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Saturday, August 28, 2010
The feeling of being despondent in life.
The constant fear where you feel really hopeless in life , in my case , GP. Got back a lot of my essays with a constant range of marks, 18-21. Somehow, the final essay that i received made me felt really desperate. I mustered up my courage and went up to lzb, with the objective in mind of actually consulting her for my gp. But the response i received was really disheartening ,ungracious remarks like , " what have you been doing the last past year ?".This had made me reflect upon my actions, deep down in my heart i really think that i tried my best , i did all the essays that she wanted us to do, without fail. With a indifferent facial expression on her face, i got shunned away , apparently she had pressing issues to settle with zh. However , she did say something quite promising," yes jeffrey, i will keep you in mind "
I went to school yesterday for gp "extra lesson". In the time span of 3 hrs, she managed to cover 3 essay questions. Yes , i was really attentive, jotting down every points and taking note of what was relevant. Felt really accomplish when i gave some points and she finally accepted my presence. Well , guess the 2 days of studying gp paid off ? To end off the lesson, she said a somewhat sarcastic remark," Hmm jeffrey , your sentence structure is really odd , i wonder whats your grade in O lvl , Guess the teacher really was blind then " Nevertheless , i do accept those remarks with a positive attitude, as i really do have problems in my fundamental grammar and sentence structure.
10:05 PM
sat ... Hmm.. went to run in da morning wid solo n wc , sum how i lost the motivation to run at all... so i onli ran a full 3 rds.... thn after tat rest dam long thn another 2 rds....
wat does this means ? fail napfa... 2mths more... GG....
anyway... after tat went home n played dota , went out to study wid solo at smu , thn after tat gt interupted by the fireworks tat i saw due to the reflections from the glass building... stopped, walked out and see... its over... MEH ! stood up and walk out for nth !! pfft...
thn 9pm js came after work , thn had to freaking called tat wc to yell at him to come down faster... zzz ... always buay zi dong come late de... thn went to eat at long john , nt bad wor !! carjun chick $6.70 sell me at $5.00 ... LOL !! thn js bought 3 piece chick for the price of 2 piece... thn the most funny thing is... wc try the new grilled chicken $6.70 HAHA !!!
after much debate... its either... the malay gal dun lyk his face... or is tat our food is cooked alr ( leftover ) tats y so cheap HAHA !!
went to the cathay to buy tix for cine at 1:25am despicable me , thn the havoc starts !! , went to play lan at park lane mall ( nv went there b4 first time goin ). AND THAT MALL GT LYK FREAKING 8-10 LAN SHOPS IN TAT PARTICULAR MALL WID ALOT OF KTV RM N PUBS !! played 1hr of cs , left .... thn walked ard... decided to play pool ...
ok ... went in the shop ... felt abit intimidated ... but w/e im gd.. took a table and went to play !! haha freaking ex sial... zz 1hr / 12.80 ... my skills dropped SOOO MUCH !! hahaha
thn after tat walked all the way to cine , bought da popcorn combo and went in , well the show is nt bad , funny and cute lyk every1 said ! haha
FIRST TIME TAKING NITE RIDER SIAL !!! hahaha !! apparently missed the firsy nr6 cuz it was fckin speeding past the bus stop wid no intention of stopping ! zzz... thn took the nxt 1... well its kinda exp... flat price of $3.50 ... but its still cheaper thn taxi anyway. reached home at 4am...
nxt day... wake up ... 12+ , decided to go out wid aaron de... but thn suddenly daphne called me and reminded me of the appointment tat was made LAST WK ! which i totally forgot ... had to turn aaron down and went ahead... i tried... to go at 2pm.. cuz they said meeting at 1.40 ( 100% they will b late ) and ended up waiting till 2.30 till they reach ... anyway, saw shawndy ( my jr & fren's bro ) , managed to talked to him for awhile after i left to find them... haha !! nostalgic =)
the funny thing is ... after sukiyah ...went back wid js to find ESPLANADE MRT ! we walked all the way frm marina to esplanade there ... thn explore - dun hav - thn went to ask the info counter...
