Weight lost

Soooooooo happy that I can finally fit into my Dr. Denim jeans again! Woooot!

Life is good!

Maybe it's the festive season. Maybe I'll be going for a short holiday soon. Maybe I'm really just happy. :)

Before I know it, things have changed. I listen to emo songs but no longer feel sad about the past. They're just lyrics to my ears now. No longer stabbing my heart with each sentence.

In reference to my previous post, well recently my blog was read by a person from Thailand. I thought it might be him since there's no one else that could possibly read it from Thailand. But whatever, i mean my blog is open to anyone to read.

Once in awhile, I do think of him and even my friend who did me wrong. Memories do come back. And I wonder how are they now, and if they're good or not?
I still care for them I guess.
You know, no longer love, no pinning, nothing, but just a general care.


If you read back my past posts, from October till now, I really can't help suspecting I had some form of depressions then. I had trouble sleeping every night. I was feeling angst. I was aloof. I was rude and bad-tempered.
I kept questioning why. I cursed and swore at God.
I cried in sleep. I cried before sleep. I cried when I woke up. I cried in showers. I cried in front of Celeste.
I cried in between students.

And soon, the cryings just got lesser and lesser.
But you know, when you no longer think of your past and feel lousy-sad, and now here I am. Can u believe it??

And I didn't realize it till I was out with my gfs on Christmas eve. It's so AMAZING!

And then I sent him a Christmas message. Wishing him, sincerely from the bottom of my heart, all the good in the world. And I've never felt more released and free than ever.


Life IS indeed good!
Live it while we have it!!
I've made peace with my past. Just in perfect time to a new start of the year.

ISN'T IT AMAZING??? :DDD

I have a new chapter in my life. Stay tune! I wish EVERYONE lots of love this Christmas an new year.

Most importantly, PEACE! No matter what troubled times you've been through, make peace with your troubled past so as not to screw up your present! :)

Love xx

Off and on..

I pray, and I pray.

To God, to Goddess of Mercy, to set me free. Be rid of the heart clenching moments in me. Especially in times when I see updates of him. Pfffff.


And then, I read this from the book, "Life's little detours" by Regina Brett.
Everytime after reading it, it just gives me strength to carry on. It motivates me.

Read the following I edited slightly from the book to see what I mean.


"Choice, not chance, determines my destiny. It's up to ME to decide what I'm worth, how I matter, and how I make meaning in the world.

No one else has my gifts - my set of talents, ideas, interests. I'm an original. A masterpiece.

Even if I made every mistakes I fear would ruin me, my life wouldn't be ruined. It would be changed."

Amazing words. Powerful paragraphs.

Good luck to her, really, bless her instead. I should be happy I'm rid of all the lies, the hurt, and the cheating. :)

Life is good. :)

Bad things happen for a reason. For me, it's not to trust anyone, be it friends or a love one or a friend's husband. I've learnt my lesson. I should have, since it was such a painful and unforgettable one. There's not one day I curse and swear at God for putting me through this. What have I done to deserve this.
What have I fucking done to get so tainted? So twisted.