okay, so i've been laggard lately. i'll admit it! but so much has gone on lately. all that includes a trip to sydney, a setback from melbourne, and a lot of food. good food. but i'll get to that later. =)
on the side of a quick update, i'll start by acknowledging that i'm used to juggling multiple responsibilities through the uni semester, but with so much changing in just the past two weeks, i'm left with two feelings. 1) regret and 2) distaste.
before i start, i'll put a disclaimer because i realize how slammed it is that after two months of not blogging, i come up with all this negativity. but sorry. this is my forum of candor.
1. regret: i realize that i've passed up so many opportunities. the girls will attest to me saying this... but i know that bailing on events is probably one of my top ten traits. LOL. honestly, now that i think about it retrospectively, is it all worth it? passing up dinners with friends, community groups, volunteering opportunities, serving in church... i feel like i missed out on a lot. i can see what my life could have been like... and then i see what it is like now. and i'm not entirely sure i like what i know.
so now this leads me to...
2. distaste: a seed has been planted and so i'm starting to doubt the "studies come first" motto. now that's pretty funny seeing that it's my last semester of my undergrad degree... and yet more studies await next year. but the distaste part comes in when i say that i think my priorities are a little funny. they're not wrong. they're not bad. they're just a little funny. i wonder at what point in time i became the girl who would stay home from a party or gathering to study. i don't like it!
all of this comes down to choice. and decisions. i'm working on it. hahah.
the other thing i feel i need/want to mention is my severe aversion to rigidity. and as it turns out, rigidity has been following me everywhere lately. i don't want to be a quitter, but sometimes i'm just so tempted!
anyhow, so moving away from the bad and onto the good.
sydney rocked.
deep down, i had hoped that i wouldn't like it just so that my choice would've been made easier. but i loved it. so now i'm in that "whatever" phase of decisions and i'm just going to take it as it comes. i don't need to decide on anything until january next year so i've made a pact with myself to try and enjoy the "freedom" from making and binding decisions.
there's a few photos from sydney. all of them can be viewed by clicking here. =)
as usual, we ate heaps. but we walked heaps too so i guess that kinda evens things out! but i should say thanks to those who told us where the good places were to go - it all came in really handy and made our trip all that more efficient. ;)
we managed to do all the touristy things we needed to do (except for a ferry trip to manly - which i actually really wanted to do). and i suppose that the only bad thing from the trip was that i totally didn't realize that my camera was set at 0.3MP for the entire trip.. so the photos that i do have are only large enough to print a 6x4! ordinarily, this would suffice, but there were a couple of prints that would reallllyyy have looked awesome framed up as an A4. so enter sad face here. =(
anyhow, i'm feeling that this has been enough thorough reflection on my part.
time to stop writing about life and go live it!
*hugs*
- pheebs.
