Bittersweet

I don't often say this, but I will miss Australia if I were to leave it. The time to decide will be in a month's time. Will I miss Singapore? Yes and no. No because of the weather, crowds, general rudeness of everyone, rat-race culture and no patriotism. Yes because of family, food and the ease of everything a stone's throw away. This kind of clarifies my thoughts, in a way I'll miss the people in Singapore but then again I don't remember being satisfied or "happy", rather the appropriate word would be contented. Society in general is pretentious is nature but to exit from a county that has based it's entire foundation on such falsifications gives one a breath of fresh air. To know that you can speak your mind without fear is liberating in itself. Then again I ask myself, will I miss Australia? Yes and yes again. Do I have less to lose if I were to be here? No. Partially due to having established myself back "home", but opportunities are abound and besides I'm 25. I find myself lowering my standards and expectations when I am here which mind you it's not that I am subtracting from my character but these "standards" is what society in Singapore deems as acceptable. To have your way, to be the first, to struggle to survive. I do not want to live that life. I wish to grow more as a person and not to grow up without being a man of character, for to falter within a false perfect facade of wealth is the desolation of one's essence. It is bitter sweet, always will be.