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My PR is back..
A big big one this time and is super painful
I can't burst it though is riped. So irritating...

Hmm.. More birthdays coming up and i think i'm going so so broke soon. hehe

Today attempted some test and i did fairly well i suppose.
Presentation sux because i didn really prepare for it.

Watched ghost of girlfriend's past and it's worth the money.
Learn a few things in the movie as well.
Above Love and not being a total bitch in future. haha..

next week onwards i will have my 1 month survivor training course in ICU.
It's going to be tough and i won't be able to have so much fun by then. Sianz..
I have to pull through it no matter wad.

Wish me luck ppl.
Love you too

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It has been a daily routine for me.
Work - eat- sleep everyday.

Been adapting well at work so far for now, ppl there are nice and helpful as well.
But somehow i find myself blur out there and had been quiet around them.
everyday is a learning experience for me and i ought to study and gain even more knowledge to survive for these one year.

Dearie had always been behind me supporting with what i am doing.
I really ought to love him even more and am trying my very best to do it.
He's got such a kind soul to even accept for the imperfect me which always upsets him, and i am really sorry for what i've done.
I'm going to spent more time with him whenever i can and i think he is the only person that would not be hurting me.

Sometime i just wish that i'm just a purely white paper that is only able to be written all my happy memories without unhappiness, fears and worries.

I'm really glad that ppl who treasures me stays by my side all this while listening to all me complains or those who makes me smile. you guys are very very very super duper important to me. So don't you ever leave me even though i think some might even do that one day.

I think i had put in effort into one of the friendship, but will this friend even treasure it?
Can this person feels it at all?
For this i'm not sure and i try not to think about it as well.
Too much hope will be a disappointment at the end so i'll just be mutual and don't bother.

I'm just a stubborn and naive girl that this habit that i can't change. hahahahaha...

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Is only the Beginning...

Work = No life. That's wad ppl had been saying and i truly believe it.

Life in ICU had been hectic and hard to adapt for me.
I've got to know my theory and patient well.
Today had been the most stressful and unhappy day for me.
Does Anyone know how i truely felt?
Feeling all lonely and no one to rely on during work because i'm new there.
I have given 3 months of probation.
Always asking myself if i'm able to pass it through
How i wish i'm like some of the others who is genius with their theories.
I wish to be them.
It really false me to tell myself tmr will be a better day for me though.

Deep down in my heart i felt like crying but there's no tears inside me.
Somebody, whoever just make me cry out pls...
It's really suffocating inside me, can't breathe at all, heart is feeling so heavy.
Should i just suppress wad's inside me and forget about it?
For this moment, I just want to vanish off into thin air.
I just want to disappear.

However on the other hand,

Being strong physically is a must for me right now.
I can't just collapse and wait for people to clean up my mess.
Regi got to stand up strong and be the mighty warrior again
I've got to find my competitiveness back for work.
it's for my future and i got to build it up strong and steady.
No matter how tough is the situation i can fight for the victory.
got to believe and be confident.

This is only the beginning. Am i up for the challenges that has been laid before me?

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Reviving...

Finally reviving my blog again.

Life had change tremendously for me.
From a full time student to a full time working adult.
Time hasn't been enough for me everyday.
Sleeps are no longer important to me anymore.
Every minute every seconds are precious to me .
Spending time with friends, Family, Dearie and even my revisions had been hard to cope these days.

There's even some disputes created with dearie a while back due to some issues. Luckily had been resolved. :)
Hope that i had made a wise decisions though. Hahaha...

My chapter of the new beginning this year had been great even though it's not totally a smooth journey but i am contented with what i have now.

Started off with a stable career as a ICU nurse had been a great challenge for me to deal with and the amount of stress that you could never been able to imagine :P

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I have to learn not to locked my sad feelings and just forget about it.
Not running away and be a happy person.

Tomorrow will not be a better day unless i solve it

Realizing i had became a cold hearted person without any tears in me.
Being able to put up a strong face for many years had been quite immune with it. Oh my..

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Night Duty Here

Hello guys.. it's 0130hrs and here i am working plus slacking.
It's my 2nd night working and things here are going in a slow pace working night shift.
Worse of all, i am not a night owl. It's a torture for me to stay up till 0730hrs in the morning without doing my favorite which is watching my fav drama. LOL

Stepping into the working life had been hectic and tired at the same time. however the sense of satisfaction in return is great as well. somehow i've came into the sense that i may like nursing although it's tired in return.

whenever i saw my pt gradually got well, i felt happy.
Before i forgot, i am prvisionally employed and i wouldn't be afraid that i might be out of job when i had graduated. I will save my some amount and i will be heading to Aussie for further studies. This will be my goal for now.

As time passes, everyone changes including myself. I change for the good or bad i might not know but i reassure that i will try my best i won't hurt anyones feelings. I believe that i am not as lucky as somebody else because i do not have many friends. I am lucky that at least i found some or a few whom i know i can trust and rely on them including my dearest. All this people i may not meet as often but at least i know when i head into trouble and they are the ones who will give me advices and support.
And as for the rest matters, i do not really bother when i know i can lead my life to the fullest and happiest.

Chao ppl, got tobe back to work.

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Incompetent Nurse...

It's a busy busy day for me.
From the start till the end i'm always walking around and doing things.
AN cum SN job and i do not have the time to have my break.
Broke record today, got myself 10mins of break and Zooom, head out to ward and help out.

