Chinese new year day 2

Day 2. CHINESE NEW YEAR!

not bad... hehe good food and nice people to mix with.

Had a GREAT Day!!!

Except for one part, so embarrassing.

Anna and the King was on, so i was discussing with my mom that their thai didnt sound like thai more like cantonese in fact.

So tried to imitate them speaking thai.

Went something like : lei mai ah (blah blah blah gibberish)
then all my relatives turned their heads in unison towards me and stared with great intensity.

And when the tension had died down, i asked my mom what had i just said.

She whispered, "The female private part"

Wah freak... so pai sei...!

I sheepishly hid among the couch pillows hoping to blend in with them and continued to watch TV e whole evening.

ben yuan and fad

yesterday was kinda fun actually, went out with ben e whole day and i joined him for his NUS lecture, was really interesting, e module was about social behaviour and we were studying about child behaviour - the different stages that the child goes through in their childhood right to adolescent age.

Anyway with that behind, we went to hunt for shoes in city hall, bugis and beach road. i eyed this pair of puma shoes lol yeah but i waited till today to get them as i didnt want to rush only to find out that there was a pair out there that suited me more than e one that i had just bough impulsively.
We ended the day in beach road where ben could not get his size and ideal pair of Vans. Finally picked a black and white checkered pair of slip on Vans, but it was not really to his liking, so he did not buy them.

Oh and at bugis we say this black and brown checkered pair of Vans, and get this - its FURRY. it felt like a rug or a poor tiny dog that was stripped of its coat.

you know you want a pair of nice looking shoes but not shoes that look like a rug for others to rub their dirty shoes upon them - afterall that is what a rug is supposed to do.

so today i bumped into stuart and jefri... fadhli came soon after, 1/2hr late lol.
Cut hair and bought new shoes, yeah those pair of puma's that i was eyeing hehe...
Thanks Fadhli for accompanying me :)

Oh lol and fadhli went around breaking stuff today, somehow when her took a pair of shoes off a rack and it collasped, like literally broke off its screws lol.
Then,.... there came the sunglass outlet, he dropped a pair of sunglasses. its didnt seemed cracked but if u looked closely, part of the lens chipped off.

Woah fadhli, yor really lucky that both shops didnt have any cameras and e staff didnt really mind or did were not there at that moment in time. LOL.... phew...

reflection 1

i've never really paid tribute to those around me, i guess its way over due so i'd better do it now otherwise it did be too late, u never know when u might loose ur friends and by then u did be crying and asking yourself why did u not give them more care and attention.

Aizat, hey man the first time i met u was.. .er... oh tsk. i Think it was an outing with the nco's and justin dragged me along haha and POOF! aizat was founded. Its been a great time knowing u aizat, u know one of e happiest moments by far were the times spent with u guys, e ncos. do i miss those times, sitting around late into the night crapping and playing police and theif, going out even after band even though we might be dead tired by then. But! im sad to say aizat and e rest that i maybe going overseas (australia) to study after the first three months. therefore i wish u all th best in ur future aims, u are one that i cherish and have recieved me in open arms and bearing no arms against me, pun intended, i do see the great potential in u my friend :) u never seem to falter in ur quest to be a greater u.

Amy, i know its tough and sorry that i did push u aside sometimes but i am thankful that u did not do the same to me, what can i say... i appreciated the times that we were together but over time we faded away. i do hope that some time in e future that i can come back and really sit back and enjoy ur company that i may have taken for granted, im terribly sorry. ok ok kill me... haha... but u know i know that u are going through some difficulties and ur dream to become a singer and all, do not be disheartened. im sure if u really did try, even if it were to go against ur parents decision to follow a singing career, hey follow your heart amy. afterall it A life that u have in ur own hands. Live it out. u have so much ahead of u :) i wish u all the best amy.

Ben yuan, first of all, ur dog is cute hehe... and its named Mango. cute little poodle that would cuddle up on ur lap. i've known u for around half a year or so and ur becoming my cell leader! how cool is that hahaa.... thanks for being there when i need u and with ur mischievous character where u would ... u know do stuff to ppl. not gonna say what hehe go figure man, but its been good knowing you. LOL better not say anything more man, i might get something thrown in my face or something shoved down my pants hahaha...

who is next on my list,

Amilyn, great knowing u mate, NEXT! LOL hahaha such im such a bitch. Ok OKAY LA! hahah, hey thanks for sneaking into my church even if ur parents prohibited u from going into one =X and thanks for ur xmas gift! :P little big though and EAT UR VEGGIES! :P

Ek! hello. u know e first think i notice was ur fair skin, then i found out u were korean. Glad to say that ur my first korean friend, nicest one too! :P :P :P u've been a real interesting friend and i do hope u surprise me more with e interesting background that u have. im honored :) thanks eun kyung.

