haiz.. sian ar.. sad ar.. stress ar... the 3 Ss.. haha..haiz.. dunno la.. i really dunno wad to say liao.. i think is the day before yesterday.. the geo.. sux la.. siao lo.. gt the crime thg speech.. till abt 1.50pm.. den before tat.. FONG say wan lesson at 1.30pm.. so.. dun hav lo.. but den we still go la.. we wait abt 5mins den she come.. den... we say we wan lunch.. den i heard she say wad.. "no need la.. u all recess eat liao.. i also recess eat.. no need la..".. wah lau! den i heard mr beh say tat she had lunch at staff room liao.. damn her.. den in recess we ask wad time hav remedial.. cuz she always change mah.. den she say "1.30pm lo.. so tat u all can go home earlier".. siao la.. we also hav lessons after tat la.. wan eat our time den say la!.. den..
she teach lo.. damn her.. den i dowan listen to her...den tok lo.. den she suddenly stop toking.. den.. "OI~~E~~".. den i stop liao.. den she giv tat kind of face.. den say "PLAESE!".. wah lau.. she please ppl like tat one.. damn her la.. sucker... den tok till 2.25pm.. we 2.30pm gt lesson leh! den nv eat! how can! alot of us hungry like siao liao.. she still tok so much.. i think she till tot we going home.. damn her.. den eat lo.. but still late for phy lesson.. but at least we eat damn fast... hahaha....
haiz.. dunno leh.. these few days very sad.. see the hw.. sian la.. lessons next week.. sian la.. den still gt re-papers.. i gt 2 more sub leh.. haiz.. bio and chem.. haiz.. i dun wish to drop.. but if i fail or C again.. den i will be forced to drop lo.. or combine the sci.. haiz..!!!!...
den now.. my comp.. really suxs.. i long found tat my hardware suxs la.. butno choice.. my father like wad.. cheap thgs is like tat la.. my motherboard.. 6USB.. but gt 2 is USB 1.1 de.. wah lau.. kena cheat liao.. DIMM RAM.. also slow speed type.. haiz.. den.. alot thg nt gd la.. den now i play games like RO, generals and the roller coaster tycoon 3 demo.. i cant.. its either cant go in or is very lag.. or is play halfway den auto restart com.. den gt send error report.. den it says its my ram problem.. but my graphics run on my ram.. so i think its my graphics lo.. den now.. wanna buy a standard graphics card.. no choice.. gd one also no use.,,my motherboard too old liao.. so budget is abt $150 lo.. its VERY cheap type one leh.. standard is abt $200+++ one lo... haiz.. den ...
den wad ar.. yesterday.. erm... went to play basketball la.. din noe media club gt meeting.. haha.. den play lo.. play play play.. very tired.. but den nv eat lunch! damn hungry.. den joel.. i think beginner la.. but den hor... his 3 point shoot.. wah! damn pro.. keep on scoring.. hahaha
den.. hav quite some fun la.. den forgot go wei jie hse help him make the comp.. den today after sch i go lo.. i think i upset ppl la.. the media club gt meeting.. but mr beh say very long.. but den i wan go hav breakfast and go wei jie hse liao.. but den he say NO.. den i'm in a difficult position lo.. haiz.. but den suddenly mr beh hav somethg on.. den say let me go.. haiz.. quite guilty.. den went wei jie hse.. tried fixing.. but cant work la.. the funner worm is.. too strong? i cant lo.. quite guilty also.. like.. disappoint others.. haiz.. dunno wad to do la.. den also daniel folo me go.. but he nv play...haiz.. poor him... den go back.. den after tat i go home.. tried to clean my inside CPU.. clean the dust all these.. den i go touch touch or wad.. den even pull the intel fan out.. wah lau.. but nv whole thg come out la...
den i on comp.. but den.. cannot start leh! den gt the beep beep sound... den i panic liao lo! den 3pm muz go play badminton.. den juz hav 15mins time.. the thg happen.. i so scared! i tried alot time but still same prob.. but i no choice.. i faster dismantle the comp again and try.. but still cannot lo.. no choice.. den go play badminton liao.. den no mood lo.. cuz comp is my everythg liao.. if spoil.. i hav no money to replace it liao.. so..haiz...
but den.. i remembered mr beh telling me tat the beep sounds represent thgs one.. den i call him ask.. den he say wad 65k memory error.. wad mayb motherboard failure or ram prob.. den he giv suggestions la.. but den i was on the way to badminton.. still worried.. haiz.. den no mood play lo.. but den i still played for 2hours without resting.. haha... quite selfish hor..
ppl wan play i also dun let.. dunno la... really no mood at tat time.. and chin yong also no mood.. the person he admire or wad.. gt stead liao.. and is wei jing! heard one la.. haha.. den he also very sad.. den i also very sad.. den tao guang.. hahaha.. go say "jia jin nt gd one la.." (tats also wad i wanna say)... den chin yong angry liao.. den keep smack and wanna hit tao guang.. den i wan hit him leh! i also no mood mah.. worry for my comp.. but den i cant.. he hit tao guang liao den stop liao.. haha... den played soft hit wif daniel.. hahaha.. no strength needed one.. haha.. no offence...
ahya.. today take back repost book.. i also sad one la.. haiz.. my results worse than shit.. L1R5 26 leh! how to go JC like tat.. go eat shit la.. as my father say.. no use one la!...u nv work hard!!! haiz... k la.. here's my overall result...
