yup. got my chem test bak. oopz. knew i should've studied more. i promise myself tt i won't get distracted again the night b4. argh. i'll just turn my phone off then. yup. tt's wat i'll do.
state team trials are on sunday.. for debating. i'm down to go for it. but. yeah. i'm not going. they just gonna come watch me at my impromptu debate sometime in may. tho, tt'd mean tt i'd only have a few weeks to get ready for state squad. oh well. i doubt i'd make it anyway. juliet ses just to go for the "experience". maybe i should listen to them. 'n just go anyway. i dunno. i'll think abt it.
i think i failed my chem. and english lit. crap crap crap. should've studied a lot more. arghh... sooo bad!!! this is not good ey. seriously not good. gonna get all depressed soon. not fair! y does everyone else get it so easily? not fair. wish i was good at math 'n science. then life would be easier. so much easier to crap on about some literary thing than it is to do math 'n science. want to quit. arrggghhh...!!!!!!!! so angry now.
oh no! got sooo much to study for eh.. hmmm....i'm too slack.. totally undisciplined too! hmmm.. should realli get to it tho eh... crappy mr. elias.. was sooo lucky.. i just finished copying the pre-lab wen he came round to check tt we had done it for homework.. i din do my p&l homework either. lucky she "trusts" me.. lol.. well tt was a mistake! but not like i'm going to say anything to her.
i sooooo can't wait till holidays eh.. family camp these holidays.. fun fun fun! =D better not put too much expectations on it tho.. might turn out crap.. hehe.. but nah, family camp's are always good. esp if everyone just goes to learn heaps 'n just generally have fun. .
ah well.. gtg.. stack of books waiting for me to hit. catchaz all. =)
i sooooo can't wait till holidays eh.. family camp these holidays.. fun fun fun! =D better not put too much expectations on it tho.. might turn out crap.. hehe.. but nah, family camp's are always good. esp if everyone just goes to learn heaps 'n just generally have fun. .
ah well.. gtg.. stack of books waiting for me to hit. catchaz all. =)
wahhhhh... so much work!! p&l... i should realli haf started earlier eh... took up my whole nite..! so i coulnd't study for chem. i realli need to tho eh. test on tuesday... i'm freaking.. like anything. gonna fail. yet AGAIN. then there's english lit. i noe absolutely NOTHING about henry reed. who wants to noe anyway? some homosexual guy who wrote realli realli gross poetry. sexual connotation here.. sexual connotation there. yup every single word. gross.. i'll leave tt to emma 'n joley to decode. not to mention jas. they're good at tt kinda stuff. u wanna think abt sex? just read movement of bodies by henry reed
sick sick sick stuff.
ohhh! but the under the stars thing was soooooooooooooooooooooooo goood!!!! it was awesome!! seriously.! i quote from the bulletin this morning. "if u didn't come.., YOU MISSED OUT!!" ... seriously.. it was a bash. mel, lassie, trish, nadia 'n muhua came... fun fun fun.. even tho they were all mocking the crap out of me.. damn tt photo display! STEPHH!!!! u put those peanut photos on... =( make me cry actually. but yeaahhh.. apart from tt, it was gd! us "quartet" sang... spirit wings.. felt realli good singing eh.. the outdoor atmosphere realli took us off.. was fabulous being up there singing..=))
i realli thank God that it was such a success eh. i can speak for myself wen i say tt much prayer has gone into this. because although we put heaps of time in to prepare, still without God, nothing would have been possible. it's by His grace tt we could have had such an enjoyable time. =) truly. He works wonders in our lives. blesses us in the mose amazing ways. a pity some of us couldn't see this until now. but God. is. great.
sick sick sick stuff.
