Monday, December 31, 2007

Saturdays with Suanzy

31 Dec 07

Last Day of 2007.

To be able to appreciate simple pleasures,
and to constantly improve one's skills
in this dynamic society isn't easy.

But from the perspective of life and death,
priorities become clearer.

Love, Family, Friends

**

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

As simple as it is?

Simple? Nahz. Complicated? Nahz.

Contentment is just not in my dictionary now.

Entertainment only provides a temporary satisfaction.

Half a year more. A part of me cant wait to start working and explore the world, widen my horizon. Yet another part says I'm not quite polished yet. There is still much more to learn.

I wish I can be more firm and forthcoming in my decisions, my expressions.

I'm not who I want to be yet.

**

Back from Hong Kong. Hearts Disneyland! =D Hearts Buble Gum!
Upload photos aft I collate from the girls.
I cant take proper photos. Got shaky hands. =(

**

woohoo! its the holidays! Much to do this dec!

Monday, December 03, 2007

4 more days

...... to HK!

:):)

Hopefully when i come back, i'll be more motivated

3 more days to the last paper. Grr...

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Facebook



omg.. this is so funny!

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Addicted

淡了﹔但又在意
想走﹔卻又想留

不知道 不明了 不想要 为什么 我的心
明明是想靠近 却孤单到黎明
不知不觉 不情不愿 又到巷子口
我没有哭 也没有笑 因为这是梦

Saturday, October 13, 2007

nus

"Thus, students who matriculated before August 2006 may continue to opt for completion of a Specialisation (4 modules, including BSP3001 Business Policy and Strategy) in addition to the required 14 Foundation Modules. Any completed Specialisation will appear in the student's academic transcript but not degree scroll. Students who are not completing a Specialisation are required instead to complete BSP3001 Business Policy and Strategy, plus 12 MCs of Business modules in any area, which must consist of at most 4 MCs at level-2000 and at least 8 MCs at level-3000 or above. No mention of Specialisation will appear in such a student's academic transcript."

hahahahahahhahah. How great. More flexibility this time.

With SO many choices, I wonder if bizad is trying to gain credit for being linked to this and that or is sincerely trying to match its curriculum to the market.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Really Rumblings

GE run is 2 Sundays later and I haven't started my training. =\ Hope I wont faint when I run that day. hurhur.

It was Mad rush this morning man. Lucky WQ helped me open the door for the deliverymen JIT. Thanks man! But he missed the rest of his lecture after that. oops.

The Shiseido workshop is finally over. Cant believe we spent months arranging for 1 session. Lots of changes in between. Nevertheless, the effort's worth it. Glad that I sat through the whole thing. Had my eyebrows shaped for free! woohoo! No need to spend money threading it in the time being. Good. Can organize next sem again!

***

Sorry for lack of updates.

I'm not that busy actually, just plain lazy. Hee.

And slightly depressed cos I feel kinda stuck in this stage in life. grr =(

Ah well, I guess everything will be fine when I work my ass off during the next few weeks.

**

I'm glad for you, really. To pull me up from the darkness and to give concrete advice when I needed them(thou I don't always agree with what you say). I guess you did try yr best to be a good father and I thank you for that. =)

Thursday, October 04, 2007

The story of Moo Moo

One fine night, Girl saw Moo Moo outside a construction site across the road. Thinking that it's cute, she pouted and pointed to it, "I WANT that".

Guy runs across the road and carried the cow worth 3kg and tons of cuteness over.

Girl grins. She wants to bring this home.

They waited for bus 143. Heng it was empty. The bus driver was pretty amused by the cow but asked nothing.



Guy worries about how to bring this new pet through the mrt barriers.

Girl fantasies of playing with it every morning.

Guy worries of his parents complaining.

Girl plans to place it in the living room.

After some time, Girl and Guy decides to desert the cow at Chinatown, for all to share.

So they alight outside Chinatown Mrt.

The cuteness of the cow is irresistible. It drew many stares from girls, especially those with their bfs around.

Girl and Guy made their farewell camwhoring with the cow.




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So.... good things can happen along Pasir Panjang road too.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Spending time

One often says how you utilize your time reflects your priorities. The more you spend time on one aspect, the higher the priority.

My grandparents spend alot of time with their television, bringing their dinner to share with their beloved. Their younger generation seems secondary to them. A while ago, they were complaining no one's at home. And now, we seem to be the ones complaining that they are not keen on spending time with us...........Good Riddance.

Its a blessing that they detest computers.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Expectations

Live up to it or dissappoint.

What goes around comes around, don't they?

When you realize what you've been thriving for so hard for isn't really what you expect, what can you do?

Hearing but not listening.

Saying words that sting.

Disappointed.

Don't place too much hope on me. I will not reach there anyway. All the more you want me to be this way, I would be another.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Bit by bit, i dread going to school. All the last minute rush to get assignments done, to get papers printed.

Gah. Been having headaches on and off this week. Neither jogs nor tears will make it go away. And the doctors I've consulted before said there's no medication cure for it since it's tension-related. Just take time off work and relax. zZz.

Been piling fats. And not losing them like never before.

**

The other day, the girls[yq,liting,nic,angelynna] and I were on the bus with Ivan. They were on the seats while I was standing. They were commenting that his eyelashes were super long, so i asked him to close his eyes.

He shut his eyelids, tilt his head upwards and smiled a little.

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.
.

