2014

Its hard to sum up 2014 in a few words.

There was anticipation, dislain, despair, happiness, being overwhelmed, longing, confusion, getting real, disappointment, surprise.

Good thing is - All ended well by today.

Moving on isn't that hard, its just about taking the first step. Ironic that I ended up in proj mgmt firm when I had much reservations venturing into that area.

Many things to be thankful for
- My grandma to accept Christ
- My dad to realize how damaged his body is. If u find regular hosp visits inconvenient, then how inconvenient is it to eat right and live right?
- my travel plans 4x a year to materialize. I've often prioritized work over spending time with my family, glad that I made it to Vancouver with mum.
- being there for kor's wedding
- a v understanding and flexible boss who invests in her employees' well-being
- close friends who had stuck tgr through the years
- I love the fact that my colleagues are tight.

2015
I gotta leave office on time and spend more time at home.

Ger in 2014 realizes there's so much more in life than personal accomplishments at work. And it's OK to be more emotional. That's what makes us human isn't it?

Why blog?

It started cos people around me had a virtual space to type their thoughts.

Then it served as a place to update friends who are overseas.

Now, its a place where I pen my feelings with the little time I have after completing all the seemingly important things that adults need to do. I really wish I have more time to write.

Marriage

Requires hard work. There's suddenly so many moving things and things that matter. Been feeling more emotions since the vancouver trip.

God please help shephard our direction, and strengthen our bond.

21-31 july, Day 142-152

Have a few things locked down this week.
-baptism on 19 aug 7am
-booked n unbooked banff and icefield for yvr
-my full time job at ws

Getting excited for the journey ahead!

10 july - 20 july, day 132-141

Time flies. Started working on the canada itinerary. Not sure if we r able to visit the places i hoped to visit. But surely looking forward to the trip!

Been asking friends if their condo/home is available for baptism. Hope i can get baptized before the trip.

Its back to client's office this week again. At least i had 3 days in the office, was grateful for that chance. Fixed on the last week of july to be my last week, hopefully just in time to handover to my replacement. There may be changes though.

Been having negative thoughts abt my limited space at home again and made a fuss. I cant help it but link the physical space of belongings to my freedom of expression. The feedback that I have too many clothes certainly didnt go well with me. Aye. 2 more years to getting my own rented space for 99 years.

1 july - 9 july, day 123-131

Grandma had her urine bag removed due to infection. Now she can walk even more freely and even went to market! Praise God!

Finally got to mobile testing this week at expo. While it was fun, we spent longer hours due to work starting late. Took cab home a couple of times too.

Was upset w r over his way of chiding me over a forgetful incident. Ignored him for a night. Im not sure why Im often so distracted but I expected empathy from him. Guess that's why I was so upset that I cried at work. Still very vulnerable and emotionally weak towards people i love.

Going seraphim saunctury this sat. :)

22 june - 30 june, day 113-122

Grandma was discharged on 26 june, thurs. With the urine bag. Not too sure what i can contribute to home now but guess i would just hang ard home on weekends.

Caught transformers on sat evening. Caught up with ping and weiqing over the weekend. Felt that my life is getting back on track. ;)

12 june - 21 June, day 103-112

Grandma had been experiencing aches at her right back since the tube attached to liver has been drained out. emotional week for my grandparents as they wanted he to get well really soon but there are obstacles.

The first weekend with Casey around gave me a breather. Felt that she was God sent. She is able to communicate well with grandpa and he had some laughters. He still had the bouts of anger now and then. Though Im unsure how much emotional strength uncle and aunt has, I hope they would not be wounded by what he says and would continue to love him as their father.
Like wise for me and bro. He had been throwing tanturms at me for things he perceived to be unrespectful to him from me. I cant help but feel emotionally affected. He had to choose mum's bday dinner to throw tanturm of all days. It's an awkward situation for her as we were in public and he told her to 滚开 from her seat so that he can leave the dinner place. I really don't know how to love him.

Rev Edmund preached on sunday about right relationships matter. He spoke about how there are broken relationships everywhere bcos one or both Parties are not putting in enough effort. Sometimes, one may get rebuked for actions perceived to be harmful to another, when in actual fact the actions are done out of good intentions. It is then up to us how we want to mend these relationships. He mentioned about giving advice: it is mockery if it falls on the ears of 'unwise' people; wise people instead would appreciate your feedback. How should i respond to future similar situation?

