本小姐's handsome boyfriend is JulianYJF.

KRISTLE NG PEI SHAN.

itouch.
hellokitty gold mj tiles.
that dorothy perkins dress.
polaroid film
leather biker
denim jacket
more wedges
more heels
more clothes

GO
overseas

WATCH
The Proposal
UP
Murderer

ARCHIVES
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009

Offically switched to Livejournal again.

Labels: never to be back again.

im gonna buy this electric guitar! :D

sigh.

ohyes, when i was window shopping with honey and boon just now,

okaaaaaaaay.

不知从哪个时候，我所为的父母已经成为了我的房客。
家也只是个累了才回去睡觉的地方。
i gave up expecting anything from this family.

Labels: the one who suffers.

Cancer:

Positive:
Emotional and loving
Intuitive and imaginative
Shrewd and cautious
Protective and sympathetic

Negative:
Changeable and moody
Overemotional and touchy
Clinging and unable to let go

Warmhearted and loving
Persistent and determined
Placid and security loving

CapricornAquarius:Pisces:Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively
N:
Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitiveDetermined and forceful
Emotional and intuitive
Powerful and passionate
Exciting and magnetic
N:
Jealous and resentful
Compulsive and obsessive
Secretive and obstinateSagittarius:

bored to death. almost.

Labels: thank you very much.

hp&internet is down.

Labels: once upon a lifetime.

DAMN.
3more modules.

3-26aug: Entrepreneurship & Intrapreneurship
26oct-9dec:Travel & Tourism Management.
7jan-25feb:Operation & Quality Management.

D:
but my Paradox supervisor called to ask if im interested to help her out at the new boutique.
pay increasement! :D
YEAH MAN!

Labels: with your love im strong.

Aug'09

10MON
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
12WED
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
19WED
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
20THUR
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
21FRI
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
24MON
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox
26WED
9.30AM-3.30PM Paradox

Labels: forced for money.

work was fine.
kinda slack.

going tampines library to study tmr.
aircon! :D

Labels: will always be my baby.

GREAT NEWS!
i found a weekend job! :D
all thanks to classmate keith.
thanks! (:

anyway, tmr gonna be the first day of work.
working for m1 roadshow! :D
$7/hr.
honey might be joining me for work next week onwards.

all is well. :D
i need money.
but i need my silly even more.
so he's gonna work with me :D
most probably.

Labels: i love you.

sweetie honey is bringing me out tmr!
:D



i told him few days back that i always wanted to go to the NDP.
&silly's bringing me to watch the preview tmr! :D
together with his gay partner.
damn, why are you all snatching my silly? D:

first it was tankwenboon.(who's sup to be my "brother"- he calls me jiejie! :D)
now, its his classmate kevin. D:

but thanks to him, i get to go to the NDP preview. :D
honey managed to get the free tickets from him!




















I LOVE MY SILLY BOYFRIEND.
ALOT.




败给你说话的眼睛
败给你微笑的魔力
不知不觉想每天跟你在一起
败给你少一根神经
爱上你这是我的命
我们世界原来就等这默契
(:






i cant wait for:

• national day.
• lantern festival.
• my cousin's wedding dinner.
• christmas.
• chinese new year.

i cant wait to get:

• itouch.
• my hair straightened.
• my diploma cert.
• a full-time job.
• rich.

alright.
gonna stress this again.

i.

love.

my.

silly.

honey.

boyfriend.

yeo.

julian.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

very.

much.

he needs reassurance quite often. (:

Labels: this will go on forever.

like the guy daddy mentioned.
the guy who will love me, dote on me, care for me, protect me, think for me.
all these years, no other guys treated me like you do.
not even close.

i love you.
all the way, till the end.

went vivo with honey.
watched HP6.
not as nice as i expected.
kinda disappointing D:

we decided.
if we cant get a toy pom, we'll get a yorkshire terrier.
:D
so cute.

i love my darling silly honey sweetie!

Labels: you'll always be a part of me.

i need money.
D:



feeling so poor as compared to before.
last time, whenever i go shopping, i would have at least 50bucks with me.
now, i can only afford to window shop. D:

met up with my bitch ytd after her school. before my school.
went t1,tm&cs windowshop.
i totally looooooooooooove this dorothy perkins top-dress.
its on sale alr! $29.
damnnnnn.
and i only have 5bucks.
D:


when i get my pay, i have to straighten my hair.
been saying that since forever.
lucky for me, shanice intro me this cheap place. :D


i want to buy that top-dress.
haven bought any clothes for long ok. D:


currently still looking for more part-time jobs. :D
let me know if you have any to intro!

