HALOHALOween!! :)

so its halloween. i mean, all efforts put into trying to gather everyone for the little america's trick-or-treating proved futile. no one wanted to go. no one wanted to dress up. no one wanted to spend money on apparently ridiculous costumes. no one... :(

i mean, i never knew i was the only one who actually looked forward to halloween. must have been the apple monster i was when i was 4. hur hur. kevin, stop grinning to yourself because you know ure one of the few who knows about how my mom dressed me up as the killer apple monster for halloween when i was 4.. hmm, well, not anymore. now EVERYONE knows. hahahahha. the oversized 4year old kiddo was a killer apple monster.

like fine, i guess there will always be next year, i can deal with the wait before it hits me that we really didnt go. its time like these where you appreciate the joys of examination stress. it shifts your brain into the retardation gear. makes you feel alot less upset as compared to what you'd usually feel. retardation of emotions. no, still the brain. its making you realise it slowly than you normally would. process information slower. information.. urgh information. i hate information. bloody waste-of-14-marks information. i just got reminded of how i screwed myself over this question on the information processing model. urgh, what am i talking about. the information process. yes, thats more like it.

anyhow, im not gonna talk about it.

its a personal ground rule i abide to. no talking about a screwed up paper 2 hours after it. so there. hmmph.

yes, halloween. i ended up spending it rather fruitfully i must say. quite pleased with how my day ended. i mean, i did stuff that i havent done in a really long time, and i know, stop nagging, i know ive got another paper on thursday. but..but i need my break. so too bad.

i spent the afternoon with kevin. he picked me up from school, had our wonderous nasi lemak which i so easily tempted him into, spent quite a bit of time at petlovers..and found this awesome petshop that christine recommended. oh mama, who would have ever thought that holland has 4 petshops instead of 3. oh man, it has got to be the most gorgeous pet shop i have ever seen. too bad it wasnt opened. more on that when i do actually go in. which will be soon, soon.

we got caught in the rain. and running after heavy nasi lemak wasnt all too enticing. the ikan billis were probably dancing happily with the mouth watering chicken thigh in my tummy. no, bad mix. must have been the chicken thigh and egg. afterall, they were once related. hur hur. i dont know whats causing my sudden outbursts of retardedness lately. kevin pointed out that ive been sprouting alot of nonsense. i mean, i always do, this time, its just aLOT more. so much till the extent that the one guy who can actually put up with my spasms cant anymore. boo.

i got back to school, and sat myself in ngee ann's library. i really did intend to start studying. but i got distracted by the huge collection of craft books they had. i mean, you honestly cant blame me. crafts = an inspired gloria = your potential birthday/christmas present. so hah! hur hur hur.

i ran 6 today instead of the usual 10, played touch (yay!) and squash (double yay!) and got trashed by junjie and ryan. (darn it. people i used to easily trash in the past have caught up. urgh.) i could blame the nasi lemak chilli burning in my stomach, the lack of exercise and training, my poor rhumetismish aching knee due to the cold weather or i could just be blatant and say those dreaded 3 words. aiyah, you know, i know, everyone knows. you dont wanna say i say la.

well.

"ooh,glor, ure fat."

ooh, ouch. painful.

whatever. i had too much of a headstart when my mama popped me out at a whopping 4.2kg. one hell of a big baby i was. thank God i required like zero attention from her. if not my mama would have freaking huge biceps. haha.

i have been exercising. so we'll see soon enough whether all these squashing, running and touching has been helping. hur..touching. haha, Sunand, focus! dont get distracted. hahahahhaha..

i cant wait till thurs.

ooh mama.

DONT TALK game

so yyong, jay and i were in sch studying. its the night before my BB paper, i.e. my second last paper. well, who can eVER concentrate when they're tHAT close to the finish line. i know for one, i couldnt. .

i was so hyper that day. and when jay joined us an hour later, it only meant that i had one more person to chat with. hur hur. but i really had work to do, had millions of chapters to complete.

