only 2 days left!! really looking forward to it.. annnywayyy.. so yesterday we started the kids choir for their christmas item.. gosh they're good! i just think u noe.. i hope that none of them gets big heads or anything.. coz sure they're good.. but i'm pretty sure that they know it too.. the worst thing would be if any of them started thinking that they were "too cool" for it.. or that the choir wouldn't work if they weren't a part of it.. the choir is the way it is only because it's got magnificently talented people in it.. take any of them away.. then it wouldn't work.. but the main thing is basically that it wouldn't work if the ppl in the group weren't the same.. i dunno if that makes sense or not.. but that's how i honestly see it.

annywayyy.. trish's thing was last nite! gosshh.. i'm so tired!! worse thing.. after a night of total over-eating.. all i wanted/want to do is just to sleep.. i'm sooooo unbelieveably tired... after eating at the restaurant.. which was "eventful" lol.. after jas dripped her skirt TWICE with oyster sauce.. loll.. she made me CRY of laughter ok.. lol.. so far only she's been able to do that.. lol. =p but yeah.. after a dinner full of laughs.. and glasses full of "shit".. *hint hint* lol.. we retreated back to trish's place.. to just talk.. and do read/do those crappy mag quizzes.. hahah.. also.. not forgetting the crazy 't or d'.. lol. yeahhh.. funny stuffz happened.. then my 11.. everyone had left.. 'cept me.. haha. stayed talking till like.. nearly 1:30am? gd talk! hahaha.. =p but yeah.. wen i woke up in the morning.. i sooooooooo couldn't get out of bed!! i pressed snooze on my alarm like.. 7 times? hahaha.. so typical.. but nyehhh...

ok. so went to skl today to return everything.. hahah.. walked in to the office and saw mr hunt.. he was like.. "oh gee that took you a long time to dry clean and return that!".. once he saw the blazer i was carrying.. hahah.. little does he noe.. that it's NOT dry cleaned... lol.. i dun think anyone did it ey.. heheh... annywayyy.. after returning the blazer.. and the intro calc past papers.. i went to return the jap stuff.... then mrs uhlrich caught up with me.. told me bout p&l and history.. get this.. i topped p&l!! both the exam.. and for the year!!!!! how wikiidd!!! hehehee... i couldn't stop grinning eyy.. hehehe.. history went well too.. A for that.. ooh. remember that inquiry project i was complaining abt a while bak? haha.. 82.5%.. hehehe.. an A.. best thing.. that assignment alone counts for 20% of the year's work.. an A for that makes things really gd... =D

ok.. so i think i kn sleep happily tonight.. hehehe.. ;) but yeaaahhhh... i'm off now.. so funny... i'm addicted to those s'pore series again! hahaha.. oh yeah. b4 i go.. GO JAMES LYE!!! hahahahahahahahahah... bak in the old skl days.. he rocked! hahah... cya! =D

weeeeellll.... another week over.. and now.. there's singapore this week!!! woohoo! hahah.. only 4 days now.. feels kinda weird tho u noe? like.. i always enjoy going bak.. it's a very holiday place.. but then.. this time it just feels weird.. i can't really explain y.. i'm pretty sure that all my "worries" will disappear once i hop onto that plane.. for some weird reason tho, in my dreams i keep seeing hong kong airport! lol.. and the disney store!!! =D lol.. that store was wikkiiddddd... hehehe. but everything was EX! lol. nyeehh..

happy b'day trish!!! on the 28th of november in 1988, trish was born! that's just quoting from her msn thing. haha. she was damn proud of it too! hehe. =p but yeah. let's just hope tonight's dinner is gd yeah? =D

annywaayyy.. i'd best be off.. there's movies waiting for me to watch. ciaoz! =D

soooooo.... oral speech today.. it went. C-R-A-P! so weird! last nite i was soooo confident! i was like.. 'yeahhhh.. no worries! =D'.. then as soon as i walked into the exam room.. i was like.. 'ahhhhh shiitteeeee'... freaaakinng ccraaaappppp... so ok.. it could have gone A LOT worse.. but this is like the worst i've ever done in an oral! i completely forgot EVERYTHING that i was gonna say... i had absolutely zilch confidence.. and.. the answering questions bit was real bad too! i forgot all my vocab! grrrr.. i was just so nervous!! see.. it's not good to make last minute changes.. problem was that my speech hadn't been checked.. so i got it checked by noriko-sensei bout 1/2 an hour b4.. NOT A GOOD IDEA. i couldn't remember the changes!! grrrrrrrrr. ohhh. then to top it all off.. i went and got my intro calc thing back... see how this sums it up...



worst thing.. only by 3 marks!!! it wasn't even a good fail! lol... that would've sucked more tho.. lol. but yeh eyyyy.. i was expecting to do really really really crap.. but u noe.. deep down i really hoped that i would pass... even 51% would've been alright.. chehhhh... sucky... 48 crappy percent... nyehhhhhhhhhhhhh.. ok.. peeved off at today... hope tm goes better! and hope that no one gives me a reason to get all pissy either.. but knowing tm and wat i'm duin.. chances are that they will.. and i will too. grrrrr.

