PMS

ugh. its so fustrating. i wished i knew whats causing it. id just blame it on the infamous menstrual stress for now. regardless whether its pre, present or post. pms will always be the best excuse out of everything under every circumstance. it transcends race or religion. goes beyond what our male counterparts can ever imagine. pms. its perpetual menstrual stress i swear.

bens been so tight on me lately. everyones been asking where ben is. how come i dont have to meet him and stuff. i dont know. it really isnt because i dont want to meet him. i dont even knwo whats going on anymore. i wished i did. then at the very least, id be in control. now, i can honestly look you in the eye and say,'ah screw it'.

i mean, dont scream at me when i dont call while im busy at work. i dont do the same when ure at camp. urgh. the whole interdependent thing is driving me nuts. i cant take the extra reigns on me. fair enough if you wanna find out where i am. just dont come breathing down my throat. why..whyyy ben why..!

how fustrating! i dont even have much to tell you at night anymore. its so technical when we chat at night. and after 2 years, i still have to prompt you to tell me your day? come on! and have a little more interest in my life too! dont just tell me to not complain when im not going to do anything about it. i just want you to know. not tell you because ive got plans on what id do. darn it. shouldnt u know me by now. urgh. why ben why.

dont yell and complain when ive got others to meet. i do spend time with you. just not every second. because i do have friends to meet. whether you like it or not. and its my social space that we've both agreed on. so there. why ben why..

everytime when you know im upset, you'd come to me and ask me whats wrong. you wouldnt let me off the phone till you dig it up and settle it for thenight. now, ill have to go to bed feeling all vexed and fustrated again. i dont know how long i can take this. really. armys tough, hey, everyone has to go through it too. i dont see eVERYONE reacting the way you do. why ben why.

why..why ben why. whyyy...

backblogging

ah yes! my laptop has finally awaken from its 3week coma. ud better work hard for me. hur hur. time to back blog... soon! yay! :)stagnant no more!

Biennale 2006

i will get photos up soon.

so after seeing a tad too many museums when i was in europe, i really had to find out what the biennale had to offer. i mean, its SINGAPORE in ACTION man. gotta see some local smart ass moves here and there. not that im an anti-local artwork kinda person. im in fact, the very opposite of it. but is hardly my fault to allow that skepticism to arise. i mean, who knows right. really. biennale 2006? an international event in singapore. well, we'll see.

since ben finished guard duty at 8 in the morning, he met me for breakfast and actually came to church with me! amazing! :D thank God the speaker was excellent. this lawyer cum pastor who works with the prison ministry. it was like yellow ribbon day or something liek that. it was good. things just worked out somehow.

was late meeting the rest at cityhall so by the time i got there, they were pretty much done. since equan and eva basically browsed through the entire cityhall bit, i had company while we waited for lionel kevin and jay to come out. they had some really neat merchandise on sale. and the shopping devil that i am went a little crazy. i mean, that devil has been surpressed for oh too long. i havent even shopped ever since jane went back! that was end july! i was having some badass withdrawal symtoms. really. haha!

we got down to tanglin camp after. that was pretty cool. the place that is. i didnt even get half the exhibits there. i know the guide book that came along with it is helpful, but they should have elaborated more at the place itself. they did too much video bits it actually got a little boring. even the lourve now seemed more interesting. staring at half naked pudgy 18thcentury women now seemed much more enticing than the warped videos i was staring at. especially the brainless parody of the sexothon woman. whatever her name was. bahh.

and i didnt even get to play with the leap of faith magnet thingy. darn it.

i mean, it was good. just not MY kind of good. i expected more. hopefully its only because its tanglin camp. the old MOs camp. the video infested place. the rest had better be good. rah.

spastards.

and so we went crazy.

i mean, i badly needed to get that queer sudden urge to jam out of my head. something i havent even done for years and years. as i said, it was queer. i suddenly felt like picking up the guitar all over again. or the electric this time around. or the bass. its been too long. and it was making me crazily hyper i swear. haha. darn.


unglamness, really. but theres more to come. hur hur hur..




so i guess the spasm passes on. haha.





