Life and death is a natural cycle of life. Yet, what is worst than death but the thought that you would no long be remembered?No longer be able to hold the person you once love so much?No longer put your arms around the shoulder of one's who needs it so much?

It is not until the time where you actually lose that someone that you feel the pain and sorrow. You start to wonder about the past. What would have been different in the past, if you managed to changed it? Then what the present would be like if you changed it? What will be the future then? Yet, there's nothing you can do.

As the day reaches, you start to realise and accept that death is actually a phase that must occur.But you cant help but to feel the helplessness, feel that you miss the person; all kinds of memories start to flood your mind: happy, sad, bitter, sweet... You feel the need and urge to be able to grab hold of that someone one more time, at least for one last time...But you can't.You are drown in your own sorrow.

But, life goes on.The person is gone, but the memories stay. It is the memories that keep the person alive, always there in your heart, mind, and soul.

Let the past be the past.The past remains the past; what is most important is the present and future. Cherish the present and not left yourself regret for the present; and hope and work hard for the future, as there always is a future to look forward to.

*Forget regret or life is yours to miss*

You are in a forest.Lost in it. You continue to walk but you have no idea where does the path leads you to. You want to give up, but giving up is not an option. If you give up, then you can never achieve what you yearned for. Yet, in this forest,there are many trees and bushes, and sometimes they have sharp thorns. You feel trapped. Helpless. You are hurt and injured. And this journey would just get harder and harder. The way out is not anywhere near sight.

God, this post is too sappy......

Then you realise, you have everything you need. This journey might be difficult, but with these extra 'help', it might be that hard after all. The sun starts to shine, and everything just seems so conspicuous after all.

Life was never easy, but remember when god closes a door, he opens a window. You just need to know that someone always has your back, and that someone would never mind lending you a hand or a shoulder, and this make all the difference in the world. So, "Just do it!!!"

Now i gotta stop......This is getting out of hand.......

Sometimes friends are like mirrors. They are one's reflection. Reflection of one's emotion. They might not understand what is happening, but yet they feel sad when you are sad.

STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!

I gotta admit that my classmates are nuts. For NL birthday, they actually bought a box of condoms. Weird huh? they wanted the whole class to sign on it. So how to do sign on something that small? Fitting 27 names in 12 of it. Well, they blew it and then we signed. Gross? I totally agree. I know it has fruit taste and a little oily, but the thought of your mouth having contact with it, is just disgusting. Im glad i wasnt blowing...... =p

Last week was cold war.This week was the war where Pearl Habour gone bombed and everyone was caught off guard. Surprised with the suddent attack.

It was all in the name of 'FUN',to celebrate one's birthday,to let her enjoy this once a year occasion.Yet everything seemed to backfired. Some of the plans were even cancelled before we could actually 'exhibit' it. Worst, there was an aftereffect of this 'fun'. This is the 2nd time in this month that a misunderstanding occurred and i am to take the blame for initiating this 'war'.

Talking about wars,i just realised i am quite prone to accident.Over the weekend i managed to sprained my ankle,wounded one knee,bruised the other,sprained the my left fingers and injured my arm.Was I involved in a fight?Nope.Accidents just like to come my way.=s

3 days of holidays end.NO!!!3 days is insufficient but holidays are never enough.But these 3 days just passed so fast.

During independence day,instead of the usual watching the TV,we decided to play badminton.I have been addicted to badminton recently.Playing it at least thrice a month.I had not played badminton since ages ago.I forgot how i used to play badminton with my mom when i was young outside our house.That was the only sports we do together,as she does not play basketball at all.we played for 2 and a half hour.And i wanted to continue to play after that,i guess i was extra hyper and energetic that day. After badminton,we headed to Times Square.We ate at this restaurant called the 'Five Treasure'.I was really peeved when they forgot my order.After 3 reminders only they served me my meal.I was going to start crapping in English if my order didnt come,as i was really hungry and annoyed.Thank god,someone shared her food with me or my temper would be worst. I guess that day was just not my day,somehow Baskin Robbins managed to messed my order up too.I order a pint with fruit citrus and choc mousse royale.But instead of giving me my Choc Mousse Royale,it turned out to be some ice cream with coconut taste with NUTS.Extra eww.Then at night my mom and i had dinner at Japan Club.And the service was really bad that day.They totally didnt serve us,didnt even give us the menu until we asked it for a millionth time,fine 3 times.Argh!!! But besides all the lousy food services, i enjoyed the whole day.

