Last available book of the House of Night Series.
Things are heating up.
Fairly decent book, nothing to rave about.
But this book, once again reminded me the power of words.
At a time when I almost forgot how powerful words are.
By manipulating them, I can change facts, without ever lying.
There's even something called lies of omission.
Which technically translate to, I'm not telling you a lie, I'm just not giving you the full picture.
I know I have a glib tongue..I could praise people to heaven and blast them face down to hell..
Which makes it all the better for me. =D
Sounds evil, but thats how the world works.
Anyway, the end for another vampire series.
The next instalment will only be out next year.
Most of my series are now stuck at new books releasing next year..
I think it's time to go back to my normal books huh..
Nicholas Sparks would be next =)
Thursday, December 31, 2009
2009
Finally it's the last day of 2009.
2009 has been a bad year.
Like really bad, bad.
If you ask me..it's the worst year of my 19 years on Earth.
Things really sucked in the first 9 months.
Shall not elaborate..not needed I guess.
But things turned better in the last 3 months.
Sometimes, not caring turns out to be a good thing.
Not to digress, in the last 3 months..
NS became bearable.
And comfort comes from the fact that I'm halfway through.
So..byebye to 2009. And Hello 2010.
Hopefully it's a better new year. =)
2009 has been a bad year.
Like really bad, bad.
If you ask me..it's the worst year of my 19 years on Earth.
Things really sucked in the first 9 months.
Shall not elaborate..not needed I guess.
But things turned better in the last 3 months.
Sometimes, not caring turns out to be a good thing.
Not to digress, in the last 3 months..
NS became bearable.
And comfort comes from the fact that I'm halfway through.
So..byebye to 2009. And Hello 2010.
Hopefully it's a better new year. =)
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Untamed
I totally forgot about this book.
4th Book of the House of Night series, before Hunted.
untamed has nothing much..it's like a prelude to Hunted, setting the stage for Kalona's revival.
4th Book of the House of Night series, before Hunted.
untamed has nothing much..it's like a prelude to Hunted, setting the stage for Kalona's revival.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Hunted
5th Book of the House of Night Series.
Decent read..but the plot is getting a little predictable.
There's loopholes here and there, so it made the book look very amateurish.
Decent read..but the plot is getting a little predictable.
There's loopholes here and there, so it made the book look very amateurish.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Back from hantu
2nd trip to hantu.
Completed my Advanced Open Water Diver.
Had deep, navigation and drift diving today.
Visibility was erratic..best was around 3m, worst was >1m.
First deep dive..we went down to 23m I think..it was weird. I didn't know we sank go deep until I checked my SPG. I was feeling abit of vertigo initially...didn't know why..maybe nitrogen narcosis? But I was still lucid enough to dive..
So dived around..nothing much to see..I'm not a very micro person yet..haha.
But current was very erratic. It was hard drifting in it..we could go north, and turn south the next second.
Descent wasn't much of a problem..but ascend was.
I couldn't stop for safety stop..I was kinda freaking out too, cause it was a deep dive..and surfacing without safety stop posed a high risk of DCS.
Luckily David pulled me down..I don't know why, I couldn't stop my ascent this trip..both times I couldn't stay at 5m by myself..have to work on it more..
But with david pulling me down..we completed the dive successfully.
Got stung by some things..including a hydroid.
Pain. Remind me to wear full suit next time..
Completed my Advanced Open Water Diver.
Had deep, navigation and drift diving today.
Visibility was erratic..best was around 3m, worst was >1m.
First deep dive..we went down to 23m I think..it was weird. I didn't know we sank go deep until I checked my SPG. I was feeling abit of vertigo initially...didn't know why..maybe nitrogen narcosis? But I was still lucid enough to dive..
So dived around..nothing much to see..I'm not a very micro person yet..haha.
But current was very erratic. It was hard drifting in it..we could go north, and turn south the next second.
Descent wasn't much of a problem..but ascend was.
I couldn't stop for safety stop..I was kinda freaking out too, cause it was a deep dive..and surfacing without safety stop posed a high risk of DCS.
Luckily David pulled me down..I don't know why, I couldn't stop my ascent this trip..both times I couldn't stay at 5m by myself..have to work on it more..
But with david pulling me down..we completed the dive successfully.
Got stung by some things..including a hydroid.
Pain. Remind me to wear full suit next time..
Sunday, December 06, 2009
I miss JAPAN~
yea..it's the period of withdrawal symptoms..Haiz I miss Japan!
Miss the cold
Miss the people
Miss DISNEYLAND
I would like to go back there next year..hokkaido maybe?
It would be 7pm there now..the sky turns dark at 4pm over there...and the weather turns nasty.
But I miss it all the same =((
Juan Siu and Jian Der so lucky..their family extended their trip and they're only coming back tomorrow...
Kinda emo these days...post-holiday withdrawal symptoms, plus it's Dec..lots of emo thoughts.
And...it's back to work tomorrow.
Haizzzzzz
Miss the cold
Miss the people
Miss DISNEYLAND
I would like to go back there next year..hokkaido maybe?
It would be 7pm there now..the sky turns dark at 4pm over there...and the weather turns nasty.
But I miss it all the same =((
Juan Siu and Jian Der so lucky..their family extended their trip and they're only coming back tomorrow...
Kinda emo these days...post-holiday withdrawal symptoms, plus it's Dec..lots of emo thoughts.
And...it's back to work tomorrow.
Haizzzzzz
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Pulau Hantu
Back from diving at Hantu..
Omg visibility is so so bad.
I've heard of how bad it could be, but never expected it to be that bad.
We could see about..1 metre? Maybe less.
Had 2 dives today in the morning.
First dive was fine..2nd dive was...wthhhh.
Basically, after going down, touched the bottom, I lost sight of everyone. Literally.
When going down, they were right next to me, 1metre away.
After I went down, I couldn't find them.
So I surfaced...and found myself far far away from the boat...strong current drifted me far far away.
Siannnn..hope next week will be better
Omg visibility is so so bad.
I've heard of how bad it could be, but never expected it to be that bad.
We could see about..1 metre? Maybe less.
Had 2 dives today in the morning.
First dive was fine..2nd dive was...wthhhh.
Basically, after going down, touched the bottom, I lost sight of everyone. Literally.
When going down, they were right next to me, 1metre away.
After I went down, I couldn't find them.
So I surfaced...and found myself far far away from the boat...strong current drifted me far far away.
Siannnn..hope next week will be better
Friday, December 04, 2009
Japan~
Back from Japan!
It's been long since I went on holiday with a tour group..and a big family group.
Last time was probably 3/4 years ago to Malaysia.
What could I say? The tour was great, just that going with family always sucks.
Met a few new friends in the group..too bad the ice only started to break when we're halfway through the holiday.
2 things I love about Japan, the weather and Disneyland.
Then again, I love every Disneyland there is in the world!! Hahaha
Land of MAGIC.
But weather there is really fantastic. IN THE DAY.
It gets freaking cold at night..possibly due to me not having winter clothes..
Hahaha.
I would really like to go back to Japan again soon..maybe if possible, even with a few of the tour members we met..
The Japanese are really nice people, though most of them can't understand English. But they are ever so helpful! And...Jap children are absolutely the cutest.
Things there are expensive though..but I definitely will go back there again!
It's been long since I went on holiday with a tour group..and a big family group.
Last time was probably 3/4 years ago to Malaysia.
What could I say? The tour was great, just that going with family always sucks.
Met a few new friends in the group..too bad the ice only started to break when we're halfway through the holiday.
2 things I love about Japan, the weather and Disneyland.
Then again, I love every Disneyland there is in the world!! Hahaha
Land of MAGIC.
But weather there is really fantastic. IN THE DAY.
It gets freaking cold at night..possibly due to me not having winter clothes..
Hahaha.
I would really like to go back to Japan again soon..maybe if possible, even with a few of the tour members we met..
The Japanese are really nice people, though most of them can't understand English. But they are ever so helpful! And...Jap children are absolutely the cutest.
Things there are expensive though..but I definitely will go back there again!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Chosen
3rd book in the House of Night series.
It's really like Harry Potter..all the stuff about sneaking out of school, etc etc.
But it all happens within 2months, compared to 3years by the time you finish Prisoner of Azkaban.
Ok, I've ran out of books AGAIN.
Have to get more books when I'm back in Sg..probably the last 2/3 books of the HoN series..then maybe a new series..either succubus stories or strange angels..
It's really like Harry Potter..all the stuff about sneaking out of school, etc etc.
But it all happens within 2months, compared to 3years by the time you finish Prisoner of Azkaban.
Ok, I've ran out of books AGAIN.
Have to get more books when I'm back in Sg..probably the last 2/3 books of the HoN series..then maybe a new series..either succubus stories or strange angels..
Friday, November 27, 2009
Betrayed
2nd novel in the House of Night Series.
A better read than the first.
Going on to Chosen..
Wow I still can't believe how many books I managed to read this month..if I didn't count wrongly, it stands at 7, going to 8, if I managed to finish Chosen.
A better read than the first.
Going on to Chosen..
Wow I still can't believe how many books I managed to read this month..if I didn't count wrongly, it stands at 7, going to 8, if I managed to finish Chosen.
Marked
First book of the House Of Night series.
What can I say?
It's like Harry Potter.
Which translate to...enjoyable reading.
It's kinda hard to get used to the new terms though, coming directly from Vampire Academy..
What can I say?
It's like Harry Potter.
Which translate to...enjoyable reading.
It's kinda hard to get used to the new terms though, coming directly from Vampire Academy..
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Blood Promise
Last book for the Vampire Academy series..
Kinda surprised how fast it took me to clear out the books..total of..4 days for 3 books.
This book..was good. As good as Shadow Kissed.
It has lesser action packed chapters, but much more emotions involved..this was the book that gave me the "cannot put it down, must continue reading" type of feeling.
Must read =)
Too bad now comes the part where I have to wait for new releases..
Spirit Bound is the new chapter of the VA saga..it should be out next year. May 18 to be precise..can't wait.
Till then, I got another vampire series...House of Night.
Bought the first 3 books yesterday..must control..the books look flimsy.
I'm sure I could clear out all 3 in 3 days..but must control..I've bought 7 books this month already..went through 4 in less than 2 weeks..
Kinda surprised how fast it took me to clear out the books..total of..4 days for 3 books.
This book..was good. As good as Shadow Kissed.
It has lesser action packed chapters, but much more emotions involved..this was the book that gave me the "cannot put it down, must continue reading" type of feeling.
Must read =)
Too bad now comes the part where I have to wait for new releases..
Spirit Bound is the new chapter of the VA saga..it should be out next year. May 18 to be precise..can't wait.
Till then, I got another vampire series...House of Night.
Bought the first 3 books yesterday..must control..the books look flimsy.
I'm sure I could clear out all 3 in 3 days..but must control..I've bought 7 books this month already..went through 4 in less than 2 weeks..
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Shadow Kiss
Just finished the book..took 2 days cause of work commitments again. =(
Anyway, best book of the 3 I've read so far.
This book signifies the start of the change.
Taboos were broken, found to have worked.
Very action packed.
Must read =)
On to my last book...Blood Promise =)
Anyway, best book of the 3 I've read so far.
This book signifies the start of the change.
Taboos were broken, found to have worked.
Very action packed.
Must read =)
On to my last book...Blood Promise =)
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Frostbite
Took 2 days to finish this..due to work commitments the previous day..
Anyway, 2nd novel of the Vampire Academy Series.
Quite a enjoyable read...no brainer book. I meant it in a good way by the way.
A simple short adventure unlike those books which makes you think deep.