Workwise, I've discussed with boss on the biz dev role and she would think abt rumeration package during her trip. Felt more motivated this month for work and exercise. :)

6 june - 11 June, day 97-102

Had moral event on 6 June. It felt like a long time since I have been out. Enjoyed st games and think its a worthy place for friends to spend time at!

Grandma was supposed to transfer to amk community hosp for physiotherapy after the tubes had been removed from her and antibodies given orally. Pray that that day would come soon! It would be a month next week.

Had some social life this week. Boss also expressed her intention for a series of training to cover hard and soft skills. These things plus additional allowance out of the blue gave me confidence that she would invest in employee well-being.

19 may - 5 june, day 78 - 96

Grandma had a near fall and was hospitalized. Pneumonia, gastric, too much fluid in liver, on off fever.

Some of us have been taking turns to look after grandpa and to ensure he has his daily visits with grandma.

Grandma accepted christ!

(12 june) now waiting for ultrascan for her liver to check if all fluids have been drained out.

Im feeling tired and sick of my weekday lifestyle. Still feel obligated to come home on time to show my visibility at home. No exercise. Im aware that all these are self induced and only i can change my thoughts and lifestyle.

Am saddened by some selfish behavior during this period of time too. Sometimes i wonder why is it so tough to show compassion and love to the elderly. When we were young, parents have the patience to adhere to our whims and tanturms. Why is it when roles are reversed, the younger generation have the check to say that they are troublesome?

Day 70-77 , 11-18 may

11 may was spent lazing at home after church. Havent done that for some time and i actually enjoyed it. There were bouts of urge to head out but the taking of bus to je was just a hassle.

12 may - tgim! The next day is a holiday hence spirits were light in ofc.

13 may - had fun with sushi making at home. It was fun rolling the maki, r's mum did most of the cooking and cutting. :P had a sumptuous meal and continued lazing at home.

14 & 15 may - angel texted me saying she wanna meet me next day in town! Such a sweetie. Despite her being busy with 2 kids, she still had me in mind. Met her at city hall mrt for a brief exchange.
Got home and started booking airtix to Canada, yay 1 task done!

At work, there was a new assignment. Attached to the client office at mbfc for 3 weeks doing tasks in UAT environment. Great!

16 -18 may - ws celebrated my bday at Habitat. Nice! Enjoyed working with this team of people.
hopped over to amara after work. Once we stepped into the lobby, the whole atmosphere was so relaxing. We had a simple dinner and caught Godzilla. Sat morning did facial and made payment for uncle's and mum's airtix. lunched at club street social and walked along the shophouse before making a pitstop at ura centre. Learnt abt the usage of sgp land. Then back to hotel. We went ruichen for dinner, detoured to bugis before returning to hotel. I fell asleep after curling in bed. Love the staycation!

Sunday - celebrated grandma's 89th bday. She wasn't feeling well for a while and her body shrunk. May God bless her soul and guide her to you.

We went supermarket to buy ingredients for our dinner and weekday lunch. It was fun, first time shopping there w r i think. Cheers to healthy eating!

Day 64-69 , 5 - 10 may

Tues 6 may- baby was on mc for 3 days. Took the chance to catch a movie on the tues. Could have been a lovely date but i said something that offended him. He was still mad on wed morning but got better in the evening. make up time on thurs - bought some cheesecake to delight his tastebuds. :)

Fri - had another off due to most tasks completed. Met up with kel for lunch at blk A. Celebrated uncle p's bday too.

Sat 10 may - baby gave me a surprise bday celebration with ping, choon, shawn, andy :) we were initially planning to go to punggol to meet his sec school mates for prawn fishing. Midway he claimed its hot and feel like going marina barrage as he had never been there. So we dropped of at marina bay mrt. Took a route from GBBB as a detour to the barrage. Pleasant surprise and sweet of him to plan these.

Day 60-63, 1-4 May

Hanoi

Day 55 - 59 , 26- 30 April

Its was a 4 day funeral.
Decision was made not to move out to bb too. Though i was reluctant and angry at the way things were communicated, i guess i have to learn to let go of the idea. Cannot believe that there's even a problem with the solution. Felt at peace when we arrived at the decision though. It might probably be for the better. Well, lets see what happens in future. If it's going to be a viscous cycle, then i can only leave to both of them to sort it out.

27 apr - celebrated the apr babies bday at ecp. New experience of eating seafood!

28 apr - Satisfied my sushi craving during work on and mike drove us back. Albeit his first time driving after he has gotten his license, we were back in one piece. So did the car. Hah.

