care

i care. not in the way you wanted it. not in the way where you could be dependent. not in the way you would be spoilt. perhaps you wouldn't understand any of it now. i pray for the day when you would realize how much your loved ones sacrificed for you and thus pampered you too much. would we talk again next year? or would we finally talk again when there's demise amongst our loved ones?

July - another hiatus

It's strange that time just slips away even though I am supposedly more free now. Am pleased with some of my "new" regular activities - exercise - cooking some simple dishes for dinner - exploring affiliate marketing - hogging the library seats I do some ad-hoc event jobs here and there as well, which includes delivery of documents through a crowd sourcing courier App. Guess Grabtaxi concept gave way to many more similar business ideas. Now we have the same for domestic cleaning, durian delivery and some other services. I bumped into Caroline today, it lifted my spirits up even though it's such a short encounter. Now time to get laser focus on my plans today!

growing old

It's been verified that my grandpa is suffering from early stage of dementia. It could have started 2 years ago. "Why didn't you guys bring him for a check-up earlier?", the doc asked. And he suspected grandma is suffering from Parkinson's disease from her shaky hand and bobbing head while he speaks to her. Indeed, when she is stressed, her head bobs more and trembles more. A part of me wishes i do not have to work full time so i can have the flexibility to be around them during the daytime. What can i do?

declutter

Lets call this new project: Declutter.
for the sanity of my relationships. for people who are the real bosses in life.
to align my mentality to the new goals in life.

time is scarce.

Can God make time move slower?

Service

Romans 12:1-2 NKJV

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which  is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

Today

Gotta constantly remind myself that my mental and emotional health are important.

Why am I always not delivering up to par?
Why am I always so tired?
Don't wanna follow in daddy's footsteps :(

Mrs Sio

My dear friend got married! Wishing you years of marital blessings my dear~~

夜深人静

问问自己
为自己的理想
牺牲与亲人接触的时间
值得吗？

或许我太贪心了
什么都要
什么都不想放弃
放弃其实有什么困难？
珍惜眼前人很难吗？
别等到他们已离世界才来后悔。

Thoughts

Struggling with responsibilities and life priorities. Why can't I get them right?

Love the song list @ pretticure. All my fav songs! <3

Judge

I was on the cab home and chatted with this cab driver. He's a Christian, have kids who served in church, used to marry others. The conversation went really well till he realized that I married a non-believer. He went 'aye' and asked if I go church regularly and presumed I don't cos I have a non-believer husband. I said I do; he didnt get it and said I'm not a strong Christian. Then silence. Before getting off the cab, he encouraged me to go to church regularly and to bring my hub. I repeated myself and said I serve in ushering and recently stepped up to colead cell.

The latter was a lie. That wasn't what I committed to Viv. Why do I have to lie to impress a fellow believer anyway? I felt judged n hurt, esp the assumption that I'm a backslider due to a nonyolked marriage. :(
I know I would face all these judgement when I chose love over obedience. Perhaps its been a while since the last judgement.