Bring me rain

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
"Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus
Bring the rain
I am yours regardless of the clouds that may loom above
because you are much greater than my pain
you who made a way for me suffering your destiny
so tell me whats a little rain "

you could use a smack in your head

its been awhile since i last posted up something. the strange and random quirks of my everyday life has been left fleeting through my goldfish memory. sorry gloria. i know you wouldnt have a rebuttal to this.

life has been so extremely hectic the past couple of weeks. preparing for an event has never ever been as taxing, yet strangely fun. that i actually find joy in stressing myself out like this. for some really odd reason, i did. i've realised how anal i can be when i take ownership of an event or a task for that matter. like if it isnt really MY thing, MY ass on the line, i really wouldnt care less and will probably do as asked.. or what i can at minimal, barely giving a rats ass about the outcome. but thank God it went well. and i daresay, ZERO hitches even. well done team, you deserve a pat on your back and a fat juicy hug to go along with it.

birdpark on the other hand has been left neglected in a dusty corner at the back of my head. not that i cannot multitask and handle multiple projects at the same time, it just doesnt interest me anymore. and like any normal human being, you'd slack off and produce slipshod work if forced to do so. refer to 'rats ass' theory above.

i dont know how i lost it. i used to be in love with the park. i mean, i still do, am! for that matter. maybe all these feelings have been packed away and transported to sentosa along with nick. maybe because we worked so well together, thats why it was motivating to work. maybe having him as my boss was way more a motivational factor than being here at the park. so now that he's gone, though everything else remains the same, the pull factor and novelty has just worn off. it just isnt the same anymore and my love with this place doesnt run as deep as it used to. urgh, God, do something about it quick.

my mind functions largely on my emotions. i work well when i feel good. i'm sure thats the same for most, but i do envy those who can shut off and compartmentalise their lives even though they hate their jobs. once again, i'm sure many do that as well. i just need to be more focused and get through this somehow. going through camp last week did spark an inspiration, and i figured i will need this job one way or another. it just isnt time yet. so hang in there gloria, what wouldnt kill you will honestly make you stronger. character building aye. oh my...just push me through.....

i've even been so pressured (finally) to get to work ontime. and by doing so, the only consolation i can soothe my tired body with is that i'll cab to work. which is insane! $15 x 5days = $75 bucks per week. darn it. i so need to work out my finances. better still, psycho gerren to send me to work every morning. haha, his new bumblebee will do the trick just fine. that, or i better revive my bike lessons and get it working for me, not the other way around.

oh gloria. you need a hug badly and some lovin. you need the wisdom of God to get through this. every March and August strangely never goes well ever in my life. it has been so evident that despite being as scatterbrained as i am with planning sometimes, i actually have noticed it. tsk. but as mervin said over service last sunday (yes, i woke up for church even though the party was on sat) that it is time to make a choice. to either live, or let live. the truth of its meaning has never been more real to me. buck up glor. you can do it. you need to.

2009 bloody reasons

i cannot concentrate! ive got a heap of work piling up, the phone has been ringing endlessly and emails have been raining down on my head since 615am. THESE PEOPLE DONT SLEEP! and why so?! all because of one bloody STB 2009 reasons campaign that they decided to launch. just one campaign and it drives everyone insane. and to think my retard of a GM thought no one would be coming for this and urged everyone to bring their friends and family over the weekend. come on man! you obviously havent hanged around in singapore long enough. singaporeans + freebies = WAR. damnit. gloria come on. buck up and get your act together. you need to get out of the office soonest possible. i'm just praying id last thru the day. so so tired. and all i can think about are the posters/eDMs that have yet to go out for the party. crappos. i hope i dont end up swapping places with grandma by the end of the day. :(

and i'm feeeeeling gooooood..

i actually quite liked today. even though i was lamenting relentless to eugene last night about how i've got a battlefield to face today during the meeting at the zoo, i survived nonetheless. well done gloria. you deserve a hugee huggg.

