Really miss blogging, it's been Sucha long time. I promise to be a good blogger again, and blog more often. Will update pictures really soon from my both camera, people been bugging me like forever especially that mak mok! Life has been pretty hectic but thank god it's the holidays now. So much of hectic life I'm still loving life. I got myself a new handphone, semi pro canon camera and itouch, oh I'm using my itouch to blog btw, my work place has wifi. Apart from that I've been on shopping trip countless times,officially broke pretty soon. Haven plan what to do on my holidays, but I'm going out with the two funny girl to town. So excited to catch new moon! Haha I know I'm slow thanks to the three month attachment. Enough said will update again like really soon must push sale, manage to sell four slipper only wo hen sad.

I am ever so thankful to have this wonderful woman in my life. She has been an absolute blessing and keeps me striving to be a better man everyday so that I can be a better friend to everyone. We have been through some things that have brought us closer even when I thought that they may have driven us apart. She is one of the most loyal, generous, caring, considerate, bluntly honest, dependable, genuine, loving, fantastic hair and nail having, perfume having, great story telling, helpful, shit talking, joke telling, conference call having, supportive, hilarious, lovable (and please believe that the list could go on and on) person. She is one of the most important people in my life.

I am so blessed to have a person that is for me when some are against me. To have person that will pull me to the side and tell me I am wrong. Thankful to have a person that will pat me on my head when I can’t stop crying and will always be there whenever I need her. She will listen and talk to me how 'm feeling and allows me to be there for her even when it's too much for her to handle. She is the friend that will always ask if you are busy first then say do you have a minute. She is the friend that goes for it and says I have a confession. She is the "we are in this together and I love you regardless" type of friend.

My bestie is the kind of woman that understands your past, embraces your future with you and makes plans to believe in you when you almost don’t believe in yourself. That's my best friend. A woman that is sometimes better to other people than she, herself. She believes in the bond of friendship and doesn’t have all the unnecessary. If you are her friend and truly her friend - she will do whatever she can for you. She is so wonderful and sometimes I wonder if she knows how wonderful she is. I try my best to remind her as much as possible so that is why this day is so special.

This is a day that it is all about her and no one else. This is the day she graced the world with her presence and God saw that it was so. Most of all it is a day to show how much I appreciate her and love her. On this day, your birthday, I say

"Happy Birthday Best Friend & Thank You so much for being my best friend. You are inspiring even when you don’t know it and always good for a laugh when least expected with a sidebar. Great friends are truly hard to find, wonderful to have and a blessing to keep. Life has truly been a party with you in it. So this day is all about you and middle finger to the ones that don’t know any better. Enjoy your day. I love you best friend."

P/s Hopefully you like the early celebration and the Agnes B necklace.

Sometimes we tend to put other people (people who matter to us obviously) first. We put them before ourselves because we want to, because its somehow like a natural instinct. Definitely not an obligation. But sometimes we get hurt eventually, and it makes us feel like shit. We don't walk away because we want to stay, simply because they matter.

However, I think it's safe to say that, as much as we put other people before ourselves, there's someone else (or maybe even more than one) out there who put us before themselves too. So I really think we should thank God for these people and really appreciate their gestures.

Sometimes, I just look at you (and whatever I have left to do with you) and just smile quietly in my heart thinking how happy I am for you. I guess we never worked out. perhaps it's wise even, that we mutually agreed to stop this. I don't think you would ever be as happy as how you are now with them.

Everything between us will be transient but all 'm concerned about is letting myself drown in this transitory feeling, and nothing more. To want more would equate to never getting it anyway. I think I've figure that out after so long.

It's not about leaving or getting left behind. It's about being honest.

I think I spent too much time over thinking, overreacting and over analyzing things. Sometimes it seems like I've so much thoughts running through my head that I can hardly focus on what I'm saying. It feels like my words can't even keep up with my thoughts. I'm only eighteen, I shouldn't be thinking so much.

(yellow lacoste polo-t reminds me of you)

Sometimes in life, we fall to our lowest. Sometimes in life, we are brought up with high hopes and being a trigger happy person. Sometimes, deja vu just appear too late on your mind and certain things are just stronger than instincts. Sixth sense doesn't even help. Sometimes, you just wished that your misforture will stop somewhere, but everything just keep collapsing on you. Then? This thoery is something everyone must learn.Therefore i say, sometimes shit happens. Well done, Wafi!

Today's definately an ominous day i must say. Other than feeling screwed, words to describe my day is still screwed. Sometimes, you try to make yourself feel better when the start of the day is already screwed, you did something unexpectedly to screw up another half of your day. When unknowingly , your luck was so ill enough that, luck is the only thing that make you feel your life is screwed.

Pausing... Still able to catch up with what i am saying?

Anyway, i went to snipped my hair, new hairstyle, picture soon ^.^


P/S Don't let someone become your priority in your life, when you are just option in their life.

You know, sometimes i feel a little strange. I feel unsure about tomorrow and days to come. And what's most worrying is that sometimes i get too much stuffs weighing heavily on my mind. Should i call it instinct or i have a very sensitive senses. People often call me overly-sensitive. But i guess, there are times all of us feel different about things in our own perception?

Orgays. I am feeling tight over my chest the one whole night. And, that feeling is still not gone however, i decided to not think not think and just do something important i ought to yet i have no motivations at all. I have quite alot of stuffs in hand to complete. My tests is coming and it's time for me to do serious mugging.