cors + gifts + growing old

grrr.. hate it when there's problems with cors, server down, have to wait till another timing to login, screw up other plans for the day. =
did badly for this sem, got a D+, cant even apply for exchange! But strangely, the sadness did not impact me deeply. Maybe, i geared myself for it when i took the paper. Didnt have to retake cos its considered a pass. cool. Have to work on pulling up cap this coming sem.

Did a little packing yday, i always have gifts lying in a corner being unutilized. Like the candle holder in a shape of a star that choon gave me. could finally use the aromatic candles i have :D
Then, i came across this piece of paper with the outline of my hand, with his. It's been 3 months. The first month was reeeally hard to get past, all sense of self-worth was gone. Time really heals, for my case. In fact, the memories of me and him seemed so far away now.

Like one says, we all have a direction to go in life -- forward.

*

As she wobbles up the stairs or even on flat ground, my heart skips a beat when she leans towards a side too much. Would that constitute to another fall or another bump?

I think it must be heart wrenching to know that ur failing physically. to know that u could bump into something and injure yourself, even in the comfort of your own home. yet they swallow their emotions inside, lest we worry excessively.

Leaving 2 elderly at home alone isnt exactly a wise choice. I think we might need a maid one year down the road.

merry christmas everyone!!!

Been having game nights at friends' places recently, that my biological clock is haywired. Play a night, rest a day, play the next night again, and it goes on. 1 week gone like that! hurhurs. But i enjoyed myself thoroughly, its one of the few times we could spend time like this.

On Saturday, i bought 7 movie tickets for Sunday from the AXN station and was so glad that i had one task done. On Sunday, rbl met up for the movie "Night at the Museum" and as we walked down the asle of the cinema, Lo and Behold! one whole group of guys are sitting in our places!! I checked their tickets and was dumbfolded. They really are sitting in the right seats, weird that they could get tickets of the same row as us. At first i thought the system cocked up or something, printing double tickets. Then ping vet through the ticket and pointed out:






















GAH!!!!!

blur. so blur.

We shifted to the front row, praying hard that no one would come in and sit. But our chances are slim, given that its a sunday and eve of xmas. We got out of the theatre before the show even started and hoped into another one, which was in the midst of showing "Curse of the Golden Flower".

gah!!!

Watching a show with no beginning, trying to figure out who's who is distracting for other viewers, cos we did speak quite abit during the show. Nothing fantastic about the show, except that the costumes are niceee! and the pantene effect when chow yun fatt's headgear flew off his head. oh, and the army strength, many extras needed! Jay Chou's acting is still very stiff, though his fighting skills are passable.

The people present said i must blog about this incident, so there. haha. An experience for us.
Silly experience. =X I felt so bad man.

Bumped into derren in the arcade! =D

Initially, rbl wanted to take neoprint, but we ended up taking photos with posters along the corridor. hurhur. cheaper thrill

i like this effect man! no photoshop needed!
















Our theme's supposed to be retro, but i've no headband. earrings are covered by hair. hehe.
Ping lacks a crystal ball b4 she can read my future! hurhur

**

i am losing it. the interest in blogging. It has become one of the lower ranked activity i wanna do when im free.

And all i want for christmas is an internship!! gimmie gimmie gimmie!

alright. gotta sleeeeep.

yoohoo! hello guys and girls, im back to blog! will be a short one cos im slpy..

been a week since holidays started, yet i havent done the impt stuff i need to be doing. yea.. procrastinate again..

met up w darren, choon, ping for dinner @ esplanade on wed. food's delicious! when we asked this gal to take a photo for us with the durian spikes as the background, she thought we were tourists. hurhurs. stayed over at ys's place to play mj after tt. played games from 11pm to 11am, with some time off for stoning. we used wasabi for the forfeit!!! muahaha. Doesnt affect me much cos i usually eat it, moreover i only ate once that night! *grinz*

its time to be proud of myself! i finally got down to cleaning my room tdy. :D

bed beckons..
nights~

this 2 weeks is a drag
time passes ever so s-l-o-w-l-y

Chasing cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

never knew life could be so busy, to the extent tt i dont read blogs anymore. all midterm tests are finally over, finally could take a breather today. all didnt go well though, but i hope there's still time to catch up. tml marks another beginning of assignments n presentations marathon.

my appetite is back ... im doomed. haha. with the skies so hazy, i dont feel like jogging at all. oh wells.

happy belated mid autumn festival!

e moon still looks very round today =)

**

such a wuss i've been
being cold to a person who made everything smooth sailing for me.
when she insists on cooking even though she's injured, it really hit me.
why when others r striving so hard, im still only trying to focus on one aspect.

wake up girl, time doesnt wait.

*
sanhe, kor, choon, bee, qing, fang, ale, i thank you for the patience and kindness.

it hurts. i wish i could carry on sleeping, just keep sleeping. but each time the coldness of the night shook me. lots of disappointment.

im sleepy.

last night, i've seen how much i missed out in the past year.

rushing frm lessons to meeting joe to working, i've nv spent much time in sch. what more developing friendships there.

glad to say, there are nice people around. =)

*
i dont like econs. Even harder than understanding women.

tired. the race never seems to end. finally, the weekend's here.

knew a new friend on mon. she's from smu, doing a local exchange. her accomplishments on her namecard really awed me many times over. yet, she has no airs, exudes warmth and affability. her presence lifted my mood for the whole day!

then i got reminded that its sep. maybe every sep, a special person will step into my life. ahahah.