Parents think they know what the kids of today are going through. Kids of the 21st century are going through a lot more pressure, stress and aggression than back when your parents were kids. Things have changed. Smoking, alcohol, depression, everywhere you turn. The streets aren't safe. Unfortunately, parents aren't that smart.

i dont understand why most teens dont want to let their parents read their blog or know about their life. i love to let my mama&daddy know about everything that is going on with my life. dont come telling me im feeling this way cos my parents dont care about me. its not forever that they're less concerned. its only the recent years. few years back, my parent and i had very close r/s.

of cos, i had my rebelious age.
which was sec2. yeah, when i was looking like a total nerd and stuffs.
my parents were worried i would mix with bad company and stopped me from going out. i was feeling very unhappy. mainly because, none of my friends were bad bad. plus, i dint do anything wrong to deserve that.

but i managed to convince my parents to trust me.

tips:
1. talk to your parents about how you feel.
dont be afraid to let them know how unhappy you feel. they will be upset, but it wont be for long. all parents love their kids. they want to be the best parent too. as long as they know how you feel, they'll reflect and try to change.

2. if your parents are still stubborn and refused to give in, (like my mum),
write on your blog or diary or just a piece of paper.
let them see it accidently on purpose.
it will make them "listen".
cos when you speak to your parents, when they heard something they dont like, they can always cut you off and walk away.

3. force them to face the fact that you're grown up.
LOL.
wad i did was to run away from home. it made my parents worried. but the good thing is, it helped them realised how much they cant afford to lose me. HAH! and ofcos i took good care of myself. cant let my parents think that im doing that out of childishness and stufff. ok, running away from home aint exactly very mature anyway. i made them realised that i CAN live without them. but i choose to live WITH THEM. because i love them. and i want them to love me back. lol.

but ofcos, dont do it more thaan twice.
at the third try, your parents will ignore you. LOL.

WikiHow Tips.

• Locking themselves in bed rooms could mean they are getting depressed.
• Don't get upset or yell at them, as that will just make everything worse.
• Try to be interested in what they are interested in.

GOD BLESS YOU.
MAY YOUR DADDY& MUMMY UNDERSTAND YOU AS MUCH AS YOU WANT THEM TO.

but most importantly, show them that they can trust you, and that you are mature enough to make your own RIGHT decisions. (:

i love you so so much.

i may not be the best you can ever get. but at least, my love for you is true. i know that im quite sensitive at times, but when i said i can forgive and forget, i meant it. everybody makes mistakes. as long as you are willing to change, you deserve a second chance. and i will love you even more. after going through so much together, im much much more determined. i will not let any other things affect us. you're the only guy in this world who can make me feel this way.

so loved and doted on.

i'll never let go of this sweetsweet bond between us.
you're my forever love.
♥






dont come asking me why 13months since we broke up twice in between.

cos, we never really left each other.

ever.

Labels: ♥

"FRIENDS"
you know that you can no longer be friends

when you start comparing with each other.
when you say/do things to make "your friend" look bad.
when you gossip about them all the time.
when you dont keep their secrets.
when you embarrass them.

"LOVE"
Jealousy differs from envy in that jealousy is about something one has and is afraid of losing, while envy refers to something one does not have and either wants to acquire or to prevent another from acquiring.
Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values.

come to think of it, im not jealous when "my bf flirts/ hooks up with another girl".
im only jealous when i feel that the girl is much better than me.
if that girl's not my match, i'll just laugh over his choice.

(NO OFFENCE!)
:D doing it the chinee-way.



im okay with people copying me.
because it shows how interesting i am.
seriously, if you're like freaking boring, nobody will read your blog/ look at your facebook/ talk to you.
let alone copy you. (:

possible for ppl who dislikes you to copy you?
since they dislike you so much, why bother copying?

singapore is such a small place.
i believe that its possible to go to places where your friends just visited.
especially when they say you must go there.

lol.

• KFR w/ bitch and sillyhoney.
  miss it so much.
• DSI with sillyhoney @PP.
  miss it alot.
• DD w/ sister.
• DD w/ vian.
• watch HP with sillyhoney.
• meetup w/ bitch.

dont worry, this time, im not saying about kuanling.
lol.