PS We should do this more often. =p

This year's birthday is the most memorable birthday! I had a great time! Thanks to everyone who contributed to this year 'birthday bash'. I will always remember you guys.

The celebration started on the 28 August 2007. I went to 1U with my CW friends. We had dinner at BBQ Plaza, which Jing Bangs and I went for our outing to 1U.It brought back memories *reminiscence the past *.I remember that time Sam was our 'mother'.She cooked for us, and 'forced' us to eat our vegetable (which tastes awful). Back to the present, we went there for dinner. TCH,LYK,SY,SL,KW Serene was there. Sue picked me up.Then when she drove out, heading towards Old Klang Road,she was flagged down by the police for driving on the bus lane.While she was trying to turn out but she could not and she was sort of distracted with a phone call.Somehow she managed to escape but as a consequence her wallet was empty.I felt guilty.Although she did not say anything,but one way or another,indirectly i was related to her unfortunate event. When we reached 1U,everyone was there. It was kinda funny, as cooking was never my major.I am just bad at cooking.And being afraid of having food poisoning, i had to ask whether the meat was cooked everytime i cooked something. I think they got peeved with me after a few times. Then after dinner, they took out this immensely huge box and asked me to open it.It was rather suspicious.I was afraid that something was going to jump out the moment i opened the box,so i hesitated for a moment.When i opened the box ajar,suddenly they all shut the box.Started saying,sorry technical error.Then they had this baffled look on their face.After a while, they said,"Ok pretend that nothing happened this now and you are playing with your phone.Then opened the box again!".As they say second time a charm,but when i opened up the box,i just saw this 'protruding' black stick among the stacks of color paper.I heard some noises,then i pushed the papers aside,carefully just incase there is something that bites.Next thing i know,i was staring at a black and white robot.I was speechless for words.A ROBOT!!!Damn cool.I would never imagine a robot for a present.After the opening of presents, exchanging of photo's we headed home.Then something happened again. There was this small Cold War happening.And I was the cause again indirectly(although they try to deny it). Being the timid self i am,i choose to remain silent the whole journey.Guilt and fear was the two company i had on my journey home.Yet, i heard Cold War ended, and everyone is living peacefully again! (Hopefully *cross fingers*)

The alarm was ringing and i tried to open my eyes.Ouch.painful.I am just too tired.Sleeping at 1 playing with my robot was not a very wise idea i guess but what the heck,once a year,i dont give a damn!I checked my hp, 6 messsages.Ignore first!I gotta get ready.Then my mom came in,gave me my present and this card.No offense but the card was those song card,and i dont really like those time,especially when it is played in the morning.It justs spoils the serenity.She gave me an ear ring and asked me to take mine out.After much effort and PAIN,i decided to wait for another week before i am ready to complete this task. The whole day in college was filled with much embarrassment ad fun.My classmates sung once in Chem class,thrice in Old Town Kopitiam,once in LAN class (with 2 others classes) after our presentation,once in Maths class and thrice after class.I wonder why they like to sing birthday songs so many times.After classes we went to Baskin Robbins.They were having 31% off.Whee!!!Choc Mousse Royale is De Bomb!

Today, after classes, i came back from the toilet.Everyone started looking at me.I was bewildered.Then i took my bag,wanting to leave when i caught side of a flower.But there was something special about this flower,it has words on it.Then looking close up, i saw "Happy Birthday' in the middle of the flower.I was speechless again!Birthday flower card!How cool can it get?I really have to salute Melissa for her creativity and Esther of her brilliant idea.One word explains everything,"Cool!".

I am just touched,so many people made an effort to make my birthday a memorable one.Thank you,i had a great time. Thanks once again!!Thanks for the card,the cake,the handmade brownies (no nuts next time),the jellies (YUM!), the sing-alongs, the presents,the surprises and last but not least,the ROBOT!=p

*Pictures are uploaded in Friendster.I am a noob in blogs,never explored it,so i have no idea how to upload pictures in blogs.Anyway it lags at times when there are just too many pictures.

P.s. Chill la.....Let the past be the past....(You know who you are)

Surprise everyone i just pierced my ears today.Obviously, i would not have done it without the support of Jill,Fern and Sam.So i would like to thank them, of course.