***

past 2 posts are results of having bad mood swings. any cure for that? i think elmo creeped into me, making me so emo.

ok, lame.

**

hope everyone's doing fine now, with studies, work, r/s, .......... life..

=)

in the pursuit of money and fame, how many of us know exactly what we are doing?

life to me is simple. caring for people.

thats it.

i am so vulnerable today. emo, emo and more emo, esp in the wee hours of the night.

**

did nail art with qing on sat! yea... pretty nails.. but they seem to get into the way when my fingers run through the hair. its a different kind of highness when girls do things tgr. a pity we didnt get to spend the whole day tgr ;p

hope ur doing fine girl.... dont get so affected by what others say k?

**

happy 21st birthday ting!

**

i took half an hour to type this post. hah.

I've been very needy since day 1 of school. Weird huh, even when i was feeling down back then in engine, the emotion wasnt that strong. I cant figure out what happened, why did i felt that way. I met up with friends, one by one. Mon, weiqing. Tues, sockfang, and i bumped into ting in ntu while waiting for dear. Wed, james, darryl and andy. Thurs, dear.
For those 4 days, i reach home after 7pm, yet i still felt that there is much more to do. I was feeling so lost, so afraid of being alone, that from the moment i wake up, i would call or msg dear. Once, i called fangy too. On top of that, it doesnt help when my biological clock starts the day at 7am when my earliest lessons only begin at 11am.

let me sidetrack. I bumped into ting!! That is like the most unexpected thing i think would happen!! Boy, we finally had a heart to heart talk after so many years!! Even at my birthday party, i was too busy to chat with her. I wonder what was i busy with then, hmm. I rem once, both of us got full marks for our maths exam, and we chitchated in class as the teacher went through the whole paper with the class. We didnt have to listen cos we got FULL marks! lol. Life back then was so fun. I often went to her home hoping to catch a glimpse of my crush who's staying a few stories below her. haha. If she didnt mention it, i would have forgotten how sweet my childhood was. Hey joe, i did have a childhood even though i dont play at the playground downstairs k. :P

Only when Friday comes, my feelings stablized. I felt more peaceful and finally, able to prevent my thoughts from running wild. No more feeling aimless in life. I chatted a lot, even after the operation. I just need to talk to people. I felt loved by my family again. My mummy offered to wait till my extraction of teeth is over. My brother came over for dinner. My grandma cooked porridge for me. Dear came to visit me after a full day of work. I've forgotten the joy of slacking around at home.

Finally, i got my focus back. But procrastination still lurks around the corner.

Frankly speaking, i dont really enjoy the work im currently doing now. It seems more of a dread as days pass. How much will i eventually gain out of this job? Will i be able to learn about the financial market like what i initially thought i would? I still prefer doing retail, i dont mind the long standing hours, but the pay usually isnt that good. Is there any good lobang out there, besides tuition?

can only call myself a fool for not clarifying things way beforehand. boo. seems like i've to stick to the usual 3/4 year graduation. Whilst doing that, i shall rejoice and serve whole heartedly as a student.

tuition for you, young boy?

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.


2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.


3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.


4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
- http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

**

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

**

What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Bright and CheerfulYou are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

hahah! i wont want to be an artist or movie star. ;P but quite true huh, this analysis

**

Who is your dream guy?
Here is the analysis:He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world. He does what he wants when he feels like. His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk, go for this guy.

**

How well do you react?
Here is the analysis:Although you are emotional, you have full control of behavior. Being patient is your unique quality.

yah.. and sometimes smth called pms will wreak my world upside down for a few days.

im tired. so tired of hearing quarrels. sometimes i try to mediate, but i end up being more frustrated. wads the use.. i put them as one of the deciding factors of some things i wanna do, but y do i get this in return? even on my bday celebration, he has to throw a tantrum. do chauvinistic guys become like this when they are old? its heart wrenching, to see a man i used to respect, turn into a kid, a fool. wads in a china woman that you would be attracted to when u swear at them whenever they appear in sitcoms as third parties? and u just enjoy swearing and commenting on how bad the scriptwriters are, misleading the present generation when u yourself succumb to this temptation. double standards huh.

sigh.

im not in a right state of mind nowadays, so dont try to provoke me. dont say, hey yr dress sense is not right, yr hair, top, bottom doesnt match. hey u grew fatter.

like AS IF looks are everything in this world, and i would die when i wear something i deem fit yet it doesnt look common cos most girls dont dress like that. for goodness sake, stop all those conforming! get yr own life.

n like what i've said, im not in a right state of mind.