EL - 51
Chi - 56
AM - 52
EM - 73
Bio - 53
Chem - 57
Phy - 63
Geo/SS - 63
Total - 363/600
class position - 22/40
level position - 40/200
L1R4 - 21
L1R5 - 26
damn lo.. no edusave award.. top 25% one is for income less than $3000.. although now my parents income is way less.. but... they also wont see this few hundreds in eye one la.. they need their face.. they also dun care.. cuz we still hav money to live.. still can afford.. but juz need to save.. haiz.. how how... i last time tot i can get at least the top 10% leh.. but now.. haiz.. dunno la.. mayb i nv work hard enough?? i dunno lo... sad la.. see ppl around me.. all so gd.. ks also better than me.. only tat his el fail...me.. how la.. ppl say practise more.. but... y cant i???? i dunno leh.. sian sia...
pandaboo penned at 10/29/2004 07:59:00 pm
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haiz..nat like to stare into space... i mean.. air.. free space la.. and me.. i also liked.. but den.. i stare at ground more often.. dunno y.. mayb i feel more relaxed when i put my head down? or i can think better? or it is cuz when my head down.. my eyes lid dun open so much and hence more relaxed? dunno.. quite alot thgs happened...
i said i no money.. but my father still hav one more private hse at katong...but.. he bought tat for investment 5 years ago.. investment.. if u dunno.. later i explain...he bought tat private apartment... its old old type.. more than 10 years type.. u noe y? i think he bought it at abt $500 000.. and hope tat construction companies would buy the land.. means all the apartment at that area.. and den build new condos.. cuz.. den they will pay us.. the owners of the current apartment money.. and expected to be abt 1million.. so and den we will earn lo.. but den.. 5 years liao.. still no one intent to buy.. den we rent out lo.. made some renovations.. gt fan gt aircon all these liao.. and renting out at abt 1k/month... or else will be a waste of money.. we.. always waiting tat some companies will come and buy the land..den we will earn.. but nvm.. we wait.. wait for money.. and so rent out first.. but den.. last 3 months.. the person dowan to rent liao.. den now... its free.. no one living.. and no income.. and den my family was like "wad the hell".. den.. sad la..
ok la.. if i dun understand.. i giv my example.. the place... private hse.. is called marine mansion and is 4 storey and contained abt 100++ apartments.. for example la.. and we buy for abt 520 thousands.. den.. if a company like CDL come buy the land.. and build condos of higher storey and so more units.. if each unit sell at 1 million.. they will earn la.. if abt 600 units den they will still earn if minus the construction fee.. and they will pay us abt 1million.. so they will spend 100million on us.. and millions for building and earn 600million for selling the condos.. so in the end.. all of us earn.. but dunno for wad reason la.. no one wanted to buy this marine mansion.. and terrence around this apartment is already being bought and building new condos.. i really dunno wads the reason la..
den renting.. no one wans.. sad la. also dunno wad reason... mayb cuz its on the 4th floor and no lift? or is it too old? or is it too dirty? or wad? i dunno!! and so we continued to live on with no income.. my father is starting to retire frm his business liao.. no income now.. and so.. now he invest in china... wanna start a business on insurance and fainace.. dun actually noe wads it.. he nv say.. and i dun dare to ask too much.. or else he will be irritated or frustrated.. and i am the one to suffer... so.. dun lo.. haiz.. now selling my PS2 as i dun really use it.. cuz alone.. dun wanna play alone.. it.. it is a terrible kind of feeling.. haiz.. really.. i would rather fight wif a sibling.. haiz...anyone intrested to buy? details :
PS2 modified console
2 original dual controller II
1 original dual controller 1
1 original 8mb memory card
1 original PS2 NBA live 2002
5 PS2 old games
41 PS1 old games
and.. i think i selling at abt $400 or less or more la.. haha..see lo.. and if anyone noes anyone tat hav a contruction company.. ask if wanna see the plc anot.. marine mansion.. sea ave there.. haiz.. hope la.. or else.. i dun think my family can stand long.. now really cut down alot on my spendings...haiz.. save ar! but.. food is still needed.. so.. dun expect me nt to eat for my lunch.. haha
haiz.. no money is one issue.. retest is another issue.. ohya.. i nv post my marks.. cuz.. cuz i forgot.. nv wanted to remember... so.. i think i will post the overall mark when i recieve my report book la...but i hav to retake chem and bio.. chem on 29dec and bio on 10 nov.. haiz.. i predict will be the same paper la.. but.. i forgot all liao.. now felt abit scared leh.. how sia...
den also feel quite.. damned...cuz.. daniel won the muvo slim 256mb mp3 player!!! wan lan.. he damn lucky lo... me.. send very long liao.. only win $70 voucher which i nv use.. sad la!!!.. erm.. i hav a feeling tat i said this somewhere.. did i repeat? but nvm.. i'm damn!! haiz.. same as nat.. i gonna go spend my time and stare at the ground or wad liao.. and i feel tat i starting to hav short sightedness liao.. i dowan spects.. so.. gonna rest my eyes liao.. haiz.. the coming topics for all sub.. is crazy!!! siao liao!! organic chem.. virus for bio.. a maths.. phy.. sian la!!! haiz.. dunno la.. i very... stress now.. haven cut hair.. think no need liao.. dropping alot liao.. haiz...
really lo.. i today stare at dunno where when eating lunch.. den when i turn.. saw xy.. lolx.. den act i nv see.. ahya... dunno la.. i say this for wad ar? bored? ohya.. i gonna try some lame games soon.. too bored man! when hw.. den also bored.. sian la.. how!!! no money to buy.. if sell my PS2.. at least i can buy my simcity4.. haiz... sad sad sad! den kwan yong.. say wan buy.. now dowan.. keep chaging mind.. made me hav diff feeling at diff time.. sometimes happy and excited.. sometimes sad and dull.. how la.. den he like to put " ? " very much.. i say somethg.. he nv giv comments.. juz put the stupid sign.. made me damn angry.. arghh!!! dunno wad the meaning of tat sign.. damned la...
