*grr.*

okay. only two words for this post. here we go.

*takes a breath*

school sucks!!!!

*busy.busy.week!*

sooooo. monday's gone. but still need to face tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday monday tuesday wednesday all over again. lollll. wat i mean is.. that there's so many thing to do within this next/coming week!! got so many freaking tests this week! stooooopiiidddd. thennn. there's the dedication, ordination and anniversary next week! ooh! funn! hahaha. and need to go shopping for clothes. a dress i mean. lol. can't re-wear any thing! hahah. but grrr. rach's 21st is on saturday too! so much to do!

oh! btw. for those of you coming on saturday.. just letting you know that the dress[code] is SEMI FORMAL! actually.. smart casual will do. but yeah. rach wants me to spread the word. hahah.

okkkkkkiiieeee. time to go. hahah. just thought i'd post. after has reminded me of how dead my blog has become! hahaha. =p later pplz. let's hope we get through this week okay. hahah. ciao!

*counting.down.the.days*

wahhhh. the days till mocks are seriously going by fast! as of now, there's only 3 weeks! it's so screwy. all these tests, all these assignments, assessments. bleugh. kinda all makes me feel really rushed. but then again, i don't really. it's quite bad, bcoz i'm kinda cruisin at the moment. and i REALLY shouldn't be. i should be like worried? or at least... motivated?

wahaha. what a joke. i'm not. face it! hahaha. but i WILL do something. do some work at least. lol. =p

*let.the.sunshine.in*

woohoo. i'm actually feeling better! yay! andddddd. my voice is back! hehe. =D but i sounds 'husky'. hahah. was on the couch yesterday watching tv whilst knitting.. then rach was like.. "heyy. u know your voice actually sounds cute! cute husky voice and a button nose!" lolllll. i was like.. "heeyyyy. if you don't stop i'll poke your eyes out with my knitting needles!" hahaha. i was joking of course. thennn later that night, was talking to raph. and he was likee. "heyy! your voice is actually kinda cute!" hehehehe. i was like "grrrrrrrrrrrr." but yes. i'm not cute. lol.

aiyoh. forgot. p&l test tm. gotta revise. see ya! =D

*oh.crap.crap.crap*

man. i'm so totally screwed. this whole being sick things really makes things worse. just checked english comparability. the whole class average was really high. which is good for everyone. except for those who failed. and there were only 2 ppl who did. and gez who was one of them? YUP! me! 4.5! awwwwww mannnn. this totally stuffs everything everything up. i'm really really really really worried now hey. can't help but worry. i'm so scared that this being sick thing is gonna stuff up TEE for me. i really do think now that going to skl makes you more productive. staying at home is doing nothing for me. i'm obviously not healing / recovering. and obviously not getting much work done. i think this is the perfect motivator. i really need to bring up my marks in english. those comparabilities are really killing me. but wat sux even more is that EVERYONE did better than me. it's not like i was one of the many who did mediocre. instead, i was the minority.. and FAILED. this really really really sux. i think this makes me feel even more depressed.

going now. to sulk and cry. =(

*grrrrrrr!*

i'm sooooooo angry. but. quite calm. but still ANGRY. why can't i get better already? *sob*. i'm so sick of being sick. now i've totally lost my voice. yesterday it was hoarse, but at least i still could talk! but today?? TOTALLY gone. grrrr. i went and saw the doctor today. and he was like. soooo. "what are your symptoms?" and i opened my mouth to tell him. then he laughed. coz nothing came out!

annnywayyyy. still haven't done my assignments yet. nor studied for my tests. kinda crappy. lol.

but yeah. i gtg. laterz.

*the.unthinkable.happened*

wahaha. so who ever thought that i'd actually be LOOKING FORWARD to getting back to skl? after this whole week of not going to skl. i'm toooottalllyyy happy that i kn go tm. altho, i've got 2 tests. first two periods too! discrete then p&l. discrete should be alright. but p&l? hah! watevvvaaaaa! lolll. i'm totally gonna wing wateva happens tm. heheh. but yah!!

okay. going to go study. heeh! bubai!!