Umm.. interesting

http://potato-nation.blogspot.com/2006/05/positive-thinking.html

work has stopped temporarily for 2 weeks :)

just sent a fren off to france ... tml gg back there to send choon ... time really flies... a month just gone like that *poof*

this is the most adventurous month of the 3 month holiday! gone sentosa twice, gone jb n kl, chalet n sleepovers. think this's the 3rd weekend running i stayed out this month. then there's the fair share of quarrel resulting from weariness n unmet expectations. oh well, all's well now :) i hope

been eating alot recently.. appreciating food before i extract all 4 wisdom teeth on 18 aug, i wonder how painful it will be then.. hehe

**

am i really that stubborn to the extent that i could be irrational? isnt life supposed to be about experiencing different things.... i know im wilful at times, but i do keep my behaviour in check............. of cos when the end's a dead end, i wouldnt send myself in that direction.... but wad lies at the end of the journey, who knows? sometimes, im really keen to know who would be supportive in wadever i do .... would u be, just like the way i was for u ?

u never know how life surprises you.

i was away for functions during the weekend, and wow, the speakers did make an impact on me, not in the way they wanted to, but in a way that benefits me. basically, its motivational talks for amway business, but what i drew from there is energy to focus on my own dreams and goals. It's like a wakeup call to reality, to put my words into action.

i've been procrastinating for almost all of my life ... but its still aint late to start now.

rem the reason behind why i worked durin the last sem? its supposed to be for the xchange program. how naive i was, thinking a part time job would be enough to attain that amt of money when i still spent as freely as b4.

now there are many things running through my mind.. too many goals...
**

u know.. sometimes when u r in a dreadful situation and u think nothing would be worse than that, and THEN! something good comes out of it.. its like wah.. a miracle

i was on the way back to the hotel from Chinatown in kl, when this taxi driver picked us up. He's rather rude! When i asked how much it costs to go back to Pearl Int'l Hotel, he gave a i-owe-this-area attitude, "wad u mean how much, see the meter la, then u know how much" smth along those lines. HELLO? if u drivers dont make things uniformed, how would i know which mode each of u take? Besides, i DID ask u nicely at the beginning of the ride.

Secondly, when i said "Pearl Int'l Hotel", he said no such place. There's only "Pearl Hotel", "Int'l Hotel" 2 different hotels at 2 diff places. I repeated myself TWICE and even showed him the hotel card. He refused to even TURN his eyes to take a look, before he remarked "aiya, u never say Pearl Int'l hotel.... yadda yadda". Basically, his attitude is like shit. i mean, very bad. Forget it, dont wanna quarrel with him, so replied "oh....... MAYBE i didnt say the "Pearl" loud enough".
if he's smart enough, he should know what im driving at.

then silence.

b4 he asked which country im from.

i was dumbstruck, endulged in my thoughts of regret not leaving the cab. Then i mumbled "singapore". Skulli he get wrong impressions of sgp-reans, thinking that we r all too nice pple which he could bully!

Then silence again.

Till he asked when we were staying till.

i replied "Sunday"

"It's tml." *laugh*

Finally, the ice is broken. Then he enquired of the Xchange rate, he has some sgp coins from blur customers which he would like to change but the money changers in msia dont accept coins. "2.2... thats the rate my hotel gives". and guess wad? He made the offer to xchange 10RM for his $7.50 worth of coins. heh heh a gd bargain. =] at the end of the ride, the cab fare was 9RM, compared to the usual going rate of 15rm. a few xtra bucks out of no where.

Hardly thought anything would come out from this trip but see! not bad after all... =P

**

the way my bro shops is crazy. he buys everything from top to toe in chinatown. my gosh. 350rm within 2 hours. my heart aches for my dad man.

**

back from a dental visit this morning. so .. so ... so.. the cavity which i thought i had turns out to be a filling after all, it looks black cos the coating has oxidised. so silly of me... haha but at least someone showed me the light. im thinking of braces.... but i think i netta wait for a year b4 i have the money, if im thrifty enough.. hah. lets settle my wisdom teeth first.

**

i looked like a hippotamus when i looked at my reflection in the hotel toilet!!

horrors of horror

**

I find this useful. whenever u quarrel or have objections with someone you really care abt, ask yrself:

1) What are my negative feelings?
2) What's the fairest way to describe the problem?
3) Why do i want to work thing out?
4) How would i like things between us to be?
5) How can i actually get that?
6) And if that doesnt work, what else can i do?

when u have calmed down.

It helps... at least yr mind is clearer abt what you can do about the problem, rather being overwhelmed by negative feelings.

=]

i am soo dead.

my desktop died on me.

nothing went wrong before i left for work.

yet the system cant start up.
=(

i've got a laptop. teeheehee. it comes along free with upgrading the internet connection over at my dad's place. shouldnt i be happy? instead, i was grumbling when i rushed over to dad's place cos he wont be at home to wait for the delivery guy and my bro's like a log when he's aslp. Always doing this type of saikang. In e end, my dad's at home waiting and waited till everything was set up b4 he left the house. or rather, i left the hse asap when everything's done. if someone's gonna be ard, why call me over to waste my time? its as if my appts isnt as impt as his and more often than not, i end up being late cos its 'supposed' to be convenient to bring something, be it their meals or fruits or wadever my grandparents deem useful to them, over to that hse and the ppl there, r so chong hey!!