ohhh! but the under the stars thing was soooooooooooooooooooooooo goood!!!! it was awesome!! seriously.! i quote from the bulletin this morning. "if u didn't come.., YOU MISSED OUT!!" ... seriously.. it was a bash. mel, lassie, trish, nadia 'n muhua came... fun fun fun.. even tho they were all mocking the crap out of me.. damn tt photo display! STEPHH!!!! u put those peanut photos on... =( make me cry actually. but yeaahhh.. apart from tt, it was gd! us "quartet" sang... spirit wings.. felt realli good singing eh.. the outdoor atmosphere realli took us off.. was fabulous being up there singing..=))
i realli thank God that it was such a success eh. i can speak for myself wen i say tt much prayer has gone into this. because although we put heaps of time in to prepare, still without God, nothing would have been possible. it's by His grace tt we could have had such an enjoyable time. =) truly. He works wonders in our lives. blesses us in the mose amazing ways. a pity some of us couldn't see this until now. but God. is. great.
ok ok. ypg under the stars pics have been added. see the navigation on the right hand side above the chatterbox to find it! =D rivercrusie pics will be up shortly... once alan gives them to me... lol. =p
enjoy. me gotta go! p&l 15% assignment waiting to be done. due tm! haven't started yet. ahhh!! catchaz! =D
enjoy. me gotta go! p&l 15% assignment waiting to be done. due tm! haven't started yet. ahhh!! catchaz! =D
rivacruise was good!! hehehe... all i can say.. "go trish!!!!" hahah.. tt gal was awesome! lol.. had to be there to see it.. =) i'm soooooo tired eh!! my knees are killin' me.. aiyohhh... altho.. i will try 'n put sum photos up.. everyone looked soooo good! except me of course... totally under-confident.. lol...=p but yeah.. ALAN!! gimmie ur camera! i gotta get all those pics.. lol. nadia too... i'll bug u guyz until i get 'em.. hehehe =)
aiyoohhh.. gonna hafta deal with my peer mentor group tm... lol.. most of 'em are okay actually.. but still... they take a lot of time 'n effort. 'n plus i dunno if i'm duin the freakin' debate tm nite.. haven't even started preparing yet. and alex still isn't bak at skool.. so hmmmm... stress stress stress.. plus i realli should be studying for chem.. test nxt week.. and english lit too. gotta memorize stuff bout henry reed. neone got ne good info? gimmie gimmie gimmie! i swear.. can't find nething on the net. oh weeeelll... gtg. catchaz. *wink* =)
aiyoohhh.. gonna hafta deal with my peer mentor group tm... lol.. most of 'em are okay actually.. but still... they take a lot of time 'n effort. 'n plus i dunno if i'm duin the freakin' debate tm nite.. haven't even started preparing yet. and alex still isn't bak at skool.. so hmmmm... stress stress stress.. plus i realli should be studying for chem.. test nxt week.. and english lit too. gotta memorize stuff bout henry reed. neone got ne good info? gimmie gimmie gimmie! i swear.. can't find nething on the net. oh weeeelll... gtg. catchaz. *wink* =)
geez.. y is she so freakin pissed off at me?? wat did i do???????????????????????????
oh gosh.. the worst thing. going to skl then having to face every morning sumone hu realli likes to tokk to u, then someone hu likes tt other someone, hu hates u coz u talk to "their" someone... geeeeeeeeeeezzz..... sooooo troublesome eh. all those 'looks' too... it's sooooo damn unfair... i din even do anything! y kn't i just be frenz with this person without neone saying anything? everytime we get "closer" as frenz, everyone just jumps n 'suspects' stuff n starts sayin all kinds of stoopid stoopid things.... kn't we just be frenz? once again i say.. it's not fair.
aside from tt... everything else is pretty ok.. tho jap is goin pretty bad.. serves me right for not studying properly... i just sat there! couldn't think of anything else to say... "etto.. etto".. lol..
bowling today! yay! hehee....hafn't been bowling since i got bak from s'pore.. should be ok i gez... tho, i'm not realli in much of a bowling mood today... i just feel like sleeping. too tired to do anything actually.