One word to describe the whole process -- PAINFUL!!!! Whoever who tells you that piercing your ears is not painful or it is like an ant bite,are just lying.It is really pain.Jill,Fern and Sam thinks i am just exaggerating,i am acting like a baby,but it is seriously pain wei.Maybe it is because they pierced their ears so long ago,and had forgotten the painful experience.I dont know anything but pain.Ok, maybe i am complaining a little too much, but i have the right to. =p I am the one who got my ears pierced.

My mom was kinda surprised i pierced my ears.She wanted me to get my ears pierced too for my 18th birthday.She was planning to get ear rings for my birthday.This was the exact words she said: i quote : Big girl already unquote...I feel old now. =s

*If you want to know more about the piercing process, feel free to contact Jill.She recorded the whole scene. And jill I want a copy too...

Do i talk fast?A lot of people say i talk quite fast.

This was the comment from my english teacher on my presentation:
1. Talk too fast (well i was nervous)
2. It was rather mechanical, it looked like you memorise it (well, i did!=s i dont want to come and present and get stuck halfway)
3. My discussion was quite abrupt. (No comment!I just wanted it to end quick)
4. Discussion was good! (Thank you! I am proud of it, at least.)

It was a 17/20. i wont ask for more,seeing her high expectations.Then i think in my class, it was quite high already.

One more day to go and the first half of my Sem 2 ends.One more day to go and there will be a one weak break!YAY!I desperately need this break.For the last few weeks, it was just plain hectic with homework and tests and tests and tests!Well, SAM means Self Abuse Matriculation. Even the name gives the chills!Plus i had to cope with my other activities,making my weekends all packed and busy.Yet i survived!Barely though.

I just come to realise that whatever i plan, especially mischevious stuff, tends to backfire back on me.From the planner to the victim!It is like i am a very vulnerable and easy prey.But i dont mind, everything is just for the fun of it. End of last month was my friends birthday.From a simple small celebration with just a cake, it turned out to a water balloon fight. Well i did contribute to the water idea.I just love playing with water i guess.We were suppose to throw the balloons at the birthday boys and girl.I had a secret weapon,my Water Gun.Those who saw it before will know how powerful it is.=p Then somehow during the water battle, one of the birthday boy got hold of a balloon and the next thing i know i am drenched!Great!That was out of plan.I looked at everyone, everyone was as good as dry,except me.Then when i came back from showering, i smelled a foul stench.I didnt realise what it was, until i stepped into the room and saw DURIANs! *Argh*,*RUN*They quickly shut the door and cornered me.NOOOOOOOOO!!!!! what is this?!how did i turned out to be the victim? After that, when i sat down, the memories of last year came flooding back.It was our Prefects' Day.We had fun that,playing games and with the water balloons.I remember filling loads of the balloons and putting it upstairs so i could trick the visitors and throw it from upstairs without them knowing.But when i was organizing the games downstairs, there was a balloon ambush. When i tried to hide,Lili came running to me with MY water gun and starting shooting me with MY water gun..where is the logic behind this?I was totally drenched that day, when they(ie Jill Daph)poured the whole bottle of water on me.=s But basically the Day was a success and i am proud of it.After all i did sorta was part of the organizing committee.=p I shall take credit for it.hehe!

I have became more active in my Wushu than i ever did. My schedule has been filled up by college and CW now.My mother is not that keen with the idea,saying that i should focus on my studies.Till now i am doing fine,but after my Chem CT3 it got me thinking. What if what she said is true?What if it IS affecting my studies?should i control and 'minimize' my participation? I am really dubious about it.

Yesterday was a blast!!!I attended Jenny's(college mate) birthday party.It was an Saujana Gold Club. Pool party. Once i reached there, all the guys were telling me that they are going to throw me down the pool.Great!My second time down the pool.At least this time i was prepared.Jenny gave an advance warning to bring extra clothes.*phew*Luckily i did.The numerous times i was pushed into the pool and it is was a freezing cold night, i never felt more thankful for dry clothes. But ya gotta admit it was fun.I think they took advantage of my weight.They just carried me and *splash* I am in the pool.Idiots!I was the second person down the pool though.After that i took full revenge.Pushing JV and not forgetting the birthday girl,Jenny who was in her dress and heels into the pool.HAH!She is gonna remember me her whole life.After that, one by one, everyone was thrown into the pool.I enjoyed pushing people down the pool,especially when they are throwing someone else,and they are so near the edge then u just have the give a light push and byebye! they are in the pool.