maybe because i managed to get to the zoo early. not on time, but early. partly because i stole the car the night before, but still! having a car is SOOOO convenient. urgh. i should so get my bike license soon. thats the only vehicle whos presence in glorias future doesnt look bleak and fantasyish.

or maybe because the meeting was tolerable. infact, it was quite enjoyable apart from yawning every 5mins for staying up late, but it was ok! i quite liked the update session. it didnt seem as war-ish as it used to. maybe because pam isnt here to stir shit anymore. hmm.. or maybe its the people i saw today that made it all good. i finally met gwen after so so soooo long. and just being in the zoo, however corporate the environment may sometimes get, it still beats having a dead silent office here at the birdpark. or maybe its the goooooood lunch i had at ulu at night safari. the fact that i didnt have to eat out of a box like what i do every single day. that i had thick fragrant laksa sauce sliding down my throat as compared to the hospital food i get served with everyday. or maybe its because i spent almost 2 hours talking over lunch and just hanging out with the rest of the team talking about the most random of issues rather than sit at my desk facebooking whilst having lunch at the birdpark.

maybe because i took a walk and i wasnt greeted with the usual cadbury+birdshit smell or that it wasnt just birds i could oogle at. at least the zoo had more eyecandies, however hairy or big bottomed they were. however beastly they seemed, it was goood. wayyy gooood. even the mousedeer feeding was entertaining enough. and the air seemed way fresher and i had a view to stare out into, the mandai lake was captivating, as compared to my industrial polluted air and the construction infested view back home at bird park.

or maybe its because i met chef kelvin and we spent a good 15mins talking about our next dive trip.. and how i should hook eugene up with aikheng so equatordive can manage WRS' dive trips. things like that gets me excited. especially since now alvin's gone and i dont have anyone left in office to make me drool about the next big thing underwater.

whatever it is, i think the change of environment was refreshing. gloria can use more of such days. i cant wait to see chubs tomorrow and to laugh at how his chingay went. but i'm sooo proud of him. he and his sexy flamingo outfit which he paraded down the streets of cityhall. i've got a heap of work and reports to tabulate but i'm actually feeling good. being alone in office at 9pm doesnt seem to affect my mood. oooh, i know times like these dont last. as in, that i can actually still feel good about being stranded here doing a 12hour workshift yet again, so id better vanish before the stupidity of staying in so late starts to set in. hahaha.

baby birdies

working on a sunday gives me time for adhoc activities like these. and the park is empty enough so its good. i like it that way. gerren said someone dropped off baby woodpeckers. how cutee!!! so i had to run down to the hospital to check them out. oh my.. but just like any other baby bird, they were ugly. no, they were pretty in their own way.. its an acquired taste in beauty. the sort only the mother will love. haha.


this was the older, more dominant fella. the other one was half dead, barely moving. very very upsetting. he died eventually i believe. it wasnt moving by the time we transferred him into the isolation room. they were sooo funny. because woodpeckers nest in treeholes with tiny openings like these, this fella thought the hole in the shoebox was where he was supposed to stick his head out for food. even though the lid was wide opened.. how cuteee!!!


see, head out, body in. hur hurhur..

baby scopes owl. i love baby owls. they are probably the only cute looking baby birds ever..

baby hyacinth macaw. like i said, mangly mangly.. haha.


barn owl with an injured wing though i have no idea why he was flaunting his leg like that. i think he was trying to seduce me. hahahha.

so after a hard day at work. tough job i have huh huh huh, i got home to some good ol loheyyyyy! huat ah!!!

God blessed the broken road..

i'm so addicted to this song..



I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

APAD - AHAW

i dont think this APAD thing works for me anymore. after a month long of being religious at it, it doesnt make sense. not that it is a chore to keep up, or that i have trouble honestly taking a picture a day. i just do not post A PHOTO A DAY anymore! sing hui called it AHAW. A HEAP A WEEK. hahha. i couldnt agree more. i've got too much going on in my life, too many events to document pictures of. i cant deal with just one.

so screw it. so long APAD. be gone and well.. i will still post pictures up everyday, it just cannot live up to its 'A' photo status any longer. haha..