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the "DONT TALK" game. hahahaha!

it was so stupid. i mean, you play these kinda stuff in like primary school right. and the penalty was to buy supper after. so the three of us refused to relent. and man, was it way effective. i cleared so many more chapters that i had ever imagine. haha. and it didnt just go on for like 10mins. we played from like 715 to 930pm. haha. torturous i swear. one of the longest 2 hours i have ever had to endure. but it was so so stupid.

so at 929pm, this whole bunch of aunties came and asked jay whether the seat was taken, and whether they could have it. hahahhahahhaha!

and he went,"sure! no problem!"

yyong and i burst out laughing so hard, we could almost feel some abs forming. it was hilarious. and jayson, being the person that he is, couldnt take the brutalilty of our laughter. he was like, yeah! i buy how many, you must finish how many! so we were like oh yea? really? we'd shift equan's birthday party there then, to alazaar! hahahaha. oh mama, jay probably had wanted to bash through the walls and scream his lungs out. and us? man, it was classic.

here's to our soon-to-come prata buffet! hurhur hur.

bird and cat: OUT!

what?!

i know. same damn reaction i had. my mom is ridiculous. i am convinced that all mothers had to attend a "nag-a-day" course before they become mothers. i hope i'd never turn out like her. although many would beg to differ. that your parents' style of upbringing would influence your style of bringing up your kids in the future, conscious or subconsciously, whether we like it or not.

i think this week had been rather peaceful. maybe its due to the sudden absence at home. that my mom only got back to singapore on tues, that i wasnt home the past few nights. well, seems like it. coming home at 3am from christines on tues makes it seem as if i wasnt home all night. (another warped definition from my mother; another point that makes me darn certain that she learnt that from 'nag-a-day' sch too) stayed over at her place again on wed, came back home past 12 on thurs after supper with yyong and returning at 5am last night, well, this morning from christine/bens/lances place for our supopsedly surprise AHA attack on the boyfriends. so yup, id subscribe to the idea that my mother has been feeling the brunt of my MIAness and she just had to get it out of her system. apparently "nag-a-day" teaches you to hold in all urges of lashing out at your kid, only to release at a later date. thats like "nag-a-day" intermediate level aka "yell-a-day". it trains you to retain all forms of emotion in preparation for a spring surprise attack on your seemingly harmless victim on, well, say, a bright sunny saturday afternoon when victim 001 is sitting innocently infront of the computer. then...

"ADUGEN!"

bish. victim 001's life meter drops by half.

with that accomplished, she can safely say that she has accquired the Ryu inspired "yell-a-day" skill, custom designed for busy weekend parents.

sigh.

anyway, back to the point.

i merely asked for the car to go pick some birdie stuff with christine and she unreasonably hammers me with the ultimate killer statement: i want to throw the bird and cat out!

like what!!?!

i thought i only had to deal with issues like these when i was younger, when i had no say, or didnt know what to say, in defence to her random throw-animals-out syndrome. i remmebered when i was younger and she suddenly decided that the cat has to go, i frantically hid the cat under the bed, climbed atop and cried and cried with all hopes to distract her. stupid cat climbed out, obviously. sigh. and there goes my beloved pet.

so, needless to say, when you mention something like bird and cat out, all traumatising memories of her throwing my animals out gushes back into my head. apparently they had some NEW tenancy agreement that no birds and cats were allowed in here. like what rubbish. who ever writes a tenancy agreement that states clearly no birds NOR cats are allowed. ridiculous. so i can keep a dog, horse, elephant la. but bird and cat cannot. coz cats got allergens in their fur and birds go tweetweet. what rubbish.

no way are you laying your grubby fingers on my darlings. theres absolutely no possibility of you doing what youve done over and over and over again to me ever. touch them and id physically take you apart, set your hair on fire and ask birdbird to peck your brains out. i will, dont you dare daunt me. i will..

