oh gosh! it feel sooooo gd to be back home.. everything feels sooo different! it feels as if 2 months has been forever! everything seems so foreign.. but it feels gd to haf a proper fridge now! not to mention a freezer!! b4 in s'pore, my freezer din even freeze stuff! lol.. pain in the bum actually.. AND! now.. i haf a proper washing machine! which doesn't take like 4 hours to get ONE load done.. =P feels sooo gd to be home... can't wait to jump into bed.. but first i gotta make it.. lol... oh well.. 2:34am.. i prob should go... go set everything up... i'll be bak later.. =)

yay!! flying bak tm!! well.. actually... today.. coz it's alreadi 2:16AM... hmmmm... i can't believe skool starts on monday! oh mann... these holidays went sooooo fast... it wasn't meant to go so fast eh! 2 whole months of living in s'pore.. there's so much i gotta do wen i get bak to perth tho.. the whole skool thing.. with all the books.. and then there's catching up with everyone too.. i'm dyying to play pool eh.. haven't played in a long while.. hehe. actually.. tt's not true.. i played during cny.. which was last week? but somehow it seems like forever! lol.. but i'm pretty sure i'll haf a pool buddy wen i get bak to perth.. hehehehe...

i can't help but worry abt my trombone... how crap am i gonna be!!! i haven't practiced at all! mannn.. i'm sooooo dead!!! i'm realli realli realli worried... plus this year i actually hafta practice.. i've got all the scales 'n stuff to do.. ah crap.. gonna be sooo much work... i'm scared.. i just hope everything goes ok.. there's so much tt can go wrong.. hmmm..

i guess it all comes back down to how my walk with the Lord is.. i just think u noe.. 'n keep tellin myself.. the one thing which i wanted to focus on this year.. the whole concept of my faith being the center of my life.. i figure tt since my faith IS the center of my life, then once i figure tt out.. 'n i get tt on the right track.. then if i maintain it, all the other aspects of my life should follow suit.. so at the moment.. the onli thing tt i want to do is to make sure tt i'm living a life which is pleasing to the Lord... somehow.. i noe this whole thing isn't an easy thing to do.. but i'm pretty sure tt if i realli realli try.. then i'll be able to do it.. =) i try to look at it like this..

i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. philippians 4:13

who noes... maybe i will survive this year... maybe i'll learn the most valuable lessons which life could ever teach me.. maybe it all just depends on how i look at things.. maybe maybe maybe.. i think it's best if i just live for wat i can, instead of living for wat i speculate could happen... if i don't live now, i just might miss everything.

hmmm... 3 days left in s'pore! now.. things are kinda rushed... turns out i won't be able to catch up with all the church pplz coz of their skool 'n everything.. hmm.. regret... something i'm totally familiar with... somehow.. everything arnd me starts to remind me of regret... oh crap.. now being "nicely-kicked-off" the computer.. will finish this later.. =)

finally!! first cny in s'pore! big thing? umm... welllll... from a families' perspective.. not realli... i mean.. it's kinda kewl bcoz of the whole "tradition" thing.. but.. its not like.. realli B-I-G.. if u noe wat i mean.. afta the reunion dinner (which was like.. sooooooooo much fooodd!!!) we sat arnd.. with one of my cuzin's, trying to convince everyone to go to OCC (a country club) to play pool.. butttt....we ended up sitting arnd for the next hour 'n a bit just talking.. talking abt going out to play pool.. sooo... we then came up with the idea to go to chinatown.. which at 11:30pm on cny EVE, was NOT.. i repeat NOT a good idea.. so in the end we stuck with pool...BUT! wen we got to OCC... pool was closed.. soooo.. bowling was the next preference.. annywayy... we ended up bowling.. i bowled soo craappp.... 105 was my top score out of 3 games.. ahh weelll... we all haf our gd 'n bad days i suppose... but yeah.. it was fun.. hehe... =D it'd been a while since i went bowling with ALL of my cuzins.. (minus 2..) its like.. even the older ones went.. like the one who JUST got married.. lol... kinda makes me realli appreciative of how close my family can be sometimes... 'n its like.. things are comfortable u noe? i see these guyz like once every four-five years? 'n still... its as if we see each other everyday... sure we don't realli know each other.. but... regardless of tt.. we still can treat each other with such love and care! its kind of a good feeling.. i mean no matter who the person is.. i guess everyone likes to feel loved.. rite? but overall.. it was a good nite.. 'n i just thank God for wat He's given me...

oh man.. its been aaggeess since i last posted.. hah.. lol.. trust me to forget bout this.. oopz! but yeaahhhhh.....happy new year everyone! lol...even tho its like... 3 weeks late? heahea.. but yeah...now its due time to wish everyone a happy CHINESE new year.. so gong xi fa cai annddd... xing nian quai le..! sorry if my ping yin is wrong.. but oopz... i gotta go now.. ah well... will find other time to update this... b4 i go bak to skool 'neways... but yeah... ciao! =D *gRiNz*