Return To Innocence
As i grow older, i come to a stage where i am caught in the middle, being teared from my adolescence into adulthood by time. Many questions that run through my head, will i be able to earn enough? will i go back to Singapore to be with my parents? When will i settle down, own my own house, have kids? What will i be in 5 years time when i turn 28?
i do not like this feeling, it is the fear of walking a tight rope across to the other side, a better side i suppose (i hope) fear and uncertainty. And yet you can't turn around because you know that this rope is going to be severed. You inch your way across, slowly but surely.
''Man up'', i tell myself to face destiny and finally to make decisive actions to plan for the future. I didnt expect to think this way just 6 months back, living a carefree life and not worrying... but now that i finally see the other side i walk looking back in nostalgic melancholy. All things that i knew fade back into the distance, turning grey as my memory clouds what has and had been.
My future as it seems is not secure, as is anyone's future. Why is this world run by money? The more you earn pieces of paper that society has crafted the higher your standing in life?
No, i must not think in this manner... It is the absolute pureness of one's heart that matters the most, Rich or poor, straight or gay - God created you and you alone, God didnt create money. Money was linked to society and society is the crafting of people. I am special in his eyes and so are you.
Fred, stop worrying, perhaps its because you have not been in this position before where i'm staring at myself in the mirror into another dimension.
God be with you, may faith be the driving force that enables you/me/everyone to have a heart in this false society. Humility to be known that no matter how successful you are, it can also be taken away in an instant. A heart to care for the broken and needy. A soul to cherish those that you have. A life to know that you've lived it well.
23 years and counting... You've got approximately 60+ more years to make a difference. What will you do Fred? Stall on your tight rope and never reach the end? Childhood innocence will be found in your partner, good friends and your kids - so why worry?
i do not like this feeling, it is the fear of walking a tight rope across to the other side, a better side i suppose (i hope) fear and uncertainty. And yet you can't turn around because you know that this rope is going to be severed. You inch your way across, slowly but surely.
''Man up'', i tell myself to face destiny and finally to make decisive actions to plan for the future. I didnt expect to think this way just 6 months back, living a carefree life and not worrying... but now that i finally see the other side i walk looking back in nostalgic melancholy. All things that i knew fade back into the distance, turning grey as my memory clouds what has and had been.
My future as it seems is not secure, as is anyone's future. Why is this world run by money? The more you earn pieces of paper that society has crafted the higher your standing in life?
No, i must not think in this manner... It is the absolute pureness of one's heart that matters the most, Rich or poor, straight or gay - God created you and you alone, God didnt create money. Money was linked to society and society is the crafting of people. I am special in his eyes and so are you.
Fred, stop worrying, perhaps its because you have not been in this position before where i'm staring at myself in the mirror into another dimension.
God be with you, may faith be the driving force that enables you/me/everyone to have a heart in this false society. Humility to be known that no matter how successful you are, it can also be taken away in an instant. A heart to care for the broken and needy. A soul to cherish those that you have. A life to know that you've lived it well.
23 years and counting... You've got approximately 60+ more years to make a difference. What will you do Fred? Stall on your tight rope and never reach the end? Childhood innocence will be found in your partner, good friends and your kids - so why worry?
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