i dont ever wanna move! :(

i was just talking to sunand about moving out, and it suddenly occured to me that my family has never really had a place of our own. the pros and cons of having a dad as a pastor. im sure many can relate, those big businessman travelling half way around the world with their families. or missionaries whose kids follow everywhere they go. but at least they got to see some, lived in different parts of the world. so thats ok.

but in my case, its different. technically, i should be used to it. ive moved plenty of times when i was younger. like, i grew up in bedok, the only actual place that my parents owned. then to my current place here in telok blangah when my dad got posted back to grace methodist. then we moved to boston for a year and a half. then to australia for a couple of months, and then to jalan besar when we got back. again, being posted to another church.

i remmeber loving the place at jalan besar. we had neighbours at least. ive havent had neighbours to live with for the longest time ever. we always had people over. wait, no, we still ALWAYS have people over anyway. so thats ok. and then my dad got posted back to grace methodist. so we ended up living somewhere else in telok blangah whilst this place was getting renovated. and then we shifted back here.

i guess when ure younger, it really doesnt matter where you lived. there will always be the parents who would chauffer you everywhere. now that youre older, youre ppretty much on your own. well, even if you had a car, it still matters where you live since ure the one driving now. rah...

i dont wanna ever mooveeeeee..................... :( :( :(

boo.

rantafella rant!

you really cannot blame me for spending probably the past 50 hours playing diner dash. its inbuilt in my system now, after having worked at simply bread for the past two and a half months. i have to find a substitute. there are cleaning vibes within my body that urges me to clear tables and chop tomatoes. i cant help it. so just in case i dont get this bloody job back, ive got good old diner dash to seek solace in.

so after playing 50 hours of diner dash, my darling batman comes over and challenges me to puzzle fighter. like man, im like puzzlefighter guru la. dont anyhow play play. i will gem your eyeballs out.. or so i thought. we played 10 pushups per round. darn it. its a lousy gamble. especially since my opponents a newbie in army. i.e. pushups are as common as the booger in your nose, as easy as snoozing whilst watching days of our lives. (and i would know, because i dont have SCV) so stupid me, decides to challenge batman. sigh. now it works like the revolutionary answer to flabby arms. i should do it more often. hur.

there are so many irritating motorcyclist zooming down mt faber. rah. i bet half of them are drunk. freaking yelling their brains out at 4am in the morning. urgh. im feeling so downright bitchy now. but its alright, i dont feel one bit remorseful about that. damn the haze. damn the bright LCD. its giving me a freaking headache.

mom just blatantly told me today that we might have to move soon. sigh. the annoyance is finally kicking in. i mean, i never really realised how plausible the possibilities of getting chucked out of my very humble abode was till today. i always thought that, oei, my dads the big old senior high ranking pastor here. he's like the general in church. so cannot anyhow play play. or my moms the head of the commitee that runs this place. so too bad, nanny nanny boob boob. theres no way ure gonna erradicate us out of my comfort zone.

sigh.

somethings are too good to be true.

so guys, come over more often. it may be your last. :(

i mean, if i had a cool looking new home to look forward to, i probably wouldnt mind. if my options are like the carribean, or like some freaking awesome estate, it wouldnt be that bad. or maybe just anywhere with a pool and a gym. that would be sweet. but.. but..i havent even lived in a HDB for the past 60 years or something. ok, fine, 16years? you cant blame me, really. bahh. for all you know, i might just have a morbid fear of lifts or something. i mean, they put freaking windows in those lifts la. who knows what kind of momock you might see on your way up. (kudoos to those living on the 30th floor, you dont have a morbid fear of lifts, so shutup) i mean, you'll really never know. and then now with vivocity popping up. and all the other cool establishments on the way. argh. so sucky. and st. james powerhouse :(. i still wanna live out that fantasy of walking home after clubbing la. boo. then even so, you cant scream your lungs out, blast music or do anything without fearing your sucky neighbours tattle tailing on you. and all my animals how? baby how? he's not gonna get used to it la. he'll probably do 10 sommersaults for me to see if we really do move out. sigh.. im getting very depresssed.