I like it!~
But..Rose is the main character here..but somehow, I'm more interested to know about Lissa?
With her spirit powers and things..and the school type romance between Lissa and Christian appeals to me more than the Rose and Dimitri forbidden romance..
But..though the story is nice and stuff, the whole book felt kinda flat.
It doesn't invoke intense emotions in me..thus I didn't really have the urge to continue reading, making it much easier to put down the book.
I got that feeling in the last few chapters though but it's due to the action, rather than the feelings of the characters..
Recommended read =)
On to shadow kiss!
Looks thicker..hopefully more engaging too..
P.S. I still don't get it though, why the title Frostbite?? No link..
Anyway, 2nd novel of the Vampire Academy Series.
Quite a enjoyable read...no brainer book. I meant it in a good way by the way.
A simple short adventure unlike those books which makes you think deep.
I like it!~
But..Rose is the main character here..but somehow, I'm more interested to know about Lissa?
With her spirit powers and things..and the school type romance between Lissa and Christian appeals to me more than the Rose and Dimitri forbidden romance..
But..though the story is nice and stuff, the whole book felt kinda flat.
It doesn't invoke intense emotions in me..thus I didn't really have the urge to continue reading, making it much easier to put down the book.
I got that feeling in the last few chapters though but it's due to the action, rather than the feelings of the characters..
Recommended read =)
On to shadow kiss!
Looks thicker..hopefully more engaging too..
P.S. I still don't get it though, why the title Frostbite?? No link..
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
The Book Of Tomorrow
Done! Cecelia Ahern's 7th and newest book.
This time..it's abit of her wonderful fantasy writing, shrouded in mystery and question marks.
The story starts off with alot of missing holes here and there, that all get filled up in the last 5 chapters of the book. So you can imagine..those last chapters...hahahaha very explosive.
But this is a deviation from her other books..no longer all the wonderful fairytale-like stories.
She kept it more subdued...so I didn't really fancy this book alot.
Maybe it's me, coz I can't relate to the main character..so it felt kinda flat sometimes.
Maybe coz she's portrayed as a rebellious, rock kind of girl..
To sum it up, it's not Cecelia Ahern's best novel IMO, but it's still worth a read.
Now I've read all her books...I've been wanting to rank them all..took me awhile too.
So rankings IMO:
1.P.S. I Love You
2.The Gift
3.Where Rainbow Ends
4.A Place Called Here
5.If You Could See Me Now
6.The Book Of Tomorrow
7.Thanks for the Memories
The Gift & Where Rainbow Ends would tie at 2nd place, while A Place Called Here & If You Could See Me Now would tie for 3rd, if I really had to rank it =P
Now...ON TO VAMPIRE ACADEMY!!
Got Frostbite at PageOne the other day ^^
Hopefully I'll start reading Frostbite tomorrow at office..and probably could finish it by tomorrow..
This time..it's abit of her wonderful fantasy writing, shrouded in mystery and question marks.
The story starts off with alot of missing holes here and there, that all get filled up in the last 5 chapters of the book. So you can imagine..those last chapters...hahahaha very explosive.
But this is a deviation from her other books..no longer all the wonderful fairytale-like stories.
She kept it more subdued...so I didn't really fancy this book alot.
Maybe it's me, coz I can't relate to the main character..so it felt kinda flat sometimes.
Maybe coz she's portrayed as a rebellious, rock kind of girl..
To sum it up, it's not Cecelia Ahern's best novel IMO, but it's still worth a read.
Now I've read all her books...I've been wanting to rank them all..took me awhile too.
So rankings IMO:
1.P.S. I Love You
2.The Gift
3.Where Rainbow Ends
4.A Place Called Here
5.If You Could See Me Now
6.The Book Of Tomorrow
7.Thanks for the Memories
The Gift & Where Rainbow Ends would tie at 2nd place, while A Place Called Here & If You Could See Me Now would tie for 3rd, if I really had to rank it =P
Now...ON TO VAMPIRE ACADEMY!!
Got Frostbite at PageOne the other day ^^
Hopefully I'll start reading Frostbite tomorrow at office..and probably could finish it by tomorrow..
Sunday, November 01, 2009
NO BOOKS~~
Yea, I've officially ran out of books to read..still waiting for a borders coupon to appear in my email before I head down to borders..
40% off is quite alot of money =)
Just found out..there's not much reading for advanced open water..going back to tioman in November!
Last few trips before the monsoon..
Don't know where to do my rescue diver...probably hantu bah..no point go good dive sites for rescue diver since most of it are surface skills..
I want to go subic bay omg!!
But taking leave is almost impossible..since it's the uber peak period at work..
There's another sipadan trip in july though..then again..another peak period!!
Siann!!!
Don't think so much...get to DM first =PP
Lol
40% off is quite alot of money =)
Just found out..there's not much reading for advanced open water..going back to tioman in November!
Last few trips before the monsoon..
Don't know where to do my rescue diver...probably hantu bah..no point go good dive sites for rescue diver since most of it are surface skills..
I want to go subic bay omg!!
But taking leave is almost impossible..since it's the uber peak period at work..
There's another sipadan trip in july though..then again..another peak period!!
Siann!!!
Don't think so much...get to DM first =PP
Lol
Sunday, October 25, 2009
A Little Faith
Mitch Albom's newest novel.
It's quite a deep book, I'd expect nothing less from him.
It speaks of religion and faith, of the many faces of god in different religions..
Decent read..maybe coz I'm not a big fan of god..
With this, I'm totally out of books.
Probably will head to borders this weekend to get some Vampire Academy =))
Or maybe not..probably be rushing through my Advance Open Water Manual...
Haha
It's quite a deep book, I'd expect nothing less from him.
It speaks of religion and faith, of the many faces of god in different religions..
Decent read..maybe coz I'm not a big fan of god..
With this, I'm totally out of books.
Probably will head to borders this weekend to get some Vampire Academy =))
Or maybe not..probably be rushing through my Advance Open Water Manual...
Haha
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
A Place Called Here
Ok, long overdue book.
Kinda forgot to blog about it.
Yj reminded me..haha
Last book by Cecelia Ahern.
A good book.
Ever wondered where lost things go?
Like the missing sock, or your wallet when you drop it?
Read this book then.
Sandy Shortt(sp) is a person who wonders about this till it becomes her obsession.
Tie in other minor characters, and the whole story comes alive, and bring you to a whole new world =)
It's a very engaging book to read, which enough emotions to make you cringe and feel, but not enought o make you soppy.
Good book =)
I've completed all her works with this book.
Cecelia Ahern always manages to capture that little essence of fantasy, and transform it to so much more.
Her next book would be coming out soon, and it's no surprise I'll be there to purchase it.
I'm left with 1 book now.
Slowly reading through it.
Hopefully I'll be hopping down to borders soon.
Probably be getting the whole VA series and maybe another jodie's book.
Anyway, I'm reading Mercy by Jodie Picoult now.
I'm slowing down with the reading nowadays, work is getting busy again, and there's WoW and stuff to keep me entertained at home...
Kinda forgot to blog about it.
Yj reminded me..haha
Last book by Cecelia Ahern.
A good book.
Ever wondered where lost things go?
Like the missing sock, or your wallet when you drop it?
Read this book then.
Sandy Shortt(sp) is a person who wonders about this till it becomes her obsession.
Tie in other minor characters, and the whole story comes alive, and bring you to a whole new world =)
It's a very engaging book to read, which enough emotions to make you cringe and feel, but not enought o make you soppy.
Good book =)
I've completed all her works with this book.
Cecelia Ahern always manages to capture that little essence of fantasy, and transform it to so much more.
Her next book would be coming out soon, and it's no surprise I'll be there to purchase it.
I'm left with 1 book now.
Slowly reading through it.
Hopefully I'll be hopping down to borders soon.
Probably be getting the whole VA series and maybe another jodie's book.
Anyway, I'm reading Mercy by Jodie Picoult now.
I'm slowing down with the reading nowadays, work is getting busy again, and there's WoW and stuff to keep me entertained at home...
Friday, September 18, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Vampire Academy
Pretty short book..completed it in 4 hours.
It's kinda like twilight, but unique in it's own ways.
The thing about series like this..it creates a whole new world for you to understand?
So it may take some time to fully understand the fantasy world.
Pretty good book. Not as deep as twilight. There really isn't much romance in it..not that intense as compared to twilight.
But, worth a read.
Now to get the rest of the series..
Left with 2 books on my shelf..have to go restock soon..probably will get the 3 books of VA to complete the series..
It's kinda like twilight, but unique in it's own ways.
The thing about series like this..it creates a whole new world for you to understand?
So it may take some time to fully understand the fantasy world.
Pretty good book. Not as deep as twilight. There really isn't much romance in it..not that intense as compared to twilight.
But, worth a read.
Now to get the rest of the series..
Left with 2 books on my shelf..have to go restock soon..probably will get the 3 books of VA to complete the series..
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
The Little Prince
A very short story..but took me a very long time to read.
It's a very deep book. Very very deep.
It's a very deep book. Very very deep.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
If You Could See Me Now
Complated another book..haha super fast.
If you could see me now..another cecelia ahern book.
This book..
When I started reading it, it was not very interesting.
Sometimes you'll just feel like putting it down, because you think that it's nothing special.
But push on, and you'll discover how great a book this is.
Not every book will leave you feeling intense emotions after every chapter.
But that doesn't mean it isn't a good book.
This is a perfect example.
For the first 2/3 of the book, it's all about hoe Elizabeth is a boring lady.
A lady who's authoritative, who's lonely, who had a bad childhood.
It tells of her everyday life, her interactions with luke, how she live in the boring town, and then..how luke had an imaginary friend, Ivan.
That's when the story gets interesting.
The emotions just get more and more intense near the end.
I won't want to spoil the story..
But it's a bittersweet ending..
I liked her representations of a imaginary friend though, that it's a career, helping children.
1 gripe, there's no clear definition between flashbacks and the present, thus it gets abit confusing and frustrating to read at times.
But overall, a good book.
It's funny how the books I've read comes at a time when I'm questioning myself.
My previous posts..I've questioning myself if Singapore is the place I wanna stay in.
And this book?
Well let's say it provide me some fresh insights..
Ok. I've polished off 5 of cecelia ahern's book.
1 more to go, A Place Called Here.
Currently of her 5 books, here's my preference, in order.
P.S. I Love You
Where Rainbows End
The Gift
If You Could See Me Now
Thanks For The Memories
If you could see me now..another cecelia ahern book.
This book..
When I started reading it, it was not very interesting.
Sometimes you'll just feel like putting it down, because you think that it's nothing special.
But push on, and you'll discover how great a book this is.
Not every book will leave you feeling intense emotions after every chapter.
But that doesn't mean it isn't a good book.
This is a perfect example.
For the first 2/3 of the book, it's all about hoe Elizabeth is a boring lady.
A lady who's authoritative, who's lonely, who had a bad childhood.
It tells of her everyday life, her interactions with luke, how she live in the boring town, and then..how luke had an imaginary friend, Ivan.
That's when the story gets interesting.
The emotions just get more and more intense near the end.
I won't want to spoil the story..
But it's a bittersweet ending..
I liked her representations of a imaginary friend though, that it's a career, helping children.
1 gripe, there's no clear definition between flashbacks and the present, thus it gets abit confusing and frustrating to read at times.
But overall, a good book.
It's funny how the books I've read comes at a time when I'm questioning myself.
My previous posts..I've questioning myself if Singapore is the place I wanna stay in.
And this book?
Well let's say it provide me some fresh insights..
Ok. I've polished off 5 of cecelia ahern's book.
