It's getting worse, i am officially falling sick. i feel my lungs clogging up in phlegm and my breathing is getting shallow, my never ending run of the nose is irritating me till no end! i'm sweating from every single pore because of the weather and coupled with an afternoon sun just makes me retch a slew of vulgarities every time i lay on my bed down for a rest. i'm on the knife's edge of falling sick and that's the part i hate the most because your life is uncertain, its like when you come across a Y junction, you either go the Right way or the Wrong way - or if you are unlucky enough you Die both ways. Hmmm... Comforting to know. Same goes for life doesn't it? no matter how long the journey you will reach a Y junction or worse, a Tri-junction. You go, ''ene mee ne mai ni mo''. AH-HA! i choose that path... Some go down the path not know what they are getting into, some know but are too weak to turn back and some like me turn back ever so often and walk back to the junction only to reconsider their judgment - all while the life's clock is ticking down. Will i have enough time to explore all roads before i die? Why not just stick with one and that will be considered ''Life'' as it is. We are faced with so many options everyday. Should i eat that snail on the ground? Should i chop off my hand with that spoon? Shall i just pretend to trip so that my face did land on that pile of dog poop so i could pretend to eat it? All life changing events. Stupid ideas i admit but you get my point. Moreover you would turn into a communist if you did any of those mentally retarded things mentioned above because you did go to a place where everyone was made equal and made to live equal, eat the same food, dress alike, sleep on same bed etc etc... But that point aside, i would like to know if the path i am walking down is the right one for me.... i'm feeling ill, I'll need some rest.