Fadhli Hey fad. your gleeful character never fails to brighten my day, your really do know how to lighten the mood of any party and thanks for coming for mine was real nice of you and the rest to make it all the way down to spend time with me. thanks fad you've been a really amiable friend of mine that i will treasure and i did feel that we've made much bonds within tha last year that i've known you. Its only been one year! and i've known so much from you since and with true fadhli style, tra la la la!

Franco, hi brother. i know you might be busy and not able to spend time with me as often as you use to. Thank you for being there for me and to be my mentor thoughout your stay in our church, thanks for sharing the tough hardships that you have gone through. You would somehow and always manage to fit me into your hectic schedule even if it means that you have to work overtime on your projects. your taught me valuable lessons first hand and i've not taken them for granted and best of all you would look our for me so much as to come over at 2am to check on how im doing. Thank you franco :) hee...

Frankie wee, Twinnie! hey hey i've not spent as much time as i would like to with someone with the same initials as me. But i did have dinner with you once, your were so quiet :X then i went to e washroom adn when i came back you ran off!
:( booooo haha its okay. oh and are you enjoying your nuts? oh Yeah and i just figured out that Alecia's sister is anastacia, i know i know im kinda slow.

Justin, its been 10 years my friend :) im so glad to have you around... running around in the field, catching spiders behind the dental clinic in school, poking e birds in the aviary, buying that char siew rice from stall number 7 and getting diarrhea, getting cheated by that ice-cream seller, swinging on the metal railing infront of the office, fruit fights, scaring teachers with spiders and mealworms, kicking the vending machine, OH LOL and trying to pick the metal cupboard padlock with a paperclip LOL it got stuck and my classmated used his teeth to pry it out LOL! then e teacher walked in and wanted to open the cupboard but his key could not go into the lock as part of the paperclip was lodged inside HAHA... those memories that i shall treasure forever. :) thanks justin for being a big part of my life and being there when i needed you the most, you are a best friend that i will truly treasure forever.

Shuyan hey hey i just found out that ur a christian too! yay and that you can speak in tongues :) glad to hear that. people say that shuyan is a tomboy but i find her quite a gentle lady really and she's really nice. thanks shuyan for that late night talk that i had with you about how we felt about the things around us and all. i only knew you since the nco chalet and now your going off to another country, aw... sometimes i wished that i met you earlier so i could get to know you better. your a great person i must say but hey dont loose faith that your parents want the best for you ya? im sure they do i really do yes mam. i MAY be joining you in april or june, really depends on the results really. A yes to you always shuyan if u need me :D

the words of the heart

out of the mouth the heart speaks.

yeah so true.

Just reflecting upon things that people like "--" said on my tagboard. Sometimes i do play on battlenet and it does get me thinking, why do people in this world have to be so rude.

words like "just leave! save the cheap talk"

or "fuck you noob"

stuff like that.

Firstly was it necessary?
Kind?
or Helpful?

Sometimes scoldings are necessary although not kind but they are helpful, IF done at the right time and at the right place.

this common saying that the wise has little to speak but a fool has much to say. which is why i dont see why -- has so much against me, afterall it is my life in talking about here and not yours. so why should you bother? if your Think im a poser then fine, i cant change what people view of me. i highly doubt that im one or is it because i'm concerned about how i look ( which i do not over indulge in )

Is it Very wrong for people to look they're best on any given occasion?

i think it IS necessary to tell you off, that you would point out other people's flaws and mistakes while you have so much more to change about your untactful sarcastic approach to the people around you. "Change my character" yeah i will but look at the one you have in the first place.

A fool would point out the splinter in a brother's eye but not noticing that he has a plank in his.

