till my cup runneth over
its been a month long of mia-ing from church. and i've always rationalised with it saying that i've got this camp and that. but i doubt God's on my side of the rationale. i need to put in more effort, really.
its been a crazy long week. i had 2 camps, back to back. and needless to say, they were tiring but good fun. and since both camps were tiny. like 80pax-ish. and only 4 instructors, it served as a good bonding camp for us too.
we had like way too many extra mattresses at labpark. enough to fight with princess and the pea. so wenjie and i piled on 50million mattresses each. wait, fine, just 2. but in a situation where you'd think you'll at most get a safari bed, beach bed or hammock, they were as good as premium sixstar hotel beds. really.
with zhangmei's morning uzap alarms, i should by right be skinnier. but having camps in singapore are way better than being stranded on st. john's like my first camp. mainly because we get supper. hurhur. some angel would send down pratas and what nots from india, i swear its from india. it has to be authentic coz it tasted really good. haha!
though being on st. johns make you appreciate the tiniest of things, like a subzero degree bottle of coke hidden in the giant campro of ice and water, i'd still rather camps in singapore.
i had one with compassvale pri sch. it was some p4/5 leadership camp. so they were good to begin with. and rather cute too. haha! this whole little people thing is getting to me. i love how you can talk right out of your ass and they'd still buy it. just add like 3tonnes of excitment and enthusiasm, they'd buy it. hur.. fun.
then the week ended with singapore jap sch. they were so cute, i was so darn tempted to pack them away while they were in a collapsed tent trying to strike it down. haha, id just roll the tent up with them still inside and pack it into the bag. im sure no one would realise. hur hur. so so cute. i never thought myself as one who would like jap kids. it was more of a cultural exchange. an interesting one, nevertheless. and after meeting my kawaiis, singapore kids no longer cut it for me. man, im such a sucker for foreign blood. haha. but honestly, sg kids are just spoilt. plain spoilt. boo.
they were like the polite-est, most punctual, happiest and rosiest kids ive ever met. they even beat my french and jap kids last time when i used to coach swimming. im certain the immense number of them made a difference. ahha.
so there, i wished i had the discipline and time to do photos, but as usual, next time would suffice.
now for the more important part.
i finally went to church today. new creations. i knew i had to go. and espcially how i didnt wake up for service either. despite the dreaded mindset i had in my head about how they're so into prosperity and stuff, and they're too new-age a church for me to connect with as compared to my not so conservative family methodist church, i enjoyed myself. i was drowning in nostalgia. its as if you've refound a long lost friend. someone you've known for your entire life. i missed doing what i used to love. i missed being immersed in worship. singing till your throat hurt. with arms lifted till it ached.
maybe i should cross over, hur hur. its so tempting. and having new good friends to be with there is such a draw. maybe familiarity truly breeds contempt. ive never thought that changing church was an option. i mean, if you dont like something, be the change right? i dont know, we shall let God lead aye?
its a challenge, really. to live each day for God. especially how my past 2 years have been, someone needs to relight my fire. haha. id probably need more than a campfire worth, probably a burning forest might do justice to the intensity of how mamahuge a flame id need.
even going for camps are tough. kids are watching your every move. fellow instructors too. and though camp highachiever's a product of new creations, i still need to be wary and watch my every step.
i just wished it was easier. that God has everything panned out for me. so it'll be more like a 10course dinner where you eat as it comes rather than being stuck in a foodcourt full of choices. no, make that foodfair full of choices. yea.
id pray hard that i'll keep it up. that maybe i'd get an area to serve in church too. like what kern said today, not serve because i feel that i need to, but serve because i'm overflowing and cant contain it.
