Sunday, October 24, 2004
why can't this irritating feelings can't go away? am i reali hanging on it to think that there's hope? NAH! as long as i am able to discipline my mind, the feelings will go for SURE! yeah!! who ask me to have such a super dad? wahahahha!!
today has been a long day! had the experience of going into a kinda 'forest' place. picking up wooden sticks n bricks. haha! guess i n XueTing was reali having fun! haha!!
well now i am studying for my 2035 paper.. ..urgh! duno y when comes to studies, i reali feel like pulling my hair.. .. hahaha! but well i still like wat i am studying! hahahhaa!! btw, Pearline! jia you for your papers!!!! you go gal man!!!
just wana share that today i have a great time with my brother! reali share to him alot about how i struggle as a NB n how i overcame it with God.. .. always luv the time talking to my bro.. ..! Jon, grow!!! be a shep soon!!!
as for yesterday, meeting up with denice was fun!! haha!!! taught her abt committment n indeed she reali got lots to share!! hahaha! rite gal?!? wahaha! hey you knw, i can see that you are growing! don't give up!
Lord, thank you for always been tolerent towards me! coz of your sincere luv, i am reali touched n begin to see ppl in a different manner. i am asking of you to help me to guide your ppl. difficult BUT got lots of potential. only thru this will i learnt more. hehe! you have blessed me with a wonderful CG n unit! Glad that i have frenz who is there to run this race! leadership can be lonely BUT coz of your presence, i knw i am not alone. wow n wee! lastly, i reali wan to see the vision of my daddy n older bro to come to knw you soon, coming to pass. yesh i knw this will be done! so humbly ask you to give me more patience n love! *gee... ..am i asking too much? hmm.. ..* anyway, you rock my world Lord!
at 10:46 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
discourage about matters easily. feeling tired easily. does it sound familiar?
Isaiah 40:30-31 this verse is something that God had expected from us. aren't life so entertaining? one moment we are inspired to do this and next we are complaining about life. how contradicting. moving on to the next stage is wat all of us will experience, so y not just grow up. only one life. that's it. waste it or make full use of it. yap.
today is reali a very tired day man!! haha! went to chomp chomp yesterday with Xueting,Donald,ShuLing n Alvin!! haha! the evil ones tried to force me to eat calms! yucks! still think calms sux! nearly vomitted!! erk!!!!! anyway reali had fun man! hahaha!
Donald n I met way b4 to go n sign up driving theory test together. guess wat?
we wanted to take the test together so we decided on the date then the lady said that the date that we chose only got 6.30pm one, no 8pm one. so Donald ask the lady whether in the whole month of dec is there other dates that got 8pm one anot. the lady said, "Sori,there's isn't."
so in the end we chose different dates.
then after I sign up my chosen date which the class starts at 6.30pm , the lady ask me why didn't i want to take the 8pm class one.
feel like beating her up! urgh!!!!!!
hahha! anyway God's plan. let Donald do the test then i ask him how is it!wahahaha!!
yap, today's cg was fun! too bad Job n Eilton miss it! well can't blame them as they were not feeling well. anyway, the sisters went to eat roti prata @ Serangoon!!! wee!!! there were Dawn, Georgia, XuLing n myself! haha! Darren didn't come along coz he went to meet fren right after cg ended.. .hai.. .But well we ate 1)Chocolate Prata! delicious man!! 2) also ate Tissue Prata!! awesome! thank God for Dawn, she order Indian Rojak too! hahah!! not filling but it was cool!! haha!! should try Chocolate Prata!!! rite girls?!? hehe! we played funi games too! haha!! Dawn wana say?!? haha!
anyway,XuLing reali inspired me alot man!! she was asking me in the bus how to share to frenz abt God when going back to China. i was like heh?!? wow!! i was dumbfounded. actuali this is a good question to ponder. but i tell her that she can share her own story to her frenz! i think this is the least that i can tell her. hehe! but reali encourage by her! must jia you in my desire to share too!