"EH, i didn't say i want to kiss you. Why u give that kind of face"

the girls roared with laughter, with many guys turning into our direction; Ivan buried his face in his bag.

Oops. so i spoke too loud?

**
We had 85Broads Welcome Tea on Monday.

I witnessed how Chelsea gave her presentation on Mon. Sweet. Comfortable and forthcoming. I still have much to learn about presentation.

In most of the photos that are taken, I was either not looking at the camera, or smiling with my eyes closed.

the slimmest photo i could find


Us with sponsored' items!

**

It's a pity how some people determine the value of their lives by the job they have. Doesn't life consists more than just work?

To cram my remaining modules or not to cram?

I do not know.

Even if I do, I won't be able to make it in time for the whole usa trip. gah. If not, I might have to miss a few weeks of class in the following sem. brr.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

NOT studying

Great! I survived from my own cooking!

Go sign up for your Free GV Movie Club Membership at their website =)

Tons of backlog[read:case studies] to settle.

Cindy just forwarded a Work & Play in U.S, which takes place in May-Sept next year. How to go when I'm taking double maj? I reckon that's what's Xingyi went for =(

I want to travel much, very much.

Paris, Aust, Taiwan, HK, Euro, wherever.

I want a Wii as well.

Suanzy refuses to upload my nice photos onto his comp, claiming that I can only view them in his hp and I don't have to share them with the www(Whole Wide World). Pui! I have ownership of them.

Though I've been playing much (like visiting Courts in Vivo so often to play xbox, scrambling to Sentosa at 9+pm, taking naps like up to 3 times a day, taking the wrong buses which brings me on a detour and i've to take another bus home, trying on dresses and putting them back cos I'm deemed too fat to owe them.. urgh..that red dress was only $15!), I still want to catch a gd movie, chill and have a good read at Borders.

Oh, dropping by a jazz bar would increase your likability by 5points too.

Meeting later.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

for the longest time possible

i'm cooking dinner for tonight.

God pray that the diners will survive.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Comin' Home

Well I've been down to Georgia,
I've seen the streets in the west,
I've driven down the 90,
Oh hell, I've seen America's best.
I've been through the Rockies,
Hell, I've seen Saskatoon,
I've driven down the Highway 1
Just hopin' that I'd see you soon.

Cuz I'm comin' home
I'm comin' home (x6)

Well I've never been to Alaska,
But I can tell you this;
I've been to Lincoln, Nebraska
And hell you know it ain't worth shit.
I've been through Nova Scotia,
Sydney to Halifax,
But I'll never take any pictures
Cuz I'll know I'll just be right back.

Cuz I'm comin' home
I'm comin' home (x6)

Well I've seen a palace in London,
I've seen a castle in Wales,
But I'd rather wake up beside you
And breathe that old familiar smell.
I never thought you could leave me,
I figured I was the one,
But I understand your sadness,
So I guess I should just hold my tongue.

But I'm comin' home
I'm comin' home (x6)

I know that we're taking chances,
You told me life was a risk,
I just have one last question;
Will it be my heart
Or will it be his?

Comin' home,
I'm comin' home (x6)

Saturday, August 25, 2007

What to do?

What do you say about an organizer who asks for confirmation through email asap, who didn't reply to my sms(S) and call(S), and tell me that the booth I wanted is taken up 4 days later when I replied him within the same day?

Haven't I indicate clearly enough?

And it's not like the organizer is a year 1 freshie. He's been in his position for at least a year.

Now that I request for the updated floorplan, he ignores my phonecalls, takes eons to reply even my sms. He won't be as suay as me right, always having problems with my phone?!

*vomit blood*

****

Bought Samsung L760



for my Grandpa. Trial tested this phone... and I love it. So much better than the current Motorola phone I'm using which oftens signals low batt and is tad inefficient for sms-ing. $38 ONLY with iOne plans. Gawd.

Nvm, I shall wait for the price of my dream phone to drop. :)


Samsung U600.


****

The dancers are Gotham Penthouse have hot dance moves! Esp the guy called Sidney. Teeheehee. They come from Johannesburg and perform 3 times a night.

Sometimes I wonder how the boss survives running the club every night. Usually other clubs open only on Weds, Fris-Sats.

Suanzy and I thought there's Nightrider operating for that night, so we stayed for the 12midnight show. Ended up taking cab home. A lesson learnt: Nightriders only operate on Fridays & Weekends. With some common sense, we could figure that out as well. Think we got wiped off by the dance moves on stage.

***

okay. Got to do some work. Finally doing some academic stuff.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Spot the 5 similarities!



Posted by Suanzy

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Everyday (by Bon Jovi)

Ger, this song suits you! =)

I used to be the kind of gal
Who'd never let you look inside
I'd smile when I was crying
I had nothing but a lot to lose
Thought I had a lot to prove
In my life there's no denying

Goodbye to all my yesterdays
Goodbye, so long, I'm on my way

I had enough of crying, bleeding, sweating, dying
Hear me when I say, gonna live my life everyday
I'm gonna touch the sky, spread these wings and fly
I ain't here to play
Gonna live my life everyday

Change, everybody's feelin' strange
Never gonna be the same
but ya wonder how the world keeps turning
Life, learning how to live my life
Learning how to pick my fights
Take my shots while I'm still burning

Goodbye to all those rainy nights
Goodbye, so long, I'm moving on

I had enough of crying, bleeding, sweating, dying
Hear me when I say, gonna live my life everyday
I'm gonna touch the sky, I spread these wings and fly
I ain't here to play
Gonna live my life everyday