finally something sane and it aint even clear. haha. darn it. but what a night it was. how i love my fellow spasters. haha.

wala

grass and i :)


lionel grump.


everybooody. :)

Happy Birthday to me!

probably one of the best birthdays ever in my life, yesterdays celebrations were simply awesome. actually it wasnt even ONE of the best birthdays, it was THE BEST birthday ever. period. ooh.

i will post pictures up, when i finally get my laptop fixed.

it was so so good. my day was themed - gloria and her jungle deers. haha. i woke up feeling rather christmasy actually. to wake up to presents, wake up to an excellent breakfast mom prepared for me. wake up to being greeted with a ton of hugs and love. yummy.

mom and pop wrote a poem for me that was oh too appropriate. i will make some changes to my life after this. so if im not out that often anymore, dont ask me. ive got a poem to abide to and 2 parents to please. :)

i had a huge birthday angbao from mom and pop. but decided to return it to them as my first reponsible act of being an adult. haha. to pay for the car crash. mom was so happy, and touched even, she didnt even want the money back. aww. thats good tactic there i tell you. please the mother and still get the money. hur hur hur..

so there. christine and ben had this huge giant surprised for me. a surprised that i very coviniently ruined. they had intended to come over, blind fold me and kidnap me down to the zoo. haha. but it poured and poured and poured so badly. i ended up picking christine up to the zoo instead. haha. but it was good. alot of people pulled out from the zoo in the end due to the horrid weather. but it was still all good. i love the randomnesss of invite list. of those who came despite the rain. i love theee! :):)

so it was jon, candice, roger!, chai, ben christine and i. it was so awesome. weather was fantastic. it was actually cold! and splashing around puddles really didnt seem such a bad idea. i even managed to catch the white tiger feeding! and the elephants of asia show. ooh. lovely. and and and and an animal escaped! the whole zoo went haywire! zookeepers had to run down to the "crime scene". and we were told to stay within the airconditioned shelther to well, yeah, take shelter. it was so so exciting! haha. apart from being trapped with a million primary sch kids, it was pretty fun. the little girls kept flirting with jon. tsktsk.

i really would love to own a limur. that madagascar tribal animal thing int hat show. ahh... i swear it was crazy fun. mr. limur wrapped his tiny little rubbery hands around my finger. it was oh so sweet. sigh. i want one. hur hur hur. next animal to get.. hur hur..

we had to rush back. well, tHEY had to rush back to prepare food. it was so fun. chai dropped christine and i home first. then suddenly, ben insisted that chai came up to take a look at puppy. i found it really weird, though not very surprising, but still, weird. i mean, puppy's a weird little exhibit. ahha. so we went up, i stepped into the kitchen and LO AND BEHOLD! what do i seeeee?!?!?!? a birdieeeeee! well, tons actually. since christines kitchens' pretty much an aviary. but there was that ONE PARTICULAR BIRDIE!!! oh birdbird! oh my oh! i went crazy! i demanded to know why christine got herself an african grey and never told me anything about it. and then she said,"well, coz its not mine." and OOOOOHHHHHHHHH!!!!... all birdie heaven broke loose i tell you! i went hysterical! i jumped around the kitchen, sprited around the house and did 200million sommersaults. oh birdbird! ben got me an african greeyeyeyeyeyyeyeyeeyeyyeyeyaayaayyyyyaayayyyyyyyyyyyyyy yayyyy!!!!!!!

i dont think ive hugged ben tighter ever. :D:D

it was awesome. birdbirds so handsome. ooh...

so ben bought me a birdie. one that ive been dying to get for the longest time ever. even longer than getting the bearded. sigh. christine got me the really pretty cage, all nicely done up. and the squashies got me the toys and accessories. and the beautiful toy perch that grace almost murdered birdbird with. hahaa... it was the coolest ever present ever ever!

people started to come, and all i did was BEN GOT ME AN AFRICAN GREY! and obviously i had the typical confused huhs, and whats? like..huh? african what? what the hell is that! hahaha. i think i probably lost 7kgs prancing around all night telling everyone that BEN GOT ME A BIRDBIRD! hahaha. my birdbird. yay!

