pardon my grammatical errors, im not in the right state of mind to even bother about my spelling or puncuation. just a few days ago i was playing a board game and they gave a free tile away that i could customize a card and immediately i thought of buttons and how she could use her special powers which would be ultimate cuteness that the opponent would have to give up one card. Today, christmas eve at 6.30pm she ran out of the gate and was probably taken by a passerby... i am utterly distraught by the loss and i am terribly upset to know that a person, most probably my father, had not closed the gate properly so much so as to leave it ajar for her to run out. of all things to be lost, i lost buttons... i lost buttons. you wouldnt know how much of a lost it is to me. after banker's death i promised that i did take car of buttons and treat her with all the things that i had promised banker but had not done so with him i would impart upn her. Just like how banker would have treated her. banker took car of her, chewing bones into smaller pieces and then offering her. buttons.... i sob for you.

i miss those times when a cup of coffee with a close fellow friends late into the night as we talked crap for ages and catch up on latest happenings between our lives - oh how i revel in those moments. driving to secret hideouts to chillout, riding in each others cars. Watching the F1 on big screen in a bar. In a way i wont say i feel suffocated, i appreciate everything that she has done for me and with me i hold her hand for i treasure her and place her in the centre of my heart, but i yearn to go out and socialize too. i dont know if its me, or maybe i just have not catched with with my close friends in awhile. Its something like maybe only guys will understand to have if i may put it, "GUY time" amongst his guy friends - especially close friends where he can let his hair down and just enjoy each others company. Now im not saying letting my hair down by going into bars and picking up girls and all, i am fiercely loyal and will remain as i am, but more like just having a Good time, - if you know what i mean. That warm fuzzy feeling like you know your close friends are growing old with you and you treasure them and they treasure you which is spoken upon an unspoken voice that speaks to one's heart.



Clean unadulterated fun.



Zeeson, Daryl, Yuehan, Hariz, Samuel ... HINT!*