my birdbird will have no space. my fish tank will have to downgrade to those 2dollar plastic containers. my gerbils will have to settle nicely in baby's warm welcoming stomach. boo. :( and not to mention the other fella. rah, no more space! and whats gonna substitute my lovely mt faber. how are we gonna have cool lantern parties if we dont have my place as our arson HQ. i dont wannnt... :(:(

i think i shall be like the animals in the storybook,' the twits'. i will get alot of superglue, and stick everything down to the floor. so in that way, they wont be able to get rid of us no matter what. maybe just maybe..

this post is so dreadful. i need a haircut. speaking of hair, i can never understand why God gave us women armpit hair. so useless. not like men's armpit hair's very useful la. but still. its a can do without. it doesnt keep it warmer there. it doesnt nEED to be warmer there anyway. the world would be such a happier place without those hideous stray strands. i think its the only reason i'm thankful about having sparse, little hair. i could do with more hair on my head and eyebrows. thankfully im clean from the hairy things on my arms and legs. ah bother. i dont even know what im talking about. i better keep quiet. wait one of these days, i get a housefly stuck down there. eee. hahaha. i vaguely recall this incident where a very fat hairy indian lady had her arms up in the air, holding onto the rail in a suffocating, no ventilation non aircon bus. vaguely, because i dont quite wanna remember it. so yes, a housefly did fly in, and mama, she just HAD to get off the next stop. that poor fly. im certain its worse than tim's horrific account of the brunei jungle. u poor fly. if u still can fly. if not, ill half to call you a walk. or a crawl. or a squish! wahahaha.

the stupid motorcycle people are still zooming down mt faber. i swear they'll going in circles. up from faber lodge and down my side. so freaking irritating. dont make so much noise la. unless you let me join you. hur hurhhur. i heard you can ride in vietnam. i cant cant wait man. even if i cant, id go bribe some hanoi dude with my pretty tiny eyes and my gorgeous smile. worse come to worse, ill send lionel as backup la. rabbits are handy useful sidekicks, i swear. haha.

oh man, i can go on forever.

i just sprayed some very nice smelling mosquito baygon under my table. these stupid buggers have been buffeting on my very juicy thighs. its time theyve been taught a lesson. they need to understand that those thighs theyre sucking on holds up the ass of a very anti-mosquito being. so too bad. die you deadly things. die die die!

if i believed in the whole reincarnation thing, i might just come back as a mosquito la. haha. alan was saying the other day that with the amount of bread he throws per day, he's confirmed coming back as flour. hahahahaha. i honestly couldnt stop laughing. not too bad actually. flour's the building blocks of carls' junior's yummy burgers. ooh, everyone will love you la. and not to mention krispykreme. oh mama. being flour is wonderful! speaking of which, i still need to bribe christine into giving me some of those heavenly krispymamas lance bought from jarkarta. ooooh mama. the mouthwatering krispykremers are giving me krispykremey sugar highs! hahaha, now that i might be losing my job, i should seriously consider candy empire's offer for working at vivo man. ahhahaha. ill be the candy lady then. everyone would love me even more than bread lady. i know yyong would. then you guys would all be fat and bogay. haha. yayyy.

ooh, i should end here. if i continue to rant, the heavenly krispykreme images will pop out of my head. then i wouldnt have sweet donut dreams of..ooh..krispy...ooh mama..ohh krispy kremey..ooohh...

upcoming events events events!

so people, here are the 4 days, well, maybe more.. to keep yourselves free.

31st October 2006: Little America's Halloween Party!
awesome full fledged authentic american halloween party. we have to dress up guys, if not, no candies for trick-or-treating! heres a sneak on gracie's excellent video she did for her final proj on last year's little america's halloween party.



28th Nov 2006: its esplanade's free lunchbox special again. and this time, they're featuring a jazz popover with shirlyn tan featuring the unXpected! so yayyy! 1245pm esplanade concert hall. free! this we CANNOT miss.

16th - 22nd Dec 2006: we're planning on visiting eva in medan, indonesia. tickets should be roughly 200ish. and since everything else will be provided for, why not? haha!

