Sunday, April 12, 2015
Friday, April 10, 2015
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http://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2015/03/please-delete-my-number/
Please delete my number – because I didn’t want to end up here. Because the word “Maybe” is the slowest form of torture that you possibly could have settled on, dragging out a hope that died long ago despite your stark refusal to bury it. Because maybe doesn’t mean, “This may happen.”
It means, “I am too fearful to go but not strong enough to stay.”
It means, “I’ll miss you but not enough to be with you.”
It means, “I love you but not quite enough to stick around and fight.”
Please delete my number – because I don’t want to delete you. Because I want you with a certainty that you will perhaps never possess. Because I do not have to think twice about whether I would like to answer your text messages or pick up your phone calls. Because I’m sure. Because I do not love people halfway and that’s where you and I differ. I don’t want the occasional phone call. I don’t want to play your tired-out game.
Please delete my number – because I didn’t want to end up here. Because the word “Maybe” is the slowest form of torture that you possibly could have settled on, dragging out a hope that died long ago despite your stark refusal to bury it. Because maybe doesn’t mean, “This may happen.”
It means, “I am too fearful to go but not strong enough to stay.”
It means, “I’ll miss you but not enough to be with you.”
It means, “I love you but not quite enough to stick around and fight.”
Please delete my number – because I don’t want to delete you. Because I want you with a certainty that you will perhaps never possess. Because I do not have to think twice about whether I would like to answer your text messages or pick up your phone calls. Because I’m sure. Because I do not love people halfway and that’s where you and I differ. I don’t want the occasional phone call. I don’t want to play your tired-out game.
Monday, March 16, 2015
Monday, January 19, 2015
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happy birthday babe.
Never had the chance to celebrate your birthday with you.
Last year, I was on the west coast, while you were back here.
1 year later, look where we are..the irony.
Never had the chance to celebrate your birthday with you.
Last year, I was on the west coast, while you were back here.
1 year later, look where we are..the irony.
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Sunday, December 21, 2014
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it's my first experience with grief and loss. If it is already so painful to lose someone in a relationship, I cannot imagine how much harder it will be to experience the grief and loss associated with losing someone to death.
But grief and loss are part of life I guess. Does one really ever recover from any loss though? Sure time makes everything less painful, but do we ever get over the loss? I don't know the answer to that for now. But maybe in time I will.
I know that loss is never easy, but I guess one can never know just how painful the process can be until one really experiences it themselves. But we eventually all survive the process. It gets better with time. So for now, I will trudge on day by day and let time do it's work.
I'm still hopeful that we will end up together someday. I guess after a relationship like that, one cannot help but remain hopeful of that chance. Love you.
But grief and loss are part of life I guess. Does one really ever recover from any loss though? Sure time makes everything less painful, but do we ever get over the loss? I don't know the answer to that for now. But maybe in time I will.
I know that loss is never easy, but I guess one can never know just how painful the process can be until one really experiences it themselves. But we eventually all survive the process. It gets better with time. So for now, I will trudge on day by day and let time do it's work.
I'm still hopeful that we will end up together someday. I guess after a relationship like that, one cannot help but remain hopeful of that chance. Love you.
Monday, December 08, 2014
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