29 apr - borrowed seo books  :D

30 apr - celebrated my blated chinese bday. Happy to eat mian xian with 2 red eggs. Love my grandma.

Day 50-54, 21-25 April

Day 50 - felt hungry after a light dinner in the wee hours, that i had to eat. Either hormones are changing or the reserve gel pac is working hard in increasing my metabolism. Had a tiff w mr over planning to have dinner w a close friend. He cajoled me and said he would cancel it, it was a misunderstanding n he didnt think i would read too much into it.

It made me reflect. If I had taken that approach in the past with my ex-es, would my present be different? I was stubborn and selfish, diminishing their emotional needs in favour of my priority in friendship. It turns out my view changed as i got older.

Day 51- seems that things at home are back to normal. Mum brought home braised duck for dinner. Its been a while since we had dinner tgr on tuesday and i missed it.

Day 52 - a normal dinner w mr. Started looking at the airticket prices to Canada.

Day 53 - we had planned to visit mr's grandma after work. She had passed away some time in the morning/early afternoon. No one knows exactly when, as she was alone at home. Mum felt a pity that no one was around just before she passed on.

Reminder to self: take the initiative to visit someone who is ill, i never know when the person will pass on.

Day 54 - i had a very strange dream consisting of the guys that were and are impt to me. I was in pp and saw s n his wife. Mr happened to seat next to them too. Mr and I went to another area, where he was showing me his new laptop. I was playing ard w it when s came over and spoke to me. He was calm this time and the message was abt missing and treasuring. An awkward position to be in as mr was just sitting next to me. Then..james turned up. And the 3 of us started walking to our next destination. He asked me when im flying over to canada lol. We had a conversation around the airlines that offer the best rates. :) i certainly look forward to the trip!!

Alright back to my halfday work before gg to the funeral.

Day 43 - 49, 14 -20 April

BAU at work, been pulling in ot hours due to 4 day week. Lacking time to focus on exploring usage of webmaster tools.

I've also communicated the intention to move to bb west ave and she was shocked that rental prices are so expensive now. She had an impression that prices are around $500 and others around her are renting out places at $500 each, albeit location being far from mrt. She asked us to consider if we want to spend $950 a month or the 3 of us learn to compromise while staying tgr.

My dear hubby didnt want to make a stand, citing its up to me as I'm the one getting stressed with my own set expectations. Those are results of her temperment. Wth?

Both had set scenarios such that they are not the ones who asked for this and that ie. she didnt force me to do hsework-i did them volunteeraily. He didnt ask to move out- i proactively searched and secured a place to move out.

We spoke last night and had consensus to move out. I'm meeting the main tenant ltr to discuss the terms.

God, help me with my thoughts and words. If i didnt complain abt the rush and expectations abt hsework, things may not accelerate that fast. Pray for wisdom and a heart of gratitude in Richard as he learns the value of his r/s w parents. He seemed to be not bothered with them on the surface. I also pray for him to learn to be independent and considerate for others when we stay on our own.

GBBB was nice. I appreciated the company more than the scenary. Its been a while since my family hang out :)
It made me appreciate my mum more - seeing how filial and attentive she was to her own parents-in-law. I ought to learn from her more.

20 April - USS. The new attractions are the minions and Sesame street ride. I was tired after 2 consecutive long days. Think im getting too low energy.

Day 37-42, 8 - 13 apr

This week was mainly spent on room hunting, visiting various rooms and narrowing our choices. We are blessed to find a comfty place w new furnishing, at a negotiated price. Main tenant is ard our age group too. Its an experience understanding the stories and personalities behind different landlords. Thank God for supplying our need.

That means I got to start hunting my full time job and end my career break soon. ☺

Bb cleaned the toilet last night instantly after I asked him when is he gg to clean it after several weeks of hiatus. Happy and appreciative.

Its April

Its been a month. Still far from my goal, given that I had not tried even the basic step of hello world in andriod environment. The code looks complicated, far from the basic javascript i know.

Day 30 - April's Fool Day - Tuesday
Went to look up my client in fb and learnt that she could be below 25. Hmm. Been looking at seo job postings and they require experience w google and bing webmaster.

R n mum quarreled again over hsework. From a third party point of view, it seems that both like to jump to conclusion based on their own assumptions, which isnt communicated between them. One reacts upon a wrong assumption and the other react on a wrong reaction. After some discussion, it seems we are moving out. Back to home hunting again.
Meanwhile, R is having a change of job so hopefully, I can make the room hunting journey as cumberfree as possible.
He looked crushed when he tried to narrate abt the quarrel. Im glad I was there for him but not glad that somehow I contributed to this war as the point of me rushing home to do hsework before going out was one of the arguing points.