P.S. Gun i am never gonna bet with you about food anymore. NEVER EVER!!!

Great!Today was my first accident.And the worst part was it was not my fault.This guy was reversing his vehicle and *wham* hit my car.It started with today when i went to the petrol station.I wanted to pump in some air into my tyres in Mobil (which im going on strike now!).First i was behind the tank (the one that fills petrol,the bloody big one!),stationary there.Then suddenly the guy horned,then i saw he was reversing.Fine!I wanted to reverse but there was this stupid van obstructing my traffic,so i had to go infront n park beside the tank.So i though it was safe,got out of the car and went to the machine.Then the driver was reversing and i started to fill the air.Then bloody hell, i felt the car vibrating.I got out and saw the scratch.Fucking guy.Can come out of the tank and scold me for obstructing his road.WTF.Now the road is yours is it?Then i was arguing with him.He was tis Indian guy.Then i scolded him:'You dunno how to park car la".Then he look at my car and said nothing much la.Well,i didnt knw what to do as this was my first accident,so i left.Either way i cant fight with him, and expecting him to pay would be impossible.I HATE LORRY DRIVERS.And i bet many would agree with me.Then when i reached Taylors i had to park outside.So i when to buy the parking coupon,and i pressed the wrong car plat number.This is so not my day.When i went into class,everyone was so concerned.Thanks! Although they were busy with their experiments.Then i wanted to start,but i started making mistakes that my teacher told me to just watch and dont do anything just incase i broke anything.=p Which was true.I was flinging the measuring cylinder,to dry the cylinder i felt i was going to break it.My head was spinning at that time too.

We had this new visitor for our Chemistry practical today.Apparently she is a lecturerer-to-be.She was so small size i though she was another student.Then she started going around and correcting everyone mistakes which make me realised that she was a lecturer.She was speaking so fast...I guess all Chemistry have one thing in common.They speak in such high velocity,wondering where they rushing too?

Ok.Today was my ESL presentation.And i did wear a SKIRT not a dress.Alot of people said it was a dress.=s Does it looks like one?Well,as usual i was nervous.Public speaking is so not my thing.My classmates told me i was talking very fast (Why am i not surprised?).But im glad it is over.Hopefully i get good marks for it.My ESL is in stake.=s After our presentation, we had our discussion on violence against women.And i got a little emotional about it,i admit.I can be rather feminist at times.Then somehow my classmate got rather afraid of me.Today when he heard i wasnt his audience he sighed with relief.=s Am i that bad?I am actually qute nice.*look with watery eyes*.

YAHOO!!!Everything is almost done.Just one more presentation to go and assignments shall be the past.

F*** everything. Why did she go? Why did they said all those stuff? Is she brainwashed? WHY?WHY?WHY? Screw everything!

Whatever i thought was the past is resurfacing again. FUCK!

* Sorry for the vulgar language.But i guess these are the few words that actually express everything clearly

Happy Duan Wu Jie to everyone!!also known as Happy Dumpling Day!!ring any bells?

I am not a big fan of dumpling.I just dont really like it.My college mates call me sad...haha...they say i dont eat at all after seeing how picky i am.BUt ya i eat loads, just not some certain small portion of stuff.My mom asked me to go buy dumpling seeing tat it is kinda pathetic to not have any dumpling on this day. She 'zha' me when i told her excitedly that today was Duan Wu Jie.Damn potong stim.She was said i know long so long already.I was like haha,i knew it 2,3 hours ago after receiving a fowarded msg.At first i was wondering what was Duan wu jie,the first thing came to my mind was mooncake.but i thought it was in August,so definitely not.Thank god i have a sister.I asked her what duan wu jie was in english.She gave me a puzzled look.Great!that makes two blur people.But suddenly she jumped out of the chair and telling some story about the history of this festival.She even went to find the book to ascertain her story.Am i that bad?!Well, i am convinced that many people who are worst than me.*hint hint* =p That i messaged serene.she started to tell me about all the dumpling there is.We then shifted to mooncake and now 'tong yuen'.she was tellin all kind of variety of these foods.*blink blink*I seriously didnt know there was so many kinds.I thought there was only one kind.=s Now i feel dumb.

