Yoyoz everybody~!! If there is anybody left here anyway. Firstly, happy new year~!! So, it has been months since I last have any entry. Time sure pass fast. Its 2008 already! Alway wanted to update my blog, but it doesn't seems like I have much interesting to say. Now, taking some time to have some updates.
Since ORDed, life is quite hectic, as well as busy. I have worked in Schenker, resigned, joined NYK. I joined NYK, Nippon Yusen Kaisha, ashipping company for abt 2 months as operation supervisor. Work is relatively ok, just that unfixed working hours, burnt weekends. Other thanthat, its pretty much good. Work is quite relax with own pace, do have time to slack in office. People here, are all nice too.
Hectic, talk about hectic..I still remember, the first time I come acrossthis word, few years back. Hahaz..i guess none of you know what I am talking abt. Now, life sure change tremenous. Everyone is busy with their own stuff. Barely able to be lame with FJJLB, soccer is not around everyweek anymore, no more freaky Fridayz, no more let's go, no more clubbin, no more wii nights, no much kohi. Guess can't be helped, everyone have their own lives now.
For my life recently, well, for those who don't know, major happenings would be Cindy & me have broke up. I know your reaction would be, "Huh??!! WHY?!! Who initiated?! " Hahaz..I got this reaction from almost everyone. Why...? Um..every RS have their problems. Lets just say I met mine & didn't make it this time. Who initiated, does it matter at all? The outcome is the same. =) Didn't know I will face this too. For 3 years, I have been consoling friends, telling them to let go, not to think so much, etc. Now its my turn to say to myself all that. Hahaz..indeed, it was way easier saying to them. No worries all my friends, I am fine. Just needed some time to get all fine. So bear with my "sianxz" awhile eh. Specially thanks to Yang, all of FJJLB, Jaz, Otome, MF, ZF, heartless creep XY, Regine, Mel, Faithy, Quek & Samantha for being there for me this while. But you know, probably more than ½ of them I mentioned, doesn't come to my blog anyway. Probably none! Hahaz..think again, I have been there for most of them when they needed me too. Time flies, can't believe at a blink, Cindy have been with me through NS & even, we came to an end. Perhaps, over time, people get too used to life, think that things will remain that way forever. I can't deny, I should have cherished more too. Guess its hard for human to learn something like that. Well to everyone, cherish everything you having now. Nothing last forever too..even the wounds of a breakup.
*Yawn* Sorry soccer people. Not feeling too well to attend the dinner tonight. May you people enjoy yourselves.
Came across this email. Worth a reading..
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This is a very good article. Read it. Those who are still single may learn something from here.... Those who are already married may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage.... DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON? During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighingon your mind.Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted theirtouch, and liked their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completelynatural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That'swhy it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there;doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU. Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. Butafter a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother(if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), andyour spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you thinkabout your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between theinitial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry theright person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of thelove you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someoneelse. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for theirunhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfilment. Extramarital fulfilment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that youcouldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labour of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific thingsyou can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If youknow and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make"love. Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.
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I was afraid of falling, so I stayed at ground level, only seeing what's infront of me.
You came along & made me climb higher & higher with you.
As I got higher & higher, I was able see further & further.
As I was able see further & further, ground level became more & more unclear.
As ground level became more & more unclear, eventually I lost sight of it.
As I lost sight of what's infront, I didn't reach the further we saw on the top floor.
How do you say good bye to someone, whom you never thought of living without?
I just left silently..