1 more to go, A Place Called Here.
Currently of her 5 books, here's my preference, in order.
P.S. I Love You
Where Rainbows End
The Gift
If You Could See Me Now
Thanks For The Memories
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Handle With Care
Another book..actually, I've finished transformers revenge of the fallen before this..but nothing much to talk about..just basically the movie, with added details.
Anyway, Handle With Care. Jodie's Picoult latest book.
So far, I've read 3 of her book. She really do very well writing about ethics and morality.
If I had to rank it, This book would be together with My Sister's Keeper for number1.
I didn't really like Change of Heart.
Anyway, 1 gripe.(spoilers)
Her stories..always end sadly.
Annie died in My Sister's Keeper.
Willow died in Change of Heart.
Why must that be so?? =((
It's really very heartbreaking..
Very good book.
A book that would invoke your emotions.
Basic summary, Charlotte is a mother to a daughter born with OI.
She wants the best for her daughter, but to do that she would have to make alot of..
agonizing decisions.
But I just don't like a sad ending.
Really.
Willow deserves to live.
So does Annie.
Anyway, Handle With Care. Jodie's Picoult latest book.
So far, I've read 3 of her book. She really do very well writing about ethics and morality.
If I had to rank it, This book would be together with My Sister's Keeper for number1.
I didn't really like Change of Heart.
Anyway, 1 gripe.(spoilers)
Her stories..always end sadly.
Annie died in My Sister's Keeper.
Willow died in Change of Heart.
Why must that be so?? =((
It's really very heartbreaking..
Very good book.
A book that would invoke your emotions.
Basic summary, Charlotte is a mother to a daughter born with OI.
She wants the best for her daughter, but to do that she would have to make alot of..
agonizing decisions.
But I just don't like a sad ending.
Really.
Willow deserves to live.
So does Annie.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
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I've been thinking alot these days...maybe coz I'm no longer busy at work..for the next 2 months hopefully.
Would I like to stay in Singapore in future?
What would my future career be?
Those are the 2 questions that I've been thinking through many many times.
Singapore..is it all that ideal for me?
Would I prefer a new enviroment...Australia,UK,USA?
Would I migrate and stay there in future?
If so...should I go aus to study for my degree..it's easier to make networks in school..so if I'm really going to settle down there..it would be best I did my degree there too.
Then what about my family and friends in Singapore then.
Would I miss them?
Would I get a Aussy/Briton/American gf there then?
Alot alot of questions...
Then..what would I like to work as in future?
This..I'm still searching..has not found it yet
Career isn't bothering me as much as country..I don't know..I just find that Singapore is really boring.
I would really like a new environment..
Then again, if I'm going to study in Aus..that's un-needed money spent..especially when I;m already accepted by SMU..
Singapore is just..let's just say I've grown tired of it.
Maybe I need a break.
I would really like to just go tour the countryside.
Scotland, Australia, Ireland.
Places with big spacious meadows and castles and crystal clear oceans/lakes and white sand..
AND! With cooling weather..
Would I like to stay in Singapore in future?
What would my future career be?
Those are the 2 questions that I've been thinking through many many times.
Singapore..is it all that ideal for me?
Would I prefer a new enviroment...Australia,UK,USA?
Would I migrate and stay there in future?
If so...should I go aus to study for my degree..it's easier to make networks in school..so if I'm really going to settle down there..it would be best I did my degree there too.
Then what about my family and friends in Singapore then.
Would I miss them?
Would I get a Aussy/Briton/American gf there then?
Alot alot of questions...
Then..what would I like to work as in future?
This..I'm still searching..has not found it yet
Career isn't bothering me as much as country..I don't know..I just find that Singapore is really boring.
I would really like a new environment..
Then again, if I'm going to study in Aus..that's un-needed money spent..especially when I;m already accepted by SMU..
Singapore is just..let's just say I've grown tired of it.
Maybe I need a break.
I would really like to just go tour the countryside.
Scotland, Australia, Ireland.
Places with big spacious meadows and castles and crystal clear oceans/lakes and white sand..
AND! With cooling weather..
Sunday, August 23, 2009
--
Decided!
I'll add Australia to my ORD trip..
Probably head to aussy for 2mths? before going to uk for another 3..
Plans to now..
Hk - using leave
Hk - using leave(alone)
1 Asian Destination - using leave(alone)
Australia - using leave(alone) probably a short one..1week perhaps
Australia - ORD
UK - ORD
Thats all..
I have this urge to head over to aus and uk now =((
Today's weather is exactly like how it is there =(((
I've been thinking about career options..I think I've decided.
I'll want to work as someone in the media.
Doubt it will be an actor/model/singer. LOL
Perhaps..radio DJ...producer..something like that..fashion show producer would be nice too..
I'll add Australia to my ORD trip..
Probably head to aussy for 2mths? before going to uk for another 3..
Plans to now..
Hk - using leave
Hk - using leave(alone)
1 Asian Destination - using leave(alone)
Australia - using leave(alone) probably a short one..1week perhaps
Australia - ORD
UK - ORD
Thats all..
I have this urge to head over to aus and uk now =((
Today's weather is exactly like how it is there =(((
I've been thinking about career options..I think I've decided.
I'll want to work as someone in the media.
Doubt it will be an actor/model/singer. LOL
Perhaps..radio DJ...producer..something like that..fashion show producer would be nice too..
Saturday, August 22, 2009
--
Wouldn't it be nice to be born in a western country..somewhere like Australia or UK..
Would be nice to be an Aussy or an Briton..
Not saying I dislike being Chinese la..I've no qualms about it..but just be living in Aussy or UK would be so nice..
Experience high school, experience their country..wouldn't that be nice?
Would be nice to be an Aussy or an Briton..
Not saying I dislike being Chinese la..I've no qualms about it..but just be living in Aussy or UK would be so nice..
Experience high school, experience their country..wouldn't that be nice?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
--
Where will I be 7 years down?
Most probably still studying in uni..
=(
Meanwhile, people are earning million of dollars.
Take miranda kerr...she's only 25 this year..but she's already a supermodel.
What will I accomplish when I'm 25?
Anyway, I've been thinking.
Would I make a good radio host?
Hahaha. Being a radio dj sounds good for me..
I think i'll make a great host rite.
Should I pursue mass comm then..
Oh back to social science, how do people get together?
Why do famous personalities always get attached to each other?
Like angelina jolie and brad pitt, and miranda kerr and orlando bloom..1 more example..glenn ong and jamie.
Why can't they choose someone who is not that famous as them.
Like..why didn't miranda get together with..an aussy bloke instead of orlando.
Weird huh.
It's a phenomenon.
People get together with partners around their status.
Why is that so?
Interesting?
Haha
Last bit..recently stumbled upon miranda kerr's archives photos in my comp..
Hahaha..since 2007 until now..didn't change much..as pretty as ever. lol..
she's been an angel for 2 years already..so fast..it's like only yesterday when she modelled in the VS show 2007..still remember..it's the glacial segment..hahaha.
then very fast came the vs show 2008..speaking of which, is showing tonight again..look for the wings =P
Go see if u like..VS makes 1 of the best fashion shows =)
Most probably still studying in uni..
=(
Meanwhile, people are earning million of dollars.
Take miranda kerr...she's only 25 this year..but she's already a supermodel.
What will I accomplish when I'm 25?
Anyway, I've been thinking.
Would I make a good radio host?
Hahaha. Being a radio dj sounds good for me..
I think i'll make a great host rite.
Should I pursue mass comm then..
Oh back to social science, how do people get together?
Why do famous personalities always get attached to each other?
Like angelina jolie and brad pitt, and miranda kerr and orlando bloom..1 more example..glenn ong and jamie.
Why can't they choose someone who is not that famous as them.
Like..why didn't miranda get together with..an aussy bloke instead of orlando.
Weird huh.
It's a phenomenon.
People get together with partners around their status.
Why is that so?
Interesting?
Haha
Last bit..recently stumbled upon miranda kerr's archives photos in my comp..
Hahaha..since 2007 until now..didn't change much..as pretty as ever. lol..
she's been an angel for 2 years already..so fast..it's like only yesterday when she modelled in the VS show 2007..still remember..it's the glacial segment..hahaha.
then very fast came the vs show 2008..speaking of which, is showing tonight again..look for the wings =P
Go see if u like..VS makes 1 of the best fashion shows =)
Friday, July 31, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Where Rainbows End
Ok. It's been awhile since I've touched a book..
Been to preoccupied with work these days..the workload never cease to end.
I've been searching for this book for awhile, after reading P.S. I love you..they included a chapter of this book at the end of the story..it was narrated in a special manner..through letters,emails,smses, msn.
Tried searching borders, onepage, mph...many other bookstores..finally found it at Popular.
How irony it is =S
Anyway, a good read overall.
Narrative style was unique. Made reading all that more pleasurably.
But perhaps due to this unique style, the feelings are not that intense.
The feelins I felt while reading this, compared to PS I love you and the time traveler's wife...this book had just a fraction of the feelings of loss and anguish I've felt..
It was really good going back into reading again..to re-experience the joy of being pulled into their world.
To just leave everything behind, and see how things play out in the book.
I've finished the book in 1 day..just spent the whole day in office poring into it when I'm free.
This book particularly resonated within me..it must be nice having such a good friend..
One I never had the chance to have.
I don't know why..maybe it's me.
I've never been able to stay in touch with my friends.
I've lost touch with everyone in primary school..
I've lost touch with almost everyone in secondary school..
I'm losing touch with almost everyone in jc too.
Is it me?
Maybe it is..it's not that I'm not trying.
But things just keep happening.
Would you say I'm full of regret?
I do sometimes..but we can't turn back time..
Maybe I'm just fated to be without friends.
But fuck fate. I control that.
Hahaha
Been to preoccupied with work these days..the workload never cease to end.
I've been searching for this book for awhile, after reading P.S. I love you..they included a chapter of this book at the end of the story..it was narrated in a special manner..through letters,emails,smses, msn.
Tried searching borders, onepage, mph...many other bookstores..finally found it at Popular.
How irony it is =S
Anyway, a good read overall.
Narrative style was unique. Made reading all that more pleasurably.
But perhaps due to this unique style, the feelings are not that intense.
The feelins I felt while reading this, compared to PS I love you and the time traveler's wife...this book had just a fraction of the feelings of loss and anguish I've felt..
It was really good going back into reading again..to re-experience the joy of being pulled into their world.
To just leave everything behind, and see how things play out in the book.
I've finished the book in 1 day..just spent the whole day in office poring into it when I'm free.
This book particularly resonated within me..it must be nice having such a good friend..
One I never had the chance to have.
I don't know why..maybe it's me.
I've never been able to stay in touch with my friends.
I've lost touch with everyone in primary school..
I've lost touch with almost everyone in secondary school..
I'm losing touch with almost everyone in jc too.
Is it me?
Maybe it is..it's not that I'm not trying.
But things just keep happening.
Would you say I'm full of regret?
I do sometimes..but we can't turn back time..
Maybe I'm just fated to be without friends.
But fuck fate. I control that.
Hahaha
Monday, July 13, 2009
--
How it feels like to die?
Will it hurt before the end?
Whats the best way to die painlessly then..
Suddenly, death becomes such a fascinating subject.
Will it hurt before the end?
Whats the best way to die painlessly then..
Suddenly, death becomes such a fascinating subject.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Friday, July 03, 2009
--
Here's how much my Chevrolet Camaro is going to cost :
OMV : US 22,000 approx SGD 50,000
Vehicle Tax : 41% of OMV = approx SG25,000
Registration Fee : SGD1,000
ARF : 140% of OMV = approx SGD75,000
Road Tax : SGD3,000
Insurance Premium = SG1,500 (due to my age)
COE: SGD35,000
Total: SGD200,000
What the fuck man.
