im glad i passed my Diving and have recieved my certification, gonna take my stress and rescue soon, its the hardest of all specialties. having to tow someone... i think i'll be super exhausted by the time im done. well then all e best to me :)

The irony of friends, family and myself

isnt it just fun to make new friends. All the laughter, all the happy moments. Funny thing is, when they are down and out they would leave you in the rubble with nothing. Moreover the ironic part is that if you are willing to marry doesnt it mean that you have to make a very close friend and thus end up marrying him/her? In doing so she becomes family. It is said that your closest friends will always not be able to trump your family bonds. True. But i dont see why i dont feel this special bond. I find it strange that i feel bored by the monotony of knowing someone through and through, just like my family in this case. Controlled segregation of one's self from your family would equal to more emotional voids that would spawn interest in me to find out more? The joy i found in running my sister down was stangely very pleasing. very pleasing. to know that she cant do anything and would whimper and cry in her room. Even i find it strange. i find myself losing touch of my humanistic emotions. Why do i derive pleasure from seeing someone lower than me, is it pride that i enjoy? i wish sometimes that i was more simple minded. i guess it is not to be. i tend to complicate my life for no apparent reason, just for the thrill. I just love to drive my family up the wall especially my sister, to see her flare up to respond to my threats and indifference to the situation. i dont particularly look up to her. Has not proven to be a real role model for me, things that she can do i feel that i can do better. But who am i to say eh... i have yet to figure this out, why the hell am i so privilaged but yet am so insensitive towards my family? The closer one is to me the more that person wouldnt want to know me. Sigh... and same goes for relationships that i have. imagine a doughnut. Spongy goodness and sugar coated ring with all the goodness and is sweet to the tongue but in the middle lies a void, a solid void that is only filled with disappointment and the bare table or plate below. You can see through it, to know me through and through to see right through to my heart, my emotions, how i feel. But yet there's nothing there... only disappointment. food for thought really.

Dive buddy

man... no one seems to want to go on the trip with me.... kinda sad tho... but i really really wanna go on the trip to tioman... to frolick with the fishes again and have the salt brush my skin yet again! If your willing to try out something new, Ahem, Scuba diving. and becoming my dive buddy please contact me so that i can whisk you off to scuba dive in tioman. well you must fufill some criterias first tho. Not afraid of trying new stuff, Not hydrophobic and must know how to have fun :) cheers.

Pulau Aur

Diving in Pulau Aur.... pronounced Ow.... and Owww the views were fantastic. From the exposed corals during low tide, the sun baked bodies gearing up around you, the fishes that swim with stupid grace and the salty air that punctuates its point home - It was fantastic... Passed my open water dives and was quite happy especially the things i managed to view... went to a max depth of 18 metres = 6 stories deep. Played with the carious sea creatures, flounders, sea cucumbers, christmas tree worms... First of 5 dives, was good, though i was nervous i am glad i manage to go through it, to be able to sit comfortably on the sea floor and watch corals. Now thats life to me. To enter into another world that am just blown away by the scene of rows upon rows of corals with shoals of fishes intertwining amongs each other, folding and folding again upon the current. A special thanks goes out to all my instuctors that thought me how to dive, Pics up soon! :)

Im happy! are you? now i see why this can be addictive.

Step 1, dive during day

Step 2, Party at night by the beach

step 3, Repeat step 1