College started one week ago.Chem assignment is done.Now one more to go,Physics.And the sayonara assignment.*phew* Mid year exams results are all out.Well i did quite well in it.Sam too!!*cheers* Life isnt as hectic yet, but i guess soon it would be worse.

I was glad that we had a meet up last friday.It was nice sharing and talking,although i said the least but ya i was glad that we were together, boozing.Wait!only 3 of them booze while i look!How nice! We shared loads of stuff. At least i know what is happenning after being so blur for such a long time.I gotta admit im so outdated on their lives.=s

The last few days of my holidays was a blast.On Thursday i went with D to MV.Well going with her only wasnt the plan but it went well, except the part where she became too obsessed over bowling.I usually only have one max 2 games but we played 3 games.At first she wanted to play somemore, thank god her dad needed her to leave to go her aunty house *phew* save by the dad. My hand felt like it was gonna break off soon. Gotta admit though,compared to the last time i saw her play, from a total noob she did improve alot.Haha, at least she was aiming more for the pins then the gutter *smirk*. Shrek 3 was quite good.It sucked only when we had to sit the front row as it was almos full.Out of despair, we took it.But it was ok, at least we saw the show. We went to Kim Gary and ate.And yes D, it is not bad!On Friday, it was Ocean 13 day.This time was with my mom.We watched Ocean 12 together too last year.Ocean is still as good as the previous one, maybe less humour, but it was still good.

SATURDAY!It was cycling day.I know it is rather odd but we did went cycling. In Shah Alam somemore.I went with CW gang. Only pathetic 5 of us, but we made the max out of it. In the morning we went USJ to find TCH.We were rather tempted to detour to SUmmit to rock climb.Well, i wanted to.I just had the urge to climb recently.But we sticked to the plan and went cycling. No regrets.We went to the argricultural park in Shah Alam. First was t'Taman Buah-buahan' which unfortunately there was no fruits at all.Pathetic not even one. There was a cactus farm there.Luckily there really were cactus.Then we went to 'taman Haiwan' if i was not mistaken. There really was animals: horses(or was it ponies or donkies?), deers, ostrich,parrot,LYK and his family(monkies) and etc...Next up was Danau Perikanan. Well, there was no fish there,so dont ask me whats with the name. There was a 'fake' ship there though.As usual, lousy maintainence, that ship was kinda run down. On the way back, we saw SK. haha! It was kinda scary though. The huge statue doesnt look lik a rabbit at all.The mouth was opened so wide.Yikes!Later we realised there was a big opening at the back.It was actually a slide.=s Dumb.And pathetic. The others started introducing to me the 'accident' spots and was explaining how it happened.It was hilarious. The cycling trip was fun but bloody tiring.Going down the slope was seriously fun but going up was a dread especially when you have cycled for hours and your feet felt a if it is gonna break soon.We were seriously dead by the end.We were drenched with our sweat.We went to grab something to eat but we were so dead that we didnt remember what we ordered.We vaguely remebered and just ate whatever was served.I wonder how the others survived but i went home.I needed to rest but i ended up watching Heroes and sleeping at 12 something.Crap!Lolz.The next time no more cycling trip,let's have other activities!

Second day of college and i felt like i have been in college since forever. The first day started with distribution of mid-year exams papers. I wont say I am discontent, neither would I say i am content (before someone starts killing me). Yet, I was doing ok I guess. Everything is on the roll again, rushing through assignments, doing loads of research. Back to the hectic lifestyle, no more lazing like the holidays. I enjoyed my holidays although it was just a mere 2 weeks.Few things happened in this short 2 weeks and I was glad everything happened as it was.

Ok this is a warning to everyone. Never try Taiwan Sausage, especially if it is extremely spicy. I do not know whether i should call myself gullible or dumb. I got persuaded into eating in. Seeing as I am the type who cant even the least spiciest stuff, example curry,laksa, anything spicy, I felt like i was dying when i ate the sausage. I kept tearing. I could not even speak and only kept drinking water. It was so spicy that my stomach reacted to it and i felt like there was a tsunami in my stomach.I wanted to puke.What shit sausage is this?!!!Actually i was surprised i even tried it,seeing that all the guys who tried it was also tearing. My gang knows I am useless with spicy food and i do not even had the guts to try anything. *sniff*Stomach still feeling funny but i'll survive *crossfinger*.