3.2l Chevrolet Camaro got inflated from USD 22,000 to USD100,000.
Fucking hell.
OMV : US 22,000 approx SGD 50,000
Vehicle Tax : 41% of OMV = approx SG25,000
Registration Fee : SGD1,000
ARF : 140% of OMV = approx SGD75,000
Road Tax : SGD3,000
Insurance Premium = SG1,500 (due to my age)
COE: SGD35,000
Total: SGD200,000
What the fuck man.
3.2l Chevrolet Camaro got inflated from USD 22,000 to USD100,000.
Fucking hell.
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
--
Been thinking about my future these days..probably because of all the jobs figures and stuff..
But I was wondering. What would I be in the future?
I definitely am going to be in the upper echelons of the socio economic ladder..
But what could I be?
Top paying careers are all doctors.
I can't be that already.
Business doesn't interest me too.
I'm not cut out for a desk bound job. Well, at least I do not ever want to do a desk job against my will.
So what career would give me alot of money then?
Politician, lawyer..can only think of these 2.
I don't know..
I want to drive a Chevrolet Camaro at least.
It's 25k in the us..but lets say parallel import..it will be around..150k?
Ok. Let's just assume it's 200k.
It works out to about 1.4k per month over 10 years.
If I'm earning 10k per month.
Possible that's enough.
But 10k where got enough?
And I've been wasting 2 years in NS.
Ok la, 2 years ain't a long time.
But it ain't short either.
Look to the US.
Actors are earning 5million per film at the age of 23.
Where will I be in 23?
I'm still in uni..what the fuck.
By the time I finished studying..worst case, I'll be 26.
What the fuck.
I should further my life in the US.
But I was wondering. What would I be in the future?
I definitely am going to be in the upper echelons of the socio economic ladder..
But what could I be?
Top paying careers are all doctors.
I can't be that already.
Business doesn't interest me too.
I'm not cut out for a desk bound job. Well, at least I do not ever want to do a desk job against my will.
So what career would give me alot of money then?
Politician, lawyer..can only think of these 2.
I don't know..
I want to drive a Chevrolet Camaro at least.
It's 25k in the us..but lets say parallel import..it will be around..150k?
Ok. Let's just assume it's 200k.
It works out to about 1.4k per month over 10 years.
If I'm earning 10k per month.
Possible that's enough.
But 10k where got enough?
And I've been wasting 2 years in NS.
Ok la, 2 years ain't a long time.
But it ain't short either.
Look to the US.
Actors are earning 5million per film at the age of 23.
Where will I be in 23?
I'm still in uni..what the fuck.
By the time I finished studying..worst case, I'll be 26.
What the fuck.
I should further my life in the US.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
--
K. I've been obsessed with transformers again after watching transformers 2.
Wtf.
k. This is the exact feeling I got after watching Transformers omg.
So far, only 3 movies did this to me.
Transformers, The Dark Knight, Transformers 2.
Omg..
Anyway.
Megan fox isn't really very sexy outside the screen.
Totally got to do with her outfits.
She looks much better in jeans and tanktops.
Wtf.
k. This is the exact feeling I got after watching Transformers omg.
So far, only 3 movies did this to me.
Transformers, The Dark Knight, Transformers 2.
Omg..
Anyway.
Megan fox isn't really very sexy outside the screen.
Totally got to do with her outfits.
She looks much better in jeans and tanktops.
Friday, June 26, 2009
--
Could things change so drastically within one year?
Going to the movies alone on a Friday afternoon.
Sadded
However, Transformers2 was a really really awesome movie...
How long will we remain in limbo?
Going to the movies alone on a Friday afternoon.
Sadded
However, Transformers2 was a really really awesome movie...
How long will we remain in limbo?
Saturday, June 20, 2009
The Time Traveler's Wife
A very nice book.
It gets kind of confusing with the dates sometimes, but definitely worth a read.
It gets kind of confusing with the dates sometimes, but definitely worth a read.
Friday, June 19, 2009
--
Things happen for a reason, you may be unable to comprehend it presently.
But I'm sure you'll understand as time goes by.
I've made choices. Not an easy choice. But I've made it.
If you could still trust me, then believe that the choice I made, it's for your good.
But I'm sure you'll understand as time goes by.
I've made choices. Not an easy choice. But I've made it.
If you could still trust me, then believe that the choice I made, it's for your good.
Monday, June 15, 2009
--
6 months in...18 months left.
I don't have much left.
Will any remain by the end of this year?
--
Trust lost is hard to regain, sometimes never.
I don't have much left.
Will any remain by the end of this year?
--
Trust lost is hard to regain, sometimes never.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
--
You and your wishful thinking.
You're just trying to make yourself feel better. Comforting yourself.
But hello?! Reality Check?
Sometimes, listen.
You're just trying to make yourself feel better. Comforting yourself.
But hello?! Reality Check?
Sometimes, listen.
Monday, June 01, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
--
It's so hard to say, but I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok.
I've got to move on and find who I am.
I just don't belong here anymore.
I hope you could understand.
We might meet again soon, but at least for now,
I gotta go on my own way
I don't wanna leave it all behind, but everytime I get my hopes up..
It all falls down.
You'll be ok.
I've got to move on and find who I am.
I just don't belong here anymore.
I hope you could understand.
We might meet again soon, but at least for now,
I gotta go on my own way
I don't wanna leave it all behind, but everytime I get my hopes up..
It all falls down.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
--
This was an important time in Sharon's Life ans she knew she should be there for her, but she just couldn't bring herself to.
She was being jealous, bitter and incredibly selfish, she knew that, but Holly needed to be selfish these days in order to survive.
--
She was being jealous, bitter and incredibly selfish, she knew that, but Holly needed to be selfish these days in order to survive.
--
Friday, May 22, 2009
P.S. I love you
Took me awhile before I decided to buy this book..
Should have bought earlier.
But perhaps, now is the best time.
This book..is very heartwarming, heartbreaking, and hilarious all at the same time.
I was reading it at a time..when I really felt like Holly.
This was the perfect time for me to read this..
I totally can empathize with what Holly is feeling..probably because that's what I've been feeling these days myself.
Feeling..abandoned, exhausted, and not alive.
If only I had a list to fall back upon for this 2 years too..
Good book. Comforting for the soul, my soul at least.
Should have bought earlier.
But perhaps, now is the best time.
This book..is very heartwarming, heartbreaking, and hilarious all at the same time.
I was reading it at a time..when I really felt like Holly.
This was the perfect time for me to read this..
I totally can empathize with what Holly is feeling..probably because that's what I've been feeling these days myself.
Feeling..abandoned, exhausted, and not alive.
If only I had a list to fall back upon for this 2 years too..
Good book. Comforting for the soul, my soul at least.
Arthas
Another warcraft lore book..
It's basically a biography of Prince Arthas Menethil.
It touch on his childhood, his corruption, the entire WC3 story,right up to events of WotLK
Good read for people interested in Warcraft Lore.
It's basically a biography of Prince Arthas Menethil.
It touch on his childhood, his corruption, the entire WC3 story,right up to events of WotLK
Good read for people interested in Warcraft Lore.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
--
Do people really want to know how you feel when they ask " How are you?" or "Are you OK?"
Or are they just trying to be polite?
Anyone will say they're OK. Even if in reality they are not.
Life goes on.
Or are they just trying to be polite?
Anyone will say they're OK. Even if in reality they are not.
Life goes on.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
--
We should all learn to let go.
The ball's back in your court now.
All these times, I've tried keeping everyone happy.
Maybe it's time I think of myself.
I'm not even asking to find happiness myself.
I'm just asking to not meet unhappiness every corner I turn.
Is that too much to ask for?
After all that I've tried to do, can I just have a break, and think of myself now.
Exhausted will be an understatement.
Now that the ball's back in your court..
I've lost all expectations.
Probably that's best.
Expecting nothing.
Like I said,
If you think that this is all that you need of me, then so be it.
I won't fight it, I won't question it.
And more importantly, I won't give more than you need.
I used to think that by giving more, providing more than expected, it would at least be returned with a smile.
I used to think, I was being too cautious, too withdrawn.
How naive.
The ball's back in your court now.
All these times, I've tried keeping everyone happy.
Maybe it's time I think of myself.
I'm not even asking to find happiness myself.
I'm just asking to not meet unhappiness every corner I turn.
Is that too much to ask for?
After all that I've tried to do, can I just have a break, and think of myself now.
Exhausted will be an understatement.
Now that the ball's back in your court..
I've lost all expectations.
Probably that's best.
Expecting nothing.
Like I said,
If you think that this is all that you need of me, then so be it.
I won't fight it, I won't question it.
And more importantly, I won't give more than you need.
I used to think that by giving more, providing more than expected, it would at least be returned with a smile.
I used to think, I was being too cautious, too withdrawn.
How naive.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
The Host
The next series by Stephanie Meyer.
Decent read. Almost as captivating as the twilight series.
Can't wait for the next book.
Decent read. Almost as captivating as the twilight series.
Can't wait for the next book.
Monday, May 11, 2009
--
damage control...though there isn't much left..
but I'll salvage whatever that's left...
I just hope that it's enough...
but I'll salvage whatever that's left...
I just hope that it's enough...
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 09, 2009
Friday, May 08, 2009
Thursday, May 07, 2009
Change of Heart
Finished another book..
This book ain't as nice..
maybe because it's not what I've expected it to be.
Didn't expect all the christianity to be in there...
didn't expect it to be focusing on religion vs justice.
Was kinda expecting more of...acceptance vs forgiveness.
And hoping it would be like My Sister's Keeper.
But..a decent read..alot of twists and turns you never expected.
This book ain't as nice..
maybe because it's not what I've expected it to be.
Didn't expect all the christianity to be in there...
didn't expect it to be focusing on religion vs justice.
Was kinda expecting more of...acceptance vs forgiveness.
And hoping it would be like My Sister's Keeper.
But..a decent read..alot of twists and turns you never expected.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
--
Yes, some promises I made to you will stay hold.
But for some, I guess it's no longer necessary anymore.
If you're happy and contented with how things are right now, then I guess there's nothing more to be done.
Let's just keep it this way then.
Why am I still clinging onto the past, when everyone else has moved on ahead.
I just wish I was back studying, back preparing for A's. Back in SR.
Now, I just don't have anything to look forward to.
The future is just too distant, too out of reach.
I'm not going university in the near future.
I have no end point for myself now.
I have nothing to look for ahead.
Is that why i choose to still live in the past?
It certainly feels so.
No purpose anymore.
But for some, I guess it's no longer necessary anymore.
If you're happy and contented with how things are right now, then I guess there's nothing more to be done.
Let's just keep it this way then.
Why am I still clinging onto the past, when everyone else has moved on ahead.
I just wish I was back studying, back preparing for A's. Back in SR.
Now, I just don't have anything to look forward to.
The future is just too distant, too out of reach.
I'm not going university in the near future.
I have no end point for myself now.
I have nothing to look for ahead.
Is that why i choose to still live in the past?
It certainly feels so.
No purpose anymore.
--
Sometimes, it's not possible to have the best of both worlds.
Sometimes, a choice is necessary.
Since you already made a choice, maybe it's time for me to make mine.
I made promises once,
but are promises worth keeping, when there's no meaning left to it?
Sometimes, a choice is necessary.
Since you already made a choice, maybe it's time for me to make mine.
I made promises once,
but are promises worth keeping, when there's no meaning left to it?