oh well, bball after that was fun, seeing familiar faces once again. just the usual few of us. i guess pple who didnt went thru what we went thru in the past wouldnt understand the bond, why we hold rbl so dear in our hearts. its not just like yr usual cca back then, its a form of identity, sense of belonging, where u know ppl would be there for u in yr ups or downs.
we wore our sch-U btw.. bleah. i think we all looked the same as b4!
cheerios to rbl :)

gg kl frm fri to sun. dont miss me! muahaha

bored to the core :(
that i dont feel like working anymore. then i'll have time to go to the places that i wanted to go, do the things that i wanted to do. thou those may not be of any help to widening my knowledge in the society. this is my holiday isn't it?

can i be a student for life? i dont wish to go back to the working world where people get downright serious abt attaining that promotion. let me just open a f&b outlet somewhere and i'll be the cashier =p

somehow, i lost motivation for work. even breaking my own record at telemarketing gives me no joy. =( so much that i turned up late for work yday cos i was doing pedicure. =x of cos i gave them a lame excuse. my bosses r nice, very cheerful and supportive. sigh.

once my mind gets set on having my free time, it takes a long time to psycho myself back to normal. last day of work for this week!

those days..
when life is just about friendships and sports..









































oh how i miss em'..

p.s i dont have any photos of tcc! send me!!

i wonder why almost everything now needs to go by appointment basis. lagi sian. even visit the dentist also must book appt. how would i know whether they updated the rule back in 2005, its not like im a regular visitor. Seems like the earliest i could book is 2 weeks from now. 2 weeks!! and that's compared early to the other branches i called. Some are only available from August or even October onwards. OMG! so wad if u have a toothache and are low on cash? die die have to wait till few weeks later? die lor. i must as well yank out my bad tooth with a string, like wad i did in my primary sch days. For those who still has a toothache after visiting the dentist, how?

"if u dont mind, sir, you could wait for an hour or 2. if there are people who come late, the dentist may attend to u first. Or u want to come back after lunch and wait again also can."

rubbish.

the grouchiness is gone. im happy again after a haircut!

juggling 3 part time jobs ends this weekend. YAHOO!!
act i could have continued the voucher promotion but... sian lah.
btw, i'll be getting more commission than i expected.. so thrilled. hah
finally i have time to go out.....hopefully =D~

okay.. netta fulfill gf's duty
cheers!

Fear

Do you know it?
it can hold you. Mock you.
Make you feel insecure.
Hold your arms while it smacks you.

I'm afraid of blank pages.
I'm afraid of looking back.
I'm afraid of falling.
I'm afraid of being afraid.

Sometimes the best way to deal with fear is to look it
right in the eyes. Let it give you its best shot. Know
that it is all talk and no action.

Yes, stand up to it if you can.
Yes, if you can.

It is easier to talk the talk than walk the walk but let's
keep moving. Past the point of disappointment. Past
the point of closed doors. Past the point of wasted moments.
Keep walking. Keep moving. Like a shark
it is the only way to survive.

I'm afraid of procrastination.
I'm afraid of running out of time.
I'm afraid of not knowing.
I'm afraid of being happyunhappy.

- http://blogin_idiot.blogspot.com/

***
guess this's wad im feeling now.
its easy to change... just build rapport... but how?

how do i bring the same energy level i talk to friends into work?

i so wanna go out to chill with friends..

HAPPY! sha la la
its so nice to be HAPPY! sha la la
everybody should be HAPPY! sha la la
lalalalalala

muahahah. pardon me. but im HAPPY just being at home after a long day's work. long day's work meaning 7 hours of talking non-stop to ppl i dont know, trying to sell my stuff. walau. never talked so much in my life. talking to friends and talking to prospects different k...

dont bore u with work? okok i heard u ..

then i got nth to talk abt leh.

cos i havent really got a life after my birthday. everyday hunt for jobs. how.

HAVENT EVEN DO WINDOW SHOPPING FOR THE GSS!

how pathetic is that?

then i have minghong talking to me about waistlines. mine is like super broad now la.

how sad is that?

we were chatting abt the upcoming rbl outing.. (YIII!!!!! SO EXCITING!!!!) and went onto uniforms.. which lead me to try on my old sa uniform... which slapped the cold hard reality right into my face.

dont ask me how broad is that.

everyday see ppl eat sushi yet i dont even get to chew a mouthful. im very sad.

i know all my posts recently end aburptly. likewise for this.
bye!

busy busy busy.
its been half a year, and it seems like im packed with activites almost every month. for the better or worse im not sure. money still came and went.( all cos of that stupid driving! &*#^@&^!%) jan to march- xodus, march- projects n assignments, april- exams, may- chalet n jobhunting, june- juggling part time jobs. repeat the whole cycle when sch starts? gah.. betta save up some for xmas shopping.

results has been average, not too bad, not too good. i need to maintain this grade if i wanna get honours. sigh, must have regular revisions for next sem. everytime i say this, i do another when the time comes. but good thing is, i most probably wont commit so many hours to work like wad i did for xodus.

there's nothing interesting about this post. i just wanna rattle what comes to my mind, which is aplenty.

gg to work later at 5pm. any regular sakae sushi customers interested to get $183 worth of vouchers at a price of only $150? the cash vouchers can last up to a year and can only be purchased at the outlet itself. drop by the bugis one la, n look for me. haha.