Yes i do think that this is necessary and helpful to you, however not kind.

i admit ma, im a bad son.

i always blog when i feel sad, down or pissed. which makes my blog seem like a piece of junk that is real sad and crappy but to me a blog is where im able to pour out my feelings. so here i go again.

i admit mom, i am a bad child of yours. To a point where i would even disown u in your very own house. Under the watchful eye of heaven i disowned the family, to take away the sense of Family within e household and to bring such pain. Sometimes i wish i werent even born so that i would not have brought u this pain, and be damned the day when i did be by your death bed crying for u to forgive me for the things that i have done in the past, things that i did not mean, things that i can change NOW but have not, things that i have already done and wished that i have not. Ma, i am a bad son of yours and even you said it yourself. i did rather wish i was born in a harsher family where i was not pampered so much to a state of which this pride lingers and prevails. Pampered to a state where i cannot tolerate anything not done MY way.

And if not done my way, i would get into this terribly foul mood where i would lash out at anyone and my family bears thee scars of them, my family would be the first to be mocked by my lashing tongue, to be cut down by the ravages of my tantrums. i am a bad son.

i have never felt in place with this family of mine, with an elder sister and brother that have far bridging age gaps, and to grow up a pampered piece of crap does have its concequences. Pity really. i've got no place in this world, i do not fit into anywhere. Not my family, not my cell, not my group of friends, i am an outcast that does not fit anywhere. and i do mean ANYWHERE.

Can you imagine waking up to a family that you are not close to, do not love even if they do love you. Ever since young i've been bullied by my elder brother, im not saying that he is a bad brother, and i guess that was where my rage began. It just built and built itself upp over the years to the point where i would be quick to notice and criticise the weak points of others and to blare out my rage upon others that i disliked. that was my childhood, a little like WWE if u think about it, violence, vulgarities. Not saying that my parents or family did not love me then, it was just that my parents loved my so much that my brother got jealous and would bully me.

So the cycle was this, brother pick on me, mom and dad love me more, brother pick on me, mom and dad to e rescue and pamper me more, bro bully me... and it goes on and on and on...

he only stopped recently which was around last year... but my tenacious character remains. i've been trying to change it since last year, i did make a little progress but once in a while it did crop up again and a violent streak would occur, if someone did prick me a little i did just blow up and i mean blow up to a point where i punch em in e face. Yes its that bad. i've not addressed this problem for a long time and its way overdue.

My mom deemed me unfit to go overseas because this character of mine would get a fist to my face once i've landed in aussie land. i guess its kinda true, sigh, Very true that it did get a lot of ppl offended.

seems like i cherish pain, suffering and anger to insult and to mock ppl around me. sigh. i dont know why but everytime i get into a big fight or arguement i seem to reflect more upon my screwed chracter and upon my life. man i sound like Mr Scrooge from e christmas show.

i know its wrong to show this crappy shit to ppl but i've been keeping it from ppl around me long enough cos its kept in e 4 walls of my household but there you go, all is revealled... i cannot keep it in anymore. this character just has to go.

Angel scolded me and told me to stop acting like someone else, i figured i did act like someone else to cover up my own junk character and ended up junky-er.
it was painful but true, i guess with every scolding i get i'm getting more aware of my character and my flaws.

i did get angry over the smallest things, one moment i did be happy then somehing comes along and triggers me off into a moody, grouchy, unhappy, cranky... you name it i've got it, kinda mood where i did dampen e spirits of everyone around me. sigh.

Always putting all the happiest moments into bad ones, its like taking a nice pot of honey and shove ants down where it did come out anty and crappy.

two faces, one person.

You have shown me much love since young ever since i was born, and now... can you believe it? im disowning my own mother and only family that i have known.

Sigh, My Screwed Up Character.

Ps - CHANGE YOUR CHARACTER DAMN PIECE OF SHIT.

Windsurfing.

Windsurfing...

Was extremely exhausting, well coming from a guy who hasnt had exercise in many weeks, probably a month or two.

So yeah was cool. had theory on land, it was quite confusing at first but we soon got the hang of it.

BUT.... when we launched we went blank and well u could say that we were a bunch of floundering babies learning their first few steps.

the sail was real heavy... especially if completely submerged and it seems that if there is more wind the board is more stable as it cuts through the waves and does not wobble that much.

Cool day i must say but tiring, and we have another round tomorrow. still feel my head bobbing about and i feel some shards of carbon fibre in my fingers :(

Oh and the instructor got bored and started taunting a jellyfish buy pushing water currents against it but he got zapped. aw... haha...

spam scram

"if u dont repost this you would not have a good relationship"

"(insert name) would come out from under ur bed an murder you"

"(insert name) would come out through ur drain and slice u up with a rusty saw"

SCRAM SPAM!

and some people still believe that it would happen and repost it.