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Interesting
Received an interesting email today from hin hiang..
One portion of the mail mentioned about the Premise of Duality.
It truely shows logic and interpretation at work.
Premise of Duality is a theory that, that for everything, there is an opposite of it.
In chinese terms, theres always a YIN to a YANG.
Make sense?
Well..theres another interpretation of nature..but that's not the point I wanna say.
Example of the premise of duality will be.
Life and Death
Hot and Cold
Light and Darkness
But here is the point of thought.
How would we know what hot is, without experiencing cold.
How would we know that darkness is, without experiencing light.
We only know the difference, because we compared.
We compared that light, is when we can see, and darkness is when everything is black.
Is it not?
Will we ever know how cold is cold?
Until exposed to an object of heat?
Only then, will we be able to differentiate between hot and cold.
The opposite hold true too.
We will not know how 'BAD', until we experience the 'GOOD'.
Bottomline is, we don't know what is 'GOOD' until we experience the 'BAD'.
That's what struck me when I read that part of the mail.
Then..
Cme the next part, where another logical presentation is made.
That the premise of duality ain't flawless.
I mean, there's not right or wrong, since both are LOGICAL.
Here's what the student said:
Darkness is the ABSENCE of light.
Cold is the ABSENCE of Hot.
Death is the ABSENCE of Life.
Make sense doesn't it?
When presented to us, many of us will find both presentations logical.
I figured out the first presentation myself, as I'm sure did many people.
But it is only after being introduced to the second explanation, did I really thought about it, and found that it's logical.
Bottomline, logic works in many way.
If you think it's logical for you to pursue that path.
Then go ahead.
Choose wisely =)
I think both of u reading this..will find it boring..or even no sense..
One portion of the mail mentioned about the Premise of Duality.
It truely shows logic and interpretation at work.
Premise of Duality is a theory that, that for everything, there is an opposite of it.
In chinese terms, theres always a YIN to a YANG.
Make sense?
Well..theres another interpretation of nature..but that's not the point I wanna say.
Example of the premise of duality will be.
Life and Death
Hot and Cold
Light and Darkness
But here is the point of thought.
How would we know what hot is, without experiencing cold.
How would we know that darkness is, without experiencing light.
We only know the difference, because we compared.
We compared that light, is when we can see, and darkness is when everything is black.
Is it not?
Will we ever know how cold is cold?
Until exposed to an object of heat?
Only then, will we be able to differentiate between hot and cold.
The opposite hold true too.
We will not know how 'BAD', until we experience the 'GOOD'.
Bottomline is, we don't know what is 'GOOD' until we experience the 'BAD'.
That's what struck me when I read that part of the mail.
Then..
Cme the next part, where another logical presentation is made.
That the premise of duality ain't flawless.
I mean, there's not right or wrong, since both are LOGICAL.
Here's what the student said:
Darkness is the ABSENCE of light.
Cold is the ABSENCE of Hot.
Death is the ABSENCE of Life.
Make sense doesn't it?
When presented to us, many of us will find both presentations logical.
I figured out the first presentation myself, as I'm sure did many people.
But it is only after being introduced to the second explanation, did I really thought about it, and found that it's logical.
Bottomline, logic works in many way.
If you think it's logical for you to pursue that path.
Then go ahead.
Choose wisely =)
I think both of u reading this..will find it boring..or even no sense..
Monday, May 04, 2009
Sorry
Big Sorry to the 6 of you..
Bob has been a hermit these days..and he has not been very sociable..
So sorry,,,I just don't feel like going out these days..
Very disillusioned with life nowadays..
Disillusioned by work,
Disillusioned by uni stuff,
Disillusioned by...many other things.
So sorry if I've been an ass.
I don't mean to be rude, or boring.
Theres just no urge to catch up..
Maybe it's due to all these uncertainty la...
I don't know.
Maybe after all the dust has settled, Bob will be back to normal..
So Sorry to Claudy and Fanglin..
Only the two of you will be reading this la...so put separately...
Don't take it to heart ok?
I'm trying to open up...but its really hard.
Give me some time...
Now, Sorry for fh,leo,yvonne and steph...
Sorry guys.
You wouldn't be able to see this anyway...Apologies..
I'm trying you know.
No one said it was easy, but no one said it was this hard either.
(PS, no fl, this is not about you)
There are some things..I would really like to ask you all...
but doing so would make me look snobbish.
And I really am not..
But I'm really sadden by all your decisions.
I once wrote all of you something..I don't know if you still remember.
But, the period is not yet up, but all of you already finding alternatives.
Why.
Why give up before the replies.
Its not too late to seek alternatives after that.
I guess I'll only say...
Please choose wisely.
I'm saying this as a friend..
Choose wisely...
Please.
Bob has been a hermit these days..and he has not been very sociable..
So sorry,,,I just don't feel like going out these days..
Very disillusioned with life nowadays..
Disillusioned by work,
Disillusioned by uni stuff,
Disillusioned by...many other things.
So sorry if I've been an ass.
I don't mean to be rude, or boring.
Theres just no urge to catch up..
Maybe it's due to all these uncertainty la...
I don't know.
Maybe after all the dust has settled, Bob will be back to normal..
So Sorry to Claudy and Fanglin..
Only the two of you will be reading this la...so put separately...
Don't take it to heart ok?
I'm trying to open up...but its really hard.
Give me some time...
Now, Sorry for fh,leo,yvonne and steph...
Sorry guys.
You wouldn't be able to see this anyway...Apologies..
I'm trying you know.
No one said it was easy, but no one said it was this hard either.
(PS, no fl, this is not about you)
There are some things..I would really like to ask you all...
but doing so would make me look snobbish.
And I really am not..
But I'm really sadden by all your decisions.
I once wrote all of you something..I don't know if you still remember.
But, the period is not yet up, but all of you already finding alternatives.
Why.
Why give up before the replies.
Its not too late to seek alternatives after that.
I guess I'll only say...
Please choose wisely.
I'm saying this as a friend..
Choose wisely...
Please.
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Friday, May 01, 2009
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Is this a slight glimpse of the future?
If so, I guess I've accepted it already.
So be it then.. I wish u well.
If so, I guess I've accepted it already.
So be it then.. I wish u well.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
--
If you're doing all these, to get me flustered.
You've achieved what you wanted.
I've decided.
I'll tell you.
Just a matter of when..
I'll open this blog to you by then...then maybe you'll know.
Thanks alot claudy =))
Really many many thanks hahaha
You've achieved what you wanted.
I've decided.
I'll tell you.
Just a matter of when..
I'll open this blog to you by then...then maybe you'll know.
Thanks alot claudy =))
Really many many thanks hahaha
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
--
I guess I don't need to know then.
I was almost sure...sure of my course of action.
Until you came and screwed up my thoughts again.
You left me questioning, what am I to you really?
Am I even your good friend?
I've accepted that I would not be your best friend.
But am I not even be the few you trust?
I've been trying to open up to you...but you've been closing up.
Disappointed?
To say the least.
If I'm not even your good friend.
Why even bother trying to progress past that.
I keep telling myself, maybe it's the way you write, but that isn't what you want to convey.
But with each blog entry you post, it just got me questioning that possibility more and more.
I've asked.
You said you're fine, when it's apparent you're not.
Now you said, those that need to know already knows.
Guess I'm not needed to know then.
Claudy~~
If you're reading this...
Please say ur ok?
Haha.
You could always turn to me if u need someone =)
I was almost sure...sure of my course of action.
Until you came and screwed up my thoughts again.
You left me questioning, what am I to you really?
Am I even your good friend?
I've accepted that I would not be your best friend.
But am I not even be the few you trust?
I've been trying to open up to you...but you've been closing up.
Disappointed?
To say the least.
If I'm not even your good friend.
Why even bother trying to progress past that.
I keep telling myself, maybe it's the way you write, but that isn't what you want to convey.
But with each blog entry you post, it just got me questioning that possibility more and more.
I've asked.
You said you're fine, when it's apparent you're not.
Now you said, those that need to know already knows.
Guess I'm not needed to know then.
Claudy~~
If you're reading this...
Please say ur ok?
Haha.
You could always turn to me if u need someone =)
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Choice
I know that you already have someone in mind.
Should I just let it be then, and forget everything that happened to me.
Your love for him is so deep, until I don't want to try to interfere.
But I know, i'll regret it if I keep it to myself.
But is regret, better than being a substitute?
I don't want to meet u, solely because I don't know how to act around you.
Act like you're my girlfriend?
Or act like you're my best friend?
Add to the fact, that you already know.
Made this an even tougher choice.
A choice that I find myself struggling to make.
Still struggling.
Should I just let it be then, and forget everything that happened to me.
Your love for him is so deep, until I don't want to try to interfere.
But I know, i'll regret it if I keep it to myself.
But is regret, better than being a substitute?
I don't want to meet u, solely because I don't know how to act around you.
Act like you're my girlfriend?
Or act like you're my best friend?
Add to the fact, that you already know.
Made this an even tougher choice.
A choice that I find myself struggling to make.
Still struggling.
Monday, April 20, 2009
How?
Am I that third guy in your life?
I so desperately want to know, but at the same time, so afraid to know.
Afraid that, it isn't me.
Knowing that I'm that third guy, is enough to brighten up my week.
Enough to brighten up my mood.
But, knowing that it isn't me, ie enough to sink me.
Such extreme ends of emotions, all for a simple answer.
But, I still need to say.
You're the most important person to me.
I know I will never be able to make u feel likewise, but I just need you to know.
Though, I really wish to be selfish, and hold you all to myself.
This afternoon, after you smsed me, telling me of your experience...I felt worried.
Worried that you're injured.
Worried that you're hurt.
But. Your next reply, threw me into confusion again.
Your next reply, made me realize that I'm the least important among the 4 of us.
That I'm always the last to know.
Truth is, among the 4 of us.
I'm always the last to know everything.
The feeling sucks, to be honest.
And it hurts too.
Why must I always be the last to know everything?
Am I that insignificant to all of you?
Does it reflect...what a failure of a friend I am?
That, no one ever goes to me for their problems first.
That, I'm just a substitute.
I know, alot people will say, I'm assuming.
But really...I don't know why I'll think this way.
I don't know why I'll extrapolate something so significant, from a minute action.
I don't know how I could feel like I'm a failure, just cause I am always informed last.
Is there logic behind this?
Or am I just too sensitive.
I really don't know.
At first, after you told me, that I'm not sharing much with you,
I tried to change.
I told you everything
Every minute happening.
Hoping that this way, you could maybe trust me a little more.
But to date, that has not happened.
I'm still the last option.
Finding me, only after consulting Leo and Yvonne.
Will this change?
I really hope it will..
Please, make me feel important and needed.
Is that too much to ask?
Haha hi claudy =)
You're the only one with access to my blog now haha
I so desperately want to know, but at the same time, so afraid to know.
Afraid that, it isn't me.
Knowing that I'm that third guy, is enough to brighten up my week.
Enough to brighten up my mood.
But, knowing that it isn't me, ie enough to sink me.
Such extreme ends of emotions, all for a simple answer.
But, I still need to say.
You're the most important person to me.
I know I will never be able to make u feel likewise, but I just need you to know.
Though, I really wish to be selfish, and hold you all to myself.
This afternoon, after you smsed me, telling me of your experience...I felt worried.
Worried that you're injured.
Worried that you're hurt.
But. Your next reply, threw me into confusion again.
Your next reply, made me realize that I'm the least important among the 4 of us.
That I'm always the last to know.
Truth is, among the 4 of us.
I'm always the last to know everything.
The feeling sucks, to be honest.
And it hurts too.
Why must I always be the last to know everything?