im actually alil exhausted even though i've only worked less than a week.
but i know... ultimately i will be the one who gains the most out of this.

yday andy asked if i wanna go for ktv. darn! have to reject him cos of work. how many times do rbl ppl organize outings a year? not many. i want one in which we all could sit down and talk. just chat. havent even organize one for the girls. soon. i'll do it in july =)

speaking of that, if there's a game just for rbl.............. =D

another fren just told me the pay for being an extra on tv. the pay is so high! but tight competition too i guess.. for a pay like that.

lalalala.

i would say things are going pretty well now.

anyone caught "so u think u can dance" show? who won who won?!

morning!
finally after bumming around for abt 3 weeks, there's something worthwhile for me to do.
=D

was shocked and suprised at the events that happened recently. quite contradictory huh..just hope the outcome would be good..

i feel so blessed... that people are willing to pay attention to me and respond with positive gestures to bring me nearer my goal. ahahahah its nothing big, its just about the sushi voucher promotion im doing now. Business at bugis has been good, and the people are so willing to spend! hee just the right crowd, unlike wheelock place.

alrighto...
shall update soon again..

Story: Why Do Women Cry?

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"

"Because I'm a woman,"she told him."I don't understand," he said.His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said, "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and allcircumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

Give thanks

im 21! thanks everyone for making effort to attend the weekday celebration, thou most of u have to work the following day n team tanglin rescheduled their training so some ppl frm rbl could attend! =] There wasnt much time to catch up with or entertain everyone but i hope u guys did make yrself comfortable there and enjoy the food. For those who could not make it, its alright! we can catch up this holidays =)

special thanks to joe who prepared everything from groceries to marinating of food to bbq to collecting the cake to cleaning up. pespired alot. passed my aunty's test. heh heh! not easy to get through her one leh

some photos we took
lovely right? 5kg chocolate cake by Breadtalk.






rbl girls
cheryl ping me and meiqi
all white!





sa class
jasper, weiqiang n derren r at the back... too dark to see their faces..





athena
wei ann, zheng xian, yuan sheng, liang jing, ming jie, chun jian, byon






jen ney n xiuling






ting and her bf, sm





rbl ~







missing ppl from rbl hee
meiqi and yongfa







aunty and collegues ffrom ocs









WE survived through the night in the chalet infested with cockroaches!






oh oh donae came just b4 12.. pretty late but wow. very long nv see him alr!
couldnt take much photos on that day cos i was either too busy or the camera was flat. =( lucky jasper's camera came to the rescue.
after most of the ppl left, ping and james smeared chocolate cream all over my face after clearing the mahjong table! my face.... no wonder ping and lince gave me a surprise facial/massage/eyebrow shaping 2 days b4 my bday. haha j/k. They were very sweet, blindfolded me and walked me through the 4th storey of far east. i think we made a huge detour b4 getting to the shop. totally unexpected surprise! i wonder if many ppl stare at us as we roamed through the corridors, at least my face is covered hehe

A few moments b4 my bday, i was in the shower and joe told me to take my time. when i came out of the bathroom, everywhere was dark, except for the candles burning throughout the chalet. It felt like fright night(for those who dunno, fright night is one of the activities in orientation camps whereby ppl dress up to scare u). There were notes near the candles, very sweet. and it led all the way to the room upstairs. where the music was playing and we don our sa ties and turned crazy. yo yo yo. haha love the smell of the candles... lavender... *sniff sniff*

yuansheng did a card trick, which took 2 weeks for him to perfect it. damn freaky. ok la, not freaky, just that i was shocked towards the end.

korkor was the camera man! the can opener! he brought along an exclusive can opener which no one know how to use except him. so is that a skill? skilled.

and choon, even thou she's geographically away from here, she manages to instill her presence by flooding my mailbox with msgs. hehe. then she called b4 12midnight to make sure she's the last person to wish me happy birthday. a total of 21 'happy birthday's from her thanx gal! muacks!

and of cos, there were ppl who bbq-ed food for the rest of the ppl. thanks yea!

n frens who stayed over! hugs! hugs! hugs!

n the prezzies! never received so many presents b4. i wanted to give a thank you speech but forgot abt it after standing in front of so many ppl. not used to having so much attention u see. even a tutorial class doesnt have that many ppl.















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dim sum at yan ge was yummy!

my parents n my bro =)

my beloved uncle =) many ppl would love to be in my shoes to have such a loving and giving uncle. even strangers commented that they want him to be their uncle teeheehee

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see the shirt? a present from darren!

icy cold icecream on top of a sizzling hot brownie... ummmm...

treat frm darren too!

