I have been doubting my role an engineer, and the doubt is becoming more overwhelming than ever. I am more destructive than I am in constructive. Or maybe I am just a smart aleck, and reality hits right smack in the face.
This project has been a steep learning curve, compared to the previous two internship, this is actually the worst by date. At first I was still contemplating doing research in engineering, then I am rather certain of not doing it. My mom claims that once I complete this project the sense of achievement would change my mind. I have my qualms, seeing this project is not progressing on a positive note at all. But I cant foresee impending situations, and mom's best. Ill just keep my hopes up for the moment.
Now, I am even doubting my capability to be an engineer. Maybe I am just better off working with a computer and causing no damage to anything else. On another note, a job in IT seems more inviting than ever looking at the bleak future of me being an engineer.
I hope this is just all a phase. A phase I have to go through seeing I was certain ill be an engineer since young. Maybe it was influence. But I cant shake off this perturbing feeling. Maybe... Just maybe...
Peepz, don't worry. Ill survive... I always do... Hopefully I make a come back with a bigger bang :)
Friday, April 15, 2011
Monday, April 04, 2011
Time to catch a short breath
As a protest to the previous post i wrote that got deleted, I shall keep this short. No idea what I did, this is the second time this happened to me before.
Life is crazy albeit it is only week 5. The transition from year 1 to year 2 was exponential, then life took a break in year 3. Then 4th year surged to a new historic peak; final year project is always looming around, and the other electives are not easy, being rather theoretical and mathematical. The load increased ten-fold. But I guess its my final year, all these years, 15 years of studying is just for one piece of paper. I just want to get out of the student life. Everyone say once you start working you will miss the student life, but then again, not many wants to go back to student life.
Just a few updates:
Sydney is good, Melbourne is good too. I am rather torn between the two cities, both have it perks. Will see what the future holds for me.
Taking ENG 4700, as interesting as it sounds, the lecturer is too busy, he cancels half of his classes. In a way its good, I have more time on hand, with the hectic schedule I am having I can only be grateful. This unit its about Engineering technology. Sounds interesting and intriguing, but the 3 reports to be handed in is a major turn off. On the bright side, I'll be getting my hands dirty on Holography.
FYP is just piles n piles of never ending work. A robotic arm heals when it is working, its futile when it cant be controlled, but deadly when it is out of control. My FYP is plain perplexing. It is a never ending project, it is intricate. As cool as it looks, the problem is probably just as much. But since I have chosen it, i'll just embrace it and hopefully it works out without jeopardizing my future.
Went to watch Andrew Lloyd Webber theatrical event at Regents. It was a rather nice place, a lot more classy than the Princess (I think). We got cheap tickets, but had dress circle seating. It was a good show, did not know Andrew composed such many good songs. Then I heard that he has much scandals too, I guess people who are talented always have other issues.
Regent Theatre
Cookie time... An obese star-shaped cookie.
Life is crazy albeit it is only week 5. The transition from year 1 to year 2 was exponential, then life took a break in year 3. Then 4th year surged to a new historic peak; final year project is always looming around, and the other electives are not easy, being rather theoretical and mathematical. The load increased ten-fold. But I guess its my final year, all these years, 15 years of studying is just for one piece of paper. I just want to get out of the student life. Everyone say once you start working you will miss the student life, but then again, not many wants to go back to student life.
Just a few updates:
Sydney is good, Melbourne is good too. I am rather torn between the two cities, both have it perks. Will see what the future holds for me.
Taking ENG 4700, as interesting as it sounds, the lecturer is too busy, he cancels half of his classes. In a way its good, I have more time on hand, with the hectic schedule I am having I can only be grateful. This unit its about Engineering technology. Sounds interesting and intriguing, but the 3 reports to be handed in is a major turn off. On the bright side, I'll be getting my hands dirty on Holography.
FYP is just piles n piles of never ending work. A robotic arm heals when it is working, its futile when it cant be controlled, but deadly when it is out of control. My FYP is plain perplexing. It is a never ending project, it is intricate. As cool as it looks, the problem is probably just as much. But since I have chosen it, i'll just embrace it and hopefully it works out without jeopardizing my future.
Went to watch Andrew Lloyd Webber theatrical event at Regents. It was a rather nice place, a lot more classy than the Princess (I think). We got cheap tickets, but had dress circle seating. It was a good show, did not know Andrew composed such many good songs. Then I heard that he has much scandals too, I guess people who are talented always have other issues.
Regent Theatre
Cookie time... An obese star-shaped cookie.