<3 sillyhoney.

heheh.
honey & i decided to do something really fun!
but im not gonna tell anybody about it.
incase SOMEBODY decided to copy us again.
:D

HAH! eat shit, copycats!

Labels: love my silly honey.

my pinky is sick. >.<
cant connect that often.
gonna bring her for repair.
sigh.

i love my boy.
we're much much happier now then before.
he loves me and dotes on me.
he cares for me and is willing to give up anything for me.
but me? i guess i still gotta learn.



met my bitch when i was really down.
im really glad i have her by my side.
had a feeling we're drifting apart and i may end up losing her.
but when i msged her, she met me straight away.
im so touched. (:


even if everyone's gonna turn their back on me, at least i know for sure.
that i'll never lose my boy & my bitch.
i love you both.
very very much.
<3

我为你付出了这么多，你却无法了解我的心意。
我应该做什么才能让你知道，我是真的真的很爱你。

i hate to make choices.
but if i really have to make one, my boy will come first.
because he's the only one who can make me feel this way.

Labels: honeymoon period right?

havent been blogging for long.

29june-
darling came over in the morning.<3
went out for lunch.
walk walked.
went home.
shanice came over at 10plus to countdown to my bday.<3
sasa&chinee came over about 12am to suprise me. <3
sent sasa down.
chatted at voiddeck with chinee.
went back home to sleep.
30june-
woke up at 6.30, woke shanice up.
went back to sleep.
woke up at 7.30, woke chinee up.
went back to sleep.
darling came at 10.30.
went back to sleep till 3plus.
prepared.
went chompchomp.
went kovan for pool.
stayed at chinee's house.

1july-
met babe&hunks at clarkequay for dinner.
the manhattan fish market!
their platters are nice.
freaking nice.<3
dearies bought me 17donuts instead of cakes.
:D


WOW.
and thanks people who msged to my other lines.
incase you havent know, I CHANGED MY NUMBER ALR!
dont msg to those two number alr.
91196873 & 84447633
new number is 8367****
ask from me.
thanks for the presents and cards.
headphones.
diva necklace.
phone charm.

love you guys.

met up with cousins for early celebration.
kbox @ cineleisure.
dinner @ sushi tei, ngee ann city.
:D

thanks for the treat! (:

met shanice & her kid sister, shongyi, at woodlands.
took mrt to somerset.
walked around cineleisure while waiting for shuxian & shujun.
saw shannon working at NUM, talked awhile.
accompany cousins lunch at xinwang.
aunty came to fetch shongyi home before i managed to take a photo with her.
she's cute but talkative. lol.
kbox from 4-9pm.
walked to ngee ann city, sushi tei for dinner.
trained back home after that.


my cousins & i dont look alike.
the only family traits is,
our big eyes.
O.O


:D

Labels: please understand.

damn.
im supposed to plan where to go with my cousins on sunday, 28june.
but i cant think of anywhere to go!
>.<

shanice coming over in the morning.
meeting shuxian after 1plus.
cheryl's meeting us at 8plus.

and i cant think of where to go.
D:

singapore is so boring.
shopping?
movie?
sing k?
eat?
chill?
>.O

gosh, im a lousy planner.

shanice seems kinda down.
cheer up girl, you have da jie here for you!
:D

please understand.

&sweet, i'll do anything for you.
as long as you're happy, thats what i'll do.

silly lost his precious. >.O
shanice came to stay.

today;
went downstairs for br-unch.
went to woodlands with shanice.
went julian's house.
IRONMAN-ed & SOF-ed.

LOL. yeah man!
KRISTLE NG PEI SHAN can play SOF! :D
im fucking pro lah! >.O

alrites, i shall go sleep alr.
1.09am :D

i'll give you a chance to prove them wrong.
you better not let me go ever again.
<3

Labels: 25th.

today's plan.

• transformer
• karaoke

hoping it'll turn out just fine.
i dont want to lose you as a friend.
but love is fucking selfish.


当时是你一手把我推开的。
我真的不知道要怎样对待你。
对你好， 你会对我有所期待。
对你坏，我自己会过意不去。
对不起。

Labels: open your eyes and look around

urgh, fuck off.
you guys made me fucking pissed.

watched i love you, man with julian today.
bought 2 nail polishes.

started off with 4.
silver, red, electric blue, metalic blue.

bought 2 more today.
orange&pink.

the face shop nail polishes are nice.
other than the pasar malam ones.

