El padre en el cielome, perdona para mi pecado que he hecho.
Mi stubborness y se precia.

a veces yo me pregunto, ¿Cuánto adoro a sus personas?

las personas que usted adora y ha escogido

enséñeme padre de abba a adorarlos
para cuidar delos
para tener más empatía
para estimar más

¡Para ser más como usted!

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Oh father in heaven, forgive me from my sins.

My stubborness and pride.

Sometimes i ask myself, how much do i love your people? the people that you love and have chosen.

Teach me abba father to love more.
to care more
to have more empathy
to treasure more

To be more like you!

tough times

Having a tough day, not to mention a tough month.

12 yr old funfair at acsJ

i remember one of the sadest moments of my life was when i went to the ACS(junior) funfair.
Yeah you might think, hey funfairs' are well Fun as the name suggests.
i was 12 when my primary school had the funfair, it was the year that i would take my PSLE too.

One the day of the funfair, my dad Reluctantly let me go for a few short hours.

i went down, ate a hot dog bun if i recall well enough. Then navin and i proceeded to get out face painted. he chose geen and black, while i chose red and blue :)

But as soon as i was done my time was up and my dad came to pick me up.

My dad.... you could say he's a stubborn and proud man, not willing to lose face in front of others. but he is my dad afterall, so i love him.

He spotted me amongst the crowd in the waiting bay, pulled his car to a halt and as i got in i immediatly notice that he was angry.

"Why did u paint ur face like that? you look silly!" of course not in a joking manner but more of a, im angry for making urself look like a clown and making me loose face cos i have to pick u up kinda tone. simply put it - Dad angry = not good = better keep ur mouth shut.

Trying to liven e rather tense atmosphere in e car, i pulled out a tie that i bought for my dad at the fair, it was $5 oh yes it was i bought it for him.

"Dad i got this tie for you! :)"

he took it, glanced at it and not a moment too soon, he tossed it aside onto the front passenger seat.

Of course i was really disappointed that he did that and well... disheartened that my father did not appreciate my effort to pick out the best tie that i saw on the table at the fair for him, my loving father.

4 years went by and i never saw that tie again, i thought that he had thrown that sickening tie that he did not cherish out the window.

Over the years, i did see many changes in my dad's character. He bagan to appreciate life more and it seemed tha the more time he spent away from his family, the more he would appreciate us. He was no longer very bothered about saving his "face" so long as he managed to spend time with the family. It seems that his heart softened over the years and i thank God for that.

Then one day i gave him a hug just before he went off overseas to work for 4 years.

He was wearing my tie.

i was so touched by his small gesture. And i treasured that hug for he hugged me like never before. My loving father.

Thank you for Loving me. what comfort. what Joy.

i still remember the days when he would bring me to the reservoir, upper pierce reservoir to be exact. Nothing has changed much since and i still love that place. Where i would remember running down the stretch of road with my dad. he would hold mt hand and run with me, even if i could not keep up. When i got tired, he would pick me up and carry me all the way back to the car.

Before heading to the reservoir he would bring me to the wet market and do some grocery shopping for the coming week. The same old people i see while i occasionally visit to do some shopping myself - that uncle by the fish stall whose fish is reknowned to be the freshest in e market and that butcher, no not uncle mutton, but he was just really friendly.

A decade on and they're still at it.

A decade and a half and my mom and dad are still at it. The iconic figures of my life.

past times glore.

nothing much has ben happening really, except for the sleeping and lazing around.
I ran to the bus stop once and i was out of breath, thats how unfit i am. i think if i did take the napfa run today i did get a terribly long 20 minute run and probably still crawl to the finish line.

i really dont wanna talk about someone that i managed to get off of me for the past 3 months but i did it for her own good. And if your reading this, Go study! shouldnt be reading my blog. Obviously some people had disagreed on the method that i used to shake her loose and get her to her senses, which was the use of very harsh language and giving her many weeks of cold shouldering. But i think it was neceassary. Disagree if you will but i think the best way was to keep reinforcing the idea that she should get away from me and move on in life, not to linger on this matter which would do her no good. First her studies might suffer and i would be bogged down by her persistance. i know she really didnt want to leave but it was a MUST. i did rather her to suffer a short and hard blow then to suffer an agonizingly slow one.

For those who are on her side, i dont really care what you think because i think i did my best already so you do not have a right to criticise me. instead of doing that i ask of one favor from you, take care of her. For my time is over and the time of healing has come. i cannot heal those wounds for obvious reasons. if u dont get what i mean by obvious reasons, i mean that she might get e wrong idea again. i dont think we would like to meet each other again anyway.

If you think im a chauvinistic guy for doing such a thing, then i would have to disagree. But whichever option you pick, its your choice. God has created choices in this world afterall and for good reason too. So that we would be free.

COLOURS for anna

COLOUR essay idea for anna :)

colours may just be the greatest gift ever given to man, without it our world would not be as platable to our visual eye. without colours our world would literally fade into black and white rendering it of all its beauty and awe.Colours are the life blood of every occupation, every occupation uses colours to a certain degree. Be you a chemist or a cleaner, you must use colour to identify a chemical or different detergent bottles. Losing colours in our life would be a catastrophe.

Imagine living in a universe where colours had taken a back seat, we would not be able to enjoy nature's in its fullest glory in its display of its vivdness. From the blue oceans to the snow covered mountains, every milimetre of the world is covered in colour.