16th Dec 2006: Jazz Christmas Concert with Corrine May. ooh, tickets are cheap. but since we're going to medan, i shant rav more about this. i might make myself jealous. hur hur..

22nd Dec 2006: Noel Asiana Jazz Christmas Concert. Yet another! its good, its all gooood.

so yay! there! RSVP!

PetStar - Einstein

this birdie's amazing! if only birdbird could do the same. haha. roddy, dont learn pup training first ok. go learn birdie training then train birdbird first ok? haha! awesome!

i want a torch

urgh. i really cant focus. i really wanted to stay up to study today, but whilst talking to christine on the phone, she introduced me to a whole new level of online/downloadable games. she even gave me her PRO account to use. darn it. i got so hooked, i spent the past3 hours trying to save granny's home from being repossessed my the bank by renovating other houses. darn it. haha

gloria + retarded 2D games = fun + endless

haha. sigh. i really really need to study. i hope tmr will be better. hope i will finally get some work done. maybe i'd really end up writing about tim's blind people proj for my papers. sigh.

so tim eva grace and i studied in school yesterday. it was hilarious. tim had to get ideas from us on "THINK OF WAYS TO AID THE HANDICAPPED WITH THE USE OF I.T ". so he asked me what i want out of a walking stick if i were blind. naturally, i said, id get a dog. he said, no, it HAS to be a walking stick. so i said fine, sensors.

eva, said.."i want my walking stick to have a torchlight".

silence.

then tim and i burst out laughing so hard till our stomachs hurt. hahaha. it was hilarious. next she said, maybe should have an inbuilt umbrella. yea, so when it rains, all the blind person have to do is to eject that inbuilt umbrella right. so when it really does rain, the blind person would be sheltered, but by doing that, he'd have to stand there till it stops so he can get his walking stick back to guide him again. hahahaha.. oh eva. u silly girl.

it went on and on, endlessly.

haha.

i need to study!

alan called today. he apparently found out that we've been having crazy amounts of friends over at the shop, walking in and out of the counter. i dont know, i know it aint right, but so what. we just wont do it again. what can you possibly do? fire us? like seriously, firing us would be like digging your own grave and shouting yipee when you jump into it. bahh..whatever. screw it. i dont need a 6dollarperhour job. i should go back to swimming. or beg christine to hire me. HUR HURHUR, roddy would be so jealous. haha. OH PUPPEEE>.......

Singlish Security Lecture - ICS

this is hilarious. standup comedy from the international canadian sch. very well done. he speaks better singlish than i do! haha. :)

Lantern fest 2006!

after postponing a week, there was no way i was ever gonna cancel on them again.

we finally had our longly awaited lantern arsoning parade. we have to keep this up guys. its only this one time of the year where we get to burn everything without getting caught. hur hur hur. i know you wannnttt to.... hur hur..

they were late as usual. pretty glad i told them to meet at 7 and not 10. because they did come at 10. it takes years of experience to cultivate the ability of knowing exactly when they'll arrive. ahha. i spent the day with christine, she came over early to help me clean up the fish tank and birdie's cage. and we went for zeeboy's training! that gorgeous brown husky. will post photos when my laptop resurrects. darn laptop. sigh.

we ended up watching brother bear 2 armed with pizzas whilst waiting for the rest. it was fun, catching up. havent seen crystal for the past threemillion years. so yay! :)

we got up to mt faber after they got to my place and started our little arson spree. hur, it was crazy. pup even had her own lantern to hold. i would say last year was better, but this year proved its worth of the amount of anticipation invested in. haha. hz went around poking everyones lanterns with his sparklers again. and we had our annual fling-sparkler-into-tree ceremony again. haha. it was good. good.


pup and her lantern.








at least this year we've got better photos than last years group photo of darkness and sparkler lights. ahha.


roddy getting humped by pup.



had supper at fong seng. yes, after 2 large pizzas. haha.

