Square root 3

I fear that I will always be

A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,

Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign,

I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,

with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321

Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,

Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,

Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer,

Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds

With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued

Your love for me has been renewed

Friendship

I went to sleep, only to find out that I couldn't do so.
Strangely, this has been the case for the past few nights, no matter how tired I am.
旧的我哑口无言, 新的对我忽冷忽热.
The moment my head hits the pillow,
I'm bugged with this train of thoughts which seemed to be never ending.
还是很在乎你, 但已经不知要如何表示了.
The fear, of losing the friends around me, can be so damn overpowering sometimes.
It's insane, it's crazy, but it's tormenting me inside.
Yet, who can I confide in?
我会学着慢慢把你给忘记, 但我会永远记得你."
不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有".

This quote alone, set me into thinking for a very long time. Though I refuse to believe in it initially, I've come to realise the meaning of it.
I'm always there when they needed me.
I've been asking myself, "How do I maintain a friendship?" "What is the right amount effort to put in?" "Will I be overdoing it?" "What if I scare them off?" "But what if I appear like I didn't care?" "Now how do I show that I really care?" These are of course blank questions without any answers.
For them, I always try my best and give my all.
Perhaps, friendships don't even have to last. It's good enough as long as you 曾经拥有. Only memories are made to last.Only memories can be 天长地久.

But no one is here when I need them.I hate to admit, but people really DO come and go. They enter your lives, and before you know it, they're gone. Sometimes, no matter the amount of effort you put in, once it ends, it ends. Sometimes, things are just so beyond our reach. I guess all these are parts and parcels of life, which I hate to learn, but i still have to learn.
心事, 又谁能了?
There's still so many things bottling up in me.
Even if it really ends, why does it have to be so fast?
-IaN Ignatius Lim

Thoughts

作弄人 不吸引 神你对我太不紧 要他懂得去认真 为何我会变心
这贱人 最低等 从没试过要认真
请不给我太拘禁
其实我没有为他人变心
喜欢你 却没能放低你
舍不弃 可否给我再识你
但我与你不得一起
别在为我 生气
喜欢你 却没能放低你
还是你 我也始终总不适合你
不可一起 我与你已不在一起.

Reflections - Truth of life

You must be completely awake in the present to enjoy the tea.

Only in the awareness of the present can your hands feel the warmth of the cup.

Only in the present can you savor the aroma, taste the sweetness, appreciate the delicacy.

If you are ruminating about the past or worrying about the future, you will completely

Miss the experience of enjoying the cup of tea.

You will look down at the cup, and the tea will be gone.

Life is like that.

If you are not fully in the present, you will look around and it will be gone.

You will have missed the feel, the aroma, the delicacy and beauty of life.

It will seem to be speeding past you.

The past is finished.

Learn from it and let it go.

The future is not even here yet.

Plan for it, but do not waste your time worrying about it.

Worrying is worthless.

When you stop ruminating about what has already happened,

When you stop worrying about what might never happen,

Then you will be in the present moment.

Then you will begin to experience joy in life.

It wasn't something that I have not read before. But reading it again from this perspective gave me insight.I reflect too much, and in this process, i could have been

Stuck too long in the quagmire of the past.

Perhaps it is time to fully focus on the happy present.

Make the best of it, and cherish it.

Jus a Quote

"Forgiveness is the answer to the child's dream of a miracle by which what is broken is made whole again, what is soiled is made clean again."
-by Dag Hammarskjold

Postlude Memory lane- The Final Chapter

2,123 miles
3,417 kilometers
3,417,000 meters

41days
984hours
59040mins
3542400seconds

The distant we flew.
The time we spent.

17+1 = 1
We're united as one.

This is indeed a journey at the beginning where some of us were strangers, existance unknown to each other. Starting out on a journey together to Wuhan. Never in our dreams what we have to go through. But then, we were standing at the beginning of the journey with one another.

No one was told who we were individually. But still, we found one another unexpectedly. What you did to my heart when i lost hope, will always be remembered and etched in my heart. You all were there to remind me that this is only the start and life is a road that everyone needs to keep going. Love is a river that flows with no end to it. Now and forever, wonderful journey. We were there for each other when the world stops turning, when the storm is through and we will stand with one another till the end, at the beginning.

We were strangers on a crazy adventure to go out of Singapore to China, Hubei, Wuhan. Never dreaming how our dreams would come true, each and every of our individual dreams. Now here we stand unafraid of the future for we are at the beginning with each other.

We knew there was somebody somewhere that made love in the dark. The time we spent together, be in day or night. We made love, genuine love, care and concern for one another. Nothing is gonna tear us apart. Since the beginninig when we stand together as one.

This is indeed a crazy world where lonely times is felt. It is also hard to know who is by whoes side most of the time. Asking who you can really trust and who you really know. Is there really no one out there who will make one feel less lonely? Sometimes you just cannot make it on your own.

If you need a place where you can run, If you need a shoulder to cry on, I'll always be your friend. I promise. When you need shelter from the rain and needed a healer for your pain. I will be there time and time again and when you feel unloved, i will love you for here i am.

