*as.the.days.go.by*

you know, sometimes i think that as i grow older, i'm meant to know myself better. know what i can and can't do, know what i'm comfortable and uncomfortable doing, know the places where my heart is content to go. but then there are other times when i feel like i don't know myself at all, and that i haven't grown in any way. it's often those days that i turn to the people who i love, and look to them for direction. but sometimes, i find that i'm just so confused with everything, that nothing makes sense at all! i think the best thing that i can do, is to cry. and just sob it out of my system.

duyen sent this to me a couple of days ago. only just then did i read it. but it's true you know. why limit yourself to having just one bestestest friend when you can have many close friends. third to faith and family, friends is the one thing that you can't pass up in life. you need friends at every stage and point in life. there's no way that you can bypass it. unless you're content with being an introvertedly lonely person. i don't want to be that person. ever.

anyway. here's the email. =)

"When I was little, I used to believe in the concept of one best friend, and then I started to become a woman. And then I found out that if you allow your heart to open up, God would show you the best in many friends. One friend is needed when you're going through things with your mom. Another when you want to shop, share, heal, hurt, joke, or just be. One friend will say "Let's cry together," another, "Let's fight together," another, "Let's walk away together." One friend will meet your spiritual need, another your shoe fetish, another your love for movies, another will be with you in your season of confusion, another will be your clarifier, another the wind beneath your wings. But whatever the assignment in your life, one whatever the occasion, on whatever the day, or wherever you need them to meet you with their gym shoes on and hair pulled back, or to hold you back from making a complete fool of yourself, those are your best friends. It may be wrapped up in one woman, but for many, it's wrapped up in several... one from 6th grade, one from high school, several from the college years, a couple from old jobs, on some days your mother, on some days your neighbour, on others, your sisters, and on some days, your daughters. So whether they've been there 20 minutes or 20 years, pass this on to the women that God has placed in your life to make a difference."When I was little, I used to believe in the concept of one best friend, and then I started to become a woman. And then I found out that if you allow your heart to open up, God would show you the best in many friends. One friend is needed when you're going through things with your mom. Another when you want to shop, share, heal, hurt, joke, or just be. One friend will say "Let's cry together," another, "Let's fight together," another, "Let's walk away together." One friend will meet your spiritual need, another your shoe fetish, another your love for movies, another will be with you in your season of confusion, another will be your clarifier, another the wind beneath your wings. But whatever the assignment in your life, one whatever the occasion, on whatever the day, or wherever you need them to meet you with their gym shoes on and hair pulled back, or to hold you back from making a complete fool of yourself, those are your best friends. It may be wrapped up in one woman, but for many, it's wrapped up in several... one from 6th grade, one from high school, several from the college years, a couple from old jobs, on some days your mother, on some days your neighbour, on others, your sisters, and on some days, your daughters. So whether they've been there 20 minutes or 20 years, pass this on to the women that God has placed in your life to make a difference."

true isn't it? oh, and i love you too duyen. =p

*pauses.in.the.silence*

wow. it's been a while since i last posted.. and yeah. it's been a while since i last wrote in my diary too. i think the date sits at 7th january 2006. hrm. i think i kinda just realize how incredibly boring my life is right now. every day i live, even though i stop and thank God that i'm still alive, i still can't believe that i do basically the same thing everyday! i'm beginning to feel like drew barrymore in "50 first dates"... except, the people around me aren't exactly lying to me. lol. but yeah. i always set my alarm before i go to bed. wake up at 7:25am, snooze it until 7:30, get up. brush my teeth, get dressed, make breakfast, then drive off to working eating it. i work until 12:30pm then come home. usually buying lunch on the way back. then i watch movies, until late.. or go to class if it's a tuesday or thursday. then eat dinner. then sleep. then do the same thing all over again. my tendency to go insane is increasing ever so slightly! i'm not sure how much longer i can take it. good thing is that next week is o-week at uni.. so at least i'll be doing something OTHER than working and watching movies.

oh. did i mention that chinese class sux? my excitement of starting the classes has seriously deteriorated. i'm even thinking of just quitting. lol! but then tt'd be proving rach right. lol. but yeah. i think i'd have more luck just learning it myself out of the book. hehe. coz yeah. going to class isn't really helpful. plus, it's really slow moving too. so yeah. i'm not sure. either that.. or i think i might go and do jap instead. i'd prob enjoy that more. haha. so yeahhhh. we'll just have to see hey?

annnnywayy! yeah.. i'm thinking that i'll go now. haha. do something else. so yeah. i'll see ya round! tata!

*oh.how.life.goes*

man... only just today did i realize how quickly time passes. you know.. after going to choir.. cleaning a bit then lunch, then shopping, then book-selling then trish's.. i came to realize that this year.. everything is gonna be so different. like. muhua. she's leaving us to go to sydney to study.. and like. it just seems that every change.. no matter how small or big it is.. it's going to make a difference this year. this is the year that we'll all "expand our horizons" (hopefully).. we'll make new friends. we'll experience uni life. we'll try new things. and like. it just seems really strange right now. to think about it.. i like continuity and consistency. the change kinda throws me off balance. and i think it's just gonna take me a while so tt i can adjust to it.

annywayyy. here's a wacky picture tt we took at trish's tonight after dinner.

and.. it's pretty much muhua being muhua.. hahah. =D

*yawn.again*

oh mannnn. i'm so tired! kinda funny. coz i got a job! a full-time job.. until uni starts anyway. working at a warehouse in osborne park. it's good though. coz i'm also a storeperson. so i get to help customers and do stock stuff. but yeah. in the future my boss wants me to do accounts and book-keeping.. lol. only coz i'll be a commerce student. haah! lol. meh. but yeah. it's alright pay too. a heck of a lot better than crepe! hahaha. =p

anywayyy. raph's back too. so having a family thing now.

ooh. gtg. byeeeee!