ohya.. i hate ERIC.. i SAY I HATE HIM! damn him.. scold me ok.. den scold my parents.. i CURSE his parents.. curse him.. DOWN WIF THE JAPS!!! suckers.. i hate japs.. dunno y.. for no reason...
pandaboo penned at 10/24/2004 09:13:00 pm
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
ahya.. dunno la.. nth nth to write.. but juz tot of this phrase.. tat wei jie say today.. nth is impossible.. zi yao you hen xin.. yi ding nen cheng gong.. ya la.. gt determination.. all obstructions or restriction can be overcome.. and achieve success.. but.. where can i get my determination.. yes.. its in me.. haiz.. dunno la.. i was saying this and tat to myself.. but i really dunno how to do it or i din noe if i shld do it anot leh.. haiz.. contradict my ownself in my statements.. haiz.. really dunno wad to do la.. ya la.. i noe i muz do wad it takes.. do wadever it takes.. but.. do wad? practise.. help?? i dunno leh.. i juz feel tat practise.. the same qn over and over again.. den when come out other qn.. my mind will always be thinking towards a certian direction.. hence cannot think in another way.. yes.. i've tried before.. tats y.. haiz.. but sometimes i cant deny it really help for me to understand.. haiz.. i really wish i hav my dream hse tat is nt so untidy!!! my room is so untidy and nt well facilitaed.. lol.. untidy is the issue la.. made me no mood to do hw.. den air.. suxs there.. table.. dot dot dot.. how to write.. haiz.. books is everywhere.. seen so many ppl's home also nt so untidy la.. haiz.. how la.. dunno la..
wad can i do.. haiz...!!! practise.. dont help for all ppl!!! sometimes.. haiz.. i really wanna do somethg.. but juz afriad the results turn out another way.. sometimes i tot it will turn out this way.. den it turn out another way... thgs are so unpredictable.. i dunno!!! haiz.. i really dunno la.. feel like crying.. cry my heart out.. if.. if.. i'm alone at home.. i really wanna cry.. ppl may think.. wah lan! a man crying.. siao ar!!.. but.. cry is wad we learnt frm the start... its juz like our roots.. all ppl are childish.. and childish in a correct way is cute.. and.. we all like to be childish sometimes.. cuz its juz freedom.. u may nt like to be childish.. but.. who dun like their childhood years? isnt it gd tat u forgot everythg and dun need to care everythg? life remains happy even though the building collapse.. haiz.. cry.. cry my heart out!!! cry at my results.. cry at all!! shout!! and tml i'm going to fa xie.. arghh!! badminton.. i gonna hit till i no strength ah!!! sucker!!! arghh!!! feel like scolding.. shouting.. wtf man!! am i suffering frm depression? i may think so.. arghh!!!! y suffer like tat.. will get ill one leh!!! haiz..!!! y make life difficult for us?? y u all can enjoy childhood years and we enjoy it wif books??!!! and i hate books till now....
haiz.. dunno la.. watched pearl harbor.. reminded me of alot thgs.. and how my grandparents suffer.. i hated the japs... japan and the japanese.. ppl will say.. ahya.. so long liao.. forget it la.. get along wif life la.. now is globalisation... but i juz cant remove the hatred in me.. i dunno y i juz hated japan.. i really dunno y!! i hate their attitude..like eric? dunno.. i juz hate them.. and i was thinking y ppl still wanna learn japanese.. their language so.. suxs.. and.. WW2.. i hate them.. and the way they treat thgs.. i hate them.. and the womanisers.. wtf.. haiz.. i juz dunno how i hate them to the core... i eat sushi.. i sure will get stomachache.. unless is like.. sg ppl make one.. sg version.. or else.. eeek! yucks! raw thgs sia! omg.. dunno la..
ok la.. tml.. going escape.. going on my own.. meet them den go.. but i predict i will be alone la.. who to tok to? ahya.. no one share the same interest as me there.. say hafidz and darren.. stick to the gals one la.. den teck hua they all.. nt in gd relation wif me la.. might juz ask me "go away la.. non of ur business".. unless daniel they all wont.. sad la.. yyy!!! haiz.. mayb.. somethg diff will happen tml.. who noes?? scarly they force me do somethg tat i dowan to do.. scarly somethg happened.. i dunno!! dun care la.. tml.. play badminton till 12pm.. muz find a way to rush to escape.. by 1.30pm.. how? dunno la.. i really fee so sad these few days.. since after the A maths paper.. i was like tat.. i tried to tell myself.. be happy at sch.. as if nth happen.. but i juz cant.. i wanted to show ppl i'm happy.. but i'm nt.. msn grp.. i dowan to care! but i still go check it everyday and invite ppl to join.. since i'm still the manager.. i really dowan others to noe somethgs.. yes.. i'm secretive... but.. so wad if others noe? wads the use? my family thg.. i think i told others abt 90% of wad i noe.. but.. nth happen?? haiz.. sec ppl still wont say till wad.. pri sch i tell others.. i was laughed at.. the thg spread.. rumours and other thg go around.. i hate tat.. and my frens are doing tat.. i juz dun hav the power to stop them.. i requested them to stop.. they said ok...
but after few days or months.. u will see the rumours spread to new ppl.. tat type of suffering.. is the worse!! this is like throwing face on the floor.. ok fine.. i dun care... dun wish to noe.. dun wish to care.. carry on wif live.. but when even teachers juz misunderstood and say me.. omg.. my grades will drop.. i dunno.. i juz cant control.. haiz.. dunno la.. now gt quite alot thg to write.. but its in brain-understood language.. very diff to translate.. haha.. means diff to say out in words la.. all these are feelings.. very very difficult to express out.. got times i spent alone.. on bed.. thinking and thinking.. in the end fell asleep and nth came out.. i always HOPE i could find a solution.. haiz..
