april birthdays...

SO MANY BIRTHDAYS YOU KNOW!!!

ok, let's start with the dued March birthdays first..

first was mindy's celebration at Dbl O.

it was a fun retro night with truckloads of events.. hmm..

next was mardiyah's at Magic Wok.

full of laughters, we couldn't bear to part..

then in mid march, i met julia and shuan for dinner at tm..

it was quite an upsetting night for me.. =( but things are getting better now..

anyway her Mac Lappie is so cool! haha all the faces so wrong!

now april babies;

first there is aiden's 1st birthday but stupid me accidentally deleted his photos after sending to my cousin.. so this will be updated another time..

then its angela's birthday at St. James Powerhouse.. it was quite a nice exploration for me haha..

next was actually my mum's and i bought her a blouse from Marks & Spencers.. cost me a bomb.. but oh well, it will look nice on her. =D

celeste's and jasmine's celebration at Marina Square's Pizza Hut. Well they have tip-top service, and at the end of it, they gave us a piece of paper to compliment them on their service online.. well, they do provide excellent service and everything was pleasant. so yea, do patronise them.. haha you get a complimentary slice of cake when u're found to be celebrating a birthday..

Goodness right! so many birthdays in a month.. this is heavy for my wallet man.. gosh.. anyway yay april is ending! PAY DAY COMING !! BEAMS!

i miss my boy.. =)

lets walk back into the past..

hi im ok..

anyway i just came across these photos.. some are entertaining, some are funny.. all filled with lovely memories of my recent years..


lets start with the pics that i edited with PAINT last time in secondary 4..!



this is the guy that LOVES me alot.. =D




LOL!

see we even got married!



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the very very first one that i edited..



josh hartnett awww

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i even became part of Harry Potter!





and eminem accompanied me to the premiere of Harry Potter movie =D




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i joined tkd in poly.. its definately a good experience.. i had much fun, tortures, blue blacks, tired and sad moments..

joreen dear and me..
we just took our grading.. and my very last one too.. =( sadly.. im a blue tip..



we joined IVP 2004 i think.. and it was the BEST time though i was going through my 2nd break up in a relationship.. i had alot of fun with my tkd friends..

meet JAY CHOU! lol.. aww..



sir peter loves us..






dear marcus so MAN...



and mr aliff.. =)




i miss training..


wah lao last time quite thin lo..!



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last time im damn nerdy.... maybe now still.. haha.. but err now know how to dress up more ba.. last time very disgusting.. pukes*

jas and me.. lol can't stand us..



im really shocked he would like me then.. im so fucking ugly lo..

REALLY KENA SAI ONE..



sometimes i really wonder.. how come he will like me.. he said he like my character...
to compare his love then and now, last time was so much more.. more genuine.. and much more true.. it CANT be compared to now..


with PCK's ah goon



eileen wee~




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after always going out with him, i just wear A TINY BIT NICER Only..

(note: don't worry this post wont turn into one for him.. and not an emotional one.. im going for comical actually..)


he was SO thin last time.. when he still liked jane.... year 1:



one of the pics that i like him best.. so cheeky.. so real and i snapped it real fast..

year 2: when he fetched me to sch daily.. AS FRIENDS..




on an innocent afternoon in E-learning lab...



Dom: wah BIG sia!
Andy: no need look until like that la...

lol ok i made that up..



with dear janice



eve, andy, me



yan & me... =)



jas..




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when i got my piano diploma in 2005










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things i did for him..
i drew him a birthday banner.. his favourite car..
and his own car.. i gave him a "car plate" printed with his name.. haha.. insane lo......









21 presents? that was what i tried to do.. i still owe him 3 i think.. lol



wall paper i did for him..

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sorry can't resist putting up these few funny ones..

lol..

this is wei han and benji and they look like they're doing some "illegal" exchange..


and that was benji DURING NS..


this is wei han and benji and they look like they just fucked coz benji is happy and wei han looks raped..



and that was benji STILL DURING NS..




HAHAHAHHAHA

sorry no mood to blog liao.. bye..

just this night...

just this night, let me cry out all my tears..
let me use up all my tissues..
let me cry till my eyes sting and swell..
till i crunch my fingers up till my nails prick my flesh..
till i feel the pain so strong within me..

just this night, let me be weak...
i've been strong for 1 week.. only..
just this night, i want to be weak..

his words are all so hurting..
whether they are true or not true, they hurt.. it really pierced me hard..
for the whole week, i've been controlling my tears..
so many times when i go to the toilet, tears well up but they don't drop..
so many times when im on my way to work, my eyes go blurry but soon they clear up..
so many times i meet up my friends, i pretend like nothing's wrong...
so many times i act like im strong and i can take it..
so many times the words flashed through my mind while im teaching.. but i can't cry..
so many times in my studio, alone or teaching, i fought the urge to cry..
so many times i wished to contact him but i have no words to say..

just this night, let me be weak... i can't stop crying..