Hit the gas, take the wheel
I just make myself a deal
There ain't nothing gonna get in my way
everyday

Goodbye, so long, I'm moving on

I had enough of crying, bleeding, sweating, dying
Hear me when I say, gonna live my life everyday
I'm gonna touch the sky, I spread these wings and fly
I ain't here to play
Gonna live my life everyday

Posted by suanzy

in a mess

my room.

think i've turned numb. I couldn't feel sad.

all i can do is to think logically or smile.

i'm not making you confused, you are.

i'm bad at playing mind games, so don't.

i've no time for that now. 6 freaking mod and many other things to settle.

but still, you can make me laugh.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

empty

the four walls.

the squabbles over the washing machine(like again)

i miss you.

gawd, how i wish my uncle's here.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

No mood to do work

Back from 85Broads Meeting resting at home while waiting for time to pass b4 I can taste the sumptuous beef horfun.

Been reflecting on the events that happened this year.

I wanted to migrate so much, that I tried psycho-ing my grandparents and mum. My ego was high, I believed there wasn't anything I could not achieve. Then, this guy came into my life. And the plan to migrate was put aside. We spent many beautiful memories, despite me being bogged down with Project can, an internship and club commitments during the holidays. At times, we felt like giving up the relationship due to a certain factor. But we are happy when we spend time together. Before the beginning of school term, I knew things could not retain that level of rosiness. With my packed schedule and his, we might only be free moments before we sleep. Esp mine. That is why I chose the decision that I've taken months ago. I go home twice a week, sometimes just for meals or to pack my room/do whatever errands my grandparents ain't able to do. And that takes off feasible time to spend together. Family is a commitment which I cannot compromise. But the bed that I sleep on here at home is becoming more of just a place where I rest my soul overnight. This place is becoming a battle place of words and pettiness. Perhaps, my grandparents have too much time on their hands.

Ah well, dinner.

Finalized

Taking 6 modules, with the courtesy of "working with Cornycheeswa and winning a trip to France" - nicely put by Ben.

I hope I wont die under the pile of projects come October then. Shouldnt be. Im confident that my project mates/friends will do their part this time.

The first Sat of Sch Term, yet I do not feel like going anywhere. There aint much to do now, cept' for 2 forum questions and a case study. Perhaps some readings of Chapter one.

zZzz. How boring I've become.

Sent Jamie and Laureen off at the airport last night. Imagine me going SEP with them. We'll have hell lot of fun. =(

Suanzy said smth very true: only the students with better well-off families could afford to have disposable income to travel. Others would have to think twice b4 committing to the financial burden they would incur.

Going home for 10 days to fill in my uncle's vacancy. He's going to Australia! I'm gonna miss this place. Back to the land filled with high-rised flats for a while.

** Photos from Genting
yay! finally a retreat.


survived on peas


i like these


i don't understand why i always measure at 154cm when I'm taller than that.


Read backwards.


**

aye. fireworks is on tonight!

suanzy asked wouldn't I like to have my own time to do my own stuff. prob he felt that I stuck to him too much. boo.

k lor. See you during our proj meeting then!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

first day of sch

the familiar faces.

the familiar smell of career office.

friends I havent seen for 3 months.

the new deck.

lunch which lasted more than 2 hours finding seats, queueing and eating.

the gossiping with carisse. lol.

the exchange students in the class bombarding answers.

the counting down to end of lessons for both seminars.

gosh, how am i going to survive mondays?

***

Seems like there's quite abit of stuff to settle on the first day of sch. Registration for recruitment talk, application of locker, report loss of ring( i lost mine in the toilet on Sat .. a >$300 ring.. sigh), pasting of silhouettes.

The first 2 was settled. The OSA page kept bringing me back to the application of loss item page, so i hafta make a trip down to OSA. The silhouettes got removed and c.r.u.s.h.e.d. cos we werent allowed to paste on pillars. (then what abt previous sems? posters were all over the pillars and no one did a fish abt them?!!?) More than 2 days of efforts gone. Sigh. Good tad that Hui Ling managed to save about 6.

Everything's in a rush. Will there be enough publicity for the event?

It's 7 school days left.

Gonna collect my pay cheque later.

Yay!

Money for my contact lens!!

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Fork youn Asian Thinking

im jaded.

Sitting at home waiting for my aunt and her movers to come.

Women, nonsence.

They think so much with their feelings but neglect logic.

My aunt was questioning this and that, when she doesnt know what she has been missing from her absence from home. (See la, i dont stay at home anymore i also know what's happening, she still say i have disappearing acts and whatever explanations im giving her are so vague).

I felt that my privacy was so intruded and years of frustrations got leashed out in tears.

I knew crying doesnt solve anything but I just felt like sulking.

There are so many miscommunications at home. Channels of communications aint clear and the people dont make themselves to be. Im guilty of it, I admit.

aiya, cut long story short.

I know what I'm doing. Trust me.

Just 2 sentences, but I do not have the courage to say that to her. Lest she bombard me with sentences like "the world is not full of candies", "you don't know why we're doing this", "you're still naive".....yadda yadda

The men in my house are willing to let go of me.

Why aint the women?

"you have to fight for the things you want in life."

That's what she taught me.

I do not wish to shoot her back this sentence, lest she deems it as a form of disrespect to her.

oh well, my dad and grandma has approved and come to terms with it. I think that's enough.

