so long, comfort zone!

i dont think i have ever mentioned, but i love my colleagues, i really do. and id pray never to take them for granted and to thank God everyday! really!

i doubt i'd love my job as much as i do now even though it kills, if i didnt have them beside me 24/7. i feel free to say practically anything that passes through my empty head. im warranted to blast any kind of music i want to knowing someone out there, or someone beside me would appreciate it. i know i have all the food i need or want stashed in some secret corner of our room. i know i can bitch about anything till the walls come down and need not fear about it getting out. i know that my private sos hotline operators are just a couple of steps away. i know i enjoy my jokes twice as much because i have u guys to share it with. i know i wont be alone even if my work forces me to stay till unearthly hours.

BUT IT HAS ALL BEEN TAKEN AWAY!!! :(

now i'm stuck in a room where no one speaks, nor laugh, nor even chuckle at the slightest form of amusement. no one's there to help, no one's willing to help and no one will ever bother to help. no one's ever free, no ones ever there, no one ever waits even for lunching together. its all on your own. it finally feels like an actual political jammed packed office. i finally know what it is to have daggers floating inches away from ur back.

away from my comfort zone, i must leave!

set straight into misery? i agree! !

but God has his plans, definately!

i yearn for your voice, God please lead me!

i miss u, ol table, ol dusty corner.

i miss u, ol jo, my helpful partner!

i miss u, ol rene, u blury little thing,

i miss u, ol room, to move back i'm most keen!

why...why me? :(

winnienator!

work hasnt been easy. and being in the customer service line, tourism line, marketing line, events coordinating line all at the same time kinda kills. and the pay honestly doesnt suffice. bahh..

above all else, however, is the experience im gaining from all this i suppose. and thats what matters most i guess. i mean, who throws u an event to take charge of within 2 weeks that ure in. and a huge joint promotion project a month later? better grab the opportunity and make it compensate where it lacks in.

i've been drowning under quotations, i havent had much time to meet up with anyone! and even if i do, i wanna meet my ben! my poor poor ben who's reduced down to crutches. my poor baby. for the time that i've known him, this has been worst injury on record ever. so it kinda shook me hard when he called from the hospital even though he insisted i went for my farewell dinner with my colleagues coz its too far away. how on earth would i have enjoyed dinner knowing full well of the state that he was in. he's getting better though, so i guess thats comforting..

i have a certain someone thats been driving me nuts lately. literally. she yells, accuses and lashes out at me for the tiniest reasons. it was pretty humbling when God had to personally point me specifically in the direction that i should be heading instead of dwindling in self pity and let my lamentations overwhelm me. i ran back to my old department i.e. my comfort zone, everytime something happened. and i had my all day round bitch talk about her. it aint good, but still! i needed an outlet badly! ah yes, i got transfered to a killer department if i hadnt already mentioned, right behind the winnienator. the person i stare at all day and fatasize about how i should smash her through the glass panel in front of her. i got so bitter and sore about the whole issue, it was tearing me apart. i couldnt concentrate, my quotations went haywire. i started marking up prices by 200% or ridiculously quoted rock bottom prices. got scolded and scolded and scolded, and having to report to her daily didnt help either.

i got through the week nevertheless. sunday came and i actually got up and ready for church on time! went for service and the clancys were leading and speaking that sunday. God has really truly blessed them so richly it was really so amazing. shes a grandmother but looks as young as a 30 year old! a beautiful lady jammed packed with supernatural energy straight from God. she spoke about listening to God's ways and the plans he has for each one of us. and she gave an altarcall for those who yearned to listen and obey but just dont seem like it was possible. i went up. i felt so heavyhearted with the week load of bitterness weighing me down, i knew i had to go up. i knew full well God wanted me to love her, even though she hated me. He wanted me to do as what he would have done! it was clearly laid out straight on my plate! i even randomly read the bulletin front cover's bible verse which said..

"if anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself without comparing himself to someone else!" Gal 6:3-4

i mean..i was like..oh shit man. coz i constantly thought i was way better than that winnienator and that she constantly scolded me for ridiculous nonsensical crap. and that i was better than her and all. man! slammed straight in my face.

had family time at night, complained a whole load once again to everyone. we did a bible study using my dads materials and it wasnt specifically chosen, but there it was again! the verse! the exact same verse! darn scary man! haha. and the week's topic was on being faithful to his calling! haha..God, ure amazing. really! u almost made me piss in my pants! haha

so there, im praying hard, coz i wanna listen, i wanna obey. i will listen! and i will kill her with love! with Your love that is. haha. its a tuesday, and im getting thru... i will get through..because i know i have you..

CLean and Green Week

so strange. how come my blogger homepage has changed to chinese? anyhow..

my blog's dead. literally. the posts dont show, nothing does. BUt..when i logged in just now, it actually did! so i dont quite know whats going on... whatever..

work has been taking its toil on me. i dont meet anyone anymore. my free time's constantly zapped up but ridiculous piles of quotations to clear. urgh! i need a better job! rahh!

the clean and green week's finally over. my first event that im in charged of. we sold hotdogs. haha. they tasted really really good. but ahwell.. kinda dumb. i finally fulfilled my childhood dream of making candy floss. haha. befriended the candy floss dude and made candy floss! so fun! haha. i acheived alot actually. i signed up for salsa classes and got a free trail and paid nothing at all, i befriended this australian and uk guy from this company that plans/builds/manages those obstacle courses thingy. they told me they're planning for a 30 stage tree top obstacle course and 3 flying foxes across bedok reservoir. sounds so so cool! i told them to hook me up when they get the planning rolling. and they were liike....fANTASTIC..just what we were looking for. we really really need people in on this. so yayy!