PAELLA! SANGRIA! FISH EYE LENS!

it is my pre birthday day!! today had been fantastic. what an excellent prelude to tmr. hhaha.

i had my market research submission today. so that was like one huge burden off my back already. and it was good. it went well at least. apart from the fact that i had 12weeks of tuitorial that i had to hand up. so after being in sch for a mere 30mins, i actually took the bus home again to pick my nonexistent tuitorial notes up. haha. min had to lend me hers and i had to get everything printed out. thank God for technology. for harddisks. haha. lovely.

i begged for the car and drove myself down to sch again to hand everything up. they were all waiting for me to get back to sch so we could all go for my birthday lunch. anywhere i wanted. and since we had the car, we were invincible. hur hur. we could get ourselves anywhere we wanted. so yayy! and since i was wearing my spanish bullfighting shirt, i felt like spanish food! my paella! and my sangria! and i read from jans blog that they had all that i wanted at this spanish restaurant at clarke quay called the tapas tree. so we trooped down. yayyyy!! :):):)


the tapas tree.

i was so so excited. i mean.. paella know! and sangria! ooohhhhhhhh... thats like a pinch of heaven on earth! ahhh.....despite the ridiculous price tag attached to it, i dont think i honestly could be bothered. i had to get my sangria. hur hur. the rest just had to go along with me. hahaha. how i love birthdays.




my sangria!! yayyy!!! :):):):):)


potatoes chorizo. zarzuella. garlic shrimps. tapas werent fantastic. bahh..


the very disappointing paella velanciana. who adds ham chunks and boiled eggs in their paella man! bahh.

i shall show you what good spanish food is like. hur hur. el gores in barce.


this is what i call true spanish food. the paella velanciana we had in barcelona.


baby octopus.


tapas in barce, spain.


and yes, of course, our heavenly sangria. sigh.. how i miss thee.




Sunand! major boobies alert. haha.





everyone!


dress for the occasion. aha!


the dreaded bill. we actually only ordered food for 2. look how much it cost us. imagine we ordered for 5. darn.

i had to get the car back by 4. so i dropped the girls off in town, fetched cat for her interview at demsey, waited and went back to my place after. i always have these long chats with cat. aha. chat cat. chats, cat in french. ahha. sorry, out of point. so anyway, we laid in bed for over 3 hours talking just about anything. it was good. i love days like these. sigh..

so since its prebirthday day, and that my tmr would be jammed packed with everything ben and christine was planning, i had to find time for my wala yes? i called lionel and kevin down with me. happiness. i love closeknit walaing. haha. makes me happy. ;) and since jason knew it was my birthday. drinks were endless once again. hur hur. i love jason. haha. i dont think id ever be able to emphasize that enough. haha. so it was all good. and yyong decided to surprise me! for the past 4 years, she had been trying with all her might to be the first to wish me happy birthday. hahaha. so yayy! she came down too.


told you drinks were endless. they were piling on top of each other. hur hur..


kevin said i wouldnt be getting a present this year.. :(




~if only they had a hoegaarden bday cake. haha.


birthday hugs. :) sweet.


it was jason's godsis' birthday. and they had thewhole deal as well. cake and all. and she came over and gave me a hugeass slice of it. good stuff.


my first present! not really, but my first present on the actual day. haha! lionel darling got me a fish eye lens camera! how cool is that! i couldnt stop saying 'the fish eye lens camera' all night. hahaha. very happy indeed. :):):)




jason started bringing birthday shots. i had like 2 tequila shots with him. zain brought out an excellent shot of chocolate martini. it was so so good. even tho it tasted very much like baileys tho. and this other one that was so spicy that burned my throat. its like chivas x a million times worse. yes, that bad. and of course. i had my kevin would got me my favourite butterscotch. honestly, when it comes to alcohol, kevin knows me best. hur hur hur. oh darlings. what a night. what a prelude. it was fantastic :) now i could really sleep soundly wihtout tossing and turning in bed in anticipation to what ben had planned for tmr. hahahha.. soundly.. very very soundly. hahaha...


oh wala!