Am I that insignificant to all of you?
Does it reflect...what a failure of a friend I am?
That, no one ever goes to me for their problems first.
That, I'm just a substitute.
I know, alot people will say, I'm assuming.
But really...I don't know why I'll think this way.
I don't know why I'll extrapolate something so significant, from a minute action.
I don't know how I could feel like I'm a failure, just cause I am always informed last.
Is there logic behind this?
Or am I just too sensitive.
I really don't know.
At first, after you told me, that I'm not sharing much with you,
I tried to change.
I told you everything
Every minute happening.
Hoping that this way, you could maybe trust me a little more.
But to date, that has not happened.
I'm still the last option.
Finding me, only after consulting Leo and Yvonne.
Will this change?
I really hope it will..
Please, make me feel important and needed.
Is that too much to ask?
Haha hi claudy =)
You're the only one with access to my blog now haha
Sunday, April 19, 2009
It's so hard...
It's so hard, trying to act normal around you.
Replying your smses, like there's nothing wrong at all.
Every message to you, left me with pangs of sadness.
Sadness, that you're oblivious to things around you.
Each message I send, also comes mix with anger.
Anger, that threatens to overwhelm me.
But at the same time, I am so afraid that my anger will send out lashing words at you.
Words that would hurt you.
The promise I made to you, I will not break.
I once said, I will not make you upset again.
I will make do my promise, however hard it is...
Replying your smses, like there's nothing wrong at all.
Every message to you, left me with pangs of sadness.
Sadness, that you're oblivious to things around you.
Each message I send, also comes mix with anger.
Anger, that threatens to overwhelm me.
But at the same time, I am so afraid that my anger will send out lashing words at you.
Words that would hurt you.
The promise I made to you, I will not break.
I once said, I will not make you upset again.
I will make do my promise, however hard it is...
Letting go..
Letting go does not always mean letting them leave you.
Letting go can also mean being with them, caring for them, but not allowing them to drain you, hurt you or not give you the ability to live your own life.
Is it time to let go?
I am really very emotionally drained already..and it's affecting my life.
How many days do I wake up, feeling upset, questioning why.
I know before letting do, I'll have to tell you how I feel.
But if we don't work out, I think I won't be able to stay with you any longer.
I don't think I can bear watching you fall in love with someone else, watching you get married, watching you having kids with someone else.
I'm truly sorry.
But I don't think I can go through that.
Just watching you mumble sweet nothings to another guy, is already making me very upset.
I don't want to know how it feels like to see you fall in love with someone else.
I really hope it won't turn out this way.
But if it does, then I'm truly sorry.
Please know that, I don't way it to end this way either.
But I think it's the best for the both of us, at least, it's the best for me.
Letting you go, has never been more difficult.
Letting go can also mean being with them, caring for them, but not allowing them to drain you, hurt you or not give you the ability to live your own life.
Is it time to let go?
I am really very emotionally drained already..and it's affecting my life.
How many days do I wake up, feeling upset, questioning why.
I know before letting do, I'll have to tell you how I feel.
But if we don't work out, I think I won't be able to stay with you any longer.
I don't think I can bear watching you fall in love with someone else, watching you get married, watching you having kids with someone else.
I'm truly sorry.
But I don't think I can go through that.
Just watching you mumble sweet nothings to another guy, is already making me very upset.
I don't want to know how it feels like to see you fall in love with someone else.
I really hope it won't turn out this way.
But if it does, then I'm truly sorry.
Please know that, I don't way it to end this way either.
But I think it's the best for the both of us, at least, it's the best for me.
Letting you go, has never been more difficult.
Why
Why do you give your heart away so easily.
Am I all that transparent?
I try to act indifferent.
But each time after I visited your blog, I end up with jealousy.
Can't you see that there's someone standing by you all these while, hoping you could accept him?
He may act indifferent.
But truth is, he was always concerned for you.
Worrying for you, hoping that you're fine.
Could you not just give him your heart, as easily as you gave it to others?
Why?
Love is unexplainable.
I didn't know why I even fallen in love with you.
I don't know when it started, or how it started.
But fact is, I've fallen in love with you.
And the feeling, for standing by the sidelines, seeing you bask in the love of a person that isn't me.
Just sucks.
On one hand, I want to stay by your side, to see you smile, see you be happy.
But doing so, will cause me heartache, sadness, sorrow.
Many people say, if you love someone, you would want them to be happy.
Yes I desperately want you to be happy.
But, for once, why can't I be happy too.
Why can't we get together?
What should I do now,
I so desperately want to ask you WHY.
WHY do this to me.
Just want to confess my love for you.
Just want to be irrational.
But, I don't know how.
I really don't know.
Falling in love with a best friend...
it's the first time happening to me.
I don't know to approach you, don't know what to say.
Now that I've made my blog private, I finally have the courage to pen down my true thoughts.
You've always wondered, why I don't share my problems with you.
Well, fact is, YOU are the cause of my problems.
All these blogposts here, they are meant for YOU.
No one else but you.
See you in your joy, breaks my heart.
Not because I'm jealous of your happiness, but rather, jealous of the guy who got your heart.
Am I all that transparent?
I try to act indifferent.
But each time after I visited your blog, I end up with jealousy.
Can't you see that there's someone standing by you all these while, hoping you could accept him?
He may act indifferent.
But truth is, he was always concerned for you.
Worrying for you, hoping that you're fine.
Could you not just give him your heart, as easily as you gave it to others?
Why?
Love is unexplainable.
I didn't know why I even fallen in love with you.
I don't know when it started, or how it started.
But fact is, I've fallen in love with you.
And the feeling, for standing by the sidelines, seeing you bask in the love of a person that isn't me.
Just sucks.
On one hand, I want to stay by your side, to see you smile, see you be happy.
But doing so, will cause me heartache, sadness, sorrow.
Many people say, if you love someone, you would want them to be happy.
Yes I desperately want you to be happy.
But, for once, why can't I be happy too.
Why can't we get together?
What should I do now,
I so desperately want to ask you WHY.
WHY do this to me.
Just want to confess my love for you.
Just want to be irrational.
But, I don't know how.
I really don't know.
Falling in love with a best friend...
it's the first time happening to me.
I don't know to approach you, don't know what to say.
Now that I've made my blog private, I finally have the courage to pen down my true thoughts.
You've always wondered, why I don't share my problems with you.
Well, fact is, YOU are the cause of my problems.
All these blogposts here, they are meant for YOU.
No one else but you.
See you in your joy, breaks my heart.
Not because I'm jealous of your happiness, but rather, jealous of the guy who got your heart.
Chinese Grand Prix
Boring race...
Race started under SC.
Red Bull 1,2 finish.
Brawn 3,4
Mclaren 5,6.
Alonso strategy fizzled, ended up in the back.
Massa car failed.
Sutil crashed badly.
Piquet crashed badly.
Ferrari went home with no points again.
Overall, boring.
Race started under SC.
Red Bull 1,2 finish.
Brawn 3,4
Mclaren 5,6.
Alonso strategy fizzled, ended up in the back.
Massa car failed.
Sutil crashed badly.
Piquet crashed badly.
Ferrari went home with no points again.
Overall, boring.
Too much trouble..
Blogs are causing too much trouble...making private..
Edit: Decided against it, at least for now.
Edit: Decided against it, at least for now.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
How do you rank friends?
Been pondering about these for awhile now, and decided to pen down my thoughts...
Actually, I started out with, how do you rank people.
But I finally decided to narrow it down to friends, since people include strangers.
And how are you going to rank a stranger.
Well first up,
Don't give me the bullcrap that there is no such thing as ranking of friends.
Truth is, it's a human instinct to rank. Because ranking things, allows us to compete.
I think, subconsciously, we already rank our friends.
Next time you're planning an outing with your group of friends.
Take note of the order you message your friends.
It is highly likely, that the friend you message first, is more important to you.
That being said.
ranking of friends is not about the individual.
I may regard Friend A as a best friend.
But Friend A may regard someone else as a best friend.
What this results in, is a disparity in the cost/benefit scale, where I place more effort into this friendship, than Friend A does.
What this relates to, is that I will start feeling that I'm not getting as much benefit than I should be getting, based on the efforts I placed into the friendship.
Leading me to feel emotions like, loneliness, unappreciated, etc etc.
Now, don't start the talk about not expecting anything in return for your friendship.
That's a totally different argument, and shall not be thrown into the pool for consideration in this issue.
So what will eventually happen, is the friendship will either break, or the friendship will strengthen.
Yes, it's a make or break thing.
Still have alot more missing questions in the equation, still figuring out what's an logical explanation for it...so that's all for now.
Here's the reason why I chose Psychology.
Fascinating Stuff.
Actually, I started out with, how do you rank people.
But I finally decided to narrow it down to friends, since people include strangers.
And how are you going to rank a stranger.
Well first up,
Don't give me the bullcrap that there is no such thing as ranking of friends.
Truth is, it's a human instinct to rank. Because ranking things, allows us to compete.
I think, subconsciously, we already rank our friends.
Next time you're planning an outing with your group of friends.
Take note of the order you message your friends.
It is highly likely, that the friend you message first, is more important to you.
That being said.
ranking of friends is not about the individual.
I may regard Friend A as a best friend.
But Friend A may regard someone else as a best friend.
What this results in, is a disparity in the cost/benefit scale, where I place more effort into this friendship, than Friend A does.
What this relates to, is that I will start feeling that I'm not getting as much benefit than I should be getting, based on the efforts I placed into the friendship.
Leading me to feel emotions like, loneliness, unappreciated, etc etc.
Now, don't start the talk about not expecting anything in return for your friendship.
That's a totally different argument, and shall not be thrown into the pool for consideration in this issue.
So what will eventually happen, is the friendship will either break, or the friendship will strengthen.
Yes, it's a make or break thing.
Still have alot more missing questions in the equation, still figuring out what's an logical explanation for it...so that's all for now.
Here's the reason why I chose Psychology.
Fascinating Stuff.
Advice.
It's ok it you wish to keep to yourself...but don't try to placate me some lame reason for your actions.
Not working.
Not working.
Quiz
The Under Appreciated Best Friend.
You try to keep everyone happy, and sometimes at your expense. You foot the bill when you're all out to celebrate, just so everyone can have a good time and not worry about money. You'd do anything for your friends, even though they forget to thank you or don't show you the appreciation you deserve. Although it's nice that you're being everyone's rainbow, think about yourself, too. No one will think you're a bad friend if you say no to some of their requests..
Friday, April 17, 2009
--
Talking to you...gave me comfort.
Knowing you're whereabouts...gave me assurance.
Knowing you're safe...gave me a peace of mind.
Knowing you're whereabouts...gave me assurance.
Knowing you're safe...gave me a peace of mind.
Impossible
Why are you still holding onto the impossible?
You yourself know it's impossible.
But still, you hold on to that hope.
Open your eyes.
There's many others out there.
Including one that has never left you.
You yourself know it's impossible.
But still, you hold on to that hope.
Open your eyes.
There's many others out there.
Including one that has never left you.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
--
If someone you met 3 months ago, could have a greater place in your heart than me, I guess that just shows what a failure I've been.
It also shows the choice you made.
You've given me greatest joy, joy that kept me going everyday.
But you've also given me crushing unhappiness, that kept me in heartache everyday.
Each time, it just grows.
It never stops growing.
Eventually it will overwhelm me. Someday.
While the joy you bestowed upon me kept me returning for more,
the sadness you gave also crippled me each time I leave.
Therefore, nonchalance is the way I chose.
Perhaps, its the only way we can still be together, when there's no expectation for you.