oh well.. gtg... 8 o'clock. gotta leave for band. bubai! =D
*create in me a pure heart, O God
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
do not cast me from Your presence,
or take Your Holy Spirit from me*
psalm 51: 10 - 11
oh gosh.. the worst thing. going to skl then having to face every morning sumone hu realli likes to tokk to u, then someone hu likes tt other someone, hu hates u coz u talk to "their" someone... geeeeeeeeeeezzz..... sooooo troublesome eh. all those 'looks' too... it's sooooo damn unfair... i din even do anything! y kn't i just be frenz with this person without neone saying anything? everytime we get "closer" as frenz, everyone just jumps n 'suspects' stuff n starts sayin all kinds of stoopid stoopid things.... kn't we just be frenz? once again i say.. it's not fair.
aside from tt... everything else is pretty ok.. tho jap is goin pretty bad.. serves me right for not studying properly... i just sat there! couldn't think of anything else to say... "etto.. etto".. lol..
bowling today! yay! hehee....hafn't been bowling since i got bak from s'pore.. should be ok i gez... tho, i'm not realli in much of a bowling mood today... i just feel like sleeping. too tired to do anything actually.
oh well.. gtg... 8 o'clock. gotta leave for band. bubai! =D
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
do not cast me from Your presence,
or take Your Holy Spirit from me*
psalm 51: 10 - 11
i found these long ago.. 'n i wrote it into my little book of poems, proverbs 'n stuff like dat... here goes.
| when the door of happiness closes |
| another opens |
| but often times we look so long at the closed door |
| that we don't see the one which has been opened for us |
| the happiest of people don't neccesarily |
| have the best of everything |
| they just make the most of everything |
| that comes along their way |
| if the tears should ever cloud your eyes |
| if the rain should ever darken the skies above you |
| you'll be alright |
| because i'm here for you |
| when the door of happiness closes |
| another opens |
| but often times we look so long at the closed door |
| that we don't see the one which has been opened for us |
| the happiest of people don't neccesarily |
| have the best of everything |
| they just make the most of everything |
| that comes along their way |
| if the tears should ever cloud your eyes |
| if the rain should ever darken the skies above you |
| you'll be alright |
| because i'm here for you |
hidi... it was partially for u actually...just... in general i suppose... coz heaps of problems haf been comin up everywhere recently... so yeah.. i gez there's just stuff which i've been wanting to say for quite a while...just.. there's neva realli been a "right" moment for me to say it... but yeah... i gez it'll all pass... so i'm just gonna let it. but hidi.. honestly...trust me...it'll pass ok? trust me on this one... i noe it's the most hurtful thing... but it will pass... just pray abt it all k?
ooo.. just added the picture section... sorry eh.. it's got real crap pics... lol... i'm gonna start making full use of havin a digital handy.. hehehe.. =) but yea... the pics range... s'pore.. perth.. yeah... =)
hmmm...problems problems problems..
everywhere... problems.
i want to help / i want to be able to be of use / but all of a sudden i'm at a loss of words / i don't noe wat to say to help / wat i think; i'm scared to say / does anyone agree with wat i think? / i'll neva noe unless i say something / but i can't / it's a risk
hmmm...problems problems problems..
everywhere... problems.
i want to help / i want to be able to be of use / but all of a sudden i'm at a loss of words / i don't noe wat to say to help / wat i think; i'm scared to say / does anyone agree with wat i think? / i'll neva noe unless i say something / but i can't / it's a risk
oh maann... thank God i got through this week eh... although i'm still realli tired...all those tests this week.. i'm just glad it's all in the past... =)
thanks hidi! she rememebered! last week i asked her to congrats to me if i got through the week... she actually did! the first thing on fridae nite she sed tt to me! =) see wat great frenz i haf..!! =D
ahh the under the stars thing.. i hope it takes off eh! hope there's a good turn out... God willing.. people will invite their friends.. i think it's a realli great ministry to let our skl friends noe the kind of ppl tt we are.. show them wat we believe in... i hope tt ppl aren't ashamed to invite their frenz or to let them noe abt the faith tt they/i have..