If you have broken dreams, just lay them all on me. I will be the one who understands and so take my hand with confidence and trust. If there is emptiness, you know i will do my best to fill you up with love, laughter, happiness and i promise you will never in your life walk alone anymore.

Everyone needs somebody. Heart and soul in two.

I'll always be your friend. One you can rely on and trust fully. This is my promise.
Here i am, Here i am.

Can you too do the same?

You guys walked with me, through times in Wuhan, happiness, sadness and in the verge of giving up. Forging footprints in the sand and helped me understand where i'm going.

You all walked with me when i was all alone. With so much unknown along the way. I appreciated it.

Just when i thought i have lost my way, you gave me strength to carry on. That is what i heard you say. I will also promise you that I'll always be there when one heart is filled with sorrow or despair. I'll carry you when you need a friend for that is how you once carried me. You will ocne again find footprints of us all, in the sand where we once walked together. When I'm weary i know you'll be there cause i can feel you. The time we spent together in Wudang mountain, on the long bus ride through china, the 3gorges trip, every little little things that we did. Trust that we will carry each other when we needed a friend where heart is filled with sadness and despair. You will be able to find footprints in the sand. Everywhere you go.

I will remember each and everyone. But will you remember me? Do not let your life pass you by. Weep not for the memories but what stands right ahead of us. Memories are indeed precious but lets not dwell too much in the past but look forward to the future. Let this not be yet another distant friendship but an everlasting one. The end is the start of something new. Remember the good times that we had? Remember only the good and let the bad slip away. Don't let it hinder and ruin wonderful memories of the trip where we are one as a whole. It is funny how we feel so much but yet lost for words to say, screaming inside us the sense of ecstatic but we can't be heard.

Light is there where there is darkness. May our friendship last like never before, blooming like fireworks in the sky, lighting up darkness always but never die down, for it remains deeply in our heart and mind.

The end of the journey is a new start to another. All the smiles and joy is left craved in my heart forevermore. The difference you made in me has forged me into a better person.The days that we had. The distant that we went.

-IaN Ignatius Lim

Yong Qi
Yi Sheng
Xin Hui
Velverie
Shan Mei
Mei Yi
Li Ying
Kumaran Jonathan
Jin Quan

Jerald

Jeremy
Jasper

Ian
Hardy

Felicia
Alan
Mr. Chong

Last Day in Wuhan

It is already the last day in Wuhan. Well time sure flies very quickly. Everything here seems that it takes place just yesterday and we could hardly believed that we spent 1 month and a half here in Wuhan. Today, early in the morning, we went to back alley for the very last time carrying the hope of buying herbal jelly, burger, take a last visit to the cake shop auntie which is very nice and gave us 2loaf of bread and a box of cookie for our return journey and lastly my favourite Red tea which i drink almost everyday. All these is what we yearn for on the last day but we only manage to get the tea as the rest were not open for business yet. Such a disappointment that we did not manage to eat those food that filled our stomach in times that we're hungry. Filled with utter disappointment, we're left with memories of back alley, all the time we had there and all the shop tender that we knew from 1st day when we're here. Those small talks that we had together. So time was already closing by and we need to get our luggage ready and loaded into the bus. But before that, we carried our luggage down and have it weight. Good news! mine was only 27kg. It did not exceed the weight limit of 30Kg..After all the weighing and stuff, we assembled and took a last group photo together and get our entire luggage loaded into the bus and left for the airport. In the bus, we had 3local student which is Charlotte, yepp and journey as they wanted to send us off. The journey was 1hour but this time, it seems very short. In the bus, we sang, talked and enjoy our last moment here in Wuhan. We arrived at the airport soon after and the atmosphere was alittle bitter and sad. We took photos and stuff, said our blessings and farewells to the local student that we spent a mth half with. Cries were heard and biddings were held back. At this point of time, i was touched by all that the student union has done for us. All the fun and time we spent together. Their voice, their laughter and their presence.. Saying goodbye was a hard word on that day. During this 1month and a half, we shared happiness, joy together and in this short time, the bond, friendship that we made is so strong that leaving seems so hard and unbearable. But Every good things will come to an end. Nothing in this world is forever. Goodbye will always be the last words in our mouth but they always live in our heart forevermore. The memories that they left in me is always etched deeply in my mind, unable to be erased by time. This is the bond that we shared. Goodbyes and goodbyes that we said, we parted with them. There is a song that goes "sorry seems to be the hardest word" but now to us, "goodbye seems to be the hardest word" For all that we missed, we left behind only good memories and took back with us experience and friendships which is priceless. Would like to thank the students that took care of us during our stay there as they played host and they did a seriously good job. Would also want to thank Mr. Chong for all that he has done for us. A big thank you to everyone.

Heres the dorm that is kept in suspension =)

Room 221

Dorm's toilet

My Bed

My Dorm

Back alleyThe "6"

Me and Guy

Charlotte,me,Yepp
Journey, me
Group photos
Me,Charlotte

Kumaran, me
Me, Yepp

Me, Alan

Jonathan, Jerry, Me, Alan