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my lashes coated with the mabelline mascara given by sa class. its damn long. so scary.

joe with the bear he won. teeheehee

happy us on the ko-cart b4 i scraped his skin and made him bleed. =X

us trying hard to imitate gals u see in friendster. hahaha

**

after playing hard for 2 weeks, cashflow gets tight, of cos its time to work. so i dont think i will be updating that often anymore.

extracted from darren's blog:

"Friends. It is just so tough to leave knowing that the next time you see that person is so long after that..
Or maybe you might never see that person again for people changes.."

sad isnt it? mayb in future u all wont see the nice me who's willing to do wadever stuff for just anyone. sometimes its pointless and frustrating actually, or maybe i've been giving the wrong ppl more attention when there r others who deserve much more than how im currently treating them. there's already very little me time and really, i've gotta reconstruct my priorites. that does not mean to say i will just disappear from yr life, friends. im just taking a breather.

please appreciate whatever kind acts people have done for you. they have the power to choose who they want to help or spend time with, so be grateful when their recipent is you. this is often forgotten by us and we tend to take the people closest to us for granted. sigh

till then,

(the bear given by ping, turtle by qing n hockey stick by james! cute combi right?)

take care every single one of you.

and thank YOU for being my friend!

teehehe. im very lucky actually to have such a doting family and friends who really care. =)

ps. i wanted to blog abt da vinci code but the controversy is neverending. just smth to take note of: "When does fiction become fact and a lie become truth? It is when people do nothing to seek out the facts for themselves and are notable to separate the facts from the fiction." dont just rely on the information googled from internet. how do you know they are not manipulated?

choon im not disappearing! good luck for yr exams! i will still await here for yr return =)

Anger Management

Ever got so angry that you felt like hurting any person verbally or physically who comes into your way, even though he/she isnt the cause of your anger? or felt like intentionally hurting yourself? Whatever it is, im sure most of us know how it feels like to be angry. But how often do we keep our behaviour in check? Sometimes to channel out our frustrations, we lash at the people closest to us, unknowingly deteriortating the relationships. Keeping the anger inside and escaping the fact that you are angry isnt effective too, cos when the anger builds up till a certain limit, things may end up being more distrastous than ever. Anger turned inward may cause hypertension, high blood pressure, or depression.

How then, could you keep your anger at bay?
We have heard these tips over and over but how many of us do actually put them into action?

1)Squeeze a stress ball

2)Listen to music

3)Leave the room

4)Count to ten

5)Go to the gym

6)Put things in perspective
Some people get carried away pretty quickly without realizing it, and you just might be one of them. Take a step back to figure out if you're being logical or emotional about whatever happened. This is an imperative step because feuds with other co-workers can hurt employee morale and productivity. And nobody wants that.

7)Breathe in, breathe out

8)Do something else on your computer

9)Drink some tea
Chamomile is best for lowering your blood pressure and heart rate, which are the physical reactions of getting stressed and angry. If you don't have Chamomile, you can use any other herbal tea, as long as it doesn't contain any caffeine.

10)Write out the conflict

11)Confront the person
If conflict keeps arising with the individual, then it might be time for a showdown. Just make sure to clear your baggage with the person. If he's wrong, let him know. No need to use vulgarities, but do let him know you're ticked off.

-http://www.askmen.com/money/career/40b_career.html

my personal favourite is to show the person who angered me that i could not care less about what he did and it did not succeed in making me angry or upset. im refering to nasty customers or collegues btw.

husband threatening to hurt wife with a chopper. old man beating his chest like a king kong when he could not have the power to rattle on and on and when others add in some comments while he speaks. Ppl raping and killing others. all these r incorrect methods of channeling anger. how do these ppl ever get to learn about anger management btw? do u rem whether its taught in school?

i don't.

wad does it mean to be a good daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, niece, grandaughter? its just 5 roles, but i get a lil suffocated at times. i try my best to make the mark, but i know somewhere somehow, i do fall short. am i expecting too much of myself? but u never know wads going to happen the next day right? anything could just happen.

sometimes, just the things revolving around me could get me soo busy that i dont even have time to read news. cmi.
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on a lighter note, Alethea invited us to SDE D&D yday. Theme was retro/smart causal. She looked so pretty and cute!

e gals wore pink n the guys white! its all not planned in advance ^^. actually im supposed to have a photo of 6 of us.. but the waitress only took the gals, leaving the guys out of the picture. hafta wait for someone to send me. hee. thanks ale again!

love the appetizer! dere's baby optopus and prawns! yummy!

BURP

i think i had a lot of good food this few weeks. zhi zar, 8-course meal, steamboat, gonna haf bbq soon, n dim sum next sat! omg.

** HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI QING!!**

sorry for not blogging. i was a lil busy.

bus·y ( P ) Pronunciation Key (bz)adj. bus·i·er, bus·i·est
1.Engaged in activity, as work; occupied.
2.Sustaining much activity: a busy morning; a busy street.
3.Meddlesome; prying.
4.Being in use, as a telephone line.
5.Cluttered with detail to the point of being distracting: a busy design.

Its interesting how different genders defines 'busy'. For males, its often busy with work, busy with games, busy with gfs, busy with friends. full stop. Most often than not, they are the ones paying for everything.
For females: busy with gossiping, busy with shopping, busy with bfs, busy with menicures, busy with facials/spas, busy with partying and the list goes on and on. Who pays? Most prob their bfs or their parents, only themselves when they're on a gals' day out.

back to da topic. 1. i was busily engaged in activities like drooling over the jap cute boys i saw in Jurong East gym on mon. hurhur. sleeping by the pool for an hour while the boy swam his dunno how many laps. Too much feasting made my eyes tired =P finally checked out the new Cathay cinema. Seats r definitely more comfortable n there's more leg room.
tues was filled with doing circuit at home cos it rained. =( no more light exercises like badminton or bball. sigh. i almost died doing the pushups. i couldnt even do a proper one now!
wed was spent basking under the sun. teeheehee. at night, we checked out the pub in Safra Town Club. and i gloriously dirtied the carpet floor. such an embarassment. think the toilet cleaner must be cursing me now. =X i hate beer! i dont know how to burp out the gas b4 it gushes my dinner out of my body.