thanks hidi! she rememebered! last week i asked her to congrats to me if i got through the week... she actually did! the first thing on fridae nite she sed tt to me! =) see wat great frenz i haf..!! =D
ahh the under the stars thing.. i hope it takes off eh! hope there's a good turn out... God willing.. people will invite their friends.. i think it's a realli great ministry to let our skl friends noe the kind of ppl tt we are.. show them wat we believe in... i hope tt ppl aren't ashamed to invite their frenz or to let them noe abt the faith tt they/i have..
hmm.. said farewell to chris 'n jim todae... they flew off to s'pore this arvo... kinda hard to believe tt they're gone now u noe? i mean.. chris.. he's backed the ypg for the past couple of years... i gez we got pretty um... used to things being tt way? but... i'm realli glad tt they have this opportunity to go u noe? they'll turn out to be great pastors.. coz they're ppl persons... they noe how to encourage others... =)
but yeah.. the ypg is having an event in a couple of weeks.. we called it "under the stars"..! sounds so gd!! i'm sooo excited ehh... hehe.. it's gonna be a bash =) hopefully, everyone invites their friends.. i hope there's a good turn out.. =)
but yeah.. the ypg is having an event in a couple of weeks.. we called it "under the stars"..! sounds so gd!! i'm sooo excited ehh... hehe.. it's gonna be a bash =) hopefully, everyone invites their friends.. i hope there's a good turn out.. =)
arrgghhh... how much do i hate skool...
all my subjects seem to haf something wrong with it...
english lit - my teacher is... well.. she dusn't consider us a "priority".. so we neva get ne of our tests/assessments bak.. so i can't do nothing to work on it...
history- my teach is soooooo disorganized! i sometimes wonder if she even knows wat she's teaching us! a diff thing everyday! 'n she neva remembers to photocopy stuff for us.. so i have nothing to work of... pain in the bum realli...
p&l- wat's the chances tt i'd get the same teachers for BOTH p&l 'n history?
intro calc- i suck at math.. need i say more?
chem- wellll.. i've fallen asleep 5 times in the past 3 lessons... teach is sooooo boring! he just stands there and talks... and talks.. and talks.. and talks.. and talks... etc etc. i could go on forever...
jap- again.. my teach.. talks fast.. talks soft... i cannot keep up... i might as well sit there with a sign plastered to my forehead.. "huh?? repeat!!"
but yes.. other than tt! things are fine.. oh.. but then there's all tt stuff with D... haf we sorted things out properly? coz A asked me today... "y r u walking with D?".. 'n the onli answer i could come up with.. which wasn't exactly a lie... was.. "um.. they're a frend?" .. bsides.. it wasn't realli an answer.. it was more or less a question answered with another question.. i dun think A believed me... but then.. dus it realli mata? i dunno.. i can't realli tell anymore...
y can't things go bak to normal? can't lower skool last forever? i hate hate hate hate hate upper skl at this point in time.. shoot me.. please..
all my subjects seem to haf something wrong with it...
english lit - my teacher is... well.. she dusn't consider us a "priority".. so we neva get ne of our tests/assessments bak.. so i can't do nothing to work on it...
history- my teach is soooooo disorganized! i sometimes wonder if she even knows wat she's teaching us! a diff thing everyday! 'n she neva remembers to photocopy stuff for us.. so i have nothing to work of... pain in the bum realli...
p&l- wat's the chances tt i'd get the same teachers for BOTH p&l 'n history?
intro calc- i suck at math.. need i say more?
chem- wellll.. i've fallen asleep 5 times in the past 3 lessons... teach is sooooo boring! he just stands there and talks... and talks.. and talks.. and talks.. and talks... etc etc. i could go on forever...
jap- again.. my teach.. talks fast.. talks soft... i cannot keep up... i might as well sit there with a sign plastered to my forehead.. "huh?? repeat!!"