Sometimes i wonder how can people argue over a small sum of money. It is not that they cant afford it or anything. It is such a mere amount yet they cant be so reluctant.It is not that they are being cheated or lied into giving the money.Worst of all, they have agreed to it and now all they can do is complain and pretend as if nothing happened. Dont they remember the contributions, experiences, everything. How can they pretend and be so cold blooded at times?

Yay! I survived. 3 days with no contact with the outside world. No INTERNET and TV. There was my handphone, but didn’t message anyone at all, except someone from the camp. Still, it is considered no contact with the outside world. And to add to the misery, it was a 3 consecutively of Chinese with no English. It was amazing how I survived.

For the last three days I was in a camp. Wushu camp to be exact. It was conducted in Genting Permai. Unknown to many, including me, Genting Permai is actually quite near to Genting Highlands. Actually it is near Awana. I didn’t know such places existed, as usually we would just drive up to Highlands. The place was ok actually. It was an apartment. And CW was being nice. They appointed 3 people one room which I thought wasn’t the best idea as one apartment could actually fit 5 and it would be just nice. To be frank, such a spacious place plus Genting was not exactly infamous for it’s ‘unsightly incidents’, it gave me the creeps, a little. I was appointed to stay with these two teachers of all luck. How boring! But ya there was nothing I could do but to accept it. The apartment we had had 2 rooms, one with double singles and one with queen bed. And guess what, I got the master bedroom, the one with queen size bed while the two teachers took the singles and slept together. Weird right? I agree. This was because they were scared to sleep alone. *smirk*

The first day, was nothing much. We were listening to lectures which basically I could understand nuts. At night we had to watch ‘Fearless’, which reminds me of our dance at the interact installation. Seeing in the second time was seriously boring and the part where they played it in Mandarin didn’t help much. I was seriously bored and the sit was so uncomfortable. I kept fidgeting during the whole show. Lucky for me, I brought chocolates and sweets to keep me awake.

Second day was moderate. The lectures were more. Practically the whole day we were listening to lectures. And it was really hard to comprehend. Sam knows how bad is my Chinese so ya, she wont be surprised to know I suffered much and how blur and confused I was during the whole thing. Thank goodness they had this telematch, which boosted our spirits. It was fun. There was 3 groups: A, B, and C. A and C group was having a dispute. I was in B. We were being very quiet and ‘gentlemen’ while we look on the other two groups fighting each other, criticizing each other. During the telematch, my group loss anyway. The other two groups tied, much to our dismay. And started arguing again. *Sigh* TCH and I just looked and laughed. We expected to lose, seeing that we had so many sleeping partners, 5 to be exact. During dinner, they found a way to decide the winner, through counting the age of the members, which in my point of view was a weird way to decide a winner. But whatever, doesn’t concern me. So at last, the winner was decided. A group!!! It was a good thing anyway, or else Unc Tim, would never give it a rest and there would be no peace for all of us. He started to provoke the C members though. Lolz. No offense, but he was kinda childish. That night we had a program which is called ‘Star Heart Talk’. God knows how they came up with this name but it is actually a program where you confess anything. Heart to heart talk. Except everyone hears you not one person only. After so many times of attending such a program, this one was a success. A few actually said stuff, a few cried. Unfortunately I was one of the crying people. Wow! Its been years since I actually cried. But ya, I was surprised. It is not always you will see the other side of these people. Being all emotional and sharing a part unknown to all of us. Yet, it was really vague and no one could comprehend anyway. Through this heart to heart talk, I started to realize there was something, something that I have suppress so long subconsciously it was like a problem I have been avoiding so long, not willing to face it at all. I broke down. I just felt so pressured. Serene and SL broke down too. Then we left that place and had our own talk. It was a relief to let out everything though. And I got to know someone better.

Third day was the most exciting and fun day. We went jungle trekking. It was fun, and the tracks were quite challenging. The only sucky part was the leeches. So many bitten me, I don’t know why. I thought I had 2.then today when I was watching the tv, I saw another red mark. Then only I realized I got sucked 3 times. =s Among all the jungle treks I went I enjoyed this the most. Maybe it is because of the company.There were some funny memories also. The whole trek was kinda hilarious at times. *smirk*

I really enjoyed the whole camp, although at times it was really boring at times. It was a good gateaway from all my problems. I really thank everyone for it. *looking with watery eyes*. It was a blast.