**

It's National Day.

I watched "Secret" this morning and chatted with Suanzy till morning before we took the first train home. Tired.

Good show, go watch it.

okay, maybe im biased. I like Jay Chou. It's his first time directing and I find it commendable.

Lunch.

Fireworks later.

Monday, August 06, 2007

rumblings

I cant help but feel disheartened. How did everything turn out this way? Yet this time I'm not able to do anything except offer words helplessly.

Please be strong... my friends.

Sigh.

**

the last week before returning to school.

feeling emo again.

some things just don't change do they?

The unspoken fear is back again.

Or maybe it's just the night.

Or maybe whatever that has happened is getting to me.

Certain things can be just so fragile.

Will i be able to pull through as well?

The unspoken fear.

It will just mock you, for being a coward.

Sleep ger.

Today has enough worries of its own, why worry about tml's?

A game of Project C.A.N.

Credits to Zhen Qin.

The girl holding the scroll ( which is supposed to be a huge banner) is me, together with the Pub team. Marketing Team is with the phone and bottle cos they have been calling for sponsors.




There's an option for Suanzy distracting people with his green bag!



The full team



For the game:
http://www.comp.nus.edu.sg/~limzhenq/can.exe


Real Faces:

Saturday, August 04, 2007

tmd. typed 1 long post. ie hang. and its lost.

**

Packing today. Aunty's Stuff. Only abt 2 hours left to pack and I havent got myself off the pc.

tmd.

**

Men.

Players.

Stayers.

If you've met a stayer, please keep him.

There are so many players around. And it doesnt always take months to realize that. It could take years. Even Enstein's wife and mistress didnt know about one another's existence until after the great old scientist passed away.

As quoted from my friend's blog who's on exchange program to her friend:
I see diff gals walking out from his room almost every morn. So something happened between u guys as well. Dun expect him to have any emotions attached though. This is the game. Understand it and play it well. He's not going to come back pacifying U.

Seriously, Treasure what you have. By the time you realize that the stayer is the one that you wanted after you let go of him, it may be too late. Another girl may just pick the stayer along her way.

Relationship may not need to be of top priority all the while, it could give way to studies or family or career. But as long as the connection is there, you can be assured that the stayer will be there for you.

Don't give up yet, if at this point of time, you are just confused. Confusion can blur many things, even family relations.

Call me to talk anytime. :)
This is what happens when i stay at home.

Grandma would be watching tv.
Uncle would be out in the gym or swimming.
I would be reading blogs and chatting all the time.

I was home at 11am. it's 2.38pm. Still havent lift a finger to pack stuff. =\

I need to go Artfriend and Sim Lim to get some stuff. And cut my hair too.

walaueh.

*morphing into a couch potato the moment i step home*

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

120 sec to blog.

Its cold.
Theme Park looks fun.
Marrybrown is yummy, better than KFC.

Suanzy is cute.
Shopping for boots.

Monday, July 30, 2007

I see a vast difference in the attitudes between a uni undergraduate and an non-uni graduate. Maybe I shouldn't overgeneralize based on just 2 person's reaction. But a uni undergraduate will use words that express disappointment and maybe a tinge of anger and stop there;whilst an non-uni graduate will beat around the bush and use words in a crude way. Whether the stop sign is there still remains a mystery.

Alas, I shall put all of these at the back of my mind. For I have better and more important things to do.

I hope you will see the light soon. I don't know how you could do that but Please do.

**

Will be away from Tues to Thurs. If there's anything urgent, you can call me.

I'll be getting a new line soon. I'll be changing this web address as well. This time, only friends will be updated. I hope those who has it keep it to yourself. Those who doesn't have it, you can ask when you see me. Thanks =).

Friday, July 27, 2007

Been blog-hoping and I've seen a fair share of convocation photos. So scary. Though it signifies to families that their children have finally grown up and are prepared to step into the working world, it signifies more stress ahead and less time for family and friends as people get sucked into the rat race.

I've got a year and a half more to go.

Why do we need such ceremonies for families to be proud of us? Cant they be already proud of us in the present stage? Do we really need to complete tertiary education before parents realize that their children have all grown up?

Its all in the mindset.

Like how people assume that taitais have it all easy. Just socialize everyday and get pampered all day long. How about cases where there is adultery?

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Asian Family

I think the typical Asian family expects the youngest to be the most subserviant, obedient, and caretaker of the family whilst the older ones are allowed to spread their wings and fly to where their hearts lead them to or call the shots.

What is this?

As men grow older, they do not become wiser. Instead, most of them turn muddled-head, tempermental and irrational. One of the worse description would be childish.

What is this?

Women won't be there always to listen to men's woes. We have our own work to do as well. In fact at the present moment, women have much more commitments than men. So, what's the fuss about when your female counterparts are able to handle everything so well, when all that happened was a small glitch in your one commitment?

Has women gained the upper hand already?

:)

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

why this blog exist

When i started a blog in 2003, it was purely for entertainment; an outlet to type tons of rubbish and unnecessary bullshit. Gradually, it became an outlet where friends could keep updated about my daily/weekly activites even though I see most of them around. It then shifted to writing about events where I can reflect on and observe the transition Im going through in life and some promotion inserted. Furthermore, when close friends are overseas, and we are getting so packed in our lives, this blog all the more, serves its purpose of updating.

Some people blog to vent frustrations, to gain fame, to gain sales, to leave messages for friends, to share gourmet and good deals, and the list goes on. What's yours?

