Financial Issues

Having sparked a conversation with my financially stringent brother, i really feel we are of different characters and what it takes to be money-wise between the both of us. Sure, he's the financial savvy guy, doing tradings, making profits, playing the stock market, and earning money wisely, with studies and not just some people who wants to make big bucks fast.

Me, I'm the reckless, spend-any-amount i have, on things i like and want. Travel unneccessary, to shop, to buy branded stuffs and non-stop shopping, looking out for ever-ready sales and discounts, yes, that's me you're talking about.

I have some savings, not to be proud of, but i have a happy 5 digits in a bank, and I'm also working on another 5 digits in another bank, though I've been working on that for awhile. Sure it IS peanuts, and i know i SHOULD spend wisely, to take care of myself when i get older, when I'm all alone, and yes, i have NO fucking ideas on settling down. YET. So why should i stop myself from exploring the world, and stop the things i wanna DO just because i have to save for a future that i don't see myself going into? (Yet)

Now this has got nothing to do with Giel or whoever, it is just me, i don't see myself settling, at least not in the near future. Yes when i really do get married, then yes, i'll be fucked.
The thing is, i don't see why i should shortchange myself now. Shouldn't i grab the opportunity now that I'm young, I'm able to do things, learn things, BEFORE i really get married and slogged with kids then i realize how many things in life i have yet to accomplish?

Would you rather see the world now, do all the exciting things, than spend on baby's diapers for their poop and then to be thrown away?
And really, i don't see the fucking big deal of getting married. If i wanna get married, i'll just do a small affair with people who matters. Inviting all the relatives that i don't even recognise when i see them on the streets? WHY BOTHER? As usual, sterotype singaporeans. Tsk tsk.

If i were to get married my way? Maybe just us 2, whoever the groom is, away somewhere. Somewhere nice. Paris is too cliche. Venice seems cool. And definitely not Vegas. (Cool though)
Then honeymoon in Seychelles, Mauritius or even Madagascar. Haa!

I know everyone has got their own views. Some wants their own house, some wants branded and more branded, some wants cars. Everyone has their own spending splurges and issues! My brother himself bought a $700 earphone and it's not the only one! (He has like 4 different kinds of branded headphones). Of course he doesn't shop excessively like me, and he only uses his profits to shop, but isn't that so sad? At least to me!

For me, joy means spending, doting on myself. Of course i don't abuse that ability but i do spend within my needs and not overspend!

One of my close friend's bf always ask me "Wa, you're very rich hor, always shopping and flying.."
But the thing isn't that, it's just that, example, i stopped buying branded stuffs.
I used to splurge on clothes that cost near $100.
Now i always and usually limit myself to $50 or less.
And I'll consider if the material is worth every cent to what i pay for.
I look for good deals and member discounts here and there.

I'm not the greatest saver, and i KNOW i should save more.
Everyone wants to save more, who doesn't???

*rolls eyes*

Money is a substantial thing.
Experiences? Priceless.

We must all learn to let go certain things.

Sorry for the lack of update.

Been really busy at work and overwhelmed by a few bad things that happened to me.

It's so bad, it's actually quite a dent in my life.

I'm better now and not thinking about it, because apparently i was more caught up in dent number 2.

So dent no.1 and no. 2 really burned me inside out.

I've cried buckets.

Till now i'm still at doubt, but life moves on..

I know more than i actually should. But.. Oh well.

I'm glad i've moved on, and let go of that two dents.

Because i feel happier, lighter now.

Sometimes, I just can't help feeling it's so one-sided.

I'm a big big girl,
In a big big world.........

It's a big scary world.