*yellow.is.the.world*

it's kinda weird how u see things wen ur mind has gone boggled. everything seems really yellow to me now. it's quite funny! but hrm. the other thing. i've been thinking a lot. like. my mind's constantly been working. i was at the doc's this morning with my dad. and dad was telling dr. teh (our family doctor.. i've been seeing him since i was a lil bubba) abt the new church building. gave him an invitation to the dedication week. then they were talking abt the building and all tt. n dr. teh was like.. "ohhh. i don't know if i'll come. i've been living in isolation you know!" loll. to think abt it. he does seem like a pretty lonely guy. but.. who knew u noe? he looks like a regular doctor with his own thing going for him. but hrmm. i just think, it'd be kinda sad to turn out that way. like. work. home. work. home. make money. work. home. make more money. work. home. u noe?? it'd be such.. a boring life! makes me really wanna get out there and explore the world (when i'm better of course! =D) i really want to travel. see what God's creation is like. explore all i can. i can't wait!! i'm thinking.. that i will apply for that scholarship. the scholarship to curtin where u kn apply to study a year abroad in japan. i think it'll be fun. i know exchange last year wasn't so flash. but i think, living by myself could be a lot better. force me to make friends u noe? get to be that "out-there" person i've always wanted to be. and not to mention to make me move out of my comfort zone. even tho i don't like that feeling, i think it'll be good for me. a really good life changing experience. =) but thennn.. i'm really really really attatched to perth. i noe... some of u'z would think.. "what's there to be attatched to in perth?" or.. "perth's a hole!" lolll. but to me it's not! to me perth has been the best home ever hey. i've loved growing up here. and i love being able to call perth my home too. it's so peaceful and quiet. but it's lively when u want it to be. i think that perth is ultimately the best place for people to raise their kids. it's got that 'innocent' but 'dangerous-enough' nature. like.. not too fast moving.. but not entirely slow either. yeah. i definately think that if i move away for part of my life, once i get married and settle down, i'll come back to perth and live.. that's if i even make it out of here! who knows, maybe i'm stuck here for life... but that wouldn't be too bad either. i'm definately not dying to get out of here. i just think that it'd be nice. okay.. i'm rambling on and on and on. hahaha. whoops! okay. going to go! (i.e enuff reminiscing/dreaming of the future.. wait. can u reminisce abt the future? lol. uh-oh. gonna get that nostalgic feeling soon!! hahaha. okay okay okay.) toodles! =D

*cough.*

sobbb. i got sick.. =(( it's really crapppp. the whole of last night, i couldn't sleep. only bcoz i couldn't breathe. the only way that i was comfortable was sitting up in bed, leaning back against the wall. and that still was like torture. i'm really really really tired. just feel weak. since i din go to skl today, got to sit that discrete test another day. dunno if i'll be at skl tm either. hope so tho. but tt just meant i gotta study for that test! uh-oh. lol. haven't even started yet. but yeahhhhh. gotta go. laterz.

*good.day.=)*

weeeelll! wednesday is always pretty relaxing. only 2 classes. english was orrite. spent it in the library. with duyen polluting my mind with incredibly sik thoughts. that girl! i'm totally worried about her! hahaha. but yah. trish, jas, mel and nardz were there too. well. actually, mel wasn't. she was typing up jas's essay for ms. lundy (coz jas got such a gd mark on the essay!! heheh. u go girl! =D) but yahhhhh. they were all talking bout dirty dirty stuff. hahaha. i think it's just WRONG! hahaha. annywayyy. after 1 whole week of bugging ms lundy (eng teach) for my essay, finally got it bak today (every1 got it bak yesterday). it was the stage drama section. we studied "a streetcar named desire by tennessee williams". it was really really really good! haha. i really enjoyed it. don't ask why tho. coz i really can't tell u why! but yeahhh. i was glad/happy/contented with my mark. A-. works out to 75%. which is good. altho, ms lundy said my sentence structure was pretty screwed for some bits. tt's were i lost points. so mehhhhh. gotta learn the art of being concise. i tend to talk the world b4 getting to my point. i think tt's wat i'm doing now. hahah. whoops! habit habit habit. annnnnnywayyyyyyy.

thennnn. i finnally stayed for phys ed today. hahaha. normally i skive off. and the round robin thing is pretty dodge. hahah. but it was fun today! played indoor cricket. and for the first time tt i've played a ball game, i did not get hit on the head or face. but yeahhhh. i bowled.. and got 3 ppl out! hehehe. =p felt pretty gd hey. =D yay! hehehehe. but yeah. nxt week is gymball. and guess wat. it's the rip-off game from dodgeball the movie. wahahahah. should be fun. =p

okay okay. i've gtg. should really be studying. got history doc study tm. then p&l assignment essay in class friday. then monday is discrete test. tuesday is p&l section test. then friday nxt week is english essay due. aiyoh aiyoh! hahaha. okay. gotta get stressin'! hehe. laterz all. =D

*i'm.scared*

T.E.E is looming over my head. well.. OUR heads i should say. it's seriously scary! there's so much to do.. but yet so short time.

aiyoh. gotta go.

a couple of quick words before i go.

[manhood]
[is]
[GAY]