Of Valentine's Day and feeling depressed

Once again, very inactive here. Don't really know who else is reading anymore. Blogs are dying out. But I won't be closing this anytime soon. Sometimes it's quite fun to read your past posts and laugh at your stupid self. And this following post will hopefully serve as a source of entertainment for my future self.
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See I've never really been bothered by Valentine's Day. Couples don't really irk me. Roses don't either. i just don't see the point of spending so much money on bad bad set meals and gross presents which no one really needs. For the past dunno how many years, as far as I remember, I've always spent V Day at home, living it as "just-another-day".

This year, an aquaintance of mine asked me to go tohis place for a "singles" gathering, for all his single friends. So I'm all like "oh ok... since I have nothing to lose, and nothing to do, just go lor", keeping an open mind about it.

So I met this guy at the party, seems pretty decent, looks above average and overall quite easy to talk to.... he seems to be sort of interested as well, and even offered to send me home. Of course, knowing me, I could have interpreted all these signs WRONG because I am VERY BAD at this. But alas, he stays in the west, and I in the east. So I didn't insist cos I also not so thick skinned. I was also too humji to ask for his number at that point in time. Obviously having alcohol in my system didn't increase my courage one bit.

So after I got home, I finally asked my friend to give me his number. But I was told he is asking for another dude's number. FUCK MY LIFE RIGHT? yup. FML indeed. Since I wasn't really that close to my friend, I didn't push it further la. Whatever. But you know what, the entire episode was just eating my insides up.

What the fuck did I do wrong this time. Everything seems to be gg ok, but he went on to ask for another person's number....

I'm ususally not easily affected by shit (like above) happening to me. But.... you know, after 28 years of being single, it does affects your self esteem somehow. Is there something inherently wrong with me, or is there something I'm doing wrongly? I don't think I have such shitty attitude when I'm meeting new people. I'm friendly, as long you do all the talking. I really think I'm not THAT ugly. So....... what gives?

I'm a completely self sufficient person. I'm independant. I like being alone for the most parts. But sometimes, you just need someone other than your friends and family, to be there for u...

alrighty. enough of being depressed. Im gg to be awesome again, soon.