but yes.. other than tt! things are fine.. oh.. but then there's all tt stuff with D... haf we sorted things out properly? coz A asked me today... "y r u walking with D?".. 'n the onli answer i could come up with.. which wasn't exactly a lie... was.. "um.. they're a frend?" .. bsides.. it wasn't realli an answer.. it was more or less a question answered with another question.. i dun think A believed me... but then.. dus it realli mata? i dunno.. i can't realli tell anymore...
y can't things go bak to normal? can't lower skool last forever? i hate hate hate hate hate upper skl at this point in time.. shoot me.. please..
but yes.. i finally memorized my memory verse... *yay!*.. spent last nite doing it in bed.. suprizingly wen i got up to go for a shower this morning, i could still recite the whole thing.. hehe...
here it goes... correct me if i'm wrong..
Psalm 119 : 105 - 112
Your Word is a lamp to my feet
And a light to my path/
I have sworn and confirmed
That I will keep Your righteous judgments/
I am afflicted very much
Revive me, O LORD, according to Your Word/
Accept, I pray, the freewill offerings
of my mouth, O Lord,
And teach me Your judgments/
My life is continually in my hand
Yet I do not forget Your law/
The wicked have laid a snare for me
Yet I have not strayed from Your precepts/
Your testimonies I have taken as a heritage forever
For they are the rejoicing of my heart/
I have inclined my heart to perform Your statutes,
Forever to the very end/
next task... Psalm 119 : 33 - 40...
here it goes... correct me if i'm wrong..
Psalm 119 : 105 - 112
Your Word is a lamp to my feet
And a light to my path/
I have sworn and confirmed
That I will keep Your righteous judgments/
I am afflicted very much
Revive me, O LORD, according to Your Word/
Accept, I pray, the freewill offerings
of my mouth, O Lord,
And teach me Your judgments/
My life is continually in my hand
Yet I do not forget Your law/
The wicked have laid a snare for me
Yet I have not strayed from Your precepts/
Your testimonies I have taken as a heritage forever
For they are the rejoicing of my heart/
I have inclined my heart to perform Your statutes,
Forever to the very end/
next task... Psalm 119 : 33 - 40...
geez.
why do things always have to be so complicated?
maannn... if ppl would just say wat they feel.. would we still have problems?
i can't help but feel tt we're all at fault actually... it's not just D's fault... i mean.. it does take more than one person to start a fight.. right?
but... if we can't talk to her.. or if we can't even express how we feel.. how can we get over our problems? so much bitchin 'n discussion goin on behind otha pplz baks.. no wonder y we're all upset..
i propose another lunchtime like 2dae.. i think we'll sort it out...
i hope anyway.
why do things always have to be so complicated?
maannn... if ppl would just say wat they feel.. would we still have problems?
i can't help but feel tt we're all at fault actually... it's not just D's fault... i mean.. it does take more than one person to start a fight.. right?
but... if we can't talk to her.. or if we can't even express how we feel.. how can we get over our problems? so much bitchin 'n discussion goin on behind otha pplz baks.. no wonder y we're all upset..
i propose another lunchtime like 2dae.. i think we'll sort it out...
i hope anyway.
so tired....
but there's still so much on my mind...
wat mel was saying earlier... made me think so much u noe?
the more i say to anyone.. just makes me reflect even more upon myself...
wat do you do wen ur heart and ur head tell u two completely different things?
which do you follow? which can you depend on?
both decisions haf their consequences... people will get hurt in the process..
including myself... although...
the decision still remains mine to make...
tell me... what should i do?
but there's still so much on my mind...
wat mel was saying earlier... made me think so much u noe?
the more i say to anyone.. just makes me reflect even more upon myself...
wat do you do wen ur heart and ur head tell u two completely different things?
which do you follow? which can you depend on?
both decisions haf their consequences... people will get hurt in the process..
including myself... although...
the decision still remains mine to make...
tell me... what should i do?
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