and back to my place after. i wished more people came tho. it was sufficient, but i wished kevin could have made it this year. lionel and equan too. we've gotta keep this up, really.

back to my place at 2am, everyone just lost it. blame it on the tiredness, on the urge to consume. we all went mad! haha. we played this hilarious name game with cartoon characters. roddy was alice in wonderland, me, ninja turtles, hz JOHNNY BRAVO, jay, bananaman and adeline spiderman. it was so funny. haha.




ooh, the nerdies..


we had our own round of 5 10. rod and jay had this evil plan of getting me drunk that night. thank God neither were sober enough to pull it off. haha. till next time darlings, you've really gotta try harder. dont forget that God gave me 4livers. i shouldnt even start on the number of bladders ive got. haha.

oh what a night.

mug shot of the culprits.

after 1simirnoff red, a quarter of the simirnoff blue export strength, half of the baileys, one carton of jimbeam cola, the remnants of the absolut ruby red amongst just the 6 of us. we had to call it a night.. day.. at 5ish 6am. haha. ooh..

the twines: ning and en glor?

these few days have been weird. im beginning to morph into alot of different people. first being rod. that we found a picture oh too similiar. and now ningning. i remembered how this customer totally mistook me for ning at the shop and insisted that i was her. haha. sheesh, like she doesnt already have a twin sister. haha.

i will attempt to blog a post with pictures of the gloria wannabes someday when my laptop decides to ressurect again. and maybe, just maybe, i might photoshop ning's bangs on my forehead to really see how possibly alike we could ever look. hur hur hur..sounds like a plan. doesnt it. hur hur hur..

XLBwala

so its all back. after 2 weeks of dreadful non-walaing, im back in action. though with a different crowd now, its all good. its always good.. ooh.

finally got to meet up with serene. i doubt there'll ever come a time where i'd ever dread meeting her. yea, not counting the times where she falls asleep on me like almost every other minute i stop talking. haha, but still.

we had our xiaolongbao feast! just between the 2 of us, we had like twenty over xiaolongbaos. 3 different types. ooh. yummy. its been too long since i last had xiaolongbao. hur hur.. too bad corn-knee feet kio was stuck at work. haha.

its a thursday, we presumed the unXpected was gonna play. but nooooo, this band from balaclava stood in for them instead. they weree pretty good. to play at bala, theyve gotta be something. sweet. and they played all the non-classics. the non typical band songs. goood stuff. serene kept swooning over the lead singer. it was hilarious.

so serene needed to pee, and she did, and she came back looking all frazzled dazzled telling me a girl asked her to dance with her. i was like,'didnt you go to the toilet?' and she went, yah! she wanted me to dance with her in the toilet. and i almost laughed off my seat. turned around and tried to figure out who she was, (butch image in head), this pretty good bod girl was standing there with some guy. haha, funny, out with a guy and she wanted to dance with my girl. so it was my turn to pee, and when i came back out, that pretty hot bod girl was harrassing my serene. arms around her, asking her to dance with her. and we were at wala for crying out loud! gosh. honestly speaking, i was still rather amuse. i would freak if it was a guy, probably would have bashed the poor dude, but it was a girl. so who cares! no, a pretty hot bod girl to be exact. why not throw my head back in laughter instead. haha.


pretty hot bod: your friend very paiseh! dont want to dance with me!

glor: thats coz shes mine! (reaches over to grab serene, and simultaneously knocks over her beer)

pretty hot bod: (pissed off, walks off)

glor: (toilet to clean up)

and when i got back, she was at it again! i mean, darn her man! she really wouldnt stop aye. but this time when i got back, she moved off. so it was all good. i had big issues to deal with then, like soaking of my drunken kilkenny shorts. haha.

what a night. and woodlands is so freaking far! but for your company girlie, i really wouldnt complain. ;)

nerdos

haha. roddy, this is such a classic. it shall remain on your desktop for a really really long time ok. haha. :)

i had a superb day with ben today. i guess this whole 10th of the 10th thing is dying off. its really how you wanna look at it. and what you make out of it that makes the difference. i was telling lionel today that i should stay home to hide from any potential storm. hermitise myself or something. haha. im glad batman came to save the day! oh my darling ben.