***

A new addition:



Look at its fin!


Next week, Im going buy a goldfish. Muahahaha.
Can throw in a chihuahua too?

***

Project C.A.N is left with its last phase - C.A.N. Distribute!

We morphed into shoppers and shopowners yday as shoppers collect a can from each category of food. I think its more tiring to be a shopper than a shopowner.

**
Then I went to Changi Airport for the 3 times a year send Choon off and eat Popeye routine. heh heh

This time, we took a different approach. Darren did the 'B', ping the 'Y', and me the 'E'. LOL. I think the lady officer must be thinking we are crazy.

**
My internship ended! Didnt learn much in terms of job scope as I did cold calling before. Instead, I felt that wadever happened was so drama-rama. Thought I was in Caldecott Hill.

oh well. It ended.

**

The 2nd day of my holiday was spent repairing my skin.
Good weather.
Yawns.

can distribute tml!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

i suppose

if you werent there to listen to my complaints and wake me up from my sleep on trains and buses, i might have been late for work or other appointments, or worse still, suffer from a breakdown.

muah! thanks.

i'll have time for you.. soon.

Friday, July 13, 2007

getaway

i need music sun skies sand sea to rejuvenate.

my me me time comes tml.













A closure to Pub~
logo + poster run in NUS + personal favourite of drafts + Newsletter Design + HDB Poster (dont know what happened to it haha) + volunteer tees. There r more, i'll add them ltr on.

and of course the website.

Http://can.nuscsc.net

Special thanks to Tan Ching, Xiqian, ZhenQin. You guys did a great job! (like as if you all know abt here lol)

The past events all the more supports my notion of working with guys. more flexible and spontaneous. I've seen the way a girl led her group during camp. omg. a turn-off for me.


This week's bad. Im tired and sleepy. Been late like 5 times this month for work. Screw the highlighting system which marks our slots even if we're just 1 min late. my luck for watching the bus zoom past me whenever i stepped out of home. 3 times running this week! Not to mention the lift system in Int'l Plaza sucks big time. We are given 5 min extra for lunch cos the lift will take 5 min to reach us, but not for the starting time for work. Crap.

At least the publicity stuff for Project c.a.n. are done. Another period of time when i have to get things done but can never produce due to technical and human inefficiency. Only supper can keep me awake.

85broads meeting scheduled to Sat afternoon. Looks like I have to give the sentosa trip a miss. sigh. holidays are much more crammed than sch term.

Im desperate to find an assistant. But where to squeeze the time to even look for one when I have close to no time doing personal stuff during my internship now?

Crap man... things will be better after this month i hope.

***

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Holidays at a glimpse - June


Free roller coaster ride on the back of a lorry









How close can you get to the cars on the road?









Scallops~ at a chinese restaurant at Lakeside. There's a swimming complex similiar to the one at Chinese Garden Mrt, a smaller version. Reminds me of Wild Wild Wet. I wana go!







We discovered this playground in Bishan while doing our rounds of distributing flyers. Very futuristic feel. BUT...











This item. can kill. When i stepped on it and twirled around, i nearly puked. It never stops and spins faster with each round. When I clinged tighter, it spins faster...some physics law. Suanzy still thought I was kidding when i screamed for him to stop the spinning. And the playground is meant for children under 12 years old. A physical and mental torture, I suggest prisons to use this instead of the current caning.

After Suanzy challenged himself, he cried.lol


He said he could get out of the loophole. Then I showed him how easy it was for him to drop his butt onto the ground since his butt is only <30cm away from the ground. hahahahahahha!


Another sinful treat from Suanzy. Yday he said he wanna go shit then 5 mins later, he entered the room with a cheese sausage. I wondered where that came from.




Happy Holidays!
From yours truly,

Friday, July 06, 2007

Sgp is so small.

Wayne is a guy I bumped into a few minutes ago. He was my MPH collegue, a guy who made a gift for Choon on Vday that year. A funny guy, who would do idiotic stuff with his robotic actions. Funny at times. He often gets bullied by Shasha. Aye. MPH - the best work environment I've worked in so far. My team was brillant, always helpful and cheerful. Politics only came into play after I left the place and at the other outlets. I miss that place but now when I walk pass the shop, it gives a different feel. I dont see anyone familiar anymore. Or maybe I didnt look hard enough. Im glad I still have Enghoo, Hydee and Shasha on my Friendster. supposed to meet up during the holidays lor. Now 1 and a half month gone soon. Aye. Eng Hoo's working in True Yoga, Im a lil afraid he will charm me into buying a package. Not that I have money anyway. hahaha.

He damn funny lor, gave me his namecard. then still sms me his name just in case i forgot his name. Diaoz!

I remember this mgr in the Raffles Place outlet, Giles. A smart guy who's worthy of respect. My aunt complimented him b4 as well. I wonder where did this man if talent went. Penguin, Wayne said. Hmm.

okay. Back to work.

Love Today!

Gonna update my skin. heh heh

Today's a good day! TGIF! When Im working, Im damn happy during weekend afternoons. I went to Boon Lay for the demonstration. smelt the soy sauce aura. The place where i used to roam for a while. It has changed so much. Jurong Point is expanding, a deep trench is dug. At least i didnt get to see Prudential pple there. hurhurs.

The prospect is a good one! Oh man, Im so lucky! He's looking to change his software and is comparing us to SAP- a high end software. lalala. Then he asked for quotations at the end of the demo. 1 step closer to the $500 incentive. woohoo!!