It was seen as 做戏 by her. She claimed she had never made it mandatory for us to do hsework everyday, then explained she might be overbroad when she reprimanded us in Jan for not ironing 4 pieces of clothing in the past. That, mdm, created the impression that laundry has to be done everyday cos those 4 pieces of clothing are the only laundry task left to clear. She reminded me that she didnt force me to do hsework, as she asked me the question whether i want to do hsework before. She was fine with me not doing hsework under the '没有办法, exclude me out of hsework' mindset. Well, it's a loaded question crafted beautifully. In any case, I have no qualms contributing to hsework as I think that each hsehold member has a part to play in that.

I think over the past 4.5 months, the common theme for quarrel is housework and the lesser of 2 evils - buying extra quantity stuff even if it means cost savings. These stem from different living habits and lifestyle. Refusing to clarify assumption is another rootcause. It may be good for R and me to figure out how our hsehold should run on our own instead of trying to resolve conflicts while fitting into another hsehold. God, need your guidance for this.

Day 31 - Wed
Client brought forward tasks from next week cos Im almost done with this week. Omg. Got an off for Fri from the boss too. Happy.

Was surprised to find R doing the laundry tdy and he offered to iron the shirts. He said he gotta iron his own shirts, so he got to start doing on his own. Feel that people grow through adversity. :)

Last weekend of March!

Its coming close to a month of my break. Last week was a steep learning curve at work. Today (day 29) is much better, im able to handle stuff on my own and explore things that are unknown. Aim to complete work by thurs so i can meet the ladies on friday!

Day 26 (fri) -
rushed home to finish up laundry b4 gg out w R. Wasnt a gd dinner as we ended up quarreling and his face was black. What made it worse was that the chicken was too hard which made my teeth ache. Made up after that and headed to west coast park for a walk. Saq some cyclists who stopped by there for a break. Nice. Really looked forward to our own place where doing hsework is flexible and not on a daily basis. Sure, I appreciate a clean home but I value time spent more on valuable activities than hsework. It doesnt give me satisfaction over having a relaxed dinner or creating something that can sell.

Day 27 -
Satisfied my pizza craving and watched Captain America: the winter soldier. Loved marvel movies and the way it interwined with other marvel characters.

Had jalan besar yth and popped by home to pack some toiletries home.

Day 28 -
woke up early to jog! So amazed. Havent been exercising since i was down w sore throat 2 weeks back. had cell lunch at delicious, without the bday boy Tim present lol.

Managed to squeeze in time for reading Javascript book again at the lib while R accompanied Shawn w his pc purchase. Borrowed a book on andriod app! Should continue reading them while im learning seo stuff. Would that b my new employee direction?

Headed to chinatown food centre for dinner and tried this leng mian. Just a tiny dash of ma la sauce and it had my lips swollen. Super tasty though there's only the noodles, beancurd and cucumber. Needed koi tea to drown the fire.

Day 29 (mon)
Amazed with myself that I took shorter time to complete the tasks for this week. Felt motivated!

Day 13-25

Day 13 (15 March 2014)
Breakthrough for God! My grandparents agreed to attend aunt's church to receive his blessing. Aunt Anna had blessed each of the families with a symbolic act of covering us under God's blood.

Attended zariel's wedding lunch. Her gown is so gorgeous! Yz and ks are planning their own respective futures too.

Went home for a jog ard reservoir before mtg Stephen n choon. Too zoned out after dinner.

Day 14
Supposed to usher in church but Justin tot he was on duty, so he dressed up. It was hilarious with all the confusion. I swopped with him in the end.

Went over to help out my aunt pack her stuff. Headed home for herbal soup dinner.

Day 15
I revised my javascript book. Traveled to sin ming to meet up with Mingyi to have a quick chat. Happy to have my aunt's umbrella which served a gd use. Didnt ask much questions and she would call me back if needed.

Day 16
Made dinner w couscous and roasted chicken from cold storage, since mil is at work. Baby loved the couscous. Yay. Need some real cooking in future.

Day 17-19
Packing laborer for my aunt's moving project. Had free meals and drinks. Yum.

Day 20(sat)
My aunt finally moved back home to grandma's.
Headed over to Changi City Point for sushi.

Day 21
Church plus gym plus home.

Day 22 (24 March)
Hogged the lib again for java revision before heading to sin ming for work.