i know ive been like nonstop flying action bitching about ben and i for the past many weeks. everything seems so in place now. i really did have a good time today. shallow? ure calling me? i guess i just needed to know for certain that things are they way they once were again. you cant peak forever in a relationship canyou. youve gotta droop to know when the peaks are. you cant just have peaks out of peaks. haa. that would be excellent of course, but the reality of life lashes out at you and superglues you back to earth. what can you do about it, really. haha.

so i finaly checked out vivocity. its rather amazing, really. at the extent of how far they went to get tenants that were unlike your ordinary usual bunch. they even brought tangs in! like how cool is that! and GAP BOUTIQUE! and a ton of other london brands! yay! even ted baker! thats like the america's-next-top-model-freaking-good-looking-judge line of clothes! i was delighted! i was prancing around like a goon. but since eveRYTHINGS so new, only say 10percent of the shops were opened. 'good enough for me!' exclaims a very happy glor. haha!

this opened deck area is so cool, i could almost picture that being our new hang out spot. with my classmates and i that is. its so pretty! and the cafes that are opening up will definately not disappoint. that im certain. oooh. and i still cant believe its one bus stop away. yay! hahaha.

oh lovely vivo city. ure gonna be my new home. and theyve got candy empire tooooo! oh yes, serene and kio, if i havent already told you 2, grace and i got to know the candy emperor. comes to the shop everyday to get his late night snack. and he tried to poach us over to the vivocity outlet. hur hur hur......

so yay! i finally had my first carls junior. the ice lemon tea is excellent. you've just gotta know how to make it right. sweet.

the zhouk4 of life

i hate feeling like that. so mooshed up inside. its like a tinge of happiness, with a spoonful of nostalgia, a speckle of sadness all churned up within this..i dont know. bahh..porridge of life. the zhouk4 (di si shen) of life. hahaha, the joke of life. haha. and yes, some like it in the pot 9 days old.

but what if you dont? what if you you wanna dish some out right now and taste some. it is that anticipation of not knowing what would happen next that's alluring isnt it. argh. i dont even know what im talking about. musing about rather. its the 10th of october. and 10ths of the 10th are dreadful days according to the history of gloria ngoi. some things are better left unsaid.

or maybe not.

a birthday. an anniversary. a hidden memory. oh i want my mommy.

what a day id have to live through. too much to be said, really. but there really isnt anything i could do. i mean, i could perhaps msg and find out how hes been after sUCH a long time. i dont know. i hate the the 10th of 10th. i makes me queasy.

i dont know. bahh. i really dont know.

byebye zoo :(

i still cant believe what a sucker i am for company. to forgo a chance like this to work in a zoo, with animals, and kids. man! why didnt i go! :( i mean, i was all set. i even had my bag packed. no, wait, that aint amazing enough. i even WOKE UP for it. had breakfast with ben at 8 and was all set to flag a cab down to mandai. why oh why :( why didnt i go.

i mean, what a cool job offer! even lionel said i should have gone, to find out what my purpose in life is. haha. whether i was really cut out to be steve irwin the second. haha. ah, something along those lines. and darn it. why didnt i go :( boo. pretty upsetting. it was a camp facilitator job for a the biweekly childrens camp they hold at the zoo. you even get to rough it out at the night safari in 4man tents!! urgh. why didnt i goo...... :(

screw it.

im very very upset. bahh.