Losing our colours would be such a waste to the human race, the only other species that can see colour are the apes. Colour vision is a gift that we must hold dear and not take granted for, for if you loose it, you would loose it forever. i cannot comprehend how much i would grieve if such a fate was bistowed upon me, waking up and not being able to watch the sun in its full conflagarating splendor as the grass mellowed in the crisp morning breeze. All this would fade into oblivion. The simple things in life as we call it, would cease to exist.


something like that. Just let your feelings go anna, when it does pen it down. Once the moment is gone, your essay would not be the same :)

And wonder why i didnt score in my EL from a A2 in prelims to a C5 in Os. why? i didnt finish e paper of course, silly me.AURGH! (Slaps himself) Oh well... had too much to write down i guess.

Lizard in the bag

was super hungry, mom had just told me that there was cheese cake downstairs.

Running downstairs i opened the plastic bag only to find a Lizard staring back at me and promptly scuttled behind a cheese cake.

Hahaaa.. knowing my bro was hungry i gingerly tied the bag up so as not to alert the lizard and brought it to the room.

You know what happened next LOL...

He fears cockroaches, beetles, creepy crawlies stuff like that and i can most certainly tell you that lizards are under his top five list coming after the beetle. HAHAHA.... sorry kor.

miss smiling

Oh how i miss smiling without pain.

=D

post surgery

YEAH..... surgery is over!

Amazingly it did not hurt! my last experience with another dentist was bad, he missed e nerves, used a blunt needle and pulled e teeth out before the anesthetic even settled.

The one i got was good, 27 years of practice, yeah i do expect him to be good.
But e truth was, i seriously wanted to cancel e appointment yesterday - fearing e worse. ( like e scapel breaking when he was cutting my gums or something like that, drilling too far in etc)

My tolerence for pain is low lah.

i tried to delay e procedure for as long as i can. my appointment was at 10 i arrived early but i decided to sit on e bench outside e clinic for awhile, 1/2hr past, then e dentist spotted me.

"Hey hello, come in."
"How nervous or not?"
"No la no pain la, just e injections will hurt a little"
"I'll try to do it in record time"

LOL.... Record time it was around 45 mins for both sides

i sat down uopn e dentist's chair.
He had everything laid out for me by e dentist chair.
Hey not too bad.... except for that big long syringe and two vials of anesthetic there.

"I need e toilet"

yeah ok so i took an extra long time to do so, naturally.

came back sat down and the assistant gowned me with an extra big necking, my immediate reply was,

"Woah why so big, to catch all e bloody yeah"

"No lah... just well.... you know just a bigger necking"

So e dentist walked in and asked his assistant "so left or right first" LOL as if to ask someone in a torture chamber, "eh wanna chop your left or right hand off first?"

so he placed some surface anesthetic and then injected, not too bad comparing to my previous dentist which felt like he used a crude steel bar to pierce my gums and i could literally feel my gums splitting.

This time it was nice an gentle.... nice and sweet.

5 minutes later, he came in and rubbed my lips "All this belongs to me now hehe"

i didnt reply. what do u expect me to reply lol...

So he tooked out his "Power" tools and began.

First he made an insission with his scapel and bagan to cut as if cutting a slab of meat, i could hear him cutting round my tooth.

with that done, he used various tools that look like screw drivers and scrapped excess flesh off e teeth before using a drill and splitting e tooth into two and prying it out.

Right bottom and left bottom wisdom teeth split into two.

Thank God it did not hurt and that his tube for sucking saliva or any liquid for that matter, was opaque in colour. wouldnt like to see how much blood your losing yeah, physicologically trumatising for the patient.

E drilling was unbearably loud though.

He even lectured me while going through all e processes, talk about on site learning lol.

He then stitched me up with 4 stitches on each side, to actually see e needle covered in blood and blood dripping down the stitch line when he pulled it out... shudder man...

Stitches

Done! Thank you doctor Lim... was so well done.

Headed down to guardian to get medication and painkillers not noticing that i was drooling blood all the way hahaa... unaware that i couldnt feel my saliva dripping down upon my lips.
Got my tablets and tried to take them, lol filled my mouth with water but could not judge the amount because it was so numb i overfilled it, on top of that i couldn ot close my lips and the water just came out as a red running river. haha should have seen e faces of e people around me.

Anyway, i've got to go now. pain is setting in and i think i should get some rest...

Surgery

Im going for Surgery.... :(

to extract both bottom wisdom teeth.
Its gonna hurt, bah.

My wisdom teeth are impacted, thank goodness its only the bottom, however i still dont like the idea of a scalpel eating into my gums and the dentist shoving his pliers down the gory wound to extract the tooth. :((((

My last experience of extracting 4 teeth were kinda bad,
Dentist injected but did not hit the nerve points accurately, moreover he pulled it out without allowing the anesthetic to numb the area. Ow.

Wish i could go on General Anesthetic.

31/1/06

Bad day bad day man...

other than the fact that i had a good time with justin sleeping over and going out to meet fart, rachel and amy. Oh and amy brought a friend along... he seemed a little tao though :S

i learnt a valuable lesson today, to learn self contol, respect and putting God first.
It is so true that what goes around comes around and i did for me, treat someone badly and u get treated badly. Love someone badly and get loved back badly. last line is er... well... happens a significatly smaller percentage of the time.

truth is i feel very lost now.

when you do something for someone's good but that person does not view things through your eyes, does not understand you.

you did it to get away from her but she just saw it as you wanting more attention and she gave you More! but that was not what you wanted, instead it made you try harder to get away from her, which made u harsher towards her :(((((

cos you loved me so....cos you loved me. thank you.