been stress for me man.. ..haha! my shep wana meet me for shopping to help me destress! reali appreciate her man! a blessing to me. wat shall i say abt Liyan? a very gentle person. faith-filled person. persevering person. word-centred person. a person that canonize God
alot. this time, nothing is gonna disrupt my plan. no, nothing. muhahahaha. well then, see ya! if you think you run n hide in that closet, i advice you better to step out of that closet yourself. time to mature. James 4:7
ain't them cool. haha. a movie that i am gonna catch next.. .. SHARK TALEZzZZ!!
at 11:15 AM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Biology is definately killing me.. ..OooO.. .. anywayz, nothing can bring the rocker down man! haha! **sounds like some rocket**
well just done QT n boy, God is honest n frank! was reading on James and learnt abt overcoming trials n temptation, favouritism forbidden, faith and deeds and taming the tongues. if now you are flipping thru the bible, go ahead man.. ..! read abt it.
"likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it make great boasts." (v5) true yeah? who can identify with me? hmm... ..yeah thanks brother n you sister, i see ya hands. imagine yourself without a tongue.. ..cannot talk, cannot sing, cannot crap.. ..**shudder** this is one thing that must reali thank God for! o talking abt thanking God, just remember that i came across this sentence which is so enlightening! "scientists are just dicovering abt God's wonderful creation." make sense.
well, now Jason is asking us to practice on this song - your luv is reaching me by Paul Baloche. gotta buck up!
at 1:16 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
haha! ain't my blog cool or wat? haha! all thanks to Dawn! wee! reali luv this blog alot!!! hahaha!! anyway reali gotta study liao!! tml is my bio ( nursing's killer paper) exam! urgh.. .. but well still gotta study! yap that's it. bye! before going, HAPI BELATED BIRTHDAY PEARLINE, KEHAN AND HUIXIAN!!! thanks for such wonderful ppl!!! Poly and DI grow man!!! fill nexus! YESH!!!
at 6:02 PM