It's hard. But no one ever said that it was easy.
I'll share your joy, I'll share your disappointment.
But I'll not expect everything from you.
If you choose not to share, then I'll not probe.
Nonchalance.
It will be heartwrenching, but at least it's only me.
I shall not hurt you anymore.
Never will. Never want.
I don't know if things will ever improve, or even go into what I expected it to be..
But..until then, I really don't know what to do except this.
You kept blowing hot and cold at me, making me utterly confused at times.
Giving me the most intense, but complicated set of feelings ever.
The times I spent lying on bed, just trying to filter out these feelings one by one..
until I get too tired and fall asleep..only to wake up in the morning, to find that nothing's changed.
Your words to me, are always so different from the words on your blog.
Which is the real you?
Will the real you please step out?
It also shows the choice you made.
You've given me greatest joy, joy that kept me going everyday.
But you've also given me crushing unhappiness, that kept me in heartache everyday.
Each time, it just grows.
It never stops growing.
Eventually it will overwhelm me. Someday.
While the joy you bestowed upon me kept me returning for more,
the sadness you gave also crippled me each time I leave.
Therefore, nonchalance is the way I chose.
Perhaps, its the only way we can still be together, when there's no expectation for you.
It's hard. But no one ever said that it was easy.
I'll share your joy, I'll share your disappointment.
But I'll not expect everything from you.
If you choose not to share, then I'll not probe.
Nonchalance.
It will be heartwrenching, but at least it's only me.
I shall not hurt you anymore.
Never will. Never want.
I don't know if things will ever improve, or even go into what I expected it to be..
But..until then, I really don't know what to do except this.
You kept blowing hot and cold at me, making me utterly confused at times.
Giving me the most intense, but complicated set of feelings ever.
The times I spent lying on bed, just trying to filter out these feelings one by one..
until I get too tired and fall asleep..only to wake up in the morning, to find that nothing's changed.
Your words to me, are always so different from the words on your blog.
Which is the real you?
Will the real you please step out?
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
My Sister's Keeper - Jodie Picoult
First Jodie Picoult's book I've read.
Fantastic writer Jodie Picoult...
Most of her books all hover around the values of forgiveness and acceptance.
Her books are deep, thought provoking, feelings intense.
Alrite, back to the book.
Fantastic book..give a brief summary.
The book revolves round the Fitzergerald(SP?) family.
Basically Kate contracted this illness called APL, a rare form of leukemia.
So her parents, Sarah and Brian, therefore decided to create a younger sister for her, one that is a perfect donor for Kate.
As the years go by, Kate's condition went through many phases, and Kates needs more than blood from Annie now.
Eventually, Annie decided to sue her parents for the rights over her own body.
Haha but there are much much more in the story..
Overall, great read.
Throughly immersed myself in this book..highly recommended read.
Kinda sad tt it took me 3 weeks to finish it, coz I only read this book when I'm free in office...
Haha but I really disliked the ending though..its just...too suddenly, and too tragic.
Its really a twist of fate....big damn irony.
The thing she's fighting to free herself from, in the end came full circle.
Been reading alot of books ever since I entered NS...haha
At least books won't find you irritating or boring..neither will they make u feel like crap.
They just sit there, waiting for you to pick them up.
Waiting to pull u into their world =)
You know...sometimes I wish to be selfish....just for once...
Can I?
You made me so confused.
Fantastic writer Jodie Picoult...
Most of her books all hover around the values of forgiveness and acceptance.
Her books are deep, thought provoking, feelings intense.
Alrite, back to the book.
Fantastic book..give a brief summary.
The book revolves round the Fitzergerald(SP?) family.
Basically Kate contracted this illness called APL, a rare form of leukemia.
So her parents, Sarah and Brian, therefore decided to create a younger sister for her, one that is a perfect donor for Kate.
As the years go by, Kate's condition went through many phases, and Kates needs more than blood from Annie now.
Eventually, Annie decided to sue her parents for the rights over her own body.
Haha but there are much much more in the story..
Overall, great read.
Throughly immersed myself in this book..highly recommended read.
Kinda sad tt it took me 3 weeks to finish it, coz I only read this book when I'm free in office...
Haha but I really disliked the ending though..its just...too suddenly, and too tragic.
Its really a twist of fate....big damn irony.
The thing she's fighting to free herself from, in the end came full circle.
Been reading alot of books ever since I entered NS...haha
At least books won't find you irritating or boring..neither will they make u feel like crap.
They just sit there, waiting for you to pick them up.
Waiting to pull u into their world =)
You know...sometimes I wish to be selfish....just for once...
Can I?
You made me so confused.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
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The Hermit
The Hermit represents the need to distance yourself from the people and events in your life that are causing undue strain on your emotions. There are times in your life when seclusion and isolation are warranted. The Hermit is a card of discovery and enlightenment, which can only develop by spending time alone with your thoughts. Your energy will be depleted quickly in social situations.
Libra
If your work involves the media, publication or large volumes of paperwork, you are going to find this to be a confusing and frustrating day. Take extra time getting to work and don't push yourself too hard. Commuting could be frustrating today.
I've been alone with my thoughts for awhile already...why ain't I enlightened yet..
The Hermit represents the need to distance yourself from the people and events in your life that are causing undue strain on your emotions. There are times in your life when seclusion and isolation are warranted. The Hermit is a card of discovery and enlightenment, which can only develop by spending time alone with your thoughts. Your energy will be depleted quickly in social situations.
Libra
If your work involves the media, publication or large volumes of paperwork, you are going to find this to be a confusing and frustrating day. Take extra time getting to work and don't push yourself too hard. Commuting could be frustrating today.
I've been alone with my thoughts for awhile already...why ain't I enlightened yet..
Saturday, April 04, 2009
=((
When you get too caught up in things, you sometimes forget what you initially sought for.
Did I forget what I initially sought for?
I think I did...
Just too many things...clouded my thoughts for days...until now, it still lingers in my mind..unresolved.
Do you even know the unhappiness you placed me through...
I know it's unintentional.
I know it may look insignificant.
I know it may even sound stupid.
But still you don't know how much it hurts.
And how much it is still hurting.
I forgotten your face,your smile, your voice..and most importantly, I forgotten how much I liked you. -Anonymous
Did I forget what I initially sought for?
I think I did...
Just too many things...clouded my thoughts for days...until now, it still lingers in my mind..unresolved.
Do you even know the unhappiness you placed me through...
I know it's unintentional.
I know it may look insignificant.
I know it may even sound stupid.
But still you don't know how much it hurts.
And how much it is still hurting.
I forgotten your face,your smile, your voice..and most importantly, I forgotten how much I liked you. -Anonymous
Friday, April 03, 2009
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Wake up
Good days never last.
Just need to rant something..bear with me..aiya if you're still reading the blog..u should know that this blog is for ranting mostly..
Some people just have to fucking wake up.
Show some initiatives. fucking hell.
It was out of goodwill that I offered my help.
So why can't you just take some initiative and give me what you need help with.
Must I fucking ask you for it?
Fuck.
It will not be my problem if you can't get it done.
Why am i more concerned about it than you?
Afterall, its your fucking problem if you can't get it done on time. not me.
Just need to rant something..bear with me..aiya if you're still reading the blog..u should know that this blog is for ranting mostly..
Some people just have to fucking wake up.
Show some initiatives. fucking hell.
It was out of goodwill that I offered my help.
So why can't you just take some initiative and give me what you need help with.
Must I fucking ask you for it?
Fuck.
It will not be my problem if you can't get it done.
Why am i more concerned about it than you?
Afterall, its your fucking problem if you can't get it done on time. not me.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Updates!!
Trulli got penalized for overtaking when SC is out...delegating him down to 12th.
Hamilton moved up to 3rd, with a podium.<-- ROFL.
Podium with that car..just hilarious..
Vettel got slapped with a 10 grid penalty and 50k fine.
Hahahaha. PWNT
Hamilton moved up to 3rd, with a podium.<-- ROFL.
Podium with that car..just hilarious..
Vettel got slapped with a 10 grid penalty and 50k fine.
Hahahaha. PWNT
Shocker!
Hahah Brawn 1/2 expected...
Hamilton rose to 4 though..shocker haha
Poor start to Ferrari..0 points off this race..
Very interesting race if I must say...tons of confrontations..
KERS looks so cool la omg..wonder if commercial cars would have KERS too =P
Messy start though..big crash, knocking Heikki out..
Subsequently Nakajima ran into the wall..lol
Piquet then wiped out and ate gravel...retired too..
Then...I don't know what happen to Massa..seems he locked up very badly..not sure though..missed that part.
But Kimi ran into the wall...
Haha bye bye ferrari.
Then the best accident! Vettel and Kubica both got wiped out during over-taking..
Kubica looks to suffer the least...until he ran into the wall..lol
Vettel got this left wheel knocked off...but somehow still manage to drive his car with 3 wheels. Damn hilarious...lolx
Hamilton rose to 4 though..shocker haha
Poor start to Ferrari..0 points off this race..
Very interesting race if I must say...tons of confrontations..
KERS looks so cool la omg..wonder if commercial cars would have KERS too =P
Messy start though..big crash, knocking Heikki out..
Subsequently Nakajima ran into the wall..lol
Piquet then wiped out and ate gravel...retired too..
Then...I don't know what happen to Massa..seems he locked up very badly..not sure though..missed that part.
But Kimi ran into the wall...
Haha bye bye ferrari.
Then the best accident! Vettel and Kubica both got wiped out during over-taking..
Kubica looks to suffer the least...until he ran into the wall..lol
Vettel got this left wheel knocked off...but somehow still manage to drive his car with 3 wheels. Damn hilarious...lolx
Australia GP 2009
| Pos | No | Driver | Team | Laps | Time/Retired | Grid | Pts |
| 1 | 22 | Jenson Button | Brawn-Mercedes | 58 | Winner | 1 | 10 |
| 2 | 23 | Rubens Barrichello | Brawn-Mercedes | 58 | +0.8 secs | 2 | 8 |
| 3 | 9 | Jarno Trulli | Toyota | 58 | +1.6 secs | 20 | 6 |
| 4 | 1 | Lewis Hamilton | McLaren-Mercedes | 58 | +2.9 secs | 18 | 5 |
| 5 | 10 | Timo Glock | Toyota | 58 | +4.4 secs | 19 | 4 |
| 6 | 7 | Fernando Alonso | Renault | 58 | +4.8 secs | 10 | 3 |
| 7 | 16 | Nico Rosberg | Williams-Toyota | 58 | +5.7 secs | 5 | 2 |
| 8 | 12 | Sebastien Buemi | STR-Ferrari | 58 | +6.0 secs | 13 | 1 |
| 9 | 11 | Sebastien Bourdais | STR-Ferrari | 58 | +6.2 secs | 17 | |
| 10 | 20 | Adrian Sutil | Force India-Mercedes | 58 | +6.3 secs | 16 | |
| 11 | 6 | Nick Heidfeld | BMW Sauber | 58 | +7.0 secs | 9 | |
| 12 | 21 | Giancarlo Fisichella | Force India-Mercedes | 58 | +7.3 secs | 15 | |
| 13 | 14 | Mark Webber | RBR-Renault | 57 | +1 Lap | 8 | |
| 14 | 15 | Sebastian Vettel | RBR-Renault | 56 | +2 Laps | 3 | |
| 15 | 5 | Robert Kubica | BMW Sauber | 55 | +3 Laps | 4 | |
| 16 | 4 | Kimi Räikkönen | Ferrari | 55 | +3 Laps | 7 | |
| Ret | 3 | Felipe Massa | Ferrari | 45 | +13 Laps | 6 | |
| Ret | 8 | Nelsinho Piquet | Renault | 24 | +34 Laps | 14 | |
| Ret | 17 | Kazuki Nakajima | Williams-Toyota | 17 | +41 Laps | 11 | |
| Ret | 2 | Heikki Kovalainen | McLaren-Mercedes | 0 | +58 Laps | 12 |
Friday, March 27, 2009
2009 F1 SEASON
Right..new season starting..