ohh... the esplanade mrt is actually at suntec... yes ... i noe it can be VERY MISLEADING ... but yeap... its at suntec ... FCK ! ma de... bloody fck name it ESPLANADE MRT bloody hell LOCATE IT AT ESPLANADE LA ! zzz
walked alll the way back to suntec ... boarded... and home
9:04 PM
hmm ... very tired these few days.. argh... lets see.... i lose to urge to retake and do well for napfa liao.... dunno y .. lost hope in life ba... haiz...
anyway... today pe was.... tiring as usual but fun , cuz managed to take down wen xun today wid the help frm ben , fckin funny and epic... felt real accomplished but kinda guilty cuz the impact looks so painful HAHAH
went out for lunch , bought lotsa shit ! fried ice cream xD exp.. and small but nice.
ate mee hoon kuey for the first time ??? went back skool , camped at class rm "rested" for 20min xD
IR was freaking fcked up... hate tat shitty teacher.... argh.... lousy method... shldnt hav tis kind of teacher to teach la... haiz... writing on whiteboard... wtf ? wat kind of century liao ... still use primitive ways to teach instead of embracing the technology... it was freaking rushed ... blur... and confusing .... Zzz
after tat... actually wanted to go home de... but.... yeap..... thn went to eat wid them, went to the jap shop at T1 and YESH !! I FINALLY BOUGHT ME POCKY !! but fckin exp la... $4 leh... Zzz but dammmmn nice !!! omg... hahaha , thn ate subway ...
FCKIN HELL DUN EVER BUY THE NEW SHIT ITEM " CHILLI CRAB" FRM SUBWAY !!! dammit ... i gt conned... fckin cost me $5.50 to pay for a chilli paste wid NO MEAT ... Zzz argh gt conned argh argh argh add to meal $8.20 lyktat gone... ARGH !!! crapped alot after tat... haha went walk abit in cold storage and left for home haha
thn saw me juniors , ben and yz haha ! so long nv see them le la !! thn talked to thm =) , catched up alot... xD
9:09 PM
(sat) hmm... i finally went to a flea market for once.... nt tat i wanted to... Zzz... pei el and sl , anyway.. it was really really really HOT THERE ... bleahz... saw me sec skool fren there setting up a shop haha... anyway... it was 2pid and boring , and saw xin yi there haha
thn watched sorcerer's apprentice xD its nice.... haha and tat was the day i "treated" sum1 to movie tix hahahah !! "treated"
anyway.... otw home... i gt violated by a small indian child... went inside teh cram mrt... to my surprise , sum hand come frm below my groin and kept reaching up me FROM BEHIND , FIRST INSTINCT ! " KIAP MY LEG TGT" zzz.... thn finally the child take the hand away....
thn sun , went to mi xue "baby bro shower" lol... left hse after they called me at tampines int.... thn i EVEN RAN FOR THE BUS ( cuz sum1 say dun late ) lol... thn i found out tat... IM WAYYYYY TOOOOO EARLY.... thn i stopped at my skool there , went to hg pt and walk walk ... lol nostalgic ... so long nv go there le... anyway walked to sweet talk buy bubble tea... the staff there nv change sial.. haha , ordered the usual " honeydew sago" , camped at hg pt bus stop for them to arrive , boarded and left.
reached.... "AWKWARD MOMENT " thn went in , every1 stares at us.... Hmm.... went up to her rm , talked thn went down for food haha ! , thn went up agn to camwhore after bird came .
thn wed , the fateful day... napfa... argh... no no ... EARLY IN THE MORNING GT SHIT TALK WID THE PRINCIPAL ... zzz dam wtf.... went in ... awkward... as she chomps her disgusting breakfast " oats wid apple and cranberry" urgh... thn started talking to us QUESTIONING US.. i was juz stunned for ans.... dunno wat to say sial... Zzz...
thn had to sent her a "thk you letter" zzz thn after tat... 5pm ... FCKIN TIRED LE... thn started to have my pre-PE syndrome( lol the guys shld noe abt it )
thn went to bomb wid julie , it was fckin dumb and retardedly funny ... omg... shall nt say anymore HAHAH
napfa .. wilson n stephen gt knocked out first rd ... thn stephen left, but wilson stayed on to do more stuff at the fitness area... thn come the 2pid 2.4km.... nt bad... i managed a 12:56 ahaha improvement wor !! its all thks to the cheering on by js kenneth daphne wilson zach softballs AND COACH WHO SHOUTED AT ME lol !!!
today went to watch salt after skool ... nice movie =)