ohya.. after daniel's great sayings.. i decided to sell my PS2 and dun wanna buy the mp3 player liao.. he said really well.. i agree to it.. and really enlighten me.. great sayings.. great speaker.. haha.. can make me change my mind.. hehe.. thx daniel!!! i will remember wad u say.. but.. i still dun giv up on my last chance to win a mp3 player frm creative through the sms thgy.. leave it to fate.. if its mine.. its mine.. nt mine... let it go.. when it's time to let go.. den let go.. dun hold on too long.. haiz... CREATIVE MINE!!! hahahaha! simcity 4.. still haven lost hope on it.. gonna try my best and find ways to get it... i will!!! but.. actions speaks louder than words.. i dun even noe i can do it or not.. dun seems like.. through my past few years.. i hav nt done anythg great or wad.. none.. even if i hav.. its juz my own opinion.. haiz.. see wad can i do for this o lvl bah.. wait and see... i'm damn afraid for my ENGLISH.. dunno how.. will my JC and university dream perish juz becuz of this english?? will my future be ruined?? i dunno.. or will my dream became reality?? i still dunno the skills in english.. its so damn difficult to understand.. and i dint noe how those vocabs stored in ppl's mind.. how??!!! does it mean i'm stupid or i hav a small brain?????
pandaboo penned at 10/19/2004 11:45:00 pm
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haiz.. o..k.. yesterday nv write my blog.. and ppl expect me to write lo.. but.. i juz dunno wad to write.. alot ppl write.. cuz they recieve their results and gt alot thg to tok abt...their results and their feelings.. me.. i almost forgot wad are my results..i totally hav no feelings.. i... haiz..
ok la.. i still nt bad.. could pass all subjects.. i think.. haha.. i still dunno some overall year results la.. so.. dunno lo.. but even if i pass.. i pass wif a C6 or C5.. very bad sia.. i'm so scared now.. really scared they.. as in teachers and sch plus peers.. may force me to drop some subjects.. or combine them... i really dun wish to do tat.. really.. but.. my AM is bad.. BIO is abt the same.. so how? my CHEM suxs.. so.. i think they may force me to combine.. but i dun wish to do tat!!! wad can i do??!! i tot pass eng can liao.. everythg will be solved.. but not...more challenges came.. now.. its the matter of the subjects i'm taking.. haiz.. i dunno la!!! den heard frm victor.. wan go JC.. need eng at least B3... den i'm C6 type.. how sia!!! means i cannot go lo!!! haiz.. HOW!!! i really dunno how..
i read other blogs.. all tok abt their results.. say nt very gd.. den when they post all their results.. they all getting As for it.. haiz.. i see liao also heart ache ar.. haiz.. how sia...ppl getting As and i'm getting Cs... haiz.. dunno la.. ppl like leeping.. already planned her holiday to study study and study liao.. me.. wanted to change but dunno where to start.. wanted to find a plc to study... but.. where? heard ppl going changi airport.. also tot quite a nice plc... but was like.. siao ar!!! den library.. ppl reading story books la! nt my notes and textbook.. den weird.. at home? i cant study at home la.. fren hse? was defined as going there to play only.. haha
haiz.. den i see worksheets coming in liao.. sad la.. den.. tot can go out study wif fren.. but.. i cant find one... kwan yong.. but.. we quite different in timing one lo.. and location prob.. haiz.. how sia... haiz.. stress is up again and i can predict i will be lonely this dec.. studying? i dun mind if i am alone at home and study.. and i'm going to sell my PS2 liao.. control my comp usage.. think can bah.. but the prob is.. my mother sure at home... den.. is like.. wad i do she will sure say somethg.. i eat abit later.. she will shout.. den i will be distracted.. she dun care i'm doing hw or wad.. i nv bath.. she will shout and scold.. i on aircon.. she will come in off and open the windows and i will be warm!!! and cant study.. den slp lo.. haha.. haiz.. dunno la..
change.. not so easy la! 5As.. even not easy!!! i din get any A this time round... haiz.. how la.. mayb i really gonna treat hy and hafidz lunch liao... haiz.. how how!!! i noe u all will wan to cheer me up as usual.. but hy tried liao.. no use la.. dun waste ur efforts.. i wont be happy no matter wad.. unless i suddenly become very clever...excel in everythg...den say bah... haiz.. how how!!! how can i be clever!!! xy kan dian shi.. he kan dian nao.. den dian dao nao... den still so clever.. me.. kan dian shi.. kan dian nao.. wan PS2.. dian dao yan... till my eyes black also nth happen to my brain.. become more idiot la.. haiz... dunno la.. suddenly nth to write liao..
really feel tat speak is alot more easier.. i always say i wanna change.. wanna get As.. but i'm nt facing the reality lo.. juz pass or sub.. if they force me drop.. den i die la.. haiz.. sad la!!! i really dunno how.. ohya.. today went wei jie hse.. waa.. double storey.. gd lo... haiz.. den.. PS2... comp and notebook.. haiz.. so rich.. but cuz of his curiosity.. he tio virus... den i try fixing.. but the virus damn diff to solve.. it prevent u frm logging in.. i tried dos mode.. also cannot! safe mode.. also cannot!!! den i read frm one forum.. tat method.. dunno if can work anot leh... but i will try to help.. but if really created more trouble.. den i tio the blame.. so.. some ppl say siao guan xian shi... den hy will say "ni guan wo.." lol.. so.. better dun care.. haha.. k la.. really dunno wad to write... still haven bath.. tml go play badminton.. den also go the escape lo.. i wanted very much to go.. but nt many guys tat tok well wif me one going.. den was like.. ahya.. dun go.. but since nat like tat say.. i go lo.. see wad happen... or else stay at home also rot la.. haha.. cy nt going cuz no money la.. and he dowan go.. daniel.. nv go one la.. k la.. i go liao.. or else kena scold liao!!! bye!
