Kindness Does Not Equate To Weakness

well went out today and i must say was quite affected by how people view that being kind is being weak. i asked for a battery pack for my handphone as mine was dying out, me being english ed had a weak command of chinese. The person over quoted $45 dollars for the battery, way over priced, i said if he could cut the price, immediately he cut it to $30. Then i said i will walk around and think bout it, he said in a damn sarcastic tone that "Still need to think meh?" Jaisie then stepped in and said, "Of course! we go (grabbed my arm)" (all in chinese). Was kinda pissed ok more like hurt, cos like they use the fact that i am weak in that language and stuff so that they dominate me. frankly if they dont want me then, they wont make anything anyway. i think i am too kind, and by being so i think i get runned over by people sometimes, EVEN GIRLS! Not to mention SOMEONE that i Shall not Mention because... yes just because... shall not say anymore cos i know i will blow up. what a fuck that person was. Just such a pity that this world has such a mindset that being kind and being able to care for someone or something = being weak because you show your emotions. Losers, literally! because eventually they will be losing out in life. All their relationships and friendships would just be Oh... i dont know... SHALLOW? very shallow.

i woke up today with this message, "Dear... dont sleep already hor..." hahah... My God she knows what im up to huh... haha...

i woke up this morning with a great rumbling in my tummy!!!! i then proceeded to run straight for the bathroom. one of the worst diaherra days ever, i wondered, was it the seesha, dinner or the bread. HMMMMM...... i hope my tummy gets well soon! :D

So far everything is super silky smooth sailing!!!! really happy!!!! thanks for the date! but the papaya titek was "Ahem" Rubbish, Literally. lets not talk bout that. but im sure you enjoyed it! hahaha..... HELLO ATTRACTIVE GIRL! WHERE COUNTRY YOU FROM? jaisie,"can you shut up!!! stop typing in caps!" <<<---- i can imagine these were the words running through her head - actually mine rather. I got accepted as GL! quite pleased that knowing so many contacts actually allowed me to be part of this year's camp. Going to BE camp for the week wed - sat gonna miss dandelion. :( we'll see each other soon. Smoooooooooooth sailing dandelion! Loves, je manua's friend.

Well im sitting here after a bath, with a blanket in my lap and Button's curled up in its fluffy mass, i have decided to write a post on about her.

Facts and Observations About Buttons after keeping her for 1year:


- She likes to lick you especially when you've just come home or put your face close to her muzzle, awww....
- She prefers sitting upon softer surfaces such as carpets or cusions.
- She is speculated to be approx. 4 years of age.
- She is already fully grown, however her fur is 'not considered' a pure breed's colour of steel grey, but i couldnt care less. Cos she is Buttons.
- Buttons LOVES Kang Kong, it is one of the only vegetables that she eats.
- She is 3.5kgs in weight, severly obese in the doggie world.
- She's very cunning, she uses her cutsey look (which is most of the time) to beg for food and then proceeding to snatching it out of your hands.
- She dislikes being blown in the face, she would then cower and use her tiny paws to swat the currents of air away!
- Her name was Dixie. (Sounds disgusting right?)
- We wanted to call her mushrooms but she did not respond, however while having button mushrooms as a dish for dinner we tried buttons and she responded positively. (ears up and all!)
- She doesnt bite.
- Her bark is likened to an old man grumbling for his plush comfy sandles in the middle of a cold night.
- She wheezes like a drug dealer high on cocaine, booze and dog chow.
- Her hairstylist varies from each appointment, sometimes if she is unlucky she gets Frederick Wee.
- She is camera shy and does not like the orange auto-focusing light.
- She is only as long as my forearm.
- Buttons Dislikes walking upon wet grass.
-She once picked a fight on a Great Big Cat called Shadow and lost, OBVIOUSLY! 3 times her size!
- She is able to listen to commands such as Sit, Shake Hands, The Other Hand and Where is the key? (going for her walk).
- I am currently trying to teach her a new command, "Capoeria Jaisie" hahah and "Show me your 10 million dollar face buttons!"
- She Barks to the Can-Can music from Moulin Rouge.
- Exotic food choices recommended by Buttons are, Blue Cheese, Durians, yoghurt and chicken feet.
- She can only hold her drink for a short time (Approx 3 syringes full) before proceeding to bumping into furniture.
- Button's body length is as high as one step on my staircase, thus there is always a possibility of flipping over while negotiating a step, which she has and now has a phobia of them.
- Buttons always tries to show me her "sleeping" mat when i come back home with the kind of excitement of a child as if i had not seen it before.
- She is able to swim for a short distance.
- She is microchipped and i didnt know
- She was given away by her previous owner due to her "sub-standard" colour of her fur. (steel-grey)
- i can't feel her ribs (indication that she is obese)
- Finally, She's afraid of all the toys i've bought for her and yet not afraid of other bigger sized dogs! Big Dog in Small Body!

i stick to my promise! no more naughty-ness. because im glad that we sat down to talk bout how we felt bout that topic and i am glad that we both see eye to eye! :)

im happily eating my chicken chop now! :D but other than that... sigh heart pain... the shrimp tank that i made for jaisie, all e shrimps died today :( i guess due to my haste in putting them in they were too shocked with the water parameter changes. :( okay will try again. was too caught up in trying to surprise her grandpa... haiya.... nvm fred let go... will recover e losses im sure because you know the key to success is patience.