Labels: thats the reason why i dont make friends

<33

sillysillydumbdumb.
sorry.

you thought they understand.
but in actual fact, they dont.

thursday, 25june2009.

• movie
• kbox with cliques.

sunday, 28june2009.

• kbox/dinner with cousins.

monday, 29june2009.

• dinner
• chill with babe and hunk.
• ton with shanice(?)

tueday, 30june2009. <3

• booked by julianyeo.
• chompchomp with clique.

idk when im meeting my bitch&gf. ):

Labels: love should be so beautiful.

6/22/2009 12:44:56 PM
screamTHREAD; JULIAN: I WILL ONLY HAVE ONE SWEET SPIRIT

Funfacts:

• Kangaroo means "i dont know" in Guugu Yimidhirr language.
• Crocodile tears cannot be authentic because crocodiles cannot cry; they lack tear ducts.

Labels: you dont deserve to cry.

• grey kangaroo can hop up to 13 km.
• crocodiles have weak jaw muscles, a rubberband around its mouth can prevent bites.
• new born baby kangaroos are even smaller than 8weeks old foetus.
• falla ella is about 7palms tall, pony is about 13palm tall, horses about 30palms tall(?).
• elephants can be really cute.
• horses are fucking smelly.
• you cant take much nice pictures at the zoo with just 2ppl.
  

Labels: happy.

Labels: turn it back.

(drag me to hell)-ed.
staying over at chinee's house with ssq.
boring.
):

today's plans.

• mahjong
• drag me to hell
• dinner

havent met up for MJ for so long.
people going:

1. kristle
2. chinee
3. vanessa
4. her bf
5. kwenboon
6. mingteck
7. shaoquan
8. jiahui
9. weiming

:D

no plans for tmr yet.
no plans for tmr's tmr too.

Labels: i want all the pain to go away.

back on track.
things will be fine. right?

i wished there's someone i can hug.

Labels: wished.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: coke
2. Last phone call: mummy
3. Last text message: kwenboon
4. Last song you listened to: 解脱
5. Last time you cried: 2hours ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yes
7. Been cheated on: yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no.
9. Lost someone special: ya
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.red
13.white
14.black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Been a good girl: yes
16. made lotsa friends: no
17. Laughed until you cried: ya
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: no
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 99999999
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2/3
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: no
27. What time did you wake up today: 10.30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: bloghopping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: moving on
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 2hours ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: everything
30. What are you listening to right now: tv
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: the silence
36. Whats your real name: ng pei shan
37. Nicknames: krissy, poopoo
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: cancer
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: poi ching
42. High School?: hihs
43. College?: erc
44. Hair colour: red-brown
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: 152
47. Do you have a crush on someone?:no
48: What do you like about yourself?: idk
49. Piercings: 3
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: right

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: no
53. First piercing: ear
54. First best friend: jane
55. First sport: swimming
56. First vacation: australia
58. First pair of trainers: ..

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: coke
61. I'm about to: continue
62. Listening to: tv
63. Waiting on: everything to be over

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: 1boy 1 girl
65. Get Married?: yea
66. Career?: own

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger:older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: r/s
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: ..


HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes
79. Sex on first date: no
80. Broken someone's heart: yes
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yes
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: yes
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date:no
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody? no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 13june2008
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 13june2008
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: no

and im shocked beyond words.

Labels: let this be the last words i tell my love

and just wanted to let you know
i really thought of bringing you to disneyland
i was thinking of you throughout the whole day
everything i did i was thinking kristle would like this kristle would like that
going with you would be so much better than going with my family
but the tickets are like $70 per person so ex!!!
if can i sure bring you come one i'm not just saying
i miss you ok!
love you!

Labels: not anymore.

i hate you
fuck you bitch.

you know i totally meant S-L-U-T.

im doing so much to get you out of my mind.
not to get a new r/s.

i admit, i still love you very much.
so what? this r/s not gonna work out with us both being so stubborn.
we have to give in to each other. not just one way.

till then.

in order this time.

• hans breakfast at centuarysq
• walked around cs
• then to tm
• then to t1
• then to library
• lunch at tm
• bus-ed home
• disappointed

my 肚子 very pain.
fever is gone, but the pain remained.



dont assume if you dunno anything.
nobody can gets on to a brand new r/s right after a break up.
and who ever said anything about getting together?