pandaboo penned at 10/19/2004 08:08:00 pm
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Thursday, October 14, 2004
oooo......O......Oh...~~.... uh?? ... yes yes?? wad?? oh!! write blog ar.. haiz.. long time.. nv write... eh no.. last few write... erm... wad to say...
nth la.. oh!!!~~ exams over liao!! o..k... over... so? doesn't make any diff leh.. still hav to study wad.. still hav to go sch.. still hav coming exams and tests.. still hav new topics.. still hav alot of thgs!!! organic chem.. starting soon... think it WILL be a very BiG topic... haiz.. dun say the exams liao la.. sad la.. almost all papers gt no confidence.. A maths.. chi...bio is the WORST.. but after the checking of the chem paper.. i can add chem to my "lousy" list liao la.. WAD THE ___ man!!! i get this kind of ____ marks!!! how sia.. getting this for studying ONE whole DaY... hehe.. quite little.. but i put in EFForT leh!! den juz gimme a 50.5.. zzzzZzz.. dunno wad to say la.. A maths.. i can say i GAVE UP liao la.. i see.. dun understand or dunno how to start.. den skip lo.. skip until almost all blank.. i dun put high hopes on it.. ahya.. dun say liao la.. trying to run away frm this fact....my dream is now scattered.. can i fix it back like a puzzle?? who noes...
(eh kwan yong... dun get offended hor....) o..k.. yesterday also went to my fren hse 'fix' comp.. actually nt fix.. is juz reformat and install xp la.. actually.. i like to help ppl on IT thg tat i noe la.. but hor.. sometimes feel quite being make used of.. my fren.. i suggest him to change to win xp la.. den he ask me help him make lo.. den he.. hearing wad his fren say.. den he wan BORROW my ORIGINAL windows xp.. of course i find excuse tat it cannot use on multi computers la.. den he say can.. den i was like.. "err.. can meh?? dowan la.." plz lo.. a hundred++ software.. he juz earn it.. without hav to do anythg.. juz 'earn' or save the few hundred dollars..and.. also save the $10 to buy the privated one... and asked me to help him buy since i can...den... nvm lo.. i suggest him to change one.. all my fault to ask him change juz for his sake... den i can go buy.. but before tat he call me and requested for my disc.. i shocked.. last time borrowing a game frm him also need pay him some money as its his mother's wish.. now.. he still can ASK me call him and let him request me to lend him.. wah.. he really GOOD SAVER... like tat also can save.. $10 also wan save.. if i lend.. i lose man!! buy the original to lend everyone ar.. den scarly cannot how.. i suffer lo..
den i check internet.. really.. the original can be used on multi pc.. but its illegal and shld call the microsoft before u do tat.. but.. i still wonder how it can be activated.. so.. den.. he bought the privated one lo.. den went his hse install.. all the stuff... i did thgs quite slow when searching for the cd-key.. quite cock eye of me.. nv see the file.. den after i format all and install.. it juz became like a new comp.. so i install all the thgs for him.. quite fast as i multitask the comp.. haha.. dl is like 5 downloads.. at 1 time.. and also installing while dling.. all thgs together.. caused abit lag but still can do it la.. so.. i lend him my softwares and he duplicate all and i leave lo.. i asked him to do some maintainance like scandisk and defrag for better performance.. and dl updates.. but until 10pm.. at night.. den he finished the SP2 update.. and i was thinking.. he used 5 hours juz to update this few.. if i can stay.. i think i will finish all latest by 8pm... juz a few more installation and updates.. can be done together wad!! but he juz like one by one.. he first.. put files in his comp and den slowly go through the files... at that time.. he could dl thgs mah.. and den.. he cannot chat and do thgs one.. when he updating.. he dun chat or even reply u.. haiz.. so systematic... its system-ma-tic.. haha.. scarly he dunno and tot i scolding him hor...
ok la.. i still find it quite fun helping ppl and seeing their comp gt protected and most updated.. tats the happiness i find.. but.. kwan yong.. dun sometimes force me to do thgs la.. like eat the dunno wad.. u noe me so long liao.. i dun like tat kind of thg.. and i say no means no.. u.. nv even help me.. and even ask me eat.. make me cant "xia tai".. for if u dunno wads tat.. direct translated is "down stage".. haha..den hav to force myself to eat tat.. cuz i cant stand this kind of thg one.. like vege.. i today stayed in toilet shit like siao for 1 h.. and late for the movies lo.. heng nt much ppl.. haha.. and.. plz la.. sometimes.. dun make comments tat is.."too much".. like the borrowing of the original cd.. and.. others la.. this kinda make me feel i'm being made used of... quite nt gd...like all the software and games i hav.. u also hav.. but wad u hav.. i may nt hav.. haha.. sometimes.. i say somethg.. gt motive one.. but u juz dun listen.. like the installer thg.. i say some no need burn.. den u still dowan listen.. waste disc.. den the gunbound all these.. can dl again mah.. and only the main file and the lastest patch file needed.. no need burn ALL together... wasting space also...
ok la.. today went watch the new police story and sky captain and the world of tml.. new police story.. very sad... but abit excitement at the back.. i was keep thinking in mind..."hit!! hit him la!! u toot!! hit la..".. den.. haha.. saw daniel they all.. also same movie at the same time.. and i feel quite outdated la.. seoul garden isn't tat expensive!! quite cheap leh.. den daniel they all go eat lo.. i hav to folo my fren.. cuz we come out together one mah.. he also treat me movie wif his free movie pass.. haha.. and drink la.. for helping him fix comp i think... den also saw alot frens... and also alot couples.. haha.. small small age den couple liao.. i think few is juz primary only leh!! nvm.. dun gonna tok abt tat.. haha..TM gt alot new shops also..emm...