2. Mind has been thinking abt priorities in life, my dad's wishes against mine... no doubt i cant make everyone happy but at least i've tried right? Nothing pleases me more than seeing the people around me happy, even though it could be at my own expense. i do regconize that i cant expect the same level of commitment from them, but this isnt a business transaction...

4. i dunno why... but my family loves to use me as a telephone line/messenger.
daD: "mei mei, can u call yr aunty to ask her to call me?"
grandma: "ask alvin wad he wans for lunch"
aunty: " can u ask yr dad how much is blahblah"
uncle: "pls tell yr mum...charges...blahblah"

looks like im indispensable at home. lol

im tired.... bahs...

the thing u all have been waiting for...

Wishlist

1) Mabelline XXL Waterproof mascara
2) shoe bag, big enough to put size 11 shoes, preferably black or baby blue
3) 1 year's subscription to cleo
4) a near-rectangular clutch bag, the small envelope size kind
smth like this,

i dont want this design ah, not with the kiap kiap in e middle. this's jus for illustration.

5) a new hp

a puppy.................................. nvm la. i think i will be a cruel owner. =X

tops with sleeve. *fat fat fat*

so far i could only come up with these. will update soon when i have new ideas.

pls msg me or tag if ur getting anything on e list so i can cancel off. Hee thanx alot babes!! *muacks*!!

realized i havent blogged like how my day went those kind of stuff, the way i blogged like 2 years ago. and today! i shall do that again!

*yay!*

today, i woke up, brushed teeth, put pimple cream, eat curry puff, drink green tea, surf net, surf net surf net until 12+. Then i went to change and head down to the National Library! woooowww how excitinggg! The National Library very tall now u know, have 13 stories!! then i went to the 5th floor to get a cushion seat and i started studying my LSM1301 General Biology textbook and notes. study study study, until stomach hungry. then i packed up to mac to eat lunch! then study study study until im sick and tired of that place. So, i headed home. and now im typing this whole load of crap. Interesting hor?

...........

that sounds how unhappening and boring my life is. multiply this by 45 days. and u get a super fat angeline.

and tmr marks the end of my papers! *yay* finally!

but pure enjoyment only starts on fri, hafta do some work for my uncle. *sobs* hopefully i can finish up everything by tmr.

and to show u how fat i've become.
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no very recent photos.
but this was taken in 2003.
pls tell me that im xtremely fat now when u see me so i'll have motivation to exercise.














ma i can fly now!! look at my arms!!!! woohoo!

anw i cut my fringe!
hafta use my lousy webcam which has been thrown to the floor umpteen times cos the digi's at my uncle's fren's.












a very thin line between a small gal and a aunty.

for you . . . and whoever wanna try the quiz

http://ynr.blogthings.com/howdaringareyouquiz/

http://ynr.blogthings.com/whichforeignguyshouldyoudatequiz/

http://ynr.blogthings.com/areyouagirlorawomanquiz/

http://ynr.blogthings.com/wherewillyoufindlovequiz/

http://ynr.blogthings.com/whatkindofbraareyouquiz/

http://ynr.blogthings.com/whathairstyleisrightforyouquiz/

yay last day of studying!

Everyone's going msia

my dad, bro and aunt went last month

my uncle's going on the mothers' day weekend

my mum actually wanted to go with my cousins over that weekend too, but i cant go cos it clashes with the chalet

msia very fun meh?


of cos it beats staying in the country for a straight 2-3 years

=(

gwahh! back to the library

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

You'll Find Love Where You Least Expect It

You're the type most likely to find love... surprised?You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about.And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone.Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect!

Where Will You Find Love?

MR PIG! maybe i'll go to the zoo and have my pick tsk

You Should Date A Swede!

You're a romantic, albeit an understated and practical one.It's more about a steady partnership for you, not unrestrained fallingYour Swede will give you the unwavering love you craveWhile making up some mean pancakes and meatballs on the side!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

You Are a Flashy Red Bra!

Outgoing, friendly, and fascinating.You're a charmer, with your pick of the men.But you want a man who's as magnetic as you are.You need someone who can keep up with your all night gab fests!

What Kind of Bra Are You?

hahahahah i do not have red bras ;)

Your Ideal Hairstyle:

Sexy Waves

What Hairstyle Is Right For You?

eew, i think i will look very very very old in that

You Are a Fierce Femme

You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right.But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check.In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it...You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act!

How Daring Are You?

if not for the call to qing last night, i think i may have hurled vurglarities at anyone who's near stepping on my tail.

thanks gal... *hugs*

we chatted abt many stuff, wad we're gonna do after exams, bdays, photoshots, ktv, etc etc

all in 2 and half hours at the esplanade bay, with her at home

she's really a friend who's always there for me all the time. yah.. always... U... =)

besides thank you, i could still only say THANK YOU!~
arigato..
kam siah..
xie xie..
(limited vocab la.. )

*muacks*

**

and he asked, "is it worth it? is it worth yr time and effort?"
because ur my special friend of cos its worth it
no matter how many snide remarks or disappointments i get from u

and yea.. maybe i gotta branch out like wad i said ages ago.