"Horizon" by 38th Parallel
Another day burns away into darkness
Ever searching for a sign
The days grow long and the days grow dark
And the days grow ever colder
The trust that I started with fades as I get older
Though the road is hard It seems to me there is no way around this
From all you've done for me I know you'll never break your promise
Chorus: So here at the end of this day
Where the world is shaded in gray
I will look to blue horizons and watch for you to come
When my hope is tattered and torn
When my faith is weathered and worn
I'll look to the blue horizons
I am still walking, evading the shadows
I am still running that narrow line
I would go wherever you would have me go
Ever searching for a sign
at 11:38 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Lord, it is you that i am what i am now. without you i reali do not knw wat i can do next. living in a world that is filled with lost people reali breaks my heart. sometimes i reali do not knw how to approach these people. fear just caught hold of me.. .. reali afraid of rejection. y is it that people out there knws that you love them so much yet still want to reach out to the conditional love? Lord, only you will understand wat is deep inside of these people's heart. use me Lord.. ..get rid of the "bad" things in me so that godly side in me will surface. what is yours is yours.
today went to PS with Job! hmm.. ..went to buy guitar strings together n both of us saw this guy who reali played the electric guitar so well! guess Job was reali so so distracted by him. hahahaha! anyway b4 meeting Job, i went to trumpet praise just to see wat is new in the store n guess wat? i bought a book by John C.Maxwell! it is not a new book but it is just this time the book reali capture my heart! the title is: " BE A PEOPLE PERSON. effective leadership through interpersonal relationship". it is reali a good book! not only this! this new CD is out called, "WOW 2004" i think it is this title.. ..wahahhaa! not sure at all la! but i tell you the songs in this cd is reali great!!!! too bad.. ..so expensive.. ..31.40 bucks le.. .. ah yo.. haha!!
yesterday's performance during SS was reali funi!!! i had great fun even though i nearly vomitted durin 2nd ss. hahahaha!!! thank God that He protected me..! can't imagine if i reali vomit on stage during the performance.. ..yucks!!!! hey Germs! thanks for bringing your green shirt down for me!!! sori that i didn't wear it! n Josh thanks for bringin your shirts down as well!!!
BaoWei, just wana take this time to thank you! thanks for being a great leader in the singing ministry! sometimes can see that we disappoint you in some areas but i believe that one day the singing ministry will have a breakthru! whether is it in presentations or PnW! continue to lead this group that God had entrusted in your hands to a higher level!!! reali thank God for you!! yeepe!!!!!!!!! go go go ah le ah le ah le!!!
at 6:52 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
is it so hard to live our life for the one n only mighty God? he gave us so much even to the extend of His son. but wat are we doing? leading our life meaninglessly. all we can do is to complain. STOP IT! it is too childish! obedience is wat God wants. that's all. if this element is not even wat we can portray,wat moreover love? then all wat we said is useless.
weeeee! sunday was a very fun day man!!! haha! i got Jason,WanQi n Job to come to my hse for guitar lessons!! weeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! the songs that we learn is great man!! haha!! then followed by my singing prac for this sat's ss! hahhaa! my hse like some HQ for YHOPE ppl.. ...hmm... ..hahaha! anyway today meet up Eilton n hmm.. ..our conversation abit weird weird one! hahha! but nv mind coz i believe that time will bring us to knw one another even more!!! rite ?!? haha! reali reali long to see a big breakthru in NYP3 man! in the lives of the ppl! God, must guide me n anoint me man!!!!!! anyway that's all! hahha! jia yo everyone!!
at 11:30 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
*YAWN* reali very sleepy man.. ..hahaha.. ..yesterday after DMM went to watch "whitechick"!! finally i get to watch the show liao!! wahahahaha!! it is lame but it is reali very funi!!! guess wat time is the movie? 10.40pm? nope.. .. 11.10pm? nope.. ..thanks to someone, our movie was at 1.40am!! hahaha! after the movie i went to nel's hse n sleep! haha! same block as eunice! hah! anyway that's all i gonna say! chao~
at 1:57 PM
Most 'church youth' reject absolute truth, McDowell says
by Dwayne Hastings
PHOENIX (BP)--While most parents are concerned about what their kids
are tempted to do, their greater fear should be what they are being
tempted to believe, says Josh McDowell, author of Beyond Belief to
Conviction: What You Need to Help Youth Stand Strong in the Face of Today's
Culture (Tyndale, 2002).