sat.. still muz go the hong chuan hse.. i also forgot go for wad liao.. say wad 'fix' comp again.. haha.. i think at most is go there play la.. i nv really fixed a comp before.. no money buy the parts and fix it myself.. but i wanted!! the parts juz too exp as i always choose the best one.. haha.. den cannot lo..emmm.. chin yong and jun jie comp also gt prob..chin yong comp.. weird sia.. setup and installation for the modem juz cannot work.. i really cant figure it out y it cannot work.. so.. i suggest him to reformat la.. so.. see wad he wan lo.. jun jie.. gt virus.. nt so easy cure one la.. i think till the end also reformat one la.. haha.. eh.. still gt wad??
heard they going escape on next wed.. cuz postpone.. yay!! i wan go!!! or else very sian.. but i think.. nt much ppl going.. the boys.. daniel they all.. is like... "wad lau.. wad for.. waste money go there".. think so bah.. i nv noe.. scarly they wan go leh? i dunno.. haha.. i juz few tat.. spend abit of money to get some fun is nt bad.. BUT if they going at afternoon.. when the crowd comes.. i dunno la.. sure queue very long and wont play so much.. den will really be quite a waste of money lo.. haha... but dunno la.. stay at home also sian.. might as well go enjoy awhile before all those boring lessons really get started and became serious.. o.O... =.="
ahya.. but if no much boys go.. i might as well dun go.. cuz will sian.. u noe ar.. wif gals..errr... haha.. dun say la.. lol..no comments.. but sometimes its natural for them to be quite ma fen sometimes.. hehe.. jkjk... ohya... alot animation.. or can be called cartoon movies coming out.. i feel tat quite nice.. like the shark's tale.. the polar train (chim one..) and dunno wad la.. polar train.. ppl will feel quite lame.. but i gt a feeling tat it is quite meaning full..."its all abt believe.. and whether u decide to get on or not..." haha.. ohya the sky captain.. animation and humans one.. but the background all is animated.. shiok.. but too dark la.. abit sian at begining.. but so.. nice at the back wif those robots and unit 11.. like the story of wad area 11 or 12 or 13 la.. the secret underground unit.. tat is very high tech for the US.. and i saw the dunno wad thg la.. like the flying aircraft carrier... wow.. its a secret unit in the movie.. haha.. nice man.. if real life hav.. den shiok ah!!! hahaha...
ok la.. very long blog liao.. nth to say liao.. byebye... ohya.. if anyone interested in those up coming movies.. tell me!! cuz i noe kwan yong sure dun like 'cartoons' movie one.. haiz.. or else muz go watch alone liao... nv try before.. haha...cya all!!!
OHYA!! i cannot always say others nv say myself.. i also borrow cd frm others.. buy i ask alot times one.. muz very confirm they willing to lend one... so.. hehe.. i still thx them for lending me the original cd... for example.. recent one.. hsiu ya for her albums.. really thx her.. she lend me alot.. but old one la.. haha.. and most imp one is yuqin.. she lend me original office XP hor!! dun play play.. so scared sia tat time.. now i really wanna thx her sooo much.. or else my comp will be shit of shit.. haha...thx thx!!! thx all for ur support and help.. thx thx.. i will call the support hotline often.. hehe.. jkjk..
pandaboo penned at 10/14/2004 05:33:00 pm
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hey.. if u dun understand or think it is crap.. i'm saying again.. i'm nt some sort of complaining abt u all.. i juz dun like the face expression u all giv.. like i murderer like tat.. dun like den tell me la!! so angry for wad.. and those dun like.. wan beat me up.. come on...
for eric.. if u see ur pic posted.. cant u juz tell me to delete it?? and u DUN even noe it is posted.. this shows tat u dun even care to go see.. den u tot others also care to go see ur slping pic?? its nt porn or wad mah! so siao siao...juz slping on table.. nth else...like wanna kill u like tat...u think others so free go msn grp to see those pic ar.. den others post ur pic in other plc.. u dunno.. den gd la.. u noe den bad lah.. izzit??.. ok fine...
ok again.. i'm nt complaining!!! i juz feel sad to hav this kind of ppl in singapore.. sad case.. k?
pandaboo penned at 10/11/2004 06:52:00 pm
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hey.. i find it real stupid.. i starting to hate this class 3E somehow...i'm juz trying to create more fun wif our frens.. wads the problem?? not tat i'm angry wif all of u tat is angry wif me.. yayaya.. my fault... i'm juz fed-up wif this sch.. regret abt my choice and angry abt myself..
ur pic got taken frm someone's hp... den the person also can spread around tat pic.. den.. i juz post the pic into a msn grp tat i created.. hope to gather all ppl in this grp to see the photos and see the msg ppl post.. juz tat!!! juz a normal thg.. y our class.. or even our sch ppl.. cant stand it?! Juz a stupid pic on the msn grp and all blame me.. ya!!! my fault k??!! like it? i shldn't post the pic ok?? we shld juz remian a nerd class and study!!! ok??! happy?!!!
see my frens having class gathering or outing on every sch holidays period.. we? not even A SINGLE 1... wad r we? LAMERS who juz study all the way... my fren's class in other sch organise their own event their own.. no need any teacher's help.. and they get along well!!! our class?? juz a class outing to somewhere is so troublesome and in the end no one turn up... stupid sia!! nt even in this class.. last time gt the class 2D gathering.. in the end.. nt more than 10 turned up.. suckers!!!
other ppl can even create video for their own class.. website for their own class.. or nt even a class.. even a small grp in courses.. they can do it!!! our sch? who gt? dun think much!!! i noe some sec 4 hav their own forum or website which is damn active!! we? no one even CARE to do it!!! who cares to take a camera or vid cam to take pictures or video?? only some ppl like xy and hy will bring along a camera on events to take and keep it in memory.. den.. posting the pictures on msn grp for all to see.. anythg wrong??!!