2 more open book exams
but it feels like holidays already.

i juz wanna dress pretty and go out and play =(
but selection of clothes r limited, make up has to be minimial(darn my sensitive skin), and my hair!!!!! not only that on the head but everywhere else.

urgh.

i need something to boost my self esteem.

chocolates?

nope... im cutting on them.

*pout*

maybe if i can get a h p from those $1 machines in the arcade, i would be happy.

ate meesua ........................ checked
ate red eggs ....................... checked
collected ang pow .............. checked

;)

help sheet to bring into exam hall at 1pm later .... undone

oh oh oh ha ha ha A, u cant run away from me anymore
muahahaha.

maybe im too overconfident this time.

i cant wait cant wait cant wait... see the sky's so blue, its inviting me to join Mr sun at sentosa

haiz im supposed to mug but i dont feel like doing anything. surfing net in lib now, waste of money.

anyway, if u need internet access when u r outside and has no laptop, DO NOT go to those internet cafes. think they charge at least $2.50 per hour. u can find those $2 per hour but its kindof rare. Head down to the nearest library and use the interest for $0.03 per min! only $2 per hour. If u r not able to use up the whole hour, save the rest of the credit till the next time then. The system will deduct proportionately from yr prepaid account.

and if u havent heard, www.colinandkero.blogspot.com

sigh. they r such cute boys, kindof a waste. haha, but that's not the point. it kindof put me off, maybe they will realize wad they r actually doing when they mature? it doesnt depend on how open each individual is open to homosexuality, the whole idea is just so against traditional morals, so against nature. butten again, they r courageous in fighting for their own rights. This blog would be commented on in the papers soon, wanna bet?

i gotta study.

i need things to keep me sane.

things like. chilling out. hanging out at tanglin. clubbing. bball. running. movie. ktv. sentosa.

a girls' night out badly needed.

ps. qing! so happy to see u today! =D~

i need things to keep me sane.

things like. chilling out. hanging out at tanglin. clubbing. bball. running. movie. ktv. sentosa.

a girls' night out badly needed.

ps. qing! so happy to see u today! =D~

im so sad! missed the whole of the "so u think u can dance" show! if only my paper is earlier, if only nus students know how to NOT block the passageway yaddaing abt hows the paper,i cant do this i cant do that, if only it didnt rain, if only the bus 197 had tv mobile, if only if only, i should have got a cab home right?

sigh

i wanna eat laksa!!!!!!

and the stall that sells nice laksa oppo the beach road market is gone

=(

i dont care

i still wannna eat laksa

headaches

when i read on the bus
when i climb the stairs
when i read on level ground
when i use the computer
when i realize there's a long list of presents to be bought
when i cant find my notes!!
when i just feel like puking on the bus

things that make me happy

pretending to be the bus driver
waving to the ppl on the streets
driving ppl ard me to nutz cos of my insanity

it irks me when i see unwithdrawable amt in their bank accts.

like father like son.

it wont be long when their fingers start pointing at me

nabei! ivle website down, cant even upload my presentation. grrr.
im falling sick again, hurray. i cant breathe =(

there was rapheal complaining on thurs abt how his 2 female collegues reported to the boss after he was seen saying "qi bai" when he dropped his papers. and there, Sunday Times haf an article on more and more people swearing in the present society.

singapore very stressful wad

did u did u did u watch sgp universe 06? 1st time i sit through the whole show! felt very braindead tdy, must as well take a break and watch tv.

anyway, i dunno wads the hype abt Carol Cheong. I cant see how is she so outstanding from the rest, besides her big boobs.
maybe tt's why she was given the best body award. How could Triump advertise girls with small boobs? of cos the bigger the better to show how good the bra is right? haha

Rather, i feel Jade Seah should be crowned as Ms Sgp Universe, she has the looks, (her smile and eyes are damn nice!!!), the posture, the confidence and intellect to speak fluently on stage. pity pity.

And and!! 2nd runner up Geraldine smth, is frm SA! teeheehee. but she's not very good at speaking thou.

Actually, MSU was a disappointment. Given that all of the 18 standing contestants are mostly either undergraduates or postgraduates, i would expect them to have more intellectual answers in the Q&A sections. Sadly, only a few could make it to the mark. Jeanette, bizader, gave an answer that revealed her nervousness and how unstable her maturity level was.
Seems like most of us need to undergo training to learn to speak in front of an audience.

Six Career Secrets You Won't Learn in School
-By Alexandra Levit,
author of "They Don't Teach Corporate in College: A Twenty-Something's Guide to the Business World"

Develop a marketable corporate person

Establish profitable relationships

Master transferable skills like goal setting, effective communication and time management

Stay motivated despite trying circumstances

Get people to cooperate

Be proactive about your career growth

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1 more proj and 1 last presentation. after tt, i can say byebye to sch.

Something worth to hold my revision for . . .