My brains were fried end of day. Updating sites are simple but i took some time to figure out the process. Being an unstructured person by nature adds to my disadvantage. Anyway, im here to learn yea?

Attended Cindy's wedding in grand hyatt. Gd food.

Day 23
Yay, got taught how to update seo sooner than i tot. Still slow learning progress, repeating certain steps over and over again. Meh.

Day 24-25 (Thurs)
Had some links approved by client and spent some time publishing the sites. Mr had an interview w one of the big 4 owner coy. Am grateful he has a chance for the interview.

The matured & the young

Day 10 was spent meeting up with members for Rec Club to solve some clues in The Escape Artist and for High Tea at Fullerton Bay Hotel. The topic naturally ventured to the culture in the company and how it may be like in future. J shared his plan of leaving when he has reached the matured age of mid 40s, if he is lucky to be able to survive there. Most of the directors I knew in APOC were in their early to mid 40s. There was one exception who retired at around 60(?) True enough - IT companies prefer the young and innovative and don't seem to favour the experienced, certain local companies prefer to retain their experienced staff and allow them to slack n clock in hours, and provide grilling time-wasting environment to the young. Then of course, there were talks of backup plans, being our own boss etc. The scale of biz need not be too big, as long as it can pay off the bills. What about mine? I still don't have the desire to apply for any fulltime job yet. I need to create something before I throw myself into a numbing corporate job and deprioritize my goals once again. I sent off my resume to this local startup who is looking for part time project admin, venturing into the digital space. That's definitely the direction I want to go. I was supposed to meet the founder today but I could barely speak. Let's see how it goes on Monday. Day 11 - My first traffic surveyor job during this month! Due to outsourcing, the highest pay I could find has been reduced to 8 per hour. O well, at least earn some pocket month for the angpow budget :P I partnered with this young girl, who is 17 I suppose. When she spoke, she sounded no different from my generation when we were younger. We talked about cost of living in SG, how her group of friends discouraged another friend from taking taxis too frequently, acquiring more skills. Nothing close to the strawberry generation that I often read about. Maybe she's an exception ;) It made me reflect on my past, I used to frequent taxis due to its convenience. Now, one usual taxi ride is equivalent to my expenses for a day. I was a spendthrift indeed. Imagine those hundreds of dollars spent monthly funding my holiday trips. lol. Day 12 - Back to my safe haven. It's brainstorming and research on ideas today!

A week in view

Day 4 - productive day in the library as I started taking the basic course of JavaScript In CodeSchool. There's so any areas to remember. Love the interactive course as they have an instructor guiding the student in the video and disappearing when lessons go deeper, followed by a hands-on course. Winded up the day with ping and choon at KAP, reliving the old memories. KAP will be closed on 16 March for residential development. I wonder if people would be interested in an app that offers the current site and what used to exist there. There's an under-tapped market of mature smartphone users. Day 5 to 7- went KL with R. It was a short thrill as he and I took our own flights there, in order to save cost. I landed at the LCCT, hence have to take a shuttle bus to the main terminal. Thank God for autoroam, we were so reliant on sms even when we were there. Did the usual shopping and eating there. We stayed at Cronus Hotel this time, nearer to Suria KLCC. Functional room. Traffic flow was high too. He managed to get 2 of the toys he was looking for a long time. I dropped one of the box and it got dented at the corner :( . Think he was gracious enough not to dwell on it for long.. Day 8 (Mon, 10 March) - while I was in KL, my uncle called to inform the broadband modem was faulty. So I went to Starhub to get a new one. Then went to lib to continue reading up on apps. Learnt a few impt points to note of when working on the interface of app. I was lugging too many stuff; too tiring. Ended my day with body toning class and home. Day 9 - went to Macritchie Reservoir on a spur, and trekked up to the TreeTop walk in my normal office shoes. Moments when I love my break - being able to be spontaneous :) finished up the other book on apps in Bishan lib, before heading home for dinner. Sourced for a few part time openings which sounded fun, but as usual demand is great. I guess I'm competing against students who could be 10 years my junior. Gee. Day 11 - meeting the Rec Club folks later for their morale event. Delighted that I'm still invited though I'm no longer serving under that capacity. My aunt will also ask my grandpa if he is interested to go to her church this sat! Grandma is open to going. *keeping fingers crossed*