okay back from the fair, really super duper crowded. never going back there. came home, brother liked the camera cos it was "Newer" than his older one, didnt even check what model it was and asked mom to give it to him. Mom asked me to go back tomorrow to get another one. You've got to be kidding. I told her to please go back herself, im not going to elbow through the crowd again. i really hate crowds. Some singaporeans, just cant wait and all. must they push? like seriously. So got so irritated with the crowd that there was this blue shirt guy coming our way and obviously pushing so when he passed me after shouldering me i pushed him LOL. luckily he didnt see... but man did he almost trip. i mean come on man jaisie (was in front of me) was so small and you wanna push your way through just cos you're 1.8m doesnt entitle you to push king. just plain rude. least i know she wouldnt date someone like him. Ooo... yeah and i saw a new side of jaisie today too hahaha... quite funny, should have shouted louder at that bald man that irritated her.

first! Sister loses the DVI cable to the computer, therefore i cant use the computer because the monitor does not correspond with the CPU. Then Mom asks me to get printer, what printer? HP 1515 (Doesnt exist) 30 minutes later, 1510 - frikin' thing stopped production long time ago! Then still asks me, what is the replacement for that printer. How the hell am i suppose to know?! You want the printer you do your own bloody research. Why do i live in a house with two people who cant even carry out simple tasks like Labelling some electrical cable or do simple research. Its like going up to a sales person and saying, "oh, can i buy a car?","it must have 4 wheels and a door". Are you insane?! To me its either you've got to be a retard or either that you must have loads of money to blow because the sales person would most probably give you a bugatti veryon. After that she tells me its the 2025dn hp printer, wow... okay and still bothers asking if she should get the printer that is one tier below that. Do I Really Give a Rat's Ass, frankly? it reminds me of when we were building the back wall and she wanted to raise the height from 1.5m to 1.7m. SIMPLE right? just go up to the worker and say in chinese,"I want this and this wall to be 1.7m high, just change it Now" What she does? goes up to the worker and asks for his opinion on whether the wall would be too high if it was 1.7m. Like How the Bloody hell is he suppose to know? He doesnt live there, he's shitting in his pants for crying out loud because he doesnt know if he should listen to the contractor or the client. Why in the cosmos must you beat round the bush... Just go straight to the point. FFS.

me: "do you know how much is one terabyte?"

----(pause)----

jaisie:"A lot...."

hahaha... not bad lah quite a wise way to answer, reminds me of when hariz told me how a guy answered the lecturer's question,

"so how will your building stand?"

"With difficulty" Hahhah....

my whole itunes list screwed up... ARGH! now that grinds my gears. it always asks you to source out for where the song is and an exclaimation mark pops up. Is there no other way to solve this other than sourcing out one song at a time? Bloody irritating. i should design a software to better itunes. Now now.... That is IF i had the time to both to take programming or the money to buy the whole company which is APPLE. Almost impossible. No... Not impossible Monetary funds in this world are only peripheral. I find that when i dont care about money, i save more. When i do, i spend more!!!

i toss and turn, wondering what are you going through right now. I take a deep breath, prop myself up in bed, open my eyes - it was already 7am. Over 2 hours of sleeplessness and time for you that you may never know that i thought of you for that long. I worry, "will she be okay?","her first day of work" she slept at 3am she will be waking up in a few minutes. I resist the urge to grab my phone in fear that i may wake her from her sleep. Rest fred, i chided myself. She'll be fine. Will she... this will she that... i just want the best for her...

wow wow wow!!! im very glad the cooking session went really well! and now im like hooked on Bleu d'Auvergne!!!! It is a kind of French blue cheese that was recently discovered in the mid 1850s and is made of cow's milk and is aged for 2 months before being sold. it is also only made exclusively in the town of Auvergne in France. An Aquired taste i may say, even jaisie doesnt like it! hahah... Dinner with her family went really well! :) i still recalled how they were all commenting on how good the chicken that i brought over was. Gramps would come over and say "Oh this chicken is from AMK isit?" While taking a slice of it and munching on it and then proceeding to go back to watch is tele. -5minutes later- He comes back into the kitchen "Wah... until now havent finish eating?" *Grabs another slice* hahahhaha.... Cute gramps.

"You wanna meet my grandpa?"

"Err.... okay"

DISASTER I TELL YOU....

my heart thumping, i swung around the corner and said my greetings to a grandfather with a pleasant disposition. Shook his hands and he immediately scampered into his room to retrieve his shirt to drape upon his bare body. She eagerly sat me down upon the couch facing her gramps. i could almost imagine her rubbing her hands in an evil manner as she poured a cup of water for me in the kitchen. he asked me how was i and even offered me dinner, which was pleasant. He then proceeded to asking me what is my surname in chinese. Oh my name is Zhi Rong... Then he gave me that look, *eh hello boy what the hell are you talking bout?* Hahhaha... then i was like "Its Huang" hahah... So embarrassing please. I just kept drinking water as if there was no tomorrow! AND you kept yourself busy so that i will have more "Quality" time with him!!!!!!! Almost died... So much for putting her in the hot seat with my mom. Hhahaha, Revenge was Served today. hahah... and she still looked at me and said,"i thought it was quite easy what!" hahahh... right right.

that was so close, i almost slammed into the wall at 80km/h... was trying to beat a red light, braked, turned... and it kept going straight!!!!! WAS LIKE OH MY....! shouldnt have done it on a wet day... luckily the car stopped before the expressway wall and i managed to make the turn. Phew... another close shave. next time, im not ever gonna buy a car without traction control... it makes the difference between life and death.

botanical gardens tomorrow! excited!

your confidence inspires me.

i like it when girls ask me questions directly. i like it too when girls make first moves. i like it when the listen. i like collars and ties too. i like it when they dont have a construction worker fetish. A spectacle fetish kinda quirky too.