Hmm.. assist with my eye candy today. Awww he's so cute when he tries to speak Mandarin. hahahahha.. he did blood culture and he's such a pro i can say. even the patient says so. She didn felt the needle entering to the vein as well. :)

I'm such a incompetent nurse today. I panic when something arises. i really got to clam myself down in the future. haiz.

AM shift tmr and heading out to see my good friends. Yay.. so happy.
Wed and thur having a full day with baby. it's been so long since i spent time with you.
What shall we do when i'm so tired? the usual, slacking at home and cook nice foods? We'll see we'll see.

Chao ppl

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Weekends Alone

Off day on my weekends..

Some ppl would immediately grab this opportunity to call their friends out to have fun and spend time together right?

And as for me, i'm different. I give myself a day alone and the next day spending time with my own family. Giving myself a quiet time reflecting and enjoying the time alone. Weird i know.

For the whole of Saturday afternoon i've tidy up my room and did house chores since my mom was practically nagging at me for the past week. gotten myself into the mood of a housewife and start cleaning up. Initially i plan up my goals of what i need to be complete by the day, unfortunately, lazy bugs called me and i stopped work.

I need massage badly and thus, i went to malaysia with my parents straight from mass. The feeling was jus Shiok. Spend my day eating and relaxing of plus shopping for my attachment foods. Grinz.. Felt guilty for consuming too much and off i went for a night run.

Tue meeting friends after work and hopefully i'm not that busy on the day itself at work since i have catching up to do.

Desperatedo to meet my Piglet and my besties so much.
Haven't seen them for quite some time ever since i'm training to adapt with my working lives. Haiz. Is this called the Adult world that we are heading to?

No more fun and hanging out any time you want ??????
Do i get to Celebrate a simple Christmas this Year???
Can't wait for my trip next year... hahahaha...

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LIves Of an Working Adult...

Finally has got the mood to blog.. :)

3 weeks down and 11 more weeks to go.
I do not have a live now though. It's working. eating, and sleeping..
The cycle keeps repeating over and over again.

Up till then, working in this ward had been really great for me.
Had enjoyed working and learning there as well.
Staffs are friendly and approachable even my preceptor.
Most staffs there makes a point to be friend with you by not calling student nurse but calls your name instead.
Oh.. doctors are friendly as well.. Those MOs of cos..
Okay, till now, i haven't got a chance to work with her yet as i am always on a different shift with her. haha..

My days are always busy there, coping in a role of SN and ocassionally AN job at the same time.
time management is very important or else i will just have to shorten my break time. hahaha..
Being in a Nursing line is tough but a sense of satisfaction.

By the way, a new Dr. from irish was in our ward. HAhahahahaha..
eye candy for me. His features are well defined and he got a sense of charisma. Wow....
another reason to motivates me to go to work. (Grinz)
Hope to see him tmr.. Yay...

morning shift now and i'm going to bed.

And i always forgets to congrats to one of my girlfriend who is finally being loved.
you know who you are.
I'm really glad that you had found someone.
i will see you again dear.

Working AM shift tomorrow.
Chao everyone.

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Programs!!!!!

Break is finally here and i'm officially free.
Having a break has been great without my greatest companies and spending my time alone and friends out there.

This whole week is pack with programs. Went out with Aaron and Alison for a movie and chilling session after mass at CTK. Feels great meeting and catching up with them.

Next day went malaysia with my parents for dinner and on the next very day, headed to JB again but this time was with Clarice, Nicole, CC, Cheryl and WC.. Grinz..
Shop and eat and pampering myself with massage. We had secret Recipe for lunch and Sea Food for dinner. It's my very first time heading to JB on our own. There's always a first time for each and everyone of us. hahaha.. O did i mentioned that we lost our way back when we were at City Square.. hahaha..

Anyway, thanks to WC that he offered to send us back home. Hehe..

Next it's our zoo outting. Yes i actually went to the zoo finally. It rained unfortunately thus we aren't fortunate enough to watch any shows. nvm we had fun chatting and laughing all the way.

And today finally get to see baby. Misses him so so much. he's been busy with works and i'm busy with my own stuffs. in the end we hadn't seen each other for a period of time already. anyway slacking and lazy day for the both of us.

Great time spent and pls take care alright. I know u are working hard for the live i wanted. Don't worry i will work hard too. Earn enough for our tour and most importantly our wedding if we ever got married. hahahahaha..

Love you

One more week to go and i'll be heading for my PRCP.. And Yes, i'm back to my favorite ward for 10D yay.. wish me luck dudes..

Got to plan for next week catch up.

Bye loveliness

PS: Please take care of yourself when we are both busy alright. Grins.. and to all my friends out there, thanks for everything and good luck to all of you for your PRCP.. Alison you too ok. and i won't say thank you to you next time. We'll just say in our heart. SMiles...

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Happy HoliDay!!!

2 weeks holiday is here.. YAY!!!

Current mood i'm facing is i'm extremely bored at home.

I've been having weird thoughts and have a small change in live.
wanted to experience and becomes wild and crazy.

Wanted to have a feel of being in a club dancing and drinking till i am deadly drunk and doing many many things which i've never done before.

I'm only 20 and before loosing my youth, i really wanted to do something very different. opening up my circus is also good as well..

I need some spices to spice up my current status.

A newly Girl will be reborn soon.

Chao

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