spike is gone.... she threw him away. at least i suspect she did. i am so angry with her that she did. she claims that he just ran out of the house because the gate was open but it has happened many times before and all the time spike would come back within half a day. and now what? it has been 3 days since friday.

ironic part was that she was discussing with me on thursday tt she wanted to throw him away, it angered me so much that i did not want to listen.

You... you, you threw away Baron over 8 years ago and now you would let history repeat itself. You... you cruel monster. *sobs*

please tell me how the hell did the screw break into half as i was twisting it.... so now Half of it is in my wall... damn it. what inferior metal did they use man. :S

i dont know why but i get very easily irritated esp if i wake up from the wrong side of the bed, yeah its true! i really hate it when assholes come knocking on my door to ask me to wake up especially with those condescending tone. u know all i want to have is to be left alone, blissfully lulling away the day in my sleep... not to ask me to wake up and eat lunch or shit like that. i get very affected by noise sometimes, it just irritates the hell out of me, especially nagging or maybe even a vaccum cleaner or some cheesy music in the background.

my dad just came back from saudi and usually he did have his own shaver but since he was back here he thought that he did might as well use mine. so when i saw him shaving i smiled to myself and said,"dad your using the wrong shaver"

dad,"huh?"

me,"thats the shaver tt i use to shave other parts with"

dad with that disgusted look,"eh?!"

me... laughing my arse off back to my room lol. Yuckkk... well it did happen to me when i used my sister's shaver once.

As requested by jennifer. so here it is.

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1. to be happy with who i am.
2. get back with God
3. Get my room done up
4. find a cure for beloved banker
5. a sewing room for my mom

Answer the following questions:
1. The person who tag you is?
jennifer

2. Your relationship wih him/her is?
mutual. haha well i think so. nice person she is yeah.

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
-one moment she did be quiet then e next she would go beserk! somewhat like the incredible hulk
-i find her piercing hot and kowtow tt she would dare stand such pain. lol for one i wouldnt pierce my belly button
-Bubbly girl that would wave to everyone, scream their names haha... which i do find amusing at times :) but deep down inside i know she feels down, i dont know i can just sense it that she has this sadness but i dont know what and where its roots lie.
-can i stop at 3? haha i've yet to know her better. Ah yea... she likes Xiao Long Paus' lol...
- she loves to learn and try out stuff like Photography!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
-hmmm... gave me a keychain! with my name written on it.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
-Hey i saw you! (in an sms) haha i was like huh where.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
-take it slow like all things in life.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
-self motivation and confidence at times?

8. If he/she becomes your enemy you will?
-reconcile with her

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
-probably maybe cos i stole her special candy tt gives her her sugar rush lol. or tore up her homework.

10. The most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is?
-give her gastric pills.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
-cool! why didnt i know her earlier hah...

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
-shouldnt u ask em? but i think that some of them see me as an easy going chap tt gets serious at times as and when its needed

13. The character(s) you love of yourself is/are?
-Mischievous me hehe....

14. On the contrary, the charater(s) you have of yourself is/are?
-empathy
-sincerity
-tactfulness

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
-Jesus if i may say but i know it is not possible so if that is the case i did wanna be someone like Nelson Mendela or Martin Luther King Jr. human rights, freedom to all people.

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1. justin
2. amy
3. shirley
4. Zenas
5. charissa
6. sara
7. cheryl
8. sophie
9. Daryl
10. michelle yee

17. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
She's not in relationship.

18. Is no.9 a male or female?
Male

19. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
woo... tt would be interesting

20. How bout no.8 and 5?
Even More interesting!

21. What is no.2 studying about?
In acjc

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
yesterday

23. What kind of music band does no.8 line?
those china songs... lol but she's french

24. Does no.1 has any siblings?
yea.

25. Will you woo no.3?
er. no. just a friend :)

26. Is no.4 single?
nope

27. What's the surname of no.5?
tan

28. What's the hobby of no.4?
photography and skating.

29. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
haha probably both are nice people

30. Where is no.2 studying at?
look above.

31. Talk something casually about no.1!
Stop fanning u dumb nut! ok well tt was his most prominent threat to certain ppl lol. I find it amusing at times when he gets irritated and scratches his head and growls in anguish, haha somehow reminds me of the justin i knew in pri school. yeah still is e same justin, always will be.

32. Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
*ahem* she's.... t... t.. wait.. this is hard to say.... ttttalle..r than me. there.

33. Where does no.9 live at?
bukit timah

34. What colour does no.4 like?
not sure but he sure likes retro and vintage

35. Are no.5 and 1 friends?
nope dont know each other

36. Does no.7 likes no.2?
i dont think they're homosexual ya know'

37. How did you get to know no.2?
friend's bday party!

38. Does no.1 have any pets?
lol... monks in e temple next door.

39. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
woo tough question... i think she should ask me herself and well... we'll see bout it.

school starts tomorrow damn... well ok im looking forward to it but theres so much to clean up.... my last failure to clean up and salvage... i pray i will get through fine and well and come out victorious.

well well i've been painting my walls since 10pm and i think im feeling a little high after sniffing so much intoxicating fumes hehe... i came across a few puny spiders trying to defend their tiny pace of what they claimed to be theirs, i mean "theirs". so i rightfully claimed it back byhappily incorporating them into my paint work... my my and i must say they look rather nice.

they never knew what hit them! forever encased in my paint... muahahha...

die for your patch of land sire?

come on be realistic freddie, you'll never get a girl that is older than you. besides, it maybe too short lived to even consider a decent relationship. just drop it...

smokin!