Damn happy la. Until i took my passport photo at the machine booth. Look like shit. Im gonna scan that and upload to Facebook, can you believe it?! Dislike taking passport photos. The only decent one i took was during sec4.

Now Im at Jurong Library cos no one wanna date me! boohoohoo! hahahah
Need to get started with 85Broads stuff. Been procrastinating for 2 weeks. Missed the Shape Run Registration. Damn!! Chelsea wanted to sponsor 5 bucks for everyone. No more NIKE goodiesssssssss =((((((( Damn damn damn!!

I went to Milk Run last Sunday but it aint that fun. Aiyah should have taken part in the competitive run. People are jamming up the walkway and some parts of the route were so squeezy. Run stop run and stop, such a turnoff. I was separated from suanzy and the CSC pple after i stopped to help this girl who fell and scraped her skin. The uncle next to her asked her to paste a plaster over her wound, which is like larger than the size of the cotton medicated area of the plaster. Like WHAT?!?! Never use brain AH?! pple bleeding like mad still stick a small plaster! i wanted her to clean her wound first then walk over to the medical area but the uncle insist she paste the plaster without doing anything. like wth.

After that, I left the route and walked home instead for dinner. hahaha. okay lah, the goodie bag got nice cereal which i can drink during work =)

Now i officially owe my bank account only $200! woohoo! wait for this month's pay! Heard that our transport fees will be reimbursed. Yeah! Money for my meals! (im using bus & mrt concession).

Next week, there's Movie Night for the whole company. Harry Potter! =D~
Networking session on Friday afternoon. Another demo before that. Oh man. Im beginning to like this internship. No more trying to stay awake in the afternoon.

Im really amazed by the software. It can do wonders. If only the accounting world know what it really is about.

okay, i better start doing work. lalala.

oyah, i've got stuff to sell in the school bazaars. I heard there's gonna be a combined of engin, sci and arts and it will be along roads. Anyone have any idea?? Who do i look for to rent a booth?

Listening to
Love Today
MIKA

hey im getting the hang of the shake alr...bleah.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

feelings, feelings and feelings

When i work hard, i work damn hard. I dont sleep at all.
But when i try to work smart, i compromise alot of quality on my side.
I dont know......... is this how its supposed to be? i dont get a single bit of satisfaction thou I meet deadlines as the work produced doesnt look like it has gone through lots of analysis to me.

Sometimes i wonder if i was a perfectionist, i used to edit nitty gritty stuff till the wee hours. But now, i fall asleep before any stuff gets done. Working life-syndrome.

which leads me to a point:

How does it take for one to succeed in life?

I kept compromising social activities for work, be it sch work or job kind of work. Now when I quesion whether everything's worth it, its too late. too late for this vacation.

Things at work have changed. So much. Its scary how one can be in the office a day, and out the next. I think we took too much advantage of the priveleges we had.

lalala. So comfty at home, that i dont feel like going out le.

85Broads stuff still not done. Shittoes.

Rak was commenting that the bee is a perverted one. Attack cleavage. hahaha

Im just worried for my team leader. I dont know whats going to happen to her. Just hope this internship wouldnt affect her future much.

There are so many photos I would like to share. But Suanzy's been busy to upload photos to the pc.

lala.

Hopefully tml i'll get a chance to attend the demonstration that i've secured. No need to sit in office the whole day!

Bee

I got stung by a bee, after using Johnson & Johnson's Baby foam.

Got so flabbergasted that i went over to NUH, and slept on their ward while waiting for my turn. 3 hours waiting time, they said.

Then i saw a guy who trembled so badly after his fall. He snored super loud and i couldnt really get to sleep,
a guy whose skin got scraped very badly from his motorbike accident,
an uncle who let out a loud fart and I tried hard not to laugh.

It was nth serious, i pulled the sting out early. At least i know im not allergic to bee stings for now.

Then another fly brushed across my face after i left NUH.

Wads up?! U all are attracted to Johnson's Baby Foam isit?!

Less $82.10 and 4 hours of sleep.
No sleep for suanzy at all, and he has to be awake for another 20 hours running.
Poor thing.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

The other day I was looking for an electric kettle at home and it slipped from my mouth that Im not staying at home. Then she made this comment:

"You and your brother are the same. Only know how to spend money"

And my heart just snapped. Couldnt even contain my tears on the bus back to sch. Its like... of all people, the last few people I would expect misunderstandings from is my own family. I didnt even dare ask for money when I've just made a new pair of spectacles and my bank account is overdrawn. In fact, I seldom request extra money from her. But how can one survive on an allowance of $300-$500 per month, with shopping, purchase of textbooks, transport, phone bills, daily necessities included? When she causally mentioned that she would sponsor a trip to Hong Kong, I was so thrilled. When I probed further later on, it was all just an illusion. Sometimes I wonder does she really care. Or does she treat her own children as plants? Just provide the minimum requirements, others will do the rest. Then wads the point of having children?

She even felt that buying office wear and having an internship isnt really that important. They're just a waste of money. Fine. If I do not work, where do i get enough to spend?

Sigh.

It is never a money issue. I've not been living with my own parents since 10 and till now, Im still searching for justifiable reasons for their actions back then.

At times when I hear her complain about migranes and bodyaches, I feel like telling her to quit her job. But I lack financial power to do so.