ya.. sometimes the pic is real stupid.. so?? juz create some laughter for others!! wont die right!! dun u like to see others happy? i like to see others happy.. others happy.. i also happy.. but if juz cant stand this small thg..den tell me!!! IF u all dun like it!! i stop!!! i dun ever care to post the pic.. msg dun write! no one even care!! shld juz let the stupid msn grp die like the communityzero of my pri sch.. juz put there for it to be cancelled.. and leave no memory abt this sch!! fine?!! IT'S ABSOLUTLY FINE WITH ME!
all so action.. action la! ERIC wan beat me up right?! COME ON! as if i'm scare!!! sucker! go ur stupid ncc and ACTION la! i wont spend my time juz to maintain this stupid grp when no one cares.. juz posting the pic will get all the blame and hatred.. WHY shld i suffer frm this?! juz being kind abit to make some fun in our class seems so difficult.. no wonder no one wans to do it.. i think if i'm in other sch like cchs.. i wont be in this state..
juz see the npcc websites.. those independent sch hav nice websites for their CCA.. we?? no one do it!!! and ok.. i was asked to do it.. and i gonna try my best to make one by this year... wad abt the class.. i dun care! y would there be such ppl? not cooperative at all.. no wonder singaporeans sometimes so suxs in teamwork...the media club.. mr beh made a forum.. but.. i doubt anyone enters in this whole month.. no post at all.. wad for? and mr beh himself say wan to make a website.. he gave up.. instead.. he go make the singaporeidol.net and the ido.com.sg websites becua its profitable!! wah lau.. so sad man!!!
i would say those foriegn pupils are better.. like sheirly they all.. will wan to organise somethg interesting for us... even mrs khoo sometimes also make some fun for us.. even treat us ice cream last time on NDP.. some ppl is juz trying to pull all of us together and make fun...but there is alot ppl like eric who dowan to appreciate it.. poor thg those ppl.. i'm nt saying abt myself.. i WONT care anymore.. and i'm nt trying to praise myself for being kind to make a msn grp.. i'm not WEI DA enough to do it...ok??!.. juz stating the truth....WHATEVER!!!
TOTALLY regret my choice... regret for my PSLE.. nt gonna end up in this state again.. lamers! lost hope in our class.. say wad wan a class t shirt... i dun think we can hav unless ppl really cooperate... some ppl will juz say.. "rubbish sia.. waste money..no use la..".. den wont wan to buy.. so.. WAD FOR?!
ppl like them.. no use la!!! sad la! juz spoilers.. lamers... LMAO!! ppl like them juz dun like sharing... except for songs or wad.. pictures abt their class.. or wad.. they hate it... they juz dun wan to be part of it.. i wonder y.... and y would grp websites exisit if there is all these kind of ppl? den y ppl upload pic to the web for others to dl? i noe u all juz concern abt the latest singers pic.. nt ur own pic or wad.. FINE DEN!!!
even if u dun like ur pic on the msn grp.. juz tell any manager or me to delete it or dun post it anymore.. wad for say.."oh damn u! u gonna get it..".. den giv me tat kind of face.. idiot sia.. dun like it? delete the whole grp la! den i wont everyday go into the grp and see.. no need to online juz to check on the grp...
STUPID SIA!!!!!
some ppl juz dun get to see those photos.. so.. juz posting on the net.. they join the grp and can view it!! wont it be better?? rather than trying to ask everyone in the class juz to get to see a stupid pic? posting in msn grp is like..."yi mu liao ran"... can see all liao! i pity them.. and see the msn grp.. who is the one posting the pic?? i think only xy..hy..nat contribute... eric contribute! by posting crap msg.. but... anyone who dun like it.. gt beat him up? threaten him to dun say? even if he's wrong.. so?? its all juz for fun.. msgboard is juz for us to express our feelings.. but den no one even care abt their own feelings.. some ppl create blog.. and more and more ppl creating blog trying to express their feelings.. but who will one by one go so many blog? tats gd juz in the msn grp and post wad u dislike or like in this sch!!! discussions!..
FORGET IT if u think wad i said is crap!! CRAP?? GET LOST DEN!!! as wad mervyn say.."FINE! dun like den get lost!!!"..
pandaboo penned at 10/11/2004 11:11:00 am
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haiz.. sad.. i really dunno myself... i think i offended quite alot of ppl.. without myself knowing.. until i think of it again... found tat ppl starting to hate me liao.. i really really no fren.. juz wanna find a fren to go watch movie or go out.. is so difficult.. haiz.. wad happen to me??!!!
i said i wan to change.. during dec holidays.. but.. do i hav enough time?? now den i noe our lessons will only end in the 2nd week of nov.. plus.. i hav 2 competitions in nov.. do i hav the time??? den i tot of starting to change now.. but den.. i juz cant control myself.. i slp alot.. really alot.. i feel so tired even i juz wake... and mayb this is an illness? tonight will hav a chinese show on the "man xing pi lau zhong he zhen".. means somethg like slow type tiredness symptom...
i hav alot hw.. haven do.. juz lazy to do.. the bio ws.. i juz take out.. wanting to do.. refer to the textbook... den feel sian liao.. so much words.. juz feel like having a search engine then search for the word "bile" in the whole book... so difficult to find...and.. look at the ws mrs tay giv.. she said she set one.. wah lau! i really dun understand.. especially the table one... so blur.. dunno wad she asking for.. haiz.. if exams like tat.. sure fail liao...