this week = lowlight said the magazine

adios!

how hot is barry!!!! hehehee....

hahahahahah...=D click on him to hear him sing!!! butttt.. u might want to stop half way though... he din get too gd comments.. lol.. =p chehhhh.. he's gdd!!!but best thing....he can dance!! just watchin the idol final reminds me... hehehe.. =p
but heeeyyyyyyyy.... how crap is it that casey won! lol.. wait.. correction... she's a gd singer.. but anthony was gooood!!!!! and all the more.. he could REALLY sing!! grrrrr... soooo craaapppyyy!!! he better come out with an album ey... and RICKI-LEE!!! dang she's gd! lol...

ok.. so to commemorate the event.. with a sadder note than i would've liked... here. =)

wow! one WHOLE week without posting! haha.. it's been quite a while since that happened! lol. but nyeh. i suppose studying does come as a more important thing.. lol. =p annywwaayyyy.. so four down.. and two more left.. well.. three if u count jap as two.. so two on wednesday.. and one thursday.. then i'm F-R-E-E!! can't waaiitt!!! =D

lol.. annnywwaaayyy... apart from exams. not much else has been going on... but exams themselves have been preetyy uh.. interesting? lol.. my first exam was chem.. and i was late! lol. i ran all the way to the classroom.. couldn't find my class. then wen i finally did.. reading time had already started.. i sat dwn at a desk.. and da stoopid table was a wobbly one!! grrr. so i got up and moved. lol. =p but yehhh.. then bout 15 mins into the actual exam.. i had the WORST stomach ache ever ey. i thought i was gonna die! but nyeeehhhh.. i couldn't stand it anymore. so i had to leave to go to the toilet. never ever have i dun tt b4 ey. lol. i din think i would either.. sorta a waste of time.. annnywaayyy. so i got bak to the classroom.. then like.. 15 mins before finishing time... MY PHONE RANG!! worse.. it rang TWICE!! lol. funny thing is that my ringtone is the "90210" theme.. lol. and it lasts for like one and a half minutes.. hahaha.. i was sooooo embarressed.. lol. jas turned arnd n looked at me.. then shook her head laughing.. hahaha.. oops! but yehh. lets just say i remembered from then on to turn my fone to silent during the exams.. lol. weelll.. the next day was intro and history. hahahahahahahah. lol. intro was seriously bombed. lol. i literally gave up half way. sooooo stoopid! i'm pretty sure that one was a fail.. lol. annywayy. 50 mins later i had to sit history.. lol.. that one went ok actually... i think i did good! but my hand was killing me.. soooo much writing! but nyeh. gd thing was tt the depression was in it! yay! =D then yesterday mornin... eng lit.. hahah. i'm just soooooo glad its over! i feel as if i can breathe again.. lol. i din really study too much for it.. but still.. i just way stressed for it.. the actual exam was preety difficult.. i used all of the quotes i could.. and all of the stuff that i remembered.. so.. hopefully its enuff.. i'm not worried tho.. coz even if i fail.. i'm still guaranteed a B.. and if i pass with 60% or over.. i'll get an A.. so...! i'm happi! =D

but yeah. there goes my 'adventures' for the past couple of days... anywhoooo.. time for shopping!!! yeehhhh.. i noee.. celebrations are meant for AFTER exams finish.. but i just can't help myself.. =p hehe. ciao ppl! =D

weeeeelll.. first day of "intensive" studying.. and i din really get much done!! lol. well, not much actual STUDYING anyway.. stoooopid p&l inquiry! grrrrr.. spent like 6 hours on it today... but at least i've finished it.. gotten it out of the way.. and i'll never look at it again for the rest of my life! hmmm.. but on second thought, actually doing it was quite interesting. i found out some interesting facts. i chose to do a rather controversial issue... same-sex marriages.. it's kinda gd tho. coz since it's an inquiry, you can give your own opinion on the issue.. and so i found it really gd to talk about stuff from my p.o.v. like how being raised in a multicultural, democratic and christian environment affects the morals and values that i have.. i dunno y, but i always enjoy just stating the obvious wen it comes to stuff like that.. i find it...... interesting.. lol. it'll be interesting to see wat my teach hasta say bout it. lol. =p last time i did something like this, the comment was.. "very intruiging, phoebe". lol...

annywayyyy... so the p&l assignment's done.. that's a relief.. but now i've got 6 exams to look to.. but u noe.. as worried as i am.. i just cannot be bothered with duin anything! i mean.. the only thing that's keeping me studying is my fear of failure.. as soon as i think of the feeling that i always get in exams - the 'oh-crap-i-dont-know-anything' feeling.. that's wen i start studying.. i gez i should just keep that thought coming then.. lol. at least i'll be prepared..? hmmm.. stress is catchin up with me tho ey. all those whites are coming back too! duyen picked like 2 on friday.. i bet by next week i'll have like.. 50! grrrr. sux tho.