got to know zoe too. really really nice girl. our waitress at the olive and shes our age. and apparently from jurong sec. haha. so we kinda have common friends. i dont think id have half as much fun as i did yesterday if she wasnt there. we went jumping in the bl0wn up castle that they bring in at every carnival. haha. so so fun. befriended this gelato ice cream boss too who wants to do business with us at the olive. he wants to sell his icecream at our restaurant. haha. and got to know this kebab dude as well. store located in arab street. he's really really an arab. haha. from arabian niiiggghhhhhtsss...hahaa.. he treated me to his really really good kababs. yayy. i think i made alot friends yesterday. haha.

anyhow, i guess the late nights at the office paid off. even though the sales were down, who cares. who cares about the company anyway. haha. i matter more. and i expanded my network. so haha..who honestly gives a damn.

gotta write my report on the event tmr and head a meeting. bahh! hope it goes well. hope one event leads to another. ahwell..gotta work hard then!

EQUANS OUR MAN!!!

We will love you till the cabbage gets high,

till the tomato sun dries,

till the carrots learn to fly,

through a giant soya pie!! :)

HAPPY 20th VEGEDAY DARLING!!

p.s: we still love you, even if you love THAT girl more than u love us! :)

eQuan's LAPDANCE!!!!

oh my mama. events that took place last night still cant quit sink in. haha. it was seriously hilarious. had an uberly long day yesterday. had work, so i had to rush to office in the morning, had absolutely nothing to do until the minute i was supposed to leave for Olive, winnie chucks a load of quotations for me to clear. and cathei just informed me about our bitchy boss who demands a detailed report of the event im in charge of next week. bahh. got irritated, especially when she asked me to come back at 2 when i was supposed to take care of my 'models'.

anyhow, went back home, got car and headed straight to olive with bro and sis in law. kinda fun. haha. we were exploring the tunnel and all, gabriel shooting weird strange shots as usual. gracie came with evania so we had our free lunch of excellent pasta and pizza. yum!

the toilets were under renovation, so everyone had to change in the WWII tunnels. so funny. angie in her wedding gown, gabriel in his suit and everyone else in working clothes. haha. fun fun! the make up artist took like more than an hour to finish angie's make up. she looked fantastic man. and the photographer was so so pro. he was taking photos of food. so so yummmy!! i likeee i likeee...hahaha..

hanged around till six. so got myself out of going back to the office. haha. drove back though, with kio and her friends to pick equans card up that i so conviniently used the nice nice 120gsm pretty goldish paper from office. and wasted a whole load of printer ink. haha. yay! confirmed my booking for the glass top boat we chartered for equans bday and left. got back to labrador, bro wanted to wait for sunset so we walked along the beach for the awesome sunset. man was it worth the wait. labrador has the bestest best sunsets man. in singapore that is. haha. so so pretty. took a load of photos and got home for dinner.

finished up equans bday card and dashed down to clarke quay just in case we missed our boat! apparently, winnie had clean forgotten about booking my boat. and she simply brushed me off saying, "uh..yeah..sorry. apologize to your friends to me." like thanks man! and david, the boat guy was fuming mad too coz he had to try to get a boat for me. so he had to make a load of calls. didnt get it in the end. so there goes our glass top boat. he provided us with the traditional bumboat though, so i guess it wasnt all too bad though i was highly disappointed. bahh.. but..BUT BUT...it proved that the company we had was still the most important coz we still had a pissload of fun man! haha. with all the crazy photos. man! what a night.

thought we'd settle somewhere for a drink to end of the night, apparently, the night had just began. got down to eskibar, like finally after wanting to go there for the longest time ever. its so so so freaking cold. and we kept playing stupid games with icecubes as its forfeit. haha. was hilarious. our fingers were close to falling off. haha. got ourselves a bottle of bourbon. everyone was pretty sedate, having our own little party till bill came along! haha. this drunk angmoh guy with his finding nemo hat from connecticut, america. he was so so entertaining since he was so pissed drunk. he found out that we had a birthday boy in our midst, and introduced his friends over.

BECAUSE of his introduction, we met this girl whos a coyote ugly girl from america. darn cool! she bought a tequila, came over, climbed atop equan and gave him a lapdance. hahahaha...so darn funny! but we couldnt grab cam out in time. darn! she pulled me over, said if i got her a blowjob, she'd perform one too! hahah.. why waste it! i got us the shot, and poor poor equan. haha. cameras ready, faces gleaming in full anticipation. she got her shot, and her whipped cream, and her cherry and laid in preparation. equan stood there, absolutely clueless so she had to yell, get down on your kneesss! haha. darn funny. whipped cream her abs and he licked it up, keeping his 100metre radius away from her. hhaha.. she grabbed him, gave him the shot and "gently passed the cherry". haha..shant be too graphic!

what a 20th! what a lucky guy. rod jay and hz were probably pissing in their pants in utmost jelousy. we've got our shots, we've got our photos, we've got our evidence, we're bring u down tomorrroww!! hahaha...

kept the shotglass for equan as his momento. darn lucky guy. we're growing up aye. a tad too fast but i guess we'd cope. i honestly cant imagine how your 21st is gonna be if something like that could have happened during ur 20th. haha. maybe by then, u just might get luckier! blowjob aye? yeah..blowjob. hahaha ;)