got this 'phrase' tat is perception = projection... yesterday when i going out.. at mrt station.. while waiting,... i juz suddenly come out a chinese phrase.. i noe its a nice phrase and planning to put in msn.. but when i come back.. i forgot it all!!! i juz cant remember... this taught me tat... gd thgs dun wait for me.. they go by fast... treasure it... watched some documentary yesterday on "get real"... really.. life is so precious.. ppl getting cancer is really so.... i dunno how to describe.. so kelian... treasure our lifes.. i really pity them...but.. i pity them.. i wont wan to take over them.. tats a 'selfish' thinking in humans.. i think so.. i myself.. mayb getting alot illness also.. ppl first see me.. will tot i sick or wad.. i so fair... den so weak.. really very weak.. cant even do 1 pull up.. sad thg... i dun eat vegetable one..really.. den.. i eat alot meat.. wif fats.. eat quite alot fast food.. but den.. i found it weird tat i dun get fat.. so where the fats go to? and i'm so skinny... wif a black panda eyes... juz dunno y.. even doctors dunno y.... i hav a "biting teeth" habit when i slp at night.. this causes now my one side of jaw to loosen... and doctor say it is cause of stress and pressure tat caused me to hav this habit.. i noe computers really giv out alot radiation.. but i still use comp so long.. as long at 12hours.. or more.. non stop.. haiz.. so.. am i healthy?? NO!
i'm going for 'bracing of teeth' or wadsoever u all call la.. after exams lo.. will cost alot money!!!.. i hav alot of bad habits.. really alot.. i starting to hate myself sometimes.. really.. but.. i juz hav to face it for the future.. i dun noe when i will die.. and.. choy!!! but den.. sometimes.. its juz fate.. i am so unhealthy.. mayb my body couldnt take it after sometimes.. u nv noe..
ok... back to yesterday.. went to airport.. show my mother the way.. so tat she can go fetch my papa on tue.. erm.. mayb wed?.. its at mid night... so she dun let me go.. so i tell her the way lo.. and tot of going airport to study during dec holiday.. its so quiet there... quite a nice plc.. but.. me and me only? den i muz think of it again.. at home study.. i will juz slp.. dunno y... so who will be willing to go wif me?? dun hav much frens...
exams starting this week liao.. and i still borrowing cds frm hsiu ya.. now gt alot songs liao.. some mayb listen once only.. dunno la... den.. won $20 creative voucher once again... my $50 voucher last time.. i recieved liao.. but dunno wad to do wif it... i wanna buy the creative muvo square 5GB.. but... it will den be $400 liao.. i dunno if i wanna buy anot leh.. if nv buy.. is like abit wasted... but if buy.. it will be a waste of money.. and if i nv use.. really wasted... den now already so poor liao.. still spend so much money.. how sia...think of finding some part-time work to do.. but den.. my parents dun let one la.. later if secretly go do.. they noe.. later "qi si ta men".. den really trouble liao....
life.. is really full of ups and downs.. juz like the rain now.. morning is so bright and sunny.. but den now is having heavy rain.. up and down.. starting rain heavily.. den it cool down.. small rain.. den suddenly lightning and den heavy rain again.... itz so unstable...y!! y i still got 7 years of studies??!! itz still sooo damn long!!! and y my father reaching 60 years old liao!!!! i really hav a heavy respoinsiblily in alot thgs..
npcc... they say i will be the head in charge of campcraft.. media productions.. vice chairman and every event muz do.. cuz the sec 1s...wont do one la.... no use la.. so.. if i quit.. ppl will hate me.. will say i irresponsible.. i really dunno!! the family.. i also play a big role now... i am the only one seems to be educated... and i can said to be only child.. but still hav a sis in aust studying now..
sometimes.. i really console myself.. wif siao siao reasons and excuse...sometiems is like "ahya.. exams still far.. dun care la..".. "dun hav the lesson tml.. dun do the hw la..".. or else is.. "ahya.. so tired liao.. play first den say la..".. all these.. and sometimes i say to myself.. "see.. i nv study also get almost the same results as some who study like siao.. see i so great...".. haiz.. i really siao.. oh!!! now i remember tat chinese phrase liao!! "you fu chu, cai you shou huo".. and now the rain stops.... PSLE.. i really play all my way.. and get 219 points.. nt a bad one.. sometimes.. i nv study.. i still pass.. and i feel tat.. i tend to remember wad teachers says during lessons.. rather than wad they write.. or wad i done for hw and wad i read frm textbook... dunno y.. but den.. lessons for mrs tay one.. use OHP all the time one.. tok alot crap one.. i cant remember.. except for.. "drop bio la!!".. haiz..
haiz.. wad shld i do now?? decisions is really very common for me... really very.. shld i juz leave everythg and juz study?? shld i juz dun care abt everythg?? shld i study even though i very tired?? shld i go to work?? shld i eat vegetables?? shld i buy the mp3 players?? shld i quit my cca?? shld i? shld i be more "ai mei"?? shld i concern abt my looks more?? shld i be more friendly towards ppl? or shld i juz become someone who dun tok?? shld i contribute more to my family?? SHOULD I???? I DUNNO!!!! wad happen when i'm in university now.. will my parents be able to pay for the sch fees? wif my looks.. would i find someone i like at tat time?? or shld i study.. start a business.. and dun marry?? mayb all these.. i no need to consider.. if anythg happen to me...before the time comes.. i dunno!!!!!
i dunno who i wanna be.. i wanna be someone.. but.. who is the "someone"??? i really dunno.. really quite confused..."se me yang de wo ta ru se mo yang de shi jie...".. haiz.. so which world shld i go to?? wad character i wanna be? feel like now i can choose who i wanna be.. but i dunno!!! i wanna start a business.. but becuz of little interest in IT.. i gt in media productions.. which take pics.. videos.. does it really related to the interest i wan?? i feel quite off track.. i really get involved in too much thgs.. i really dunno!!!
i really dunno who i wanna be.. could u help me plz..??
pandaboo penned at 10/03/2004 03:54:00 pm
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