Timney leg got stuck!

haha! i loved today. or at least how it ended. work was dreadful in the morning. esp getting the crap pay that i was getting. i should just go back to teaching swimming. or doing something that pays better. i dont know. its stupid. but i still quite enjoy working there. and i must hang on to prove a point. to prove to myself that i will not work for the sake of money. but for the satisfaction it brings. ive never found going to work a chore, so alls good, still.. for now at least. i still like running the shop as if its our own. esp when grace and i do closing. haha. man. but cutting 20% off our already very pathetic pay for cpf is just brutal.

i had a tough time with alan today. im finally starting to see him as what the others perceive him to be. that whole extra niceness and favoured treatment towards grace and i is slowly tearing down. or maybe im bashing it through to comprehend what sort of an immature person we call manager actually is.

so thats work.

then came sch work.

the girls cancelled on me, yet again, for the 50thbillionth time this week. i got really annoyed. thankfully cat and min relented. after having to cancel, reschedule appointments, work, plans placed on hold to meet them, theyve bailed out on me time and time again. i mean come on. so thankfully it worked out fine today in the end. speaking of which, i still need to start working on my proj.

ben visisted after camp again. and i was strangely hyper. i sang him all the kiddo camp songs i knew while swaying away on his lap. fun. i miss that. i miss the innocence that sadly fades when you get older. i even taught him about joe, who worked in the button factory. who had a wife a dog and a family. hahaha. oh darling.

we went for dinner at simon rd, dropped him off, got home and met christine and lance outside my place. yay! pup was over too. and pup almost killed birdbird. poor fella. must have been so traumatised by monster pup. we spent a good whole 30mins catching crickets for lance and off we went for 'dinner' again. haha. darn it. thats where all the extra fats are coming from.

i must say its been a while since the 3 of us were out. last last year, wednesdays were our days where lance and i would bunk over and wrestle in the middle of the night. last last last year, we had sats together coz of crosslink. now, we shall have thurs since theyve got training at pasir panjang. hur hur hur..

here's to more nights like these. we've gotta raise our spontaneousmeter up. one day, i may finally find the guts to bang those heads together, jump into the car on standby through the window and speed off. hahaha!

SIM Library

oh goodness. i dont get it. i hardly think i can work well in quiet environments. work well as in function. not just being productive, but function as a being. i cant even get to sleep in christines room if the radio isnt on coz her room's so freaking quiet. haha! and i do believe she quite enjoys that fact. that evil scheming torturer best friend of mine. hmmph

the silence's piercing my ears. rahh..

the last time i sat in SIM's library's cyberstation was when i wrote my excellent childrens horrer poem about monster books. haha. if i could churn out something like that, im sure i can do my report too right? why oh why.

ICECOLDBEER

even though we've pledge our allegience to wala, this place is definately worth a coming back to. its darn cold beer we're talking about here man! haha! sweet!

I can only Imagine

I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see
When your face is before me
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Surrounded by your glory
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus,
Or in awe of you be still?
Will I stand in your presence,
Or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Halelluja,
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

I can only imagine when that day comes
And I find myself standing in the Son
I can only imagine when all I will do Is forever,
forever worship you
I can only imagine
I can only imagine

Surrounded by your glory,
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus,
Or in awe of you be still?
Will I stand in your presence,
Or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Halelluja,
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine,
I can only imagine

sigh. im terribly nostalgic. this song played over and over and over when i used to work with Singapore Explorer. it was left on repeat every single day for weeks. even my msn nick was 'i can only imagine'. sigh. i miss my old life. even though work wasnt fantastic, the people i got to meet were.

i doubt id ever look back and regret what i did for the beginning bits of my year this year. it was good. well spent. and i learnt aLOT. did stuff i shouldnt have, didnt do things i should have done. made excellent solid friendships. got exposed to a lot of different things. attended tons of events. sigh. work had always be fun. even if it was just therapeutic shredding. shredding winnies documents. hur hur.. i miss thee. i miss it so so much.. :(:(

Please confirm you are a human

haha. as dumb as i could ever get, ive never ever tried or attempting to take a screenshot of something. i mean, ive always wanted to, just never got down to finding out how it actually works.

so i finally googled it, after 21years of not knowing how. and yay! i thought this was really stupid. i tried to leave a tag on jane's livejournal for not conveniently forgetting my birthday, and livejournal comes up with a retarded line of "please confirm you are a human" line. haha. how stupid!