nyeeehhh. so another interesting thing that i hafta decide on b4 monday is my subject choices.. i noe i've already submitted my list and gotten my gridlines back, but i'm still thinkin of changing.. jap's going better than i expected actually.. and it's making me think of changing to do it nxt year. but then the choice of which subject to drop comes in. coz i definately don't want to do 6 T.E.E again.. i don't think i could handle it.. lol. as bad as it sounds, i wanna feel free to bum.. not hafta face a full year of full-on stress.. coz yr 12 will be twice as demanding as this year was.. and i dun really have that much time once u take away all that time i spend in church and stuff.. most of all i dun wanna give up serving in church.. that's the only part of my life which i noe is dead set on the right track.. so my choice comes down to drop either history or human bio. odds are definately in favour of dropping human bio.. seeing that i din do it this year.. and i already have a crappy feeling abt it.. but then most ppl tell me that if i do it, coz i can easily memorize stuff, i'll find it easy. so then we look at history.. and i'm not doing too bad in it.. sure it's heaps tiring coz there's heaps of writing involved.. and lots of things to 'understand' and remember, i still kinda enjoy it. the problem is that if i drop human bio, then i'll only have discrete to go on. so.. it's really a toss up. wat happens if i totally bomb out on the exam coz of some 'unforseen' reason? it's really quite dodge. i dunno if its a wise choice to go with only 1 list 2.. coz they gotta count at least 1 subject from each list. hmmmmmmm. oh the stress of life. decisions decisions decisions.

ok. so it's getting late. and i actually feel like i can sleep now. i've been a complete insomniac for the past week.. really dumb move actually. so yeah. SLEEP! =D

i could cry.. =( so the first exam timetable that came out was bad.. i thought i could deal with it. but now. they changed it! and it's even worse!! grrrr. i kn just feel the STRESS rising... i could die really. i just can't wait till the first week is over. i'm really scared! my 4 worst subjects all in one bunch together. it's DUMB. why couldn't they just have left it? grrrrr. i'm scared that i'll fail. fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail failfail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail. that's wat's gonna happen. i noe it.

okkayyyyy.... yessss! it's a new look!! not quite the one that i had in mind.. but! i really really really needed to change the template.. lol. =p way too sick of the old one!

anywayy.. was studying.. then decided tt i'd had enuff of the blogger-crisis thingo.. haaah. so i changed it.. under 15 mins! hahaha. wooooot! =D record time i must say. annyywaayyyyy... things have been.. hectic. there's heaps of stuff to be doing. but i'm like.. NOT doing it. lol. =p i think i've found wat the problem is tho.. i'm not nervous abt all those assessments.. nor am i just being lazy (well.. not COMPLETELY anyway! =p).. i think i'm scared!! i dunno y either.. it's not like they're big big BIG assessments.. they're just like those update ones u noe? but.. i'm freaked about them all! it's soooooo bad!! i keep telling myself that in 3 weeks, i'll be free for more than 2 months.. but it really doesn't help my state of mind. i'm sooooo close to just losing it ey. i can feel it in my skin. i just wannt jump up and down and pull all of my hair out screaming. i feel frustrated. angry. peed off. just all over... grrrrrrr!!! there's not a proper word to describe the frustration though. it's MORE than frustration. but LESS than anger-ative suicidal. it's weird. stupid at the same time.

nyyeehhhh.. so i'll keep my focus on going to s'pore. it could be a good thing anyway. keep me "looking forward"... hahah. but nyeeehhhhhhhhhhhh.. we'll see how things go. see if i survive tm. after period 2 tm. i think i'll feel a tad bit better. =D

faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light - helen keller

okkkk.. it's been a while since i've posted.. record for this month i think? but hey.. 5 days is quite a while! but still.. it's gone quite fast... heaps of stuffs has happened! heaps of little really really really really funny stuff.. haha.. but.. i can't remember them! i can remember thinking at the time.. "ohhhh.. i should SO say that in my blog.." hahah.. yeah. i noe.. that sounds lame! but still... that was the thought running through my head! but yeahh.. now.. with my somewhat crappy memory, i can't remember anything... oh wait! i remember one! hahaha.. this one SERIOUSLY made me laugh at the time.. hehehe. at stirling last week.. duyen had this really whack idea.. lol.. trying to fit 3 ppl on one stair of the escalator! lol... it was heaaappsss funny!! lol... imagine, duyen, trish and me standing on the one stair all the way down.. lol.. weirdly enuff, everday afta skl since, we've done exactly the same thing! lol... as dooges sed.. "at least we know we're not that fat!!" hahahaha.. =p

hmmm... annyywaayyy... here's the thing right now... i've got a gazillion tests within the next week... at least one everyday!

here's the list!
-intro calc test: thursday
-p&l test: friday
-eng lit in-class: monday
-jap assessment #1: monday
-chem test: tuesday
-jap assessment #2: wednesday
-jap assessment #3: thursday
-p&l inquiry project: friday
-history script assignment: friday

that's 9 assesments!!! grrr.. then not to mention the following week is exams!
wk 1: chem, intro calc & history (a double), eng lit
wk 2: p&l, jap

grrrrr.. but just think.. after that, it's only 6 days until we go to s'pore!! yay!! i can't wait! =D

ok.. enuff complaining and whining abt assessments.. i really should be studying now for that matter! lol. ok. off i go! g'nitez!