Time, I need time.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Happy Birthday to You~

Happy Birthday suanzy dear :)

Hope this year is one of the best celebrations you've ever had.

Thank you for stepping in and restructuring my life,
for cheering me up when I was disappointed,
for exchanging my heels with your slippers when my feet hurt,
for piggybacking me whenever I feel like it,
for cooking splendid food and delivering them to town in your sexy shorts,
for testing your own limits,
for nurturing my patience,
for picking me up when I fall over and over again,

for showing how special I am to you.

Muah!

Ai Ni!

All the best for your career! Keep learning in life k~ :)

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Chapter 2 + intern

When Chapter 2 ended, my definition of love changed. Maybe my extent of loving him have already reach a stage whereby I wish for him to be happy most of the time, at the expense of oneself. Whether we are tgr in a r/s doesnt matter anymore, after all, its only a status. People who are married in the eyes of law need not love each other the most.

When we got tgr, i knew our r/s would be rock solid. We have 10 years of experience. Its no small deal.
I never thought this r/s would end, because you can always find a way back into my life like paying $100 bucks of rent per month, whereas if you decide you do not want me in your life, im out.


Like what we discussed in april, we can play so many roles in each other's lives.. soulmate, buddies, lovers. But as time goes by, he seems to fit in the role of a sister, brother, guardian as well. Im speechless.

He said my strength is my sweetness. But Im afraid i cant maintain the level of sweetness when i get super tied down with work. Little things will irritate me. But i'll try to priortize such that my work commitments wouldnt affect my mood.

Chapter 3 includes his bday and im totally unprepared. Hardly have extra time to think of creative ideas! urgh.

****

I had a feedback session with my supervisor yday and i realized how impt leadership is in a team. How fast a team can pick up depends on the strength of the leadership. The previous interns were very individualistic, so they achieved their targets within a much shorter time frame. When their results were tabulated, wow, the numbers are impressive. I wonder if our team can beat that. No doubt we were slow and steady, Im pretty sure we have 50% chance to secure our target each time we make a phone call. Making a cold call warm, thats the trick.

He's 26, graduated from NUS Arts.

Im glad my leave is approved. i think our team really..... can make history over there by taking the most number of leaves/MCs and creating a marketplace. Oops. So this is what you get by putting 6 FEMALE interns tgr. Bleah.

Today will be fun! Distributing flyers to beneficaries and bbq! Calvin's gonna treat me icecream cos Im helping to lighten suanzy's work load. Heh heh heh. He's an extremely nice and committed Project Director.

Adios.

Friday, June 29, 2007

it's time

to start working for myself. =)

*yawns*

Anyone knows whom/where i can buy vans from? Lobangs?

Thursday, June 28, 2007

hungry

as usual.

But everything's okay now. :)

22 - the age where all shit come sprinting towards me at rocket speed.

Life has improved slightly for the better for this week. Getting my new spects later. RED spects! woohoo! Finally changed my spects after 3 years! Sigh.

Celebrated the birthdays of the June babies in office yday. Had pizza and North Indian food. hahahha. My favourite!

July is coming. Project C.A.N. is gonna be finalized. 85Broads is moving fast. Focus is shifting.

I certainly do miss the times when i can sleep in late, wake up late and roam about in places without thinking about work-related issues.

***

Name: Suanzy McPie

Position: Very Macho assistant (Support role)

Origin: Character unlocked in NUS Mac

Known attacks:
Act cute (causes enemies to roll eyes in disgust, thus distracting enemies),
Sweet talk (charms enemies to join his side, only works on xiao mei meis with IQ not more than 50),
Lame jokes (freezes enemies momentarily, lowers room temperature).

Known girlfriends: Angeline..

Vulnerable to Hunger attacks.
Strong against height-challenged enemies.
***

my foot. I still run faster than You lor.

Monday, June 25, 2007

Quotes rapped from Hydee's friendster

Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once. ~Lillian Dickson
In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
You are only young once, but you can stay immature indefinitely. ~Author Unknown
It is not the mountain we conquer but ourselves. ~Edmund Hillary

Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. ~Author Unknown
There are no menial jobs, only menial attitudes. ~William J. Bennett
Think positively about yourself.... ask God who made you to keep on remaking you. ~Norman Vincent Peale
Better to lose count while naming your blessings than to lose your blessings to counting your troubles. ~Maltbie D. Babcock

One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today. ~Dale Carnegie
The only people with whom you should try to get even are those who have helped you. ~John E. Southard
Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it. ~Jacques Prévert
Angels are all around us, all the time, in the very air we breathe. ~Eileen Elias Freeman

Life is like a blanket too short. You pull it up and your toes rebel, you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder; but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night. ~Marion Howard
The difference between try and triumph is a little umph. ~Author Unknown

***

Hungry.
I really need a break from Singapore.

But where can I go? Maybe I can buy the tickets to Taiwan for myself.

Mummy, can you sponsor me?

Or are there any roadshows lobang?

Shittoes. My Genting tickets are for 31 July. It clashes.

Oh well.

13 hours 45 min counting down.

I think i shall sleep first.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Hmm.

Yawnz.

Lunch time soon.

Meaningless entry. I cant believe I've spent the whole week like this at work. Doing nth.

Yawnz.

When can i go to party?

Maybe after all the publicity stuff is done.

I need to exercise.