After the camp, we went out for dinner. My mom was not exactly keen of the idea though, but she was kinda cool about it when I came home though. Thank goodness.

Ever since i finished my exam on Friday,i was seldom at home until today.Everyday going out.Yesterday was a very tiring day.I was in CW the whole day,from 8.30am to 6pm.Then i came home,showered,ate and slept for a pathetic 10 minutes,and went to Sg Wang to celebrate Ren's birthday and blade.It has been a long time since i actually roller-bladed.I think the last time i baded was when i was in primary.Even Jill and Sheel last bladed when they were in primary.We dropped blading and started to ice-skate when we were in secondary.So yesterday it felt quite weird without the ice.

Ren's invitation was in a very weird way.It started with a message saying,"Are you coming tonight?"I was seriously confused,thinking she messaged the wrong person.I replied,"Huh?What's happening to night?" ""My birthday" Then i was more confused,because Jill told me Ren was throwing a birthday party on Friday.Takkan the message delayed by 3 days. "Hmm...what birthday?Im confused" "Didnt you get my message?" "No." I think she wanted to vomit blood by then(If it was Sam she sure vomit blood already!)I was extremely blur by then.Lolz.Sorry for that, i was extremely tired then.And the part where someone started sending me forwarded message in Chinese doesnt really help alot.

But it was fun roller-blading AGAIN.Making me miss my blades now, currently buried somewhere in the store.=s

Talking about smokers (after reading Fern's blog), i realise i can be quite mean to them.I saw this cigarrete packet lying on the table in someone's room and I quickly took the packet and hid it.I wanted to throw the whole packet in the dustbin at first,but i felt bad.So i left it on the table outside his room.The guy was finding everywhere for his packet,even under the bed.Serene and I were trying to refrain from laughing.He looked at me and said,"I know you took it,you never liked me smoking". I tried giving my innocent look but i guess i am just bad in it.He knew.But i was fun though,looking at him finding for his packet.=p You all should try that,at least they would not smoke in front of you.

I didnt know it was an unwritten rules that u always update ur blog.*sigh*

Lolz.I jz read Sam's blog.This is what we call desperate.And to say last time she wasnt the type who watch english series movies.Now she have a craze over it.But u gotta admit,Heroes is addictive.So is Prison Break.These are the two must watch movie.If you missed it,u r losing out.

I shall just give a short update about what happened lately since im tired already.

I have been driving to college since i got my license.And it is under no supervision.I wont say i sucked at driving,neither wont i brag about my skills.After i few times of almost-accidents,i am becoming more scared and sceptical about my driving skills.But my parents seem to have more faith in my skills than i am(i think).Which is really weird,seeing that normally it works the other way.

A week ago,i was buried under the books,wait not books but piles of past mid-year exam papers,getting ready for my mid yr exams.The week was a long and tiring week, but i survived.Unfortunately,my answers are screwed up.I did dumb and stupid mistakes.Im glad that week is over.I really need to have these two weeks of Break.Although i still have tons of work to do,but ya beggers are no choosers.It is better than nothing.

I am now known as a banana.Great.I know chinese ok?I even know how to read and write,unlike a lot of real banana which i know =p And those people keep making fun of my chinese.I know i pronounciation is a little out,ok mayb a little more than little,fine it is out,but at least it is understandable.It reminded me when that time Sam asked me to read Shien Jean chinese test paper.Sam jz burst out of laughters.Am i that bad????I do have an english slang,but thats just it.

I will be having this short 3 days chinese crash course this weekend where i'll listen to nothing but chinese,speak nothing but chinese,from the 1st June to 3rd June.At Genting,down the mountain actually.Genting Permai.I have no idea where is it,i just know i wont be going to Highlands.Nooo.....It's been so long......