i threw away my pack of cigarettes today after smoking a stick. i fear i am getting addicted. i must go cold turkey. see me buying a pack tear it in half immediately.

i should smoke socially and not smoke for e sake of doing it. frankly it hurts my throat but then again i held them in my hand for over 5 seconds before tearing them into half. the power of nicotine. i hoped alcohol would numb the effects of the cigarettes, it did not. but now i do get it when smokers say they get this renewed sense of concentration and this relieved craving thatthey had yearned for... so at my strongest, well after i smoked a stick i tore the rest in half.

i do not care my human spirit is stronger than smoking itself... i will not be addicted i will not be addicted i refuse to be burdened by something, a stick, a thing to be reliant on an item created by man!

oh and swollowing smoke kinda makes my tummy curn a little before i burp out smoke. interesting. but then again i tried to not inhale too much so tt the nicotine would set in i just kept it in my mouth long enough for the tingling sensation to set in.

oh God help me.

holy moley almost died today! was lemmy see... almost hit by a mercedes driver, a van tt was speeding to beat the red light and chased by two bloody mongrels.

i finished having prata with victor and we made out separate ways home. i was so close to home but yet so many dangers were before me.

i crossed the junction and was gonna head past the slip road into my lane, must always remember to check my left, so i did. one car passed okay considerable distance away. i accelerated then a bloody ah pek mercedes driver rushed in, i slowed down instinctively. He gave me the "who the fuck you think you are look" and i responded with a "oh think your so big, come and fight me" look. i've had enough of these bloody drivers who think they always own the road especially in their big ass cars where they have no respect for other users. you just feel like shoving the finger at them and ask them to look at themselves in the mirror to remind themselves that they too are human.

then i was like geez cheesed off all e way home till i reached a junction near my home. i was minding my own business when i heard barking to my right. SHIT. coming baring their jaws and running at full speed were two mongrels. i padelled hard shifting gears as i gained momentum. was cursing under my breath as i climbed the great hill to my home of all things the last thing i needed was a steep hill, damn. im glad i made it out of their domain beforethe lactic acid kicked in not to mention cramps cos i was pedelling so hard.

see rocks in a basket isnt such a bad idea afterall... maybe i should put dog chow and throw it to distract them. oh hell i'll create a blow gun, managed to once, it penetrated cardboard boxes! O.o

im moving at a snail's pace... i get so deviated from my goal. my goal which i am suppose to have completed last week. yeah im kinda of a procrastinist to a certain extent, but arnt we all eh? (eyes you) hahaha... i need to redo my room and so far i've come up with the concept of lounging and a study intertwined with each other, though i think i did end up lounging more than studying. i came up with the colour scheme that is almost monochromatic with a hint of purple, something like what you see in the ikea catalog. intend to extend my room to the tiny balcony outside my window, well its not a balcony its... more... like a tub.. lol a planter box sort of Thing that isnt here nor there. it can comfortably fit 1 maaaybe two if its cosy... imagine just sipping wine and having a good book, nostaligic. Not bad i thought to myself, not bad indeed. My mom grimiced at the idea, but i still got it my way... ah well, she proved her interior design skills wernt auite there when she tried to redo the toilet. one word, pink. yes its completely pink like how a walrus comes up to sun bathe on the hot steaming slate of his domain. eugh.

it get bloody hot in my room during the afternoon because my room faces the west and gets a full blast of the sun every afternoon, so by evening i did be smokin'~! hahaha... im so gonna put up blinds.

but you know thats the past and besides the contractor was a bastard, i mean he came into the house and did such a shoddy job that the pipes started leaking. CON-tractors as they say. but these are the bad apples that ruin the reputation of the rest eh?

oh, i recall something, something i watched on tv. was watching Situation critical and this journalist said, "now was my big moment! i wanted to get in there, there was something about being Shot at you know, something tt gets me all excited, guess i've watched too many movies"

i was like Oh hell i wouldnt wanna be at the end of tt bullet. seen too many videos of guys getting shot up by others and how one taliban fella ran from a building to another and 40 others opened fire... he just crumbled, no glorious death just, like he tripped over a rock and didnt get up. God life is so transient. i do often think of this as i cycle, everytime i view lights coming up in my periferal vision i keep thinking what will happen is he gonna hit me with his side mirror and fling me off course and into something hard tt did spilt my head open? mind you im going at over 30km/h obviously it scares me! especially with such close encounters that happened to me before. i think the closes was the incident with a bus. damned bus driver Haddd to get into the bus stop no matter what. almost grinded me against the kerb my wheels were grinding the kerb! little more and i dare not imagine what did happen to me.

Yeah! i pointed the middle finger at him when i rode by.

i should keep a basket in front, you know e ones kept by market aunties escept i did keep all e rocks and nails in it Hehehe... lol. use when necessary.

Back from HK

im back from hong kong. yeah i did enjoy it except tt i came back with horrible stomach spasms... couldnt be diaherra, i tried every method to cure it and yet it still torments me, to suffer occiasional painful contractions throughout the day is not fun at all. apart from that the food was... eh average actually... maybe cos we had to find halal food most of the time. anyway i'll upload pics and let em do e talking... dun feel like typing too much feeling e aches.

feel like theres loads of air in my tummy, so i deduced that releasing it would be make me feel better yeah and because the air in my tummy will rise as its lighter than e digestive liquid tts inside. so i thought, damn i need tt air to flow through my intestines and out my arse... did a headstand against e wall... yeah it didnt work. LOL.

oh and im trying to redesign my room, more contemporary style, suggestions appreciated :)

lol i used e telescope