Suanzy says he will buy a car asap when he gets his hands on money so I won't be that tired traveling to and fro and don't have to squeeze with so many pple on bus/trains. He thinks its disgusting. I find it amusing that he stares the shit out of guys who try to bump into me accidentally. Okay, this paragraph shouldn't be here. Most of you must be thinking: Walau, another girl who rattles on and on about Oh-my-bf-does-this-and-that-for-me-awwww-so-bloody-sweet.

hurhurs.

My fren is thinking of taking half day leave. Sigh. I want to as well. Rather be at home finishing up the posters.

No motivation!

Motivation, motivation, where for art thou?

Lunch, to go or not to go?

1pm, to leave or not to leave.

Yawns.

I've misplaced my ear phones. No music for me. Cant even view You-tube here.

Yawns.

Maybe I'll rest in the toilet. There's 98.7f.m. there.

$750 per month?

I think after all the half day leaves Im taking, what's left is the norm rate that interns are getting.

I think I should self- employ myself to be their HR intern. $$$$$ =D

Monday, June 18, 2007

Get your facts right

Work was more of a project discussion today. So i clocked in at 8.30am, had verbal diarheoa till 10am, sat at my desk doing some admin till lunch. After lunch, go toilet and off to the seminar room to listen to presentation prepared for the CEO. Rakhee was the one presenting. And everything ended at 5.30pm! woohoo! With clearer heads and wider smiles =D

Our team was told that we were to focus on non-GST registered companies. Then, today, the CEO changed our focus to GST registered companies, narrowing it down to their competitors' customers. The latter is so much easier to get through. Throw in an incentive of $500 per company who agrees to come down for the seminars. How not to smile?

With such a jovial, cheeky, witty and humorous CEO who appreciates my jokes, how not to smile?

Even though initially i felt a like a chess piece used by them, im glad they did this plan. Or else if they spoonfed us way from the start, we would never see the big picture. What's life without obstacles anyway?

Happy happy. I spent only $3.80 today!

Had my first namecards printed as well. =D

Friday, June 15, 2007

I think Im not suited for any office job. HAHAHAHA. I rather stand the whole day and get body ache rather than sitting in an office for 9 hours staring at a screen.
I propose to be a taitai or events coordinator/manager!

Life has taken a toll on my health. Headache. =( I think i just need rest.

Im pretty worried for my internship. Dont really think we could attain our initial target of the project. Working across borders reduces efficiency. And *slaps forehead 3 times*, when we thought the design team in the so-called-pro-in-softwares country should be brillant enough to get our intended concepts for the advertisement, they ask questions which they can find the answers if they scroll the email further down.

Tired.
Sleep.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

society

who are the ones who determine what is right from wrong, white from black. Forgive or not to forgive. What's the boundary that determines that one should be forgotten for the mistakes he/she made? Who set them in the first place?

Im plucking out weeds in my garden. I thought it was already done, but more flowers seem to die. Then I realized with the help of my gardener, that the main problem wasnt solved yet. Maybe that's why despite all the hard work i put into gardening, the same problem that happened for years kept surfacing.

Im aware that my forgiving nature puts me at an disadvantage in this cold harsh society. My strength could be my weakness as well.

So, I'll wisen up.

=]

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

A little world of their own

A little world of their own,
Mushroomed in the north-east zone.

Is it not a race to far away?
The closest place to stay, I say.

Cravings at unearthly hours,
Satisfied by foot of ours.

Cooling air-con in sunny rays,
Bodily warmth on rainy days.

Wardrobe with a mirror,
She smiles into it with a glitter.

Her dear listening,
With eyes glistening.

"What excuse should I use today?"
"No! Not the ones you have used in May!"

So that is why the girl adjourns so far away,
For it is a little world of their own to stay.



Suanzy McPoet

**

He bought stingray
immersed it in fish curry
with two tails facing each other

Fried a few eggs
with special ingredients embedded within
a secret recipe he picked up from his working days

Bought her favourite greens
Packed all into tins
and deliver by hand to the high rise building

Struting around in short shorts and South Park Tee
He stood prominently amongst the working crowd
Thirty min is all he's got

He found a good spot away from the sun
She gobbled the food that he prepared
Cant stop when she started

Thirty min were up
She abandoned him there
finishing up the food that travelled miles

That was on 11 June 2007.


gerline
Non-poetic

Sunday, June 10, 2007

1st week of intern

Not bad. Im of the few privelaged privileged to have the power to decide the direction of the project, getting a pay which isnt at rock bottom rate. Using cold calling(includes cold calling/email) as our strategy. Plans laid out, advertisement done(by me! in the end we decided to use template, more professional heh), beginning on the brink of calling.

Some ching chong cheng cheena boss cmi. Seriously. I cant help but laugh after the phonecalls.

**

Finally, 85Broads has laid out the necessary visions, missions, blog, yahoogroups, recruitment drive by the 2nd meeting. Efficient girls =)



IM LOOKING FOR NUS GIRLS TO ASSIST ME IN EVENTS & PROGRAMS. We'll be organizing at least 3 events per semester. Fund raising activites will be organized as well. IF YOU'RE INTERESTED, DROP ME A MAIL AT gerline@gmail.com .

****

Finally an afternoon of rest after 11 days.



***

Why do Asian Girls prefer Whites?



Directed & Starring Philip Wang

*** Factory Outlet Sale from 12-17 June 07 12-7pm at Wing Tai Industrial Centre.
Topshop, Topman Dorothy Perkins, Foxy will be there.

Im working!!!!! =(((((
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