Pirates of the Carribean 3 was good.Considering the fact that i totally forgot Pirates 1 and didnt even watch Pirates 2,i was not that confused after the show.Maybe it was cause i had Jill and Sam to fill me up.Although both of them were blur too."Eh why do they want Jack?", "Dunno,dont remember!" Fine,just accept it,and watch hot and sexy guys, and the fighting scenes.Surprisingly,it was humourous too.I had fun that day.I went to the arcade after how many ages ago.My rock-fever skills totally went down the drain.It was disastrous. I cant even play the simplest song.But im glad that my shooting and racing skills are still there.I managed to pass area 1 for Time crisis 3 without feeding the machines with tokens.Yay!!!Racing skills werent as good though.I keep crashing into Sam's car.Sam's machine had a little problem.So her car werent moving.Then whenever i banged into her car,she would quickly drive the car,hoping it would start moving.It was hillarious looking at her.

That's all for now.I gotta sleep,i have to wake up at 8.On a SUNDAY.Imagine!

I do not deny the fact that i have been neglecting this blog. Neither would i deny the fact that i have not been keeping in touch with alot of people. I have been to busy, with college and wushu. This two stuff occupied most of my time.

I am going to make this post short. Just a short post until i am free. Soon hopefully. Next two weeks is my mid-year, and i would have a two weeks break after that. I would be free except 1-3 June. Anyone, want to go out and meet up?Talk, drink, watch a movie?

A lot of people are updated about happening in college, rite? Sam does a good job as a reporter still. =p

My crazy dad is more enthusiastic about my results than I am. He actually took 15 copies of the Sun. Talk about obsessive. He called me more than 10 times from yesterday since i got my results. He keeps calling and calling, and asking and telling, i am going to have a headache soon.

People who are greedy are never satisfied with what they have. They just want more, more than what they have.Even though it is adequate, they are never happy. They become more unhappy as they dont get what they want. Why those such people exist? Why can people just be content with what they have? Why?Why? I feel tired with all the chasing and competing, yet I refuse to give up. Is this what they call 'kiasu'? Or you just want to try your best when you are attempting something?

I feel a sense of relief and solace, now that the results are out. But, there is still something, but i dont know wha tis it. Hopefully, this would be the past. Yet, it determines the future. I need to let it go.

Wow, i cooked a proper meal today. What an achievement! Although this home cook food is not healthy at all, with extra oil and extremely salty. I guess it is not bad for a first timer, as i didnt burn the whole kitchen down.

Things i learned:

1. Never throw a fish into a frying pan. This could cause a pool of oil.
   
2. Never try toflip a fish when u are a yard away from the pan, u cant flip it.
   
3. Wear gloves and cover your hand when you are frying a pan.
4. Never let my sister cook. She tends to throw everytying in, salt, soya sauce, oyster sauce, pati ayam....apparently to add taste.
   
5. Never trust her when it comes to cooking.Lousy pandu puteri.
6. Try not to make a mess out of the kitchen.

Definitely this is one of the worst meal i eaten.Hopefully i dont grow skinnier in this one month. It is impossible to gain weight. And i seriously have to gain weight, just in case i really go Australia next year. I dont want to get blown away by the wind. It almost happened to my sister, she felt like she was going to fly, and she is heavier than me.

It was last year since i last blogged. I guess my old sickness is back; too lazy to blog. Well, i did not see the need to blog. I do not need to release any suppressed anger or tension, unlike last year. And i am sort of too occupied with college, with the work and everyting.

When i started college this year, i felt i was rushing through it. A part of me felt like starting college, but another part of me felt like waiting and chilling. I needed more time to relax after SPM(can't consider the one month after SPM, i was busy most of the time). I needed more time to recoup. i ignored the feeling. But this feeling became stronger when the tests came. I felt lost and stress again, i felt like quiting everything and just do nothing. Obviously there is no way my dad would let me do it. One thing i was sure that the 4 Dec deja vu left an impact on me. But one way or another, i need to confront this feeling. I guess this only was to succumb this fear is on the March 12. Everything will have to end then.


Sam is calling everyone 'lansi'. Wonder when she started with that word. I was another victim of her besides F. I was innocent and did nothing.
S: I need one more mark. You spare me one mark la.
L: Take lo. Doesn't matter.
S: Not that it is possible anyway.
Next thing i know it she is telling everyone about this. You do the judging, am i 'lansi'?
(0mission or change of words shall be excused)

Old habits die hard. I agree with this saying. Sam habit of promoting my marks to everyone in CBN has been brought to Taylors. She is still promoting my marks for me. NO! Worst of all, she is not in my class, so now her class knows everything. Even my classmates dont make such a big deal over it.