My crazy dad is more enthusiastic about my results than I am. He actually took 15 copies of the Sun. Talk about obsessive. He called me more than 10 times from yesterday since i got my results. He keeps calling and calling, and asking and telling, i am going to have a headache soon.

People who are greedy are never satisfied with what they have. They just want more, more than what they have.Even though it is adequate, they are never happy. They become more unhappy as they dont get what they want. Why those such people exist? Why can people just be content with what they have? Why?Why? I feel tired with all the chasing and competing, yet I refuse to give up. Is this what they call 'kiasu'? Or you just want to try your best when you are attempting something?

I feel a sense of relief and solace, now that the results are out. But, there is still something, but i dont know wha tis it. Hopefully, this would be the past. Yet, it determines the future. I need to let it go.

Wow, i cooked a proper meal today. What an achievement! Although this home cook food is not healthy at all, with extra oil and extremely salty. I guess it is not bad for a first timer, as i didnt burn the whole kitchen down.

Things i learned:

1. Never throw a fish into a frying pan. This could cause a pool of oil.
   
2. Never try toflip a fish when u are a yard away from the pan, u cant flip it.
   
3. Wear gloves and cover your hand when you are frying a pan.
4. Never let my sister cook. She tends to throw everytying in, salt, soya sauce, oyster sauce, pati ayam....apparently to add taste.
   
5. Never trust her when it comes to cooking.Lousy pandu puteri.
6. Try not to make a mess out of the kitchen.

Definitely this is one of the worst meal i eaten.Hopefully i dont grow skinnier in this one month. It is impossible to gain weight. And i seriously have to gain weight, just in case i really go Australia next year. I dont want to get blown away by the wind. It almost happened to my sister, she felt like she was going to fly, and she is heavier than me.

It was last year since i last blogged. I guess my old sickness is back; too lazy to blog. Well, i did not see the need to blog. I do not need to release any suppressed anger or tension, unlike last year. And i am sort of too occupied with college, with the work and everyting.

When i started college this year, i felt i was rushing through it. A part of me felt like starting college, but another part of me felt like waiting and chilling. I needed more time to relax after SPM(can't consider the one month after SPM, i was busy most of the time). I needed more time to recoup. i ignored the feeling. But this feeling became stronger when the tests came. I felt lost and stress again, i felt like quiting everything and just do nothing. Obviously there is no way my dad would let me do it. One thing i was sure that the 4 Dec deja vu left an impact on me. But one way or another, i need to confront this feeling. I guess this only was to succumb this fear is on the March 12. Everything will have to end then.


Sam is calling everyone 'lansi'. Wonder when she started with that word. I was another victim of her besides F. I was innocent and did nothing.
S: I need one more mark. You spare me one mark la.
L: Take lo. Doesn't matter.
S: Not that it is possible anyway.
Next thing i know it she is telling everyone about this. You do the judging, am i 'lansi'?
(0mission or change of words shall be excused)

Old habits die hard. I agree with this saying. Sam habit of promoting my marks to everyone in CBN has been brought to Taylors. She is still promoting my marks for me. NO! Worst of all, she is not in my class, so now her class knows everything. Even my classmates dont make such a big deal over it.