Values drive a youngster's behavior, but their beliefs form their
values, McDowell explains, warning that when a child lacks a
biblically-based truth system to inform their beliefs, their behavior is negatively
impacted.
At present, most evangelical Christian youth deny the reality of
absolute truth, McDowell said: "The very basis of what we must build our
faith upon is truth. When we allow truth to erode, we gut our faith."
McDowell cites the 40 hours of "secular education" and 28 hours of
"secular entertainment" youngsters are exposed to each week as contributing
factors in this truth meltdown.
Most of what children hear during that time is "contrary to everything
we believe in," he says, further noting most evangelical youth receive
less than an hour and a half of biblical instruction weekly. And the
contemporary church is complicit in this, he says.
"We have separated truth from relationships," McDowell says, explaining
that churches ask new members "truth-related questions," such as if
they have trusted in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, but few churches
make inquiries about relationships between their faith in Christ and their
behavior within their family and their community.
"All truth was given for the context of relationships," he said. "Truth
without relationship leads to rejection of the truth."
The number one problem facing America in the 21st century centers on
dads' relationships with their children, says McDowell.
"Daddies are not building intimate, caring, loving relationships with
their children," he says, noting that without these relationships with
their children, children reject the faith of their fathers.
"We have failed to develop convictions in our children's lives," he
says. "Few church kids can give you an idea of why they believe what they
believe."
Parents must model truth before their family if they desire to have a
Kingdom family, McDowell says. "If they don't see truth in your life,
they will walk away from it."
In most homes, there are two generations and two cultures -- a
historical anomaly -- McDowell says. Most evangelical adults process truth
through the Scriptures and their minds, he said, noting younger people
determine truth by using their feelings, emotions and relationships.
With parents: If it is true, it works; for youth: if it works, it is
true, he says.
"It's happening on our watch; we have a generation hanging in the
balance," McDowell says, calling on parents to help bring about a "spiritual
revolution that will get kids to take a stand for Christ regardless of
the consequences."
at 1:56 PM
Mary Southerland: How to deal with stress (part 2)
by Mary Southerland
A Quick Review: Stress is a familiar and faithful companion, an unavoidable part of life and ministry. Stress management is a spiritual discipline that can be developed by following the ten steps found in Psalm 23.
First key: Know whose you are!
Second key: Recognize your source!
I love the story of the Sunday school teacher who asked the children in her class to quote their favorite Bible verse each week. Most Sundays, she had to coax them into standing and sharing. But one Sunday, when she asked if anyone had a verse to share, a little boy's hand immediately shot up! The teacher was so pleased, "Johnny, will you share your favorite verse with us?" The little boy stood confidently as he spoke, "The Lord is my shepherd. He’s all I want." The teacher thought about correcting him but then realized that while he may have quoted the verse wrong, he certainly grasped its true meaning.
Now I don’t know about you, but there are a lot of things I want - material things, success in ministry, healthy relationships, to be loved and appreciated; the list is endless. However, I invariably find myself in spiritual chaos when he is not all I want. In this Psalm, "want" literally means "lack" and refers to the inheritance that is ours as children of the King. That's right. The moment you surrendered your heart and life to God through a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, you were granted an eternal inheritance.
I, along with every other female in the world, have contemplated what it would be like to be an heiress. Visions of fine robes, golden crowns, great wealth and personal servants have danced across my dreams from time to time. The reality is I already am an heiress but often fail to recognize and walk in that incredible wealth. My Father is rich. He owns it all! What a promise from him - to know that we will never lack a single thing we need every step of the way. God will take care of us, supplying every need - not greed. We need to resign from the Kingdom of Thingdom.
As we read this Psalm, we tend to think it is referring to material possessions alone. In fact, it is probably easier for many of us to address the issues of materialism rather than facing those darker longings of our very human hearts. While materialistic hunger is a constant and troublesome craving, even greater longings nudge us toward certain danger. Emotional needs that are met in the wrong places, by the wrong people in the wrong way can destroy a ministry and bury a marriage. The desire for success - even success in ministry – can plunge us into a deep, dark pit of burnout and exhaustion , derailing the plan of God in our lives. Pride flourishes, masked in our carefully constructed lies of humility and compliance. Outwardly, we feign a submissive heart while inwardly, ego reigns, veiled in a false obedience and artificial commitment.