Main Entry:
sad
Part of Speech:
adjective
Definition:
unhappy, depressed
Synonyms:
bereaved, bitter, blue, cheerless, dejected, despairing, despondent, disconsolate, dismal, distressed, doleful, down, down in dumps, down in mouth, downcast, forlorn, gloomy, glum, grief-stricken, grieved, heartbroken, heartsick, heavyhearted, hurting, in doldrums, in grief, in the dumps, languishing, low, low-spirited, lugubrious, melancholy, morbid, morose, mournful, out of sorts, pensive, pessimistic, sick at heart, somber, sorrowful, sorry, troubled, weeping, wistful, woebegone
Antonyms:
cheerful, glad, happy, joyful

保持沉默， 什么都不要说

Labels: maintain this status quo.

im scared.
so so scared.

i want to have somebody looking after me when im sick.
):

Labels: hot and cold.

In random orders.

• movie was alrite.
• had dinner at LJS.
• still trying to get use to life without you.
• peach hong cha still tasted the same.
• im feeling sick.
• nobody can ever replace you.
• i dont want to hurt anyone.
• or to be hurt.
• i love you.
• i loved you.

Your birth tree is
Apple Tree, the Love
Of slight build, lots of charm, appeal and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious,
adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and
tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree
philosopher with imagination.

Labels: thats all you've got?

i hope you know it hurts so so much.
im trying so hard to put on a smile.
it hurts me and everyone around.
it hurts to see mummy worried.

i held back my tears to convince everyone im fine.
but if i tell you that im over you, would you believe?

A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

Labels: i love you too much, it hurts.

fuck happy 13.

not working anymore.
its a scam lo.
D:


ghost of girlfriend's past tonight!
thanks buddy.



mj @ boon house on wed!
chomp2 after that!
happy happy!

Labels: never to be back again.

i miss him again.
):

trying so hard to keep myself occupied.
fuck 13.

Labels: at least, not anytime soon.

not as unwanted as i expected. (:


got to thank so many ppl!

SASA:
dearest bitch! thanks for your hugs and hugs and more hugs.
really calmed me down alot.
really glad to have you.

MERYL:
babe! thanks for accompanying me to watch HM! (:
had great laughs with you!
looking forward to meet up more often.
tsktsk. (:

CHINEE:
thou you're kinda far away, but you gave me some advices thru the phone calls.
appreciated.
thannnnnnnnnnnnnk you, MEH-BEH? :D

SHANICE:
sister! thanks for coming all the way to tampines to accompany me.
and im not acting strong, I AM STRONG!
muahahahahahahha! :D

the rest of the guys:
thanks for the "applications".
LOL!
made me laugh dao du zi tong.


at least i know that, all of you will be there for me!
and yes, i'll move on.

Labels: thank you very much.

你离开我会过得更快乐
可对于软弱的我
回忆就足够

Labels: 想快乐也只是一种强求

it hurts to know you're not affected.
it hurts so so much, but i can do nothing.

why is it that, im thinking so much about the happy moments, but still cry?
i fucking hate myself.

i cant sleep well,
or eat well,
or think hard,
or stop crying.

Labels: i want all the pain to go away.

Labels: thats my babe.

initially wanted to change to fuckyou.bs
but its taken.
so i tried fuckyouback.bs
also taken.
so ended up with fuckyouagain.bs

rest assured, im a pure virgin.

Labels: fya.blogspot.com

its taking my sleep away.

Labels: 1st day.

i hate this empty feeling in me.

Labels: i love you honey, too bad.

i love you, but its not working out.

Labels: and. he'll get the freedom he's been yearning for.

today's the third day you're ignoring me.
i miss you so much.
what exactly did i do that made you so angry with me?
i really dunno.

i so want to feel your hug & kisses right now.
but i know its impossible.
this time, we're both being very stubborn.

i love you, but i dont want to be only one giving in so much.

Labels: the third day.

i feel so pathetic.

mummy, daddy, meryl, sasa, chinee &of cos julian.
they're the only close ones i have in this world.
ever since daddy&mummy started their thing, i've been depending so much on the rest of them.
my parents arent loving& caring so much about me anymore.

as for now, all i want is for you to love me, to dote on me.
im sick and tired of giving in.
you never knew how much i've put into this relationship.
much much more than anything else.

i really love you so much.
and i dunno what to do.
why dont you tell me instead.

tell me what to do.

Labels: i never knew, loving could be so heartbreaking.