A place to where i belong, called HOME!

I finally realized and understood why mum my insisted on moving out of my uncle's house and buy a flat of her own after she got separated from my dad. Reason being that she want to have a house of her own, somewhere we can call home. It's where you belong, not just a shelter over the head but more of commitment and sense of belonging to it.

Many may not understand that kind of feeling whereby you just do whatever you want in your house but having to stay with some other people and seeing people try all their means to kick you out of the house & have to see their faces, that suck big time seriously.

It made me realized and regret how much did i not treasure a place that has my family, mum & sis, and the warmth i am given. I can do anything I want of my own things, having it my way & not have anyone to interfere whatever you wanna do about your house. It may sound fun to people that I move from house to house, like so fun only, but in fact, this is just the looks. & looks are deceiving.

I am someone who has strong pride and ego, i will bear with whatever it takes that come my way but i do feel terrible after keeping it all to myself. and i tend to be emotional when i am alone, thought will run wild. i always ended up in tears and cry to sleep. especially when i start crying, it's like broken tap cannot stop the water from flowing out one. that's my way of releasing my stress and troubles.

All I want is just a simple home of my own, with my sister.

I guess that is what my mum wanted for us, and the only reason she left the house for us.

Happy Birthday Ma!

Its been 2years alr since we last celebrated birthday with you. If only you were still alive, I would. . . . but everything was too late alr. I miss you terribly, hoping that i would be able to dream of you. never did once ever since you passed away. I began to realized all your reasons for doing things which i never together with you in the past, & even go against your wish/way. I'm Sorry. :(

without you, my life suck. your presences is so important to me that i only understand when i lose you. & to be force to grow up overnight. I miss you, I love you, I will always remember you& all that you have said/told me.

"Home is always the best place for you"

your favorite phrase to me. & I will never forget it.

Love you always,

G

*Ps: dear friends, please heed my advice & treasure your mum well before you lose them without realizing it.

IMY

I don't know why but I just miss you so randomly.

maybe cause I won't have a chance to see you anymore.

Every time i see my msn conver appear with your name, but that person isn't you

it'ts like with that kind of disappointment again.

sigh.

You will never know, how much i miss you at times.

Just like I blog about you that often.

Anw, I wish you all the best :)

米修，米修！

Changes of new look.

kinda lost the interest in blogging. & cause i'm lazy too.

& suddenly got the urge to blog again.

it shall be on my change of look.

this foto below is for my resume.

School made it a compulsory one, & it was taken months back.

took me super long before i decided to show others.

Haha! i think i look weird somehow.

then again, i change my looks again.

okay, it's more like my hair la.

cause i cut bangs this time round, hence it look different.

new year, new look.

Yuxin's birthday i look like this.

lastly, i dyed my hair to gold brown which i've never try before.

something that i wanna do before i actually turn 21 this year end.

& trim my hair again to straight bangs.

I haven't take a nice picture of my new look cause i don't wanna hear comments from people yet.

i dyed like 3times then get this current colour.

too many accidents & i swear im not gonna dye myself again,

just because i wanna save money but end up didnt at all. LOL!

END OF THE DAY, I'M A HAPPY GIRL! :D

i just cant wait for new year.

wahahhahahaha

Superstitious

Tarot Card Reading.

2 different reading over just a weekend.

i believe cause its so true.

& you can call me superstitious.

but i just hope the good will come true.

fate is in my hand afterall.

I don't care what others think since its my life, my destiny.

I am just gonna make the best out of it.

:D

eye candyy :)

kinda miss that kind of feeling alr.

its been a long long time since i last. . .

HAHAHAHA! :>

It's okay it's alright. :)

this post is dedicated to my dearest personal hair-dresser, J.

When i first heard about the news of your results,

Initially my first reaction is to scold you.

Then Mum's words just came across my mind.

She once told me that you're someone who needs to be encouraged,

instead of having being nagged and be boo at.

I went through the process and it felt terrible,

without having the support there even though you tried your best.

It's just that we are not as good as others.

There's nothing that you can do if others wanna compare

Just believe in yourself and move on from there.

because your life doesn't stop here.

Now, You're about to start a new chapter of your life.

as long as you know what you want & the things that you're doing now,

no one or nothing can stop you with what ever they say.

All you can do is to give yourself a pat on the shoulder & say

"Good Job J, Jiayou Jiayou, Jiayou!"

& i will always be there for you.

Like i always tell you,

I will support you as long as you are doing the right thing.

regardless of what others say even if it's our closest kin.

Remember that.

It's okay, its alright.

everything is gonna be alright.

others can do it, so can you. :>

Loves,

G

Brand new year

my first post of 2010.
& also my 500th post. :)

awaiting for this brand new year to come.
hoping for lots of wishes to come true.

& i realized that time flies.
not in terms of looking back
but looking forward and planning ahead.

A new change for a new year.
jiayou gio! :)

the last post of 2009

hello world!

its time to blog about 2009 before i welcome 2010.

2009 has been lots of ups and down for me.

many many first time too.

i should say its like an eventful year.

Str 14days of MJ @ Daniel's house

Cambodia trip for 2weeks.

ShenZhen trip with SUI!

Cruise with Family

plan a surprise 21st birthday for ahem.

Thailand trip alone.

FIH hockey event

never celebrate birthday.

didnt countdown for xmas.

fall sick on new year's eve.

etc. . .

this year, I've become more of a homely person. instead of going out everyday without fail. i realized that family is very important to me. But of course, i made alot of new friends too. and even catch up with lots of friends as well. anyways, its a good ending though. cause i cant wait to look forward to 2010. :)

goodbye 2009.

Some things are better off unsaid.

I didn't feel good these days.

but it doesn't mean my world just stop there neither did i because of him, let my world stop revolving.

Cause i felt that its not worth it after all.

i wanted to avoid it, then coming to thinking of it,

it would make me no different from that girl.

am just feeling better each day.

emotionally :)

yet, I'm falling sick.

sore throat then followed by cough now.

sian. i had falling sick at this time.

then my appetite get worse today.

:(

festive season i wanna enjoy not fall sick.

i wanna partyyy on wed. :)

I've got lazy bones in me

cause im not studying.

disappointed in myself and allowing others that pin so much hope in me get disappointed.

well well. . .

i really needs to buck up.

Jiayou Gio!

you can do it.

emo christmas

never had such a horrible xmas.

cause someone ruin it.

but i allow that person to ruin it.

so end up its my bad.

i just finally realised that what i treat you as,

& what you treat me as was totally different.

&& i realized that you're such a flicker minded person.

but i will let you know after today that you've lost me as a friend.

dread serious.

if not i shall get knock down by car/kena lightning stuck.

worse is get chock with what i eat.

damnit.

couldnt hold my tears and went to toilet to cry when working.

& it totally spoils my mood for everything.

i cant pretend nothing happening.

after that present to you,

it shall be the end of the friendship.

but i had a great time with my friends as usual.

drinking my sorrows away.

for all the things we could joke about

cheers for anything on earth

& lots of pictures taken.

most importantly its the matters that counts.

silences will just let me break into tears.

even now cause im waking up from this dream i had.

blessings to you, my friend.

goodbye.