Just as a loving father meets the needs of his children, God meets our needs. Your husband and children are not your source. Your ministry is not your source. He is your source. I really believe that much of our stress is the result of misplaced expectations - expecting the people in our lives to meet needs only God can meet. Release them from that impossible responsibility and let God be your source.
Calvin Miller says it beautifully, "The world is poor because her fortune is buried in the sky and all her treasure maps are of the earth." Amen!
A word from Mary: Most people would tell you that I am a very strong woman. It took a complete breakdown for me to realize that I was on ly as strong as my human personality and abilities would allow me to be. I was, in short, looking in all the wrong places for the deepest needs of my heart to be met. But when all was stripped away by clinical depression, I was left with nothing but broken dreams and unanswered questions. It was there, in that dark pit, that I found him to be enough. He is my source. Let him be yours.
at 1:50 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
wat is the purpose in our life? study? play? sing? i guess it is all. just how we manage my time for all these. well, goin back to our slacker's life is not what we want. a BIG NO NO to slacking. it will just pull us down to become a person who will be inefficient. is this wat we want? think again before we conclude an answer. seen a lot of ppl backing out in their faith n claim that they didn't, reali makes me sick in my stomach. truth is harsh but believe me, i do still love all these ppl. for one main reason.. ..God still loves them as who they are.
*ouch* my legs are dying soon man! wahahahha!!!! walking in and out in the ward reali kills me man. reali wonder how the full-time nurses tahan it.. .. haha! anyway within this 2 weeks of attachment (this week is my last week b4 heading back to school! ya!), i mistook the patients as my frenz or either my family members! shock rite?!? i got this patient who looks like reagan! i nearly went up n ask him "wat are you doing here man!" but then i look again n thank god, i didn't approach him.. ..or else i reali dunno how to clear up the mess man.. .. wahahah! another case was this army boy was sleeping n i tell you , if i didn't reali stared at him very long, i would thought it was my older bro! this is very scary man! guess morning that's y.. ...
anyway that's all i wana say! gonna watch my "stairway to heaven"!! tata!!!!
at 6:56 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
is it very hard to obey wat God has told us to do? loving ppl, focus on God totally? yearning for something yet deny that we don't yearn for? is shepherd's love all we want? why? why? why? realise that i am very very short-term memory this few weeks. i am scared. i thought it's just that maybe very tired that's y cannot remember.. .. but it's getting serious man. God pls so something abt this.. .. anyway it's time to move on.
i want to grow up. no longer do i want to see myself stuck in the same prob again n again. i am sick of it! i want to do better in everything! i don't expect 100 marks for everything but just improvement! y is it so hard? is it because of pride? not confident to overcome? i gotta to find the answer. end of story.
yesterday when i went home with my brother. i asked him what is the thing he wana see in himself as now he is serving God n studying. guess what he say? "i wan to see myself knowing Jesus more." *WHAT??* (are my ears working??) wow!!! this sentence actuali come out from my brother's lips! i tell you.. ..in the mist of the storm, God is always faithful. this is so true man. this is reali a blessing to me. it has been a long time that i long to see my whole household serving the Lord! two is serving the Lord now so two more to go. not impossible coz i am serving the "everything is possible" God! the storm in my life now is big but well i believe others out there are going thru even bigger storm. so who am i to say that i am the worse? haha!
hey my bro, you and Daniel are the greatest gift that God has given to me. thanks for serving God with me(to Jonathan)! hope to see that you become a shepherd soon!
Dawn,Denice,Gorgia,Eilton,Job,Darren. the NYPians of no. 3, thanks for serving God n longing to see the revival of our cg! let's hit the goal we set! serve the all wonderful n loving God till the last breath you have on earth.
[Ephesians 6: 10-18]
at 11:35 AM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Wee!!!!! my blog nice rite!! wahaha! thank God for WanRong!!! hahaha!!! finally i have changed my blog!!!
at 12:42 AM