Blog can become more active already..
Practice 1/2 today..
McLaren looks to be in deep trouble..not raking enough speed...
Brawn looks on a roll though...guess thats something Honda didnt expect after they sold the team...
Practice and Qualifying tomorrow!
Practice 1 starting at 1100 hours GMT 8+
Qualifying at 1400 GMT 8+
Blog can become more active already..
Practice 1/2 today..
McLaren looks to be in deep trouble..not raking enough speed...
Brawn looks on a roll though...guess thats something Honda didnt expect after they sold the team...
Practice and Qualifying tomorrow!
Practice 1 starting at 1100 hours GMT 8+
Qualifying at 1400 GMT 8+
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Quizzes
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.You value your friendships: 55%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.Here is the analysis:
You are keen to know other's matters. Besides, you choose the front seat, it means you are energetic and always lead the team. You will always tell your team where to go and you will be dissatisfied if you do not get to lead the team. That's why others leave this job to you.Here is the analysis:
You value your friends and people around you. While you help others, you also work your way to the goal. Just don�t let them distract your direction.Here is the analysis:
You are a quick thinker, efficient, and always in a rush. If you expect everyone to be like you, this only causes frustration and stress. You don't want to waste your time, but can be careless and pessimistic.Here is the analysis:
- Your ideal mate has a sense of humor and is lively.
- About your wish, you always want to be with your friends.
- Success depends on someone's faith in their ability. That's your attitudes towards success.
- You are a person of principle. You respect social rules and regulations.
- You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.
The first qualification that you want from your partner is:
Money: your partner has to be well-to-do.Here is the analysis:
You are always willful and most of the time you are a stubborn person. However, you love to work with others and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.Here is the analysis:
It would be very difficult for you to fall in love with someone. But when you love, honesty is your first priority. You are an emotional person.The decisions you have made indicates your criteria in choosing your soulmate.
More important matters come first on the list below:
- Education
- Money
- Love
- Appearance
Here is the analysis:
You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.People often attribute unexpected events to good luck or bad luck. When something goes well, it's because of good luck. When things turn sour, it's plain bad luck. Your answer reveals what kind of luck (what's inside the box) you think will befall you in an unexpected circumstance (the box on the road).
Here is the analysis:
You tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.By stating what kind of gift you would give to a good friend, you are actually revealing how you relate to others. However, it doesn't really matter what you give someone - it's the thought that counts. If you care enough to give something, your friend will get the message. The dual acts of giving and receiving are, together, one of the finest pleasures and one of the best forms of communication that friends share.
Here is the analysis:
Your emotional controlled rate: 53%
You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face. Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.
Here is the analysis:
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.Here is the analysis:
You want to put in a minimum amount of effort in life generally.When you are at the zoo, you are surrounded by caged creatures that you can't talk with, and which can't communicate with you. This fact subconsciously governs the way you act. It is very similar to how you act in human society as well. In other words, your actions reveal the hidden side of your personality.
Here is the analysis: You want your partner to be more open with you.
Here is the analysis:
- A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is those who are unbridled and free
- In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being straightforward, and having your partner speak directly.
- The impression you'd like to give to your lover is loyal and faithful.
- One reason that would make you break up with your partner is his or her being emotional. If they're moody, you won't know how to please them.
- The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is one where you can talk about everything and anything. No secrets are kept.
- Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn't do anything wrong after marriage.
- About marriage, you think marriage is a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure your partner very much.
- About love, at this moment, you don't want to be tied by a steady relationship. You just want to flirt.
More important matters come first on the list below:
- Pride
- Family
- Career
- Love
- Money
Here is the analysis:
- You are easy to understand.
- How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: SUMMIT.
- You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is medium.
- Wood means peaceful personality.
- You are also down-to-earth.
- You are an opportunist.
- Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.
Here is the analysis:
You are an outgoing and cheerful person. Although you get frustrated sometimes, you get through hard times easily and are joyful again.Your friendly personality makes you attractive in the eyes of the opposite sex, but this makes your spouse feel insecure. Your lack of emotion is a disadvantage, but your candor has made you popular.
Friends of your gender find it hard to understand you because of your innocent thinking. But this is your advantage as it attracts members of the opposite sex who have the same personality as you.
Here is the analysis:
You are active, a challenger, optimistic, hard-working. You are always working towards a set goal.
=)
Hi Mr Sim Jing Han
This is to confirm that you have been shortlisted to attend the School of Social Sciences Admission Interview.
Following are the details of the interview.
Interview details
Date of interview: Wednesday 25 Mar 2009
Time of interview: 2.15pm
Time to report for interview: 1.45pm
30 minutes before the time of interview
Reporting venue: School of Social Sciences
Level 1, Security Counter
(the school is located near Cathay Cinema, & beside Hotel Rendezvous)
Documents required for verification: NRIC if you are a Singaporean Citizen or Permanent Resident, and passport if you are a foreign student
2. ALL ORIGINAL copies of:
a. academic certificates and result slips (including ‘O’ level results), and
b. any other supporting documents
Please also bring along photocopies if you have not submitted your supporting documents to SMU Office of Undergraduate Admissions
Regards
SMU Office of Undergraduate Admissions
=)
Friday, March 20, 2009
SMU
Yea..SMU called today =)
Social Science haha...
Nothing much to blog..no one bothers to know whats going on anyway.
Social Science haha...
Nothing much to blog..no one bothers to know whats going on anyway.
Monday, March 16, 2009
University Choices.
Done.
Sent out all the mails today too...
NTU
Psychology
Sociology
Mathematical Science
Mechanical Engineering
Electrical and Electronic Engineering
SMU
Bachelor of Social Science
Bachelor of Business Management
Bachelor of Science(Economics)
Bachelor of Science(Information System)
NUS
Arts and Social Science
Business Administration
Science
Engineering
Mechanical Engineering
Electrical Engineering
Computer Engineering
Computing
Sent out all the mails today too...
NTU
Psychology
Sociology
Mathematical Science
Mechanical Engineering
Electrical and Electronic Engineering
SMU
Bachelor of Social Science
Bachelor of Business Management
Bachelor of Science(Economics)
Bachelor of Science(Information System)
NUS
Arts and Social Science
Business Administration
Science
Engineering
Mechanical Engineering
Electrical Engineering
Computer Engineering
Computing
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Decided
Alrite..completed all my university admissions documents already...
Finally.
Just need to send out the mails tomorrow..
Finally.
Just need to send out the mails tomorrow..
Saturday, March 14, 2009
The End?
Maybe its time...every story has an ending.
Sadly, not all have happy endings.
Is it time?
I don't know too.
Sadly, not all have happy endings.
Is it time?
I don't know too.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Logic
Yea..you seldom make my day.
But thats ok.
I dont expect you to do so either.
But if you can't make my day, the least you can do is not spoil it.
Logical?
I think so too
But thats ok.
I dont expect you to do so either.
But if you can't make my day, the least you can do is not spoil it.
Logical?
I think so too
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Sunday, March 08, 2009
More space...
Right...I've decided on my courses for SMU...
In order of importance,
Social Science
Business
Economics
For NUS, I'm only sure of FASS...
not decided on the rest yet..
For NTU, I will put NIE and FASS,
considering Science also...
Yea..and considering 1 aus universities for law degree..
University of Monash.
In order of importance,
Social Science
Business
Economics
For NUS, I'm only sure of FASS...
not decided on the rest yet..
For NTU, I will put NIE and FASS,
considering Science also...
Yea..and considering 1 aus universities for law degree..
University of Monash.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Need some place to lay it all out..
Yea..I need a place to lay all the options out and think it through..so I'll write it on this blog...
Firstly,
Options of Study:
Re-take A lvls
Local Uni
Overseas Uni
Local Uni:
SMU
Business
Accountancy
Economics
Social Science
Information Systems
Law
NUS
FASS
Engineering
Science
Business
Law
Computing
Dentistry
Medicine
Design and Environment
Music
NTU
FASS
Engineering
Science
Business
NIE
Firstly,
Options of Study:
Re-take A lvls
Local Uni
Local Uni:
SMU
Business
Economics
Social Science
Information Systems
NUS
FASS
Engineering
Science
Design and Environment
NTU
FASS
Engineering
Science
NIE
Friday, March 06, 2009
Disappointed..
Yeas results came out today...
I'll just post it up here...
Maths - A
Computing - C
Physics - C
GP - C
Econs - C
Total including PW : 74 points
Haiz...disappointed.
Especially with GP and Econs...only a C..
Wth man..
Poeple around me are all saying..I've done well, you should be satisfied.
Blah blah blah.
Yea, I know many people would rather be in my shoes.
But face it people.
This result ain't satisfactory.
I've done BETTER than others, but it is still lousy.
Going by the table in the NUS website, my grades cannot provide a place in FASS.
Haiz.
How?
I really did not expect any C's in my result slips..
and now I gotten so many.
Anyway.. Hope you're sleeping well..
Dont make me worried la..
I'll just post it up here...
Maths - A
Computing - C
Physics - C
GP - C
Econs - C
Total including PW : 74 points
Haiz...disappointed.
Especially with GP and Econs...only a C..
Wth man..
Poeple around me are all saying..I've done well, you should be satisfied.
Blah blah blah.
Yea, I know many people would rather be in my shoes.
But face it people.
This result ain't satisfactory.
I've done BETTER than others, but it is still lousy.
Going by the table in the NUS website, my grades cannot provide a place in FASS.
Haiz.
How?
I really did not expect any C's in my result slips..
and now I gotten so many.
Anyway.. Hope you're sleeping well..
Dont make me worried la..
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Random
Been reading this book the past week, I would do that post soon..right after I finished reading it...
But the book put thoughts into my head..
What would I expect of a relationship?
Not just a relationship with my girlfriend, but my relationships with my best friends as well?
I can't define a relationship as one between me and my gf only...caused I know that my best friends will be close to my heart as well.
So yea..it got me thinking.
And I wasn't surprised at the amount of time I took to find an answer.
In a relationship...I'm just expecting..
Trust.
Honesty.
Commitment.
Yup. The 3 values.
None of them takes priority over the other, all 3 are equally important.
I wouldn't forsake 1 for the other either.
I expect all 3.
Is that alot to ask for??
I'm not sure about that, but I do know.
Those are the 3 values I will give whole-heartedly to my gf and my best friends. =)
But the book put thoughts into my head..
What would I expect of a relationship?
Not just a relationship with my girlfriend, but my relationships with my best friends as well?
I can't define a relationship as one between me and my gf only...caused I know that my best friends will be close to my heart as well.
So yea..it got me thinking.
And I wasn't surprised at the amount of time I took to find an answer.
In a relationship...I'm just expecting..
Trust.
Honesty.
Commitment.
Yup. The 3 values.
None of them takes priority over the other, all 3 are equally important.
I wouldn't forsake 1 for the other either.
I expect all 3.
Is that alot to ask for??
I'm not sure about that, but I do know.
Those are the 3 values I will give whole-heartedly to my gf and my best friends. =)
Saturday, February 28, 2009
What is your true fear?
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either! | |
| Being Alone | |
| Disappointment | |
| Where Your life is Going | |
| Looked down on | |
| Commitment | |
| Death | |
| What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
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