Day 3 & 4

Day 3 - I dropped off at Tiong Bahru mrt station spontaneously to savour the lor mee there. Explored the area and found some interesting cafes and poster. Then I hopped on a bus to Orchard and embarked on my mission to find Ms Quek's boots. There isn't much variety but guess those I've sent snapshots off to her fit the bills. Still cannot fathom why boots are so expensive here though there's low demand. Exp meaning 59.90 onwards for boots with minimal design. Weather was too hot and I craved for the library again. So back to JE. Headed home early to steam salmon for Mr Mok. He loved it. Day 4 - Headed to the storage space to pick up the polaroid camera plus do a little housekeeping. Horrendous! I didn't realize how much stuff I had. Mugging in the library before I went home to do some quick housework. Dinner with the girls at KAP. The place is ceasing operation on 16 March 2014. We had such lovely memories there and took some photos mirroring the same poses we used to take 15 years ago. Another MACd outlet closing due to residential development. :( That sums up my 2 days. Going to KL over the weekend with Mr Mok!

Day 1 and 2

It was Darren's and Denise's wedding over the 1 & 2 March weekend. Blessed Union! :) I spent my first day reading an biography of this lady (Jan's Story) stricken with Alzheimer's disease and 'Tapworthy - Designing Great iPhone Apps by Josh Clark. The tear jerking book - Her husband was the writer and he broke down the journey into stages, along with his thoughts, emotions and struggles. It was tough but I admired his courage of wanting to be and was the caretaker of his wife. Till he started getting depressed and sought help from people in similar situations and a live-in nanny. How much courage would R and I have if this happens to any of our relatives? During this break, I wanted to build an engine which can generate money so that we can have some passive income by the time we start our family planning. So I started reading up on App Design, programming etc. So thankful for the library and Internet. Feel so crippled without them, esp the internet. Cant send resume, cant research places for the Hanoi trip in May etc, cant blog. Thanks to my mum's tablet and R's bb stick, I should be self-sufficient for the rest of my break. I miss going back to office and talking to different people. From the time I tendered, I had to constantly remind myself why I chose to take this break. It's now or never, ger.

know my mil

Before I wed, was talking w Alan abt developing a framework on dealing with mil, with the sharing of situations, having checklists and scorecards. Monetize it. Not a bad idea though there're many such resources out there...but need the commitment to write. Lately, I've been accused of not doing housework and being a free loader at home cos she only saw R doing the laundry when she's home. What a huge defamation! I was naturally upset. Deliberately completing the laundry piece before she comes home doesn't suffice and doesn't add credit to myself. Then suay suay i have more social activities these 2 weeks, which consists of team dinners too. I even asked if it would make more sense for me to do laundry at home when she arrives at home(I hope not!) She said timing is up to us. Well. Cut long story short, we agree that each of us have our own way of doing things (and we won't interfere or feel depowered, giving 2 cents worth is fine); household chores are to be done by the entire family. Not just the women. I guess I have to give her credit for trying to execute the new thinking but also give grace when she falls back to the traditional thinking. I also asked for her trust, since she doesn't believe what she doesn't see (ie. me doing hsework behind her back literally). Well, how much she believes me is up to her. At least I attempted to clear the air and she ended her observations with 'i didn't see u do hsework, not u never do hsework'. Key Learning: Such conflict situations at home can train me to be a better communicator/ negotiator in future. :P Ephesians 4:29 “Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.”

Health and money

4 more weeks to the end of work. At times I wonder what I would be doing in March. I haven't drew out the plans in detail on what I wanna do. My dad had a small bowel operation just before CNY. It reminded me again of we are what we eat. I'm glad he did purchase a decent hospitalization/surgical plan and his company covers part of his hospitalization expenses. I opened his bills in view that he would be stuck in hosp for a number of days. Lo and behold, I felt my savings shrunk to half after clearing some of his bills (ok I know I'm exaggerating). There are still other loans which he pays installments and a 4 figure sum bill. wth? paying off late finance fees and interest charges month after month. That money would have been better spent elsewhere. Thank God for the side a/c that my mum has kept for me. smoothen my cashflow for a bit. It's so easy to be sucked back to the thinking that I need a job to survive and I'm wasting my time enjoying life. Realized its tough to stick to my original plan. I often feel gan jeong that I haven't planned in detail what Im going to do everyday in March. Yet I love sitting in cafes people watching and typing away like now. Only bad thing is Starbucks don't have power plugs available readily :(

Resigned to new fate!

I've officially resigned! Thanks to baby for supporting my thoughts 😊 It gave me the courage to finally sit down and type out my letter. The sense of liberation now that the decision was made and announced to the team, is so empowering! I really felt in charge of my life for the first time